no more counting down of days of his leaving. yes, he left. i'm definitely sad. no more clubbings. no more jokes. miss those clubbing days. everyone is leaving; the d4e the peeps.

i just wanna leave sg. there's really to many things here that i really made my life turned into pile of shits. i need a new life.

if my dad is going to work together with him, i may fly to canada after my degree. it's a MAYBE thingy. my dad is considering now. IT'S MAYBE! not comfirm.

1 more day and that's it. he's flying over. i'm not going to make myself regret this time, i'm going to send you off even if i still got a whole lot of essay to memorize. I'LL STILL GO. these few days really made us closer a little thou we are always close. but i got to know more about you somehow. i'll miss the days we had. just hope that you lossen up you mind and heart and concentrate on your studies that is really much more important than any other things.

had my treat today by uncle tony. wonderful to get everyone settling down and chat. really brings everyone much closer. that's the thing.

a few more days, i'll get to see you. i don't know if i'm excited, i just hope to see you somehow. i know i'll be unhappy after seeing you, that's a comfirm thingy as it happened almost everytime i see you. i don't how should i react. i don't know.... i just don't know. but i wanna see you alot. wish me the best.

i got no more time to update. whether if i get to see you, whether if i cry when you leave, whether i can finish up memorizing, i'll update some other day.



i hope you put some attention on me.

i'll blog later. but in the meantime, i would like to share a photo. TAKE A LOOK! especially, the one in the middle. location: outside momo.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!







go party people! love all of you! i mean all okay! EVERYONE!

yesterday was DXO. very tiny place i should say. i think is kinda stupid. i don't like their system. but i had loads of fun. dance and dance all the way. together with the lead male KJ, HER, AH KOR, DYAN, JEFF, JAYSON, KELVIN, RONG, SUGI and another two guys. dyan and jayson can really shake well. we drink and drink. get high. took of our footwear. jeff and kj danced shuffle. wonderful i should said. many guys were like trying out shuffle when they saw kj. but sadly, they don't have the talent.

basically, for the whole night. i was dancing with her. danced with jeff but he kept pushing me till i almost fall off the stair. kj stepped on my foot so hard that i fall straight on the floor. pain okay. one thing about dxo, they kept repeating the music played.




i cried when i reach home. actually, i wanted to cry in the cabby when i talked to kelvin. but i think i'll make the whole situation worst.

i know kj was feeling down last night. i want him to be sad. i hate to see him putting the nothing-had-happen front in front of me. i hate it. though i only know part of the whole event, i understand how you feel. certain things i wanna say out, but i'm afraid i might just hurt you cos it's might be something that you are escaping from. i'm searching for time to send you off. i don't wanna regret another time. i wish you all the best there. you are a nice guy. i'm sure it will be a forever thingy.

for jen. i know she suffering too. deep in her. i hate to see everyone pretending nothing happened. i make me more sad. both of them are my love, i can bare to see them getting hurt. cos i feel the hurt too. i just hope the decision you make will be the one that benefit you the most.

for kelvin. i understand everything.

i can feel in pain in you you and you. can you feel mine too?

night at museum was great. watched with my sis and mum along with my aunt and the daughter. i was so excited when my mum told me that we will be watching a movie after my class. i hardly watch a movie with my family. the last movie we watch was MONEY NO ENOUGH. that will be like dinosaur's years ago. shan't comment much about the movie. go catch it youselves. you will be pleased. anyway, i watched in GV max. but i hate the seat style. i had diffculties sitting properly. so, i hate the chair!




LAW LAW LAW. i love studying business law. i got to learn so much. Singapore is a strict country therefore, we got a zillions of law. there's really lot.


one example. many people are putting songs in there webby like blogspot, the most common ones. but how many of you ever register to put the songs legally in you webby? it's illegal to just copy the code of the songs and put it in your space. it's like downlaoding of songs. you are ripping. those music played in shopping centres, in fact, it is not allow. they must register with the government to make it legal. one can be caught if the play DJ with his songs in his computer allowing people from opposite his block of those living under and above him can hear all the song. this is illegal too. the songs you have belong to yourselves. no sharing. f you wanna put songs in your webby, please go register. cos next year, the law will be tough. they will be tracking with a new device. friendly advise to people. stop downloading songs. buy the cds.

MY DAD! =D

MY FACE IS SWOLLEN! tell me. just tell me how am i going to face people? a patch is 'chao ta.' sigh!

anyway, i have been staying here and there recently. going here and there recently. wasting money on this and that. staying over was what i also wanted. however, now, my home is the best. i miss my lappy when i staying out. i miss my bed and EVERYTHING.

my dad is cute and i love him alot! gees.

i think i'm gonna get a degree in FALLING DOWN. i always love to share. so, i'll share some pictures when i'm free. evidences of me falling down and how clumsy i can get! i'm angry! angry with myself for falling.

well, i had a lovely weekends. tried out new stuffs and getting my childhood memories back. i stayed at ah girl jie jie's place. intially, we thought of going gym in late evening. after much consideration, we when K session with desmond. slept between the two sisters. i'm the meat and they are the bread. the feeling is similar to those childhood days expect that the topics are different. desmond was like making fun of the way we talked. cos it's like the way a lil girl speak. perhaps it's becos we have been this way since long.

finally offical for clubbing and turf club. got introduced to many at the turf club. people for different races and country. the purpose of them introducing me so many it's becos they want people to gossip about me. LIMELIGHT you see. it's a place where people are flooded first gossips. they have nothing better to do there other than betting. i won 16 bucks! =) gotta have loads of close up of the horses. actually, for turf club, you can define it as totally low-end or fucking high-end. it depends. low-end has an entrance fee of 3 or 7 bucks. however high-end is for VIPs like ME! hahas. i saw the race live. when the horses are that the finishing line, that's the exciting part of the whole race. these this very memoriable one. the horse was MANUKA and the jockey was C. Goon. they were somewhere back and for the last few metres, they spreed like wind. i was there! right in front of me. i was damn impressed. my new idol is C. Goon. but he's married. the last race is our horse. i get to go have a touch of JIAN FENG. what a wonderful creature. Sharp Spur, our horse, was leading all the way which we hate it. cos sharp Spur prefer to have competitors in front of him. sadly, he came in second. but he's a great horse. if he's first, i'll be flooded by money now. i great experience though.

toey is stupid.

TELL ME! WHICH TEENAGE MORAN WILL HAVE A HANDPHONE BILL OF 600 BUCKS! TELL ME!

and so, we dance and dance and dance. we drink and drink and drink. tring legs. sleepy looks. rejecting people. being portect by AARON. talking, crapping. taking photos. we went high. we sweat. we laugh. we had to shout. we lost our voice. i perfer RnB but trans isn't bad too. cos for trans, the room is bigger and we had more space to dance. i tot i saw JORDAN dancing with another LADY. it's lady okay. yucks! this look-alike-jordan guy really like jordan. the way he walks, dancing, dressing, everything just look so alike, even this face, ear hole and hairstyle. but sigh! it's was not him. if not, i can dance with him. LOLS!!!

anyway, i have loads of fun with SM, JAS, LILING, ADE, JOLIN and AARON

i'm wondering if i should blog something about the "SHOW" i had today or should i just type some shit in here. if i type shit i here, i will have no shit to type. if i make comments about the great "SHOW", i'll be label evil, bastard. BUT I CAN'T FUCKING STOP MYSELF FROM MAKING COMMENTS! so what i'm label as the above. i just love making comments. LET'S START NOW? come on peeps.

SO, the whole class was so slient become these 2 particular person came in. they where somehow sitting in this particular seat and they were affecting me very much. friendly warnings were given to given to them. despite those warning, they still carrying on with their toddler topics. very least interesting and affecting me with their thunderous voice. so, sacastic warning was given and preschooler's replies were given. talking without thinking. obtuse somehow. replies like "you do your thing, i do my things, where got disturb you?" please please please. come on lar, if you are talking so fucking loud with your toddler topics, how can the lecturer continue his lesson." if you can do it, CLAPS! and another reply was "i wanna sue you!" "for wad?" "for nothing." clever indeed. creating a scene, making yourselves in everyone eyes. i really think my lecturer is so great! he's a lawyer you see. so, evidences are need as stated in the law. so, this particular person said something and my lecturer asked she to repeat and she did repeated which was today stupid. cos the lecturer had recorded the whole conversation. they were so pissed off with the lecturer cos the lecturer ask them to shut their bloody mouth. and then, they left the room and while one of them was walking pass the lecture a "FUCK YOU!" came out. it's just so cool got the "FUCK YOU" could be recorded so clearly. dim-wit!

the funny thing was when they left the classroom, from the back of me i could her "chee-bye kia, get lost lar, knn, LL, XL and stuffs" everyone was like YEAH YEAH YEAH!

advise were given for you to change, you ignore. we thought our ignorance could lightened you but your toddler brain just can think further and wider. blame your mouth. blame your character. if your results are good, you don't have to show off. we will know. stop being a cannon.

AAAHH HAHAHAHA! i'm happy but i'm not that happy.

certain issues still whirling in my mind. i like yi ting's courage. she has the courage that i always wanted. ting: can lend me some of ur courage or rather give me some? LOL. i'm jealous, i envy her. i really do. though at times, outcome may turned into shit but think back, we did it. at least we did it. we won't have to continue playing mind games, with answers that will never be told. there no longer be worriess, or irritating feeling inside us. the argh to know how will things go on the next day. at least both knew the whole situation. you just feel that a huge burden put down. so relax. it's a good thing. however, scarification is need. loads of preparations. preparations of the cool replies. the left behind.

SO, i hereby wish TING all the best. and of cos, to myself.

i'm wondering if the information given a reliable one? totally spoilt my mood somehow. but i'll get a recomfirmation of the answer later. but if it happened that it is not the answer that i'm yearning for..... then, CAN YOU ASK YOUR GIRLFRIEND TO GO AND DIE? i'll be most grateful. THANKS. =)

i sprain my ankle and now, i'm thinking how am i gonna walk tml. COOL.

i just don't understand what fucking shit she sees in him. he's just a pile of fucking shit la.

woah! it's came true. so sweet. what bliss! it just happened that i went to the place on this particular day and i got to see this particular person. i was so shocked that it appeared almost the same as in dream. however, absolutely ecstatic. you know, the moment when you just lost control of your behavior, your thoughts and everything and you start going wild! i just love this feeling. it been long since i really jumped with joy. you know, you just jump so high for that beautiful moment.

for my life there 2 person and 1 thing who made me jumped so high. well, the thing was getting my fucking long awaiting results. my dad lied to me that i did bloody badly. PBM2-C, ECON-D. bitch, i got a fucking shock of my whole life. facial expression changed straight. anyway, i got an A and B as expected. yea, this was the thing that made me jumped to high at NIFER'S place. feel the joy in me?



i'm very impress with this china classmate of mine. she looks fucking funny. she's a clown in the class's eye. you see, i labelled her RU HUA. i know it's bad, but i think she suit this nickname best. she buys online clothings and they are totally limted. can't even find her clothings from pasa malam. many tried searching for her clothes. many tried getting into her style but they are upset to say, they just can afford her clothings, shoes and her bag. her favourite colour is pink, hot pink, purple, blue and yellow. woah! 5 colours. just right to fill the 5 school days. i'm just amused that she can actually mix and match with these 5 outfit of hers. i can't. claps! she just have this very fashionable style. or rather unique. alright. i'm not impress with her shit. she impress me with her english accent. i'm wondering does she participate in phone chatting. as in those in the magazines, you call this particular number and so sweet voice come along. if she really does, WOAH to her. her voice is WOAH but bare this is mind, it's her voice, not her. i think something happened to her. maybe someone snap her laughing spot that cause her to interupt our lesssons by laughing at every sentence the lecture said? at times, i just feel like throwing my FAT textbook right at her and ask her to shut her mouth fuckingly. oh ya! she got this very stylish spec that she had bought recently. SPEC? did i said SPEC? i think it's more to magnifying glasses. yup! she wear two magnifying glasses that she hooked on her ears with this AH MA string around her neck. cute right?

since she's just so F-ing famous, i tried being famous in nifer's place. i took nifer's hairband and tied like her. wooow! lynn laughed till she fall straight on the floor. just so f-ing fun imitating CLOWNS.

i just got free waxing. u know, when you fracture your arms, legs, neck and so on, you would prefer to go see a chinese doctor. becos these doctors just have to crack here and there, put some needles here and there, you will be back to normal in no time. mostly, the sin seh will give you this huge SHIT colour plaster and you just have to leave it on your body for the numbers of days that the sin seh had stated. the plaster just has this special function of waxing. SO, i pasted this huge piece of shit on my back and "WOAH!" THERE GOES ALL MY BACK HAIRS! cool man! it's so itchy now!

i din know that my back can actually affect my leg.



kinda weird though. thought my leg has recovered like tons of years ago but it just happened that my leg was killing me last night. no choice but to drag myself to the ah girl jie jie's chinese medical clinic. gees. i was surprised to see norman there too! pathetic knee of his. look so fat with the bandage. count me lucky to see him there. i got a free ride back. i hate the cabby driver. brake and move move and brake. for god sake, i was half dead! nice.

OUT WITH ADE!

sometimes, dreams can be so real, so true. you just hope to be in the dreamland forever if only the dream was a pleasant one. however, at time, some may be forgotten when you are awake while some, the scenes are still playing in your head so vividly.

the dream i had, i thought it was real for sure. i woke up with a smile followed with disappointment. it's so true that i could feel every touch. last month, i had a dream similar, as in a sweet one, not the content. it just similar to what i wanna have in reality. i should be glad to be given such dreams. so what if it doesn't happen in reality. at least they are real when i'm asleep. i know it's absurd but i love it.

yeah, folks always says that dreams are the reverse of reality. but some dreams are given as a clue to reality. i know my dreams are just dreams to make my sleep a better one. i know it will never appear in reality.



if we stop hiding, we will be.

am i affected? if i'm not, why am i thinking?

my sweet temptation

we both know yet why are we still hiding? i know it's tough and we will rather forget about this whole shit. but can we really forget? because someone clashes in between, the whole thing turned out shit. what should i label that someone? saving me or getting me into fucks? what the use of explaining when things are done? it's just a little steps more and there it will be, my sweet temptation. am i happy? am i sad? am i affected? am i confused? YES YES YES! do i have a choice? NO!

back to confusion.

Tenacious D is hilarious though. but wasn't to the extend where you kept laughing uncontrollably. loads of ridiculous or rather stupid scene i should say. i do enjoy through the whole movie cos the seat was couple seat and i can leave my leg and sit in any poistion i like. i told BUD to sit on the other couple seat so that we both will have a HUGE seat! it's just so cool for someone to serve you food in the cinema.





this is buddy watch! =)


















time for some motivation peeps. slimming centre? NONO. it's motivation. check it out peeps! bao long will be your motivator for life!















see the differences in one year?

i know i can't escape from surgery this time. well-prepared i should say.

i'm sick so darn sick yet so darn hyper-active today. people around me were like saying "are you sure you are sick" and stuffs along. even my family doctor was asking me the same question. he believed only when he touched my neck. just some unknown reasons for me to be so high today. maybe it's becos the clinic has DOC. HWANG today? you see, i'm his hard core fan. =)

i'm sick alright! real sick!

cool guys are attractive. cute guys are attractive. handsome guys are attractive. beach boys are attractive. secretive guys are attractive. humorous guys are attractive. calm guys are attractive. sweet guys are attractive. smart guys are attractive. generous guys are attractive. gentleman are attractive. caring guys are attractive. macho guys are attractive.

i like cool guys.

if only both were combined.

JAMIE'S-PEPPER LUNCH!





















TA-DAH!



















see, she's happy okay!




















this is making a wish!






































*opps!

I'M SO DAMN BROKE! pathetic sum of money to be spent. so sad.


it was norman's birthday yesterday. no clubbing. we had k session at shenton way AGAIN! so sad la. no one came to fetch me. told norman to come fetch me. but don't know he not free to dig ear or what. he listened to "i take cab go." how nice man! okays, taking cab alone at night is so damn scary. i can't even see that malay driver face. i'm so afraid he might kidnap me which is a whole crap of nonsense. but i'm still so F-ing scared.

*big wide smile* SO, we sang and sang till very early morning. that means go home. go home means getting a transport. getting a transport means i need a transport to get home, which means NORMAN SENT ME HOME. norman sending me home which means I GET TO RIDE ON HIS BIKE! gees man! it's like month since his bike last saw me. the weather was damn cold and i'm shivering throughout the journey. trembling legs all the way home. nevertheless, the feeling is still so fun. so less vehicles, so peace. just so cool.




















the birthday pig!



















preparing....



















23 small candle to be blown.





















he called this pathetic action as "making a wish!"

























today is JAMIE'S. the whole gang gave her surprise! celebrated at pepper lunch. and she is just so happy. check out her face in the photos. basically, the photos tell it all. oh yeah! we went to take neoprint. so cute. LMAO.


i love BUSINESS LAW. sucha great subject! everything is just so cool about BL. PMPM is just shit.
DO YOU KNOW.......
doing nothing in singspore is considered as a crime?
guys having long hairs are breaking the law?

blah blah blah. is it just so cool about LAW?

I'M SO DEAD NOW! i'll be having project after school tomorrow. planned everything and i realised that norman's birthday is tomorrow and not friday! i kept thinking that it's friday. damn! i even told him to meet me tomorrow. LOL! asked him to wait for me outside my school which is totally nonsense. so sad! how now man! project is important but norman's birthday is kinda important too. cos i asked him to go out and i can't make it. how man? what should i do now? argh! i can't lie to someone who is going to have his birthday tomorrow. i can't leave my project alone. i won't have time already! how how how? argh! this is shit!

argh! i'm so so damn sad now! f-ing shit man!

from 3% to 5% and soon, it will be 7%. how nice? they said it benefits the poor. but which part of it benefit the poor? increasing the GST mean price of everything will increase. where the hell will the poor get the money? why salaries never increase by 7% too? i know, other countries GST is like more than 10% but they are sucha huge country. can't be compare to us. way way different. kinda unfair though. so sad la. can't always got restaurants to please myself. lesser k session! sigh! my psycho niffer go ktv already. actually, increasing GST is almost what most singaporeans will expect. it's became a trend. every 5 years once. kinda metally prepared but just so annoyed. it's like where to get the money. lesser things to purchase and to pamper ourselves. JUST SO SAD la.


saw KELVIN today! so excited la. the last time i saw him was like around last year's christmas. i'm happy to see him but kinda sad too. after a year, his eye have not recover a single bit. he told me that if the condition worsen, BLINDNESS. sigh. stupid TTSH! don't even inform people about their appointment and stuffs. fuck! i really hope he will recover somehow.

i got a job and now, i found another one. so, 2 jobs. 1 is confirm, another pending. should i or should not get the second one? the second one will be at choc. how man! should i? what if i got no time? what if the time clash? sigh! i only wanna work friday, sat and sun. what if clash with my first work? argh! when i wanna find a job, none came. when i found one, ALL COME!

firstly, marketing is shit.
secondly, my lecturer is a freak.
thridly, he looks funny.
forthly, he tells real cold jokes.
fifthly, he's not interesting at all..
sixly, he's very good in shooting people.
seventhly, i think he's a psychotic.
eightly, my textbook is HUGE!
ninthly, he talks and behave like a girl.
tenthly, i just so fucking dislike him! =)

bascially, he tells nonsense. he's fat and round. funny looking hairstyle. another clown on earth. whatever it is, he just look like a freak. can imagine right?

I GOT MY PHONE BACK! was so excited when i got my phone back. but some things were GONE and d still come irritate me. kns. i had THE WORLD HARDEST STEAK ON EARTH for lunch today. so sad.

can't wait to work and get my pay. i just can't believe that the 18 year-old JUON will be the one in-charge of the WHOLE event and giving the 18 year-old us some kind of get-to-know-product session. damn man! he just damn 18 and he's incharge of everything! i'm jealous of cos! but i think i'll be having benefits. *big wide SMILE*



SPESHOW! anybody out there who is generous to get me.... LUO ZHI XIANG'S LASTEST ALBUM-SPESHOW? i'll definetly marry you. damn.


i so hate attention-seekers! *slaps*

went to apply for the basic theory yesterday. gonna have the exam on 27 dec. the whole gang took the same date. hmm. whole gang refers to those age 18 and above. which means it only include d, nifer, yp and me. nifer told me that the lady said it's an open book test. she also said we can do in at home; online. i don't know if it's true or false.

went k session with ah girl jie jie again. i'm fine this time, din manage to loose my voice. night came, went to meet desmond. suggested to go k again. what the hell. after much suggestions, we headed to the cathay to watch STEP UP. alright peep, you just fucking have to go catch this damn movie. it's fab, fantastic and damn cool. so, just go watch okay. fell straight on the bed after i reached home. a tough day out you see. desmond said i look better when i'm tan. hehes. love it man! he always praise me. so good. LOLs.

i'm still considering if i should go next friday not. i'm afraid that my mum won't allow. cos it will be twice a week next week. but i'm not sure if i can go N's birthday, i'll be having school the next day. either i skip it or i don't go N's birthday. i'm more interested in MOS leh. cos i think N will be celebrating his birthday on thursday and friday MOS again? how to go sia. this terrible!

get this for me!

SENTOSA! the whole gang went today-D, KG, J, NIFER, YP and ME! the official 6 of us. =) got myself tanned and in the meantime, i'm burnt. LMAO. so happy and satisfied when i see my tan though it isn't very tan, but i still love it. an improvement. i love J's tan, she got herself REAL tanned. so motivated sia. everyone was like playing but she was the only one who sat straight one the sun just so tan. i'm so EVNY! thought that the sun isn't friendly today. morning, it was so good but when we reach sentosa, it's gone! it came out again and off and finally, it started to drizzle a lil. kinda sad but the sun was out AGAIN. so, that's how i got myself so BLACK today.

wasn't much photo taken. cos almost everyone was busy playing and tanning. oh! not forgetting, doing foot therapy. i love the scenery in siloso beach though there's tons of renovation going on. but who cares! i enjoyed do much even though the toilet was like KM away from our territory. BUT no more siloso for us. only palawan. no sand war between us today. just a simple day to relax and enjoy the scenery after EXAMS. i do have loads of fun. especially with this whole gang! evey moment, i'm enjoying!

i kinda pissed off in the toilet. chi nas really doesn't have any damn brains. you know, there's a dressing session in th toilet. whereby, people can comb there hair and stuffs with the big mirror. get it? this 3 chi nas came and took the middle. therefore, seperating j and me. sweet. when i walked away to wash my clothings, they took my place when i left everything there. GREAT! so, i went back and stood there. their facial stuffs was mixed with my bags and clothes causing me to have a lil of hard time packing my bag. half way packing, they take is and that. for fuck! argh! moral: they have no fucking brains.

OH YEAH! we spent 40bucks on only SUSHI from marketplace. SALMON SALMON and SALMON! and i'll be going to appy for driving..... tomorrow.


alright. now, i'll let the photos do the talking. =)

YEAH YEAH! gonna have my SENTOSA: CHAPTER THREE tml. just can't wait to get myself tan. cos my tan lines are fading away. so sad. pray damn hard that it won't rain. no matter if i'm sick or whatever shit, I'M SO GONNA GO SENTOSA WITH YOU ALL. i wanna talk pictures too. nifer and J got their N73. cool. gonna have tons of photos for tml. think mostly straight snap shot cos nifer is the photographer tml. damn cool la. i just can't wait to go! i wanna take pictures with EVERYONE!

kinda disappointed that i didn't get to catch MATERIAL GIRLS after exam. mind you, material girls does not means that the movie is related to the girls making materials like wool, cloth, wood and what have you okay.

econs! i will pass for sure. no matter what happens. but i just can't get a better grade this time. my instinct tells me. cos my test wasn't that GREAT. but hopefully, i get a B. well, it's a little CHICKEN TOES though. but for certain parts, i had STM. so, pray la.

honestly, vivo just sucked so much. there fucking nothing there!

bye peeps! i just CAN'T wait to go SENTOSA! GOSH! i have not pack my bag. hmmm. the white one or the nike one for tml? mostly nike i think. cos i'm afraid i might dirty my white bag somehow, cos you know, there's certain memories. LOLs.


为什么你还是不言不语?

are we friends from the start or are we more than that?


yea yea. PBM is chicken toes again. got 3 hours for the whole damn exam but i only took around an hour to do? slack in the air-con room till nifer came to give me signal. LOLs. yea. KG did gave me some signal but so sorry la. i wanna relax more in the air-con room. it's CHICKEN TOES man! rushed throughout the whole paper to prevent me from having STM mid way. anyway, IT'S REALLY CHICKEN TOES MAN! can't believe it. hopefully i get an DISTINCTION this time. =) if i don't, i'll go hang myself. going to school early really does helps. cool. though i only slept like less than 4 hours? but never mind. hard work pays everything. oh ya! hard work refers to going to school early for revision not the sleep less than 4 hours. the sleeping part it's just i can't myself to sleep on my damn bed. just don't understand why so many people treats their bed as FARRARI. pointless. LOLs. maybe it becos i prefer fun to sleeping? for fun, i'll do anything! hehes. one more day to econs and movies and sentosa here i come! 2 chapters to memorize for econs and i'm done!

when tm, saw da jie! so glad to see that she so damn find now. oh yeah! i shared a lil secret of mine to her and she said "WOAH!" hahas. but she's happy for me too.

OH! can someone tells me what the length for one feet. it's not baby's foo. neither is it adult's nor monster's foot. not those what shoes sizes and stuffs. i mean 1 FEET. understand?

end here, PRINCIPLE OF BUSINESS MANAGEMENT IS TOTALLY CHICKEN TOES TODAY!

i want candies.
i want chocolate.
i want gummy bears.
i want wonka's bar.
i want muffins.
i want masmalows.
i want sweets.
i want movies.
i want steps up.
i want material girls.
i want luo zhi xiang's lastest album.
i want shopping.
i want tcc-ing.
i want watches.
i want clothings.
i want schooling.
i want jellies.
i want harry potter.
i want photo taking session.
i want k session.
i want clubbing.
i want sentosa trips.
i want meetups.
i want sushi.
i want ben & jerry.
i want shoes.
i want gym.
i want romantic christmas.
OH NO! I HAVE NOT GET THE LAST CLEO MAGAZINE!


anyone wanna sponsor me?

oh well, come on. of cos you don't long for me anymore, you long for someone else. don't lie and don't be contradicting.

if you look carefully, all those stuffs that you were pissed of with was like, 1,2,3 months ago and you are making a HUGE fuss about it after so long? so what if i posted the things you have said? you were the one who scare the living shit out of me. the only way to vomit everything was just this unknown blog to everyone. i choose not to tell anyone. i choose to swallow the insults, the accuses, the untrue facts and the amount of nonsense you have gave me. i had no choice but to label you a mad man at that moment. cos i really felt so. ask yourself, why didn't i went to the roof top garden to meet you that night.

and now, you choose to say that our relationship was a waste of your time? how nice can you get? after so many things, it's a waste of time? why not stop getting into any relationships? in case your next gf broke of with you and it will be a waste of time too. you know what, you fall in love even easier, so, don't accuse me. you took less than 4 months to fall for me after lydia and now, you took less than 2 months to fall for another girl. fast isn't it?

of cos you don't hate me. cos i did no wrong. you were the one. you did wrong by sending me those msges. those insulting msges. yi ting told me that her r/s was shit and she got herself into depression. but when she saw me, she told me "i think my r/s is better than yours." i'm lucky that i din hung myself. okay. i know hanging in exaggerating.

get a life please! we have already broken up and you still wanna quarrel with me? as i have said, i wanted a beautiful break up yet, you made it ended up in the manner. i told you i want us to be the way i have with aliff. i tried explaining to you that there's nothing between norman and me, still you choose to not believe. where's the trusts that you said you had?

i, too, wanna know how you have been. i wanna contact you but you've changed your number. seeing you moving on so happily with your life, i know i shouldn't interupt. i've been thinking, how's you o levels, can you handle them? can you cope with math? and blah blah blah.

whether friends or not, it's up to you to make the decision.

anyway, those that i had blogged were updates about me, to KUAN LI. no choice, she's too far away from me. hence, this is the only way. anyway, i don't think anyone will be like you to read my history right? i think so la.




gees, i'm gonna be a typewriter.

i feel so lonely. i need to go somewhere. i can't stay at home cos i can't nonsense with anyone. argh! haven been a typewriter for few days and i'm so SO not used to it. i LOVE the noisy me. =) i wanna be noisy!

can't wait for the next SENTOSA trip after exams. my entire mind is all occupied with the sence and the activites i had at sentosa with the whole gang! i wanna get myself tanned. cos i'm just half-tanned. argh! it's so U-G-L-Y! i wanna be a lil lighter than KG. LOLs.

what should i do online?

there's alot to memorize. where should i start? the whole fucking day, i only memorized just 2 questions. damn. i just can get my ass stuck and memorize. i just kept thinking and thinking. I CAN'T FUCKING STOP MYSELF FROM THINKING! you know what, my new hobby will be thinking. argh! i got no time! 5 more questions to memorize in 5 days? can i do it? i need to revise. can i can i? i hate it when i get so stressed up. for fuck.

should i say i'm happy or should i say i'm kinda sad? or maybe not sad. it's LOST?

left a note to prepare and my notes will be all done. and i can do all the memorizing stuffs. i should say exam will be a lil relax. cos PBM is almost alike the previous PBM. i mean the questions. apart from the relaxing stuffs, i still gotta put in efforts. i wanna get BB or if i'm real lucky, both As please. i must be motivated. today, enough of writing notes and going through those questions that i have learnt. tml, i'll get down to serious work.

pucked up all my courage to get back my 10bucks from that someone who owe me. thanks to my friends. we were on this topic of money and all the money comes in. people owing money and owing people money.



i felt helpless at times. yet, i have people to brighten me up and so on. i'm really glad and thankful. i have loads of things to express. but i just don't know how to use my words to express. i wish to be alone, but i don't. i wanna sleep but i afraid of nightmares. i wanna talk to someone, but i'm afraid i might be conquring their time. i wanna meet up with people but i just can't seem to find a right time. i wanna watch movies, but i have NO time. i wanna go on dates. i love dating but no one's dating me. everyone is busy and busy and SO DAMN busy. i want more time so that i can go on dates. lols. i just want someone to talk to me. that's all.

i did something worng. i'm glad i'm forgiven. but i still have not forgive myself.

PARTY WORLD! yeah! manage to get the LIM family to go K with us. so damn elated that they would tag along. 5 of us! kinda tired though. but i had lots of fun SINGING.

had two lessons today though i turned up for both, i was late for the first session and went off early of K the next session. it's kinda bad i know. not studying and going PARTY WORLD to sing. but if you were me, would you carry on listening to something that you have listened for almost 3 modules or would you save your time and go enjoy? OF COS, i know your answer will be..... ENJOY! hahas.

i guess gym's toilet is really my 3rd home. i actually slept in the GYM'S TOILET. mind you, it's a TOILET. the rest were playing around with their hair. making all sort of patterns out of their hairs. can't blame them, they have long hair while i do not. so, SLEEP. i lie flat on the toilet bench and nifer kept disturing me. however, she's very sweet. she knew i was feeling cold though i was wearing my jacket, she lent me hers to cover my body. SOOO SWEET OF HER! love her man!

oh yeah! MASTER'S birthday is coming. alright. master is norman. he is not in any category of gentleman! he owes me SAKAE SUSHI, 3 BEN & JERRY ICE and what's more? hmmm. i don't think there's any. and now, he wants me to call him master! how nice! so, i have planned. no matter what shit happens, he is going to get a handmade birthday card from me for his birthday! just a plain piece of paper and "happy birthday" writen with... erm... black ink? he's very evil too. he told ah girl jie jie that he might be celebrating in a chalet AND ah girl jie jie and i can't go. extremly sweet. WHY? it's becos one is fat and one is just 18(too young). cool man! if there's no chalet, he will be celebrating at...some place that clubbing takes place. AND I GET TO GO!! HE HE! first ever clubbing for me will be on 23 NOV 2006 or earlier a tiny lil bit. but hopefully, i'll get to go come club before going to N's birthday. =)


enough of happy stuffs. now, it's emo time. what the fuck!

i kept telling my friends that i have recovered! fully and totally healed. no more worries. BUT, i'm so not, yet! seemed like he really moved on with his life. but i'm still stucked! i know i no longer love him and he's been giving me loads and tons of nightmares, yet, i still feel this way. i thought i really moved on, but i'm still fucking stucked! the reason why i broke off with him isn't that i don't love him any longer. it's becos i need some time to breathe some fresh air. yet, he still pester me with this and that till i can't cope it. i gave him a chance. i told him i'll reconsider. i told him i have planned where to celebrate his birthday with him. isn't it a clue to him that he still stand some chance? WOLS sia. whatever. it's just that i couldn't take his pestering and stuffs, i made the decision. i tried to make the break-up a happy one instead it ended up like fucking shit cos he insulted me, do stupid stuffs. damn nice man! who to blame?

fuck it fuck it fuck it bitch! ARGH!!! i need somewhere to vent everything out. i need someone. but no one will understand. tried so hard to make myself laugh and smile. in the end, it's fuck! i don't know who to turn to, the one that i will often turn to, she is now fucking at canada! tell me what should i do now? damn it! tell me what fucking shit should i do now?!

why am i feeling this way?

after a year, i finally got all the pictures i took last year. those sec school pictures you see. so excited when i got to receive all the pictures. hehes. actually the most awaiting was those that i took with MR FOO. =)

i think i only change a little after secondary school days. a lil slimer on my face. look so cute when i used to have those extra fats on my face. LOL! but never mind. as long as i get to slim down, i'm contented.

indulge myself! this is what everyone should be! as long as one is happy with what he or she is doing, why should he or she stop? so what if i kept spending money? so what if i'm materialistic? so what so what. ask long i can pamper myself, why should i stop. i used to got stopped from going shopping and buying things. that's what i hated about. so what if i kept whining that i'm broke. so what if you don't have money to buy for me? i never asked you to buy. i was just whining. can't i whine? so what so what?

HELLO! i'm helping the economy doncha know. if we don't spend, you think you still can spend? though my econ lecturer starts late and end early, i still LOVE econ LOADS. it's interesting it's about spending, taxation, price and so on. just like shopping. LOL! i know i hardly listen to his lessons, I STILL LIKE ECONOMIC. the only that it's boring cos he kept giving the same examples; coffee and tea. at times, he would make some nuisance out of his examples. how nice.

another 4 months, there will only be Jamie, Nifer, KG and me left. those going army, will be gone for army. those stopping, will be working. sigh! only 4 months left. where got enough time to play?

aiya! i don't know what to blog about already. just bored. so, anyhow type something to pass my time!



yeah yeah! i'm darker already! SENTOSA SOON PLS!

HEY YO! the first thing i did when i reach home was definitely bathing. needless to say. next, lappy out, and it's MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE TIME! feeling high now. hehes. love them so so much. *very wide smile with loads of love in my eyes*

went out with bud bud. shared so much laughters and joys together. yes, i laughed till drunk again. love to go out with him so so much. so FUN FUN FUN! today bud bud sent me home. that means we had more time to update each other. and YES! took loads of stupid photos of ourselves. oh yeah! i played his PSP and made a fool of myself cos it was a car racing again and i was in the train "OH MY GOD! OH SHIT! OH NO!! NONONO! DAMN IT! FUCK MAN!" gosh! too engrossed into the game already. i don't know if the people was looking cos it's too exciting and i kept crashing. bud said i shouldn't take up driving cos i will increase the number car accidents in singapore. =) i love the dog joke that he told me. i was like laughing till i was about to sit flat on the floor? hehes. liffy said i'm HOT! hehes. change alot eversince secondary school but my crazyness STILL remains. LOLs.

i told liffy this:
ME: i like HOT PINK now!
LIFFY: *smiles*
ME: ask me how hot is it.
LIFFY: how hot?
ME: about 100 degree celsius?

cold sia. never mind. hahas. cos we laughed do much today. EVERYTHING! liffy said i'm more and more like adi already. what the hell man. told him that mr foo wants to meet us after his back from AUS. i asked him to spread the news excluding ching hoon. LOLs. cos i scared she snatch my FOO FOO away. anyway, mr foo is gonna be back soon and i only spread it to like 2 person? how nice! gees. THE LESSER PEOPLE, THE MERRIER IT WILL BE. cos i get to talk more to FOO FOO and i can take more pictures with him you see. and i can conqure him! what the fuck! another advantage will be that the lesser the people, the cheaper the bill will be and maybe FOO FOO might be paying for us? HAHAS. i'm not evil. i was just being kind helping mr foo not to waste too much money. =D

hopefully, my gang-adi, liffy, fidaus, raynu and me will be free someday so that we can hang out together. it's will be so great! cos memories will be back! love it so much during the school days. when i alone in class, the guys will accompany me to the toilet. lessons were never boring with them around! argh! i wanna MEET THEM, soon soON SOON! gonna check them out now!

another thing. i just remembered as i was listening to MCR. i haven't thank d for helping me. i always forgot about it! how could i?



and now, i'm addicted to HOT PINK and PINK! and i LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

when down to the company that roy introduced. argh! i'm so angry with the guy giving us the briefting!!! it's all d's fault la. give me see what msg. make me laughed. then the guy ask me why am i laughing and stuffs. asked me to share. what fuck man! but i ignore him la. cos the so called survery was actually a whole lot of papers that should be called interview. liew! they want ask to go house by house to interview people who use blah blah blah brand washing powder. totally LAME. waste my time telling us about nonsense? cool sia. then, i was so bored hence, i wrote on the paper "CAN WE LIKE JUST GO NOT?" to d. damn! the guy then asked d and i to be seperated. fuck man! argh! ended uo, we din take up the damn job. party i was pissed off with that bloody guy and also i don't wanna waste my time on this stupid company! STUPID FREAK!

yeah yeah! i have improved! i mean my skill for pool. doncha agree KG? thanks to ah girl jie jie and norman for teaching me how to aim. =D

anyway, i'm still very very angry with that guy! argh! i did something stupid too. i left the paper with the: CAN WE LIKE LEAVE NOT back to the company. damn!

economic's test was CHICKEN TOES today! BINGO! guess everyone will score extremly well.

went to PS for PIZZA. delicious definitely. paid about $5 per person and there was 4 of us - d, lynn, nifer and ME! it was early hence, we headed for the movie "DEATH NOTE." manage to psycho nifer to watch. hehes. while waiting for the movie, we went to carrefour for a long shopping there. though we only spend like 5 bucks there, we spend an hour or so in there. it's fun though cos nifer was there to entertain us. i love having nifer around me. brought jelly into the cinema and make a mess about it. but d manage to help nifer me with the jellies. sweet right?

alright! yeah yeah. the movie. it's FAIR though. cos the lead actor kept writing on that stupid notebook. write and write. it's in japaness. i was kinda bored in there cos it's in jap! I WANT ENGLISH! =D never mind about the movie, i do enjoy myself today!


oh ya! i gotta thank nifer and d for helping me to grab a whole lot of materials girls avdertisment paper!


OH YEAH! is it our, girls fault to have our period? must you guys despise us? huh huh huh? and making fun about over period? huh huh huh? LOLs.


i was thinking and thinking. your msges really made me crack my brain! it's gonna spilt soon if you still beat around the bushes!

conflicted.


at times, i tried asking myself: "hey! what if i'm not 18? what if i'm like 20 now, how will i live? will i still get to know the people around me? is 18 really still VERY young? do i really behave like a kid at times?"

sigh! if only i grab hold of it in the begining, everything wouldn't have ended up so contradicting. how obtuse can i get? the answers are right at my sight yet, i turn to look the other way. can't i just look straight for ONCE? argh! i'm angry with myself. i kept thinking. kept conflicting myself. when thing get over a long period of time, hardly there would be an easy U-TURN. once passed, it's passed. much work should be put in if one choose to make the u-turn. but who will be putting in such effort when you know no matter how hard, it will still be futile. will you still continue doing it when you know the truth of everything? i missed it once. now, do i still have to miss it AGAIN?

i was thinking. should i just put everything behind? cos someone will be there for me too. will it still be the same? will it still be the same feeling? the feeling of someone trying to protect you in the dark, standing up for you. the feeling when someone tried every effort to make you smile and laugh everyday. the feeling when you're so sick that there's someone there to care and take care of you. the times when someone acted like a clown for you. and of cos, that special feeling when you're with that someone. i miss those feelings.


if only i can read people's mind......

WOAH! it's another day at SENTOSA! envy me people. hahas. today we have roy and ce, jamie, d, kg and me! there's sand war session between the gang and ONLY me. sigh! they bluffed me that they wanna built sandcastle and so on. the fun me got so interested and you know what! they threw the sand at me! i hate sand! but i think they love me cos they get stuck in my ears! argh! well... i'm turning REDDISH-BLACK. know what i'm talking about? never mind if you don't. i'm tanned! LOLs.

how i wish there a way to use letters to make *2 heart shapes eyes* to show you how i felt when i saw this alike jesse mcCartney guy. maybe *watering mouth* ? hahas. so so damn HANDSOME! can't take my eyes off him man! =D

oh yeah! KG broght SUSHI from MARKETPLACE. nono. not paragon marketplace. it's vivo city's marketplace. the important thing is it still taste the same. =) mmmm... SALMON. my forever favourite. noT forgeting, davidson. HE BROUGHT HOMEMADE SANDWICHES FOR EVERYONE. sweet and cool for a guy to do such stuffs. kinda surprise. he's clever to do egg sandwiches. cos if no one's gonna eat, i can finish everything up cos i'm EGG QUEEN! anyway, it taste as good as sushi, the lemon biscults too. alright! everything taste good cos i'm HUNGRY can?

took only a few photos today. cos no camera. sigh! so, all the pictures were after bathing and tanning. manage to take photos with jamie, KG and d. first every photo! i mean a proper photo. SO, there will be updates of photos soon! coming very soon alright!



actually, i've been thinking alot recently. tried not to think much. it's just contradicting if i say i don't give a damn about it or i won't think about it any longer. it will affect me somehow. when i turned right. there! the scene.

ROY'S BIRTHDAY!!! shan't give you guys any details. it will be boring to you, but interesting to me. but never mind. as long i remember everything that happened each days; those happy moments, i'll be glad.

conclusion of the day: kids are really kids. talk without thinking. BUT they are harmless.

oh ya! i made a fool of myself during the majiong session. NEVER MIND. at least i made everyone laughed, including myself laughing at my silly acts.


i love the way you care, i love the way you protect.

you, i finally understand!

should i be elated or should i be sad?

ORCHARD again. i was fun though i just went there yesterday. went party world for k session till i almost loose my voice. i did something BAD. after k session i called norman and lied that ah girl jie jie left me alone at orchard to meet xin xiong and i can't even contact. i know i'm bad. but the mastermind was ah girl jie jie. she didn't want norman to work ot therefore, she asked me to lied. so, the issue turned up kinda serious. he kept calling ah girl jie jie and scold xin xiong for lying that he wasn't with ah girl jie jie(xin xiong wasn't with us). on the other hand, i kept msging him asking him to meet me cos i was alone and lonely plus i got no keys to go home. think he was kinda panic and stuffs cos he msged ah girl jie jie "CALL ME" a few times and kept miss calling her. lols. i felt kinda bad hence, asked ah girl jie jie to call norman. opps! he was kinda pissed off. but we manage to make him meet us at marina square. gees.

he moment he saw me, he stretched out his hand. i acted blur. headed to BK. he showed me his hand. WOAH! the injuries was kinda bad. i can see the bone stucking out. YUCKS! joked alot. he kept bullying ah girl jie jie. asked her to buy food for him. wad a GREAT gentleman. so, i stole lot of fries from him. went to play pool. yeah yeah! both of them taught me how to aim and stuffs. manage to cheat quite a few time. =D xin xiong came. oh man! he's a great joker. but i think xin xiong and norman cannot be together as they join forces to bully ah girl jie jie. nevertheless, i had a great day out though i felt kinda sick.

actually, i talked alot things ah girl jie jie today. almost everything but not that lil secret of mine. but at least, now, i feel better.




though i was just a simple gesture, i felt it. i love it when someone care for me.

having loads of thoughts in my mind. alot of what ifs.
what if i'm not her....
what if i'm not 18.....
what if you have told me....
what if these more....
what if they....
what if what if what if....

actually, i'm kinda happy you remembered the way to......

i'm so so gonna hate orchard! went orchard with JENA today and going orchard AGAIN tml with ah girl jie jie for k session and including SHOPPING. how nice! i'm only interested in the k session not the shopping. it's the first time i'm not interested in shopping for my whole life! anyway, JENA is another shopping queen. she beats me man! HA! went to pull and bear, a newly luanched outlet in sg. price kinda reasonable too. check it out man!


i'm sorry JENA. i was like msging the whole day? sorry babe. i was kinda happy that N called me and chat a lil tiny mini while before going back for OT. at least someone care for me. oh ya! for my whole life, i love the msges sent by N today. cos we were like playing around and acting and stuffs. hopefully, he will be meeting us tml so that i can go RIDING AGAIN! ta-dah!


actually, i felt kinda blessed with the people around me. one thing in similar, they CARE for me. gees.

i know, i really know ALREADY! actually, i knew it long ago. your actions talk it all.

gym gym gym!!! so motivated to go gym today. however, one should feel slimer after going gym but i feel i'm fatter! argh! so fat!



uploads for photos! gees. as promised.





SENTOSA! nifer, jamie, d, kg and me in da house!





VIVO CITY! my 2nd home. =D




have you spotted someone looking alike the cartoon "ONE PIECE"?





having craving for this? TCC.





this is my 3rd home. mdis gym toilet. i can skip lessons and slack in the toilet. cool. cos it go all the facilities in there. hair dryer, toilet paper, soaps, chairs and so on. =D





one got caught sleeping.....







ANOTHER, caught acting stupid.

guess what? i was dreamt about MR. foo last night. how sweet. hehes. sigh. i didn't get my sushi the other day cos he was busy. there goes my sushi. hence, to achieve something that i have been craving for months, i kept irritating him(pay back time) and asking he and said if tml he's not tired after work, I'LL GET TO GO SAKAE SUSHI. i'm mentally prepared for the worse. cos i know he would be tired and sleepy no matter how many hours he slept.

as for the pay back thingy, it's because i was stuck outside my house. NO ONE was at home on friday when i went home. norman called. i thought he might be my saviour to meet me for dinner. after much "sa jiao-ing",
N: where are you? i fetch you go meet your parents now.
so sweet right. BUT.....
ME: sigh! i'm wearing skirt leh.
N: OH! too bad. my friend come already. byebye!

you see you see. how evil can he get. argh! but i another saviour appeared. really made me felt better. as in not afraid that something might happen and stuffs. at least someone knows my whereabouts. =) THANKS SO MUCH, AGAIN.

oh yeah! talking about friday. we girls had loads of fun outta! gees! laughter at every single spot of bugis and orchard. yeah yeah! i did something stupid or rather ALOT of stupid stuffs. shan't tell ay further. =)

went to AX to look for all the crazy fella. miss them so damn much. all the memories came back the moment i stepped in AX. the times when there was yusoff, ting, boney, cong, haiqal, jen, jamie, sherman, wei liang, ting ting, freddy, johan, yen, lynn, raymond, lily and lily's bf. the morning routine of rushing to breaktalk or marketplace for our breakfast. the times went there wasn't a key to open the doors. the times when the clock present 9 or 930, i would rush to hang the "CLOSED" door sign on the door. the times when counting the tags after closing. the times when i have lunch with cong(nasi lemak). the times when haiqal apporach me to ask me help him serve the CHINESE. the times when times when ting behave so cutely. that time when there's is huge man and jen asked me to stand behind him to see if she can see me. the times when jen and i laugh till mad and sherman didn't scold us. no choice. sherman dote on us too much already. the times when i get scolded by yen cos he's having mood swings. the days when jamie hate me. =) the times when jamie and i got closer. the times when boney tell me about his gf. the time when i packet food to work. the times when cong face turned red. the time when brandon said i'm pretty. =D the times when taka yen came over to look for us. the times when johan point middle figure and scold "ccb, knn" while counting the money. the times when c,j,h,r and me slack in the pantry. the times when wei liang and fed came in and brought jamie closer to jen and me. the times when i received hong bao and x'mas present from sherman. the times when i grew fat cos of eating too much. especially chocolate and cookies cos it's the new year and x'mas period. the times when cong helped me to "suan" a customer. the times when we critisie the chi nas and their arm pit hairssss. the times when i forgot to take the sensor tag out. the times when i'm late. the times when i re-acted what the customer did to Jen in a funny manner. OH YA! the times when every part timer were addicted to answering the phone. LOLs. "good morning/afternoon/evening, armani exchange. may i help you?" but mostly it's IOT. no need so friendly actually. gees. the times when i bring the clothes for alteration. the times when haiqal do stupid stuffs with cong. the mornings when lily and yusoff started to sing. the morning when there was briefing. the days when the full time staff had appraise cos jen and i will be very kpo at that time. LOLs.

it's like a family. i felt belonged. hopefully, they won't transfer any of the full time staffs. if not, i gotta go so many places to look for them. like harbour front, taka and paragon. so, let them stay put.


yeah yeah! there's gonna be dophine in sentosa sea!!


i understand. i really understand.

the following will allow my fellow secondary girlmates to get jealous! WAHAHAHA

count me lucky to wish MR FOO good-bye! la la la! i happened to msg him in friendster and.....

ME: hope you haven forgot me. =) gees. how have you been? you changed a lot man. you hairstyle now is much much better then before. so cool. so, remain this way alright. hahas. i'm curious why have you stopped teaching. is it because we left and you no longer have fun? hahas. so, no longer teaching? change ur display picture please. it's been a year already. don't be lazy. oh ya! how u gotta know all those actor and actress in your picture? i miss those days when i'm having lessons with you. so fun.

hope to see ya around. keep in touch! =)


MR. FOO: Hi Regina,
How would I forgot a student that eat prata in durin my class..... ???
I have been really good since leaving school.... doing something i enjoy more now....... of course i treasure and love every minute in JYSS with my dear 5N1...... I left teaching for something I really like so no regrets for me though i do miss the times in JYSS on n off.....
Too lazy to alwaz change my display and I actually seldom log in to friendster nowadays unless I receive a new message or testi.....
Anywa, I am leaving for Australia for work for a month....
I am thinking of asking u guyz out for a lunch or dinner after I get back from Australia.... SO help me spread the news around....

Btw, which school are you in now???

Til then, Cheers.....


ME: i must be so lucky. just send and receive back on the same day! hehes. you're an actor now is it?? is there any other ways to contact you other then this stupid FRIENDSTER?
i'll spread the news as soon as possible. hehes. provided you must promise that you'll be asking us out. not empty promise.

hahas! can't wait to see you so that i can take a lot of photos with you again! hahas!


MR. FOO: Oh, so u r still awake....good...... but i actually i m turning in now, i m catching a flight tmr to Aussie to catch kangaroo.... hahhhaaa.....
I am not an actor, juz happen tat my job now require me to work with some actor and know a few of them........
U can reach me at my msn *****@hotmail.com but i wun be able to log in for a month bcoz i m not in town....

Good nite Regina....
Till i m back..... Cheers,


oh man! i won't be stupid to give out his e-mail. so, jeraldine, ching hoon and raynu, too bad. i can't wait to see MR. FOO. i wanna take photo with him!!!!

hey yo! i'm back in action again after a short lil break. really din have the time and feeling to blog. hehes. and now, my fingure is injured and KG kept asking me to update. how nice! LOLs. well, a quick update of what had happened these few days.


6th oct
GANDPA'S BIRTHDAY! the whole gang went to east coast long beach. wasn't that great for me as the haze irritated me so badly. i can't see clearly. it's either my lens is dirty or it's the problem of the haze. he younger generation wished my gandpa and his reply to "ah gong, sheng ri kuai le" was.... hmm.... if i'm not wrong, it's "gong xi fa cai!" cool man! whereas his repond to mine english "happy birthday" was a sweet smile. gees. i find that i'm grandpa's kinda cute at time, though he used to abuse me when i was younger. well, forget about it. that's the past and i love him alot now! =) order pepper crab and chillie crab and more. i just din have the mood to eat. got turned off straight when i was served right in front of me. no choice, has been like that recently. walked around east coast to and fro, the whole gang had fun though it's hazy that day.

8th oct
VIVO CITY!!! well, these nothing much there yet. BUT there's GUESS! FOREVER 21! TOPSHOP AND MY MY ARMANI EXCHANGE! i was so excited to see ARMANI EXCHANGE there. LOLs. which means, i might have the chance to work at ARMANI EXCHANGE after my diploma. HAHAHA! just can't wait! alright. ENOUGH. i felt it a hamster when i was in there, BIG, GRAINTIC! it's just sad the mdis gang didn't wanna go and take a look. sad for them. the view is cool man. but the food court isn't open yet therefore, lazy fella out there, you just gotta walk over to harbour front centre to eat. the whole place was crowded but my dad manage to find a place. no choice, kan choing spider you see. i made my way over to the noodle stall and the chasier was taking my order..... i said i want fishball noodle but he mumble some chinese language or maybe he wasn't mumbling. i just couldn't understand a single shit. panic, i turn around and look for my saviour. THERE! my mum! i shouted across to her and she came over, i told he "mummy, what is he saying, i don't understand." so, the man told my mother and i realised that he was saying that there's no more noodles. cool sia.

i realised that my chinese is going to be way below average soon. i can't really speak chinese. i mean, if i have spoken english for the day and someone out of a sudden begin a conversation with me in mandrian, god! i don't even know how to communicate with that person. i'm lucky because every morning, my first language will be mandrian. thanks to nifer.

9 oct
i sing, i sang and i sung and i bought the bag that i love at first sight. initally, it was 29.90. and after using my mouth..... $24! hehes. ask me along to bugis if you wanna have great discount. what the fuck! LOLs.

10 oct
i'm attracting MAD man! what the hell.
i did something bad. i just walk off my class with the gang during lesson. but it wasn't my fault. he's lesson was bored to death! argh! i hate him yet, i'm kinda guilty. fuck! but if a can replay it once more, i would still do the same thing. =D maybe he wasn't to blame? i don't know. cos i slept at 530am the day before hence, he's his lesson was boring and i was sleep. cool?

TODAY
sigh. my throat is sick. but all thank to strepsils. it maintained. gees. went to see jayden after school. so cute cute CUTE. took some photo of him but not with him. cos he doesn't know where to look. argh! there's a thing i'm happy about.... he din cry when he saw me!!! the girls did a lot of stuffs at nifer's place. making ourselves like a mad lady.


that's all i guess!!! i'm looking forward to have my sushi tml. yeah yeah yeah!!! hopefully i really get it tml. =)


JEN: wei hong got caught by police for smoking with his fucking friends!!! how nice! i don't really know much. it happened yesterday. ask your mum for more infor and please pass it to me! LOLs. cos i don't wanna call ah ma and ask. she'll get worry and stuffs, so, you know la. i don't want to stress her and stuffs. so, update me. thanks!

i'm sleep and tired. yet, i can't get myself to sleep. sigh. i slept for only 5 hours today. what the hell. it's saturday and i woke up so early.



went to check on a thing that someone told me to last week. sigh. what to say. what to comment. saw the sweet moment of them. seen the effort he made. the beautiful memories. oh man! just don't understand why i'm a lil affected by it. argh! perhaps, it's because of......



anyway, din really have much activities these days. BORING! only that my group when to TCC to slack around. alright, the bill came and it was kinda expensive. and blah blah blah.....



nothing much to blog about. i hope i was just thinking too much.

ALRIGHT! my mum has agreed to allow me go JB with my group. on condition, there must be many people going. hopefully many will be going. GEEs! i can't wait for that day to come! i wanna shop shop and do alot of SHOPPING! i wanna buy bags, shoes, bags, shoes, tee, tops, sexy lingerie(wth), smuggle in DVDs, eat, shop, eat, shop, take photos, jackets, chewing gums, bubbles gums, heels, bikini, eat, bag, dress, jackets, tops, bottoms, skirts, pants, shorts, heels, short shosts, DVDs, watches, slippers, bags and eat and shop and take photos and blubbles gums! see, i'm so excited. can you feel me eagerness too? maybe i would like to cut my hair too or maybe do facial. cos cong told me that the jean yip there is CHEAP! yeah yeah! i'm so so excited just by thinking about it. just like the first time i get to ride on norman's bike. excited till my whole body shivering. GOSH! i guess i wouldn't be able to sleep the day before. HAHAs! yeah yeah!!! SHOPPING! hopefully we are going city square. i love that place alot.

i understand what your behaviors and words are trying to express.
however, i don't understand what your behaviors and words are trying to express.


whatever, went playing pool during the 2hours break. anyway, on the way there, there's this drain that i covered with many extrem rusty, we(girls) were afraid that we might fall into the drain somehow, so, we held each other and took a big step forward. okay. it's not cool, it's cold. by the way, there's this boy, i kinda pity him cos he's a lil metally ill i guess. he keep looking at me and tried to move closes to me whenever it's mine turn. thanks to all my guy friends there. they protected me you see, HAHAS! i scared the boy suddenly touch my butt butt you see. gees. =) he said esmond was my brother. thank god man! i manage to hit this ball that was kinda difficult to get into the whole. d saw and he was shocked! hehes. anyway, i had fun playing today. but a lil uneasy. that's it!

finally got the pictures of the sentosa trip. i can't stop laughing when i saw niffer pictures!! she just so cute. so SO SO cute! i'll upload them when i'm very very free someday alright. well, d was clever to put almost all the songs that i like in my thumbdrive! cool man!

i'm so tired tired tired!!! i'm so sleepy sleepy sleepy!! monday i slept at 4 and my poor friend suffer with me. yesterday, at 1. and today, i'll try my best to sleep early. I WANNA SLEEP! just let me fall asleep early!

i found that there many peculiar people around me who don't really understand human languages. some doesn't make any sense. the most incredible was some speak and spell in some uncharacteristic manner. just surprised that they can really form new english words that are hardly or rather NEVER be found in the dictionary. gosh! what has the word come to? well, i'm suprised that at times, human can't understand human language. in singapore, we speak english, chinese, malay and direct. these are the 4 main concern. it's just rather amusing when one speak in any of this 4, the other party still doesn't get what the person is talking about when the WHOLE world understand! so, who's the one with problem now? when they don't get it, they sppout nonsense. hey! come on man, putting words in other's mouth.

i'm a very impatience lady. hence, when one doesn't understand what i meant, i'll get pissed off. and there goes my attitude problem. i found out that i'm having serious attitude problems these days. no pms-ing. emotional. i'm trying to cut down but everything just IRRITATE me! argh! fuck man!

i'm still feeling disgusted after what jamie told me this afternoon. it's the most SHOCKING secret of my whole life. *vomit!* yuck yuck YUCKS! i dispise you!

met liffy for a movie-JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. great movie. but they story is kinda predicted. you must be thinking why is it still a good movie then? simply, there jesse metcalfe, arielle kebbel, ashanti, sophia bush and brittany snow! alright alright, mostly it's becos of jesse. =) liffy make me really happy today. brings back the feeling of those secondary school days when we laugh it no one business. cool. been longing this feeling and it'd finally back today. liffy said i laugh like drunk. this is the feeling! woo~ just so fun! laugters just surronded us when i'm out with him. everything seems to be funny even at the slightest sight. how i wish adi, firdaus and raynu was there too. i'm sure i wouldn't wanna go home!

hey! think back peeps, do you miss your secondary school life? or do you miss your secondary school life with your friends? don't you think that it's stupid to miss your secondary school life ? you miss your teaching naggings? miss you DM calling you names out for detention? miss your principal peaching? miss your OM accusing you? miss getting caught for not wearing school's sock? miss having your cellphone confiscated? you don't right. you only miss the life with your friends! friends friends FRIENDS!!! oh yeah! if you do so, we are on the same boat then. let's be best friend. what the hell. anyway, i'm just a little loose in my screw today. LA LA LA~ come on! sing along!

norman asked if i want to have sushi as dinner today or tml. sigh! can't make it today as i'm wearing skirts, i know i can't sit his bike so i choose tml. sadly, he will be having soccer tml. when will be the next time man? i'm waiting till my neck touches the celling! LOLs. can't wait to meet ah girl jie jie for k session. SIGH! i miss her. it's like 2 days since i last saw her? what the fuck. =)

can i cry it out loud? can i?

i'm feeling sick but i'm not sick! what the hell. something is wrong with my head, stomach and my mind. what the hell. whatever it is, i just don't feel right now.

i miss ktv sessions. cos i hardly sang the other day becos of that bitch! i miss singing with desmond. cos i hardly get to see him. then, i also miss sentosa. cos i wanna get tan. i miss elmo. cos he say whoever bullies me, they will get it from elmo. i miss jen. cos grandpa's birthday is this friday and no one will accompany crap and bitch around. i miss norman. cos i wanna get all my treats. i miss ting. cos i can't see her on weekdays. i miss jordan. cos he promised to meet me but he lied.


hmmm... that's all i guess!

yesterday's party wasn't that bad at all. it was bad as in ah girl jie jie and i din really get to sing becos of a whore? she is just so so damn selfish. keep moving up her songs then what is the rest gonna sing? FUCK her! she's really overboard. ARGH! alright.... enough of her. cos i pissed her off. la la la. she thought that her voice is BEST and wanted to sing almost every songs. how sweet can she be?


desmond came to fetch me around 10. the way he drove; totally reckless! but we manage to get to meet ah girl jie jie on time. went lao ba sa to eat and went to party world. we were 1 hour late. which means the whore got about 1 hour more to sing then the 3 of us! at party world, they kept asking me to drink cos i'm the only who doesn't have to drive home. martel mixed with green tea and coke. i prefer the green tea one. they keep forcing me to drink with qing shui. cos they said he would only drink with me. wth. use me to make him drink. then i drink and drink till a lil headache. BUT i'm not drunk. LOLs. they extended another hour as requested by ah kun kor kor. and then! the whore still wanna sing! that when i pissed her off and ah girl girl and i kept laughing. lalala. yeah. i'm evil.


the happy thing about it was that i really enjoyed myself. and of cos, i manage to communicate with ah kun kor kor after so many years of my life. gees.



anyway, happy birthday!

when watching rob-b-hood with d, jamie and lynn. well, you guys should really go and catch it. it's funny, touching and cute. LOLs. as in the baby is cute and GU TIAN LE is handsome. how i wish i can marry him. wth. GO AND WATCH IT!!! IT'S REALLY A GOOD MOVIE. 4 stars!!



left after the movie, headed to bugis AGAIN. bought a belt and a pair of earings ONLY. sigh. there's not much clothings there! guess, i should do more of online shopping. there pros and cons about doing online shopping. it's troublesome but there clothings are like more unique cos you can hardly fine another person wearing the same us u. ah girl jie jie brought loads of stuffs yet she said she bought lil. around 10 plus norman came to look for us cos he was somewhere nearby. he cut his hair and ah girl jie jie insisted that his hairstyle look like her dog. LOLS. what the fuck. he was kinda sad after that yeah. next ah kun kor kor came to sent jie jie and me home. SIGH! norman doesn't wanna sent me home! thought i could have another fun ride. but never mind. there will always be next time.



still considering if i should go to ktv later. cos it's ah kun kor kor's bday yet i don't really know him well. for the whole of my 18 years of life. i'm still considering. but desmond will be coming to fetch me later. sigh!!!! should i or should i not?

mum told me a big secret today. moody. i was moody the whole day. now, i was something that affect me and WORST.

just look at that fucking mad man friendster's profile.
Who I Want to Meet:
The person who fcuked me upside down. Some cruel choices.... Norman Tan ?
Whoo I certainly loved you bastard.

i just don't understand!!!! i really fucking don't understand!!! why why why? i'm really breaking down. fuck him. does he really have to torture me in this way?

why must my mother break the news to me only today?

SENTOSA!!!! it was fun Fun FUN though there was only KG, d, jamie, niffer and me. the sun wasn't happy with my appearance therefore, NO sun. that was what d told me la. niffer had a fun time playing and looking for seaweeds. looks so funny when she drag the huge bundle of seaweeds out the sea. she's like dragging a big back out from the sea. cute man! then, we got bored and either d or KG started off by throwing sand at each other. i think it's KG. so, everyone get along the fun. d thought that wet sand might be more exciting and everyone tagged along. sand flies here and there making me breathing in sea water. how nice. FINALLY, clouds manage to more away from the sun and there was SUN! LOLs. tanning time! i forgot wad d did therefore i put some sand in his belly button saying there it can scrub off dirt from his button. then, i forgot what happened again, d and i started throwing sand at each other. all cover with sand and we had a hard time washing away the sand. jamie was trying hard to get herself tanned. cos she said she's kinda yellow.

after hours of enjoyment, i felt funny and rushed to the toilet. OH MY GOD! i'm so sorry guys. becos of me, we can't have more fun time there. SORRY! =) planned to go changi village to eat however, stomach growling, sentosa's kou fu would be a much suitable place.



some update of the mad man msges. sit back and relax. cos the funny part is coming....

"i won't hesitate to not tell your mum the way you have with norman when with me and not help you anymore if i hear that you change into a different person who doesn't know love."
"worse still, if you were to be with norman, i will make sure you and him won't be happy. i will tell people that you break me becos you like others"
"when i'm good to you, you take advantage of me and don't appreate. how on earth will a girl go out movie alone if only friend? talk longer on phone then with me?"
"you think i'm stupid? being toyed by you after giving you everything? i won't let you have the way you wan it to be after all these."
"you're turning my love into hatred now. you did wrong with your fucking distance with that idiot and you don't dare to admit. who is childish? you, not me. you don't dare to admit."
"ruin yourselves. go be a bitch and playgirl out there. i don't fucking love you anymore. you toyed my feelings and do don't know what shit with norman."
"oh ya. prepare a few hundreds with you to return me. i just realised how stupid was i to spend on you. we will meet soon."
"do you think you have all the rights to tell me all these when you are the one who changed? sorry but i don't really entertain people who son't know what's love."
"especially those eho get close with guys when they have a bf."


all the above was sent by the mad man to me around 6+ in the MORNING! so kind and considerate right?

at night.....

"eversince the day you left me, i felt your change. i've nothint to lose anymore, no more ters drop, no more breathe to wait. the most is those memories that kills me."
"i doubt you hold those memories anymore. but i don't care any longer. though i can't bear you, but this msg is to tell you i won't long for you anymore."
"wish you a happy life with whoever hand you hold. know your limit and don't give in too much. make sure you find someone who can stand you talking to guys behind his back."
"for the next few decades, i know you won't be spending with me, so, happy birthday wishes in advance. hundreds of goodnights and take cares. love, hawy.


alright viewers, i won't leave me comment about this. it's up to you to think how stupid and contradicting it is. opps, i just made some comments.