The Chopsticks Sisters.

it's no wonder we have been so close all this while. it's been 7 long years.

from those specs to contact lens. from short hair till long hair. from dislike to love. from secondary till tertiary. from all the mood swings. from enegry to luo zhi xiang. from taking trains to taxi. from bad mouthing about the same person AND STILL on the topic of gossiping like we haven't been seeing each other for years(thou it was just a few days apart.)

i don't know why, but it seems to me that people who are close to each other tends to get into the same situations somehow.

but chopstick 2, i'm sure we will be able to pull this through. i will keep a look out too. no worries.

though i did a sinful thing today, but no worries, you will still be the same in me.

and, i'll make sure you're present will be more expensive than his.

seriously, having you with me though my ups and downs, make me know that no matter how far part, WE ARE STILL DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER, RIGHT?

like always, i'll still be protecting you, FOR SURE! so, please don't feel neglected alright. everything will still be the same. for my case, i don't think there will be much changes either. so, don't bother about him, you know you always come first.

the love of a lifetime.

it's still lacking of something and that's why i'm hesitating?

i kept rejecting, rejecting and endless rejecting. till i seriously have no idea how am i going to accept.

yea, it's been 5 months for this no string attach thing going on. isn't it still going on well still even though it's no string attach?

there are really times when i gave a serious thought about it that concluded i should commit. well, it was so unlikely. coincidentals or whatever craps, each and every time i have made up my mind, i will came cross people telling me, 'this house is divorce case,' 'i just broke off with my boyfriend 'cause we were both busy with work,' 'knn, got gf already still sent me flirt for what!' 'he fell in love with someone else, assholes!' then, i get to see/hear friend/people having affairs.

yet, whenever i get to see my sis and jie fu, it makes me have a complete different thought of what i always had. as long as one party is willing to give in and there's trust among them, most importantly if they have a goal, love will still last.

and so happen to, the thought of me, not relying on any other guy can really terminate the thought of me committing. the money i earn will be mine and only mine. no one will forbid me from being over obsess with shopping or getting aggressively materialistic.

but then again, he doesn't use my money unless i offer to. he got his own way for money, so i don't see a need in sharing my hard earn share with him, meaning, my money is still mine till i offer to treat.

maybe he will go poor someday 'cause he doesn't use his money wisely. 'cause, once he wanna get something, he doesn't give a damn shit about the price. just from the look of my birthday prezzie, god-damn-it! so, when he goes poor, i wouldn't bare to let him suffer alone which means, my hard earn share will be shared. well,

TOUCH WOOD!

i'm sure this will never happen.

no, it's not about looks that is stopping me. no, it's no about communication. nope, it's also not about different view. it's also not that he is childish in his thinkings. it's not 'cause he gets angry or irritated when i wake him up from his deep sleeps, HE DOESN'T. no, he doesn't scolds/yells/shouts me. yes, he gives in to me all the time. no, it's not 'cause he's not sweet. no, he likes shopping with me. no, it's not 'cause he rub his eyes as if he will digging them out. NO, IT'S NOT.

i'm not sure whether is this the main issue.
when people get into a new enivorment, eg, work, school, somehow or what, they will change physically and mentially. we shape out thinkings with the people we meet and the things we do. this impact is so huge that it could easily be seen over night.

so, you started to pick things up at work causing lesser time spend with him. then, to have better connections with people, you tend to wanna hangout with them more often, whether to gain more knowledge or getting to know more of them. while communicating with people, the influence you, at times, it may be a huge one while others actually do, but the impact and change wasn't that huge. but it's still somehow, change you to another person.

after not meeting him over a period of time, due to work, eventually, you digged out time. it seems to be a dull night 'cause topics were different. you're taking about your job and he might be talking about school or army life. this lead to communication break down and causing arguements, shoutings, yellings, hurtful words pierced.

well, if both are willing to compromise, eventually, you won't see any of this problem bothering you.

here the thing.
what if, you're working and on the other hand schooling? how are you gonna cope with work, schools, projects, exams and him?

he will have a change of lifestyle then, different thinkings.

and obviously, you will be lacking of time, and he might be knowing another girl who has more time than him and what's more, they are from the same class and they can do projects and study together!

okay, cut of the getting to know another girl.

everything will be change. everyone has their own stuffs to complete. own goals to achieve. the both of you may be confident that the both of you will get pass this piece of nonsense as soon as possible. who knows what comes in between?



F, i got my answer.

it's been 5 months. cool.

a nice one yet stern. end with a complete understanding of the whole situation, along with compromising. i

i hope you really listen this time round.
when will you get serious and listen to me, just me to finish my piece; before falling asleep? sometimes, i really hope you pay a little more attention to me and my words; and not sleep.


money and love.
i choose money. yeah. it's stupid. who's the one who's more stupid to choose love without money and suffer 3/4 of your lifetime with a broke? money can make one feel secure and happy. you peep know what money can give you. LV, GUCCI, (fly over to US for)VICTORIA'S SECRET. so, do i still need to continue with the benefits?

money can't buy love. who doesn't wanna be in love. falling in love over and over again just like falling for the first time. having someone to be there whenever you're down, to share the most memorable moment with you ever now and then. giving you uncountable suprises. cuddle you to sleep, wakes up in the middle of the night just to make sure he's not occupying the whole blanket. kiss you when you're awake. calls you 'cause he wondering if you're hungry so he can get something for you. he brings you to places you have never been too or you wanna go. sending you morning messages that lighten up you day just by seeing his name. then, maybe find somewhere to sit, eg, vivo's sky park. just by sitting beside each other even without a word uttered, it's love. he brings you home to introduce to his entire family tree, making you feel so homely each time you hangout at his place. someone to hold on to when you wear a pair of heels that you couldn't really balance yourself. you got someone to whine to. someone to cry to. someone to hug you when you need one and always available. and maybe, someone whom you can pinch, bite, slap and hit.

whatever it is, at least you know that, there always that someone out there, missing, worrying and caring for you unconditional.at least you know you're the only one he has in his heart. the problem is, how long can the love last?

AND SO, money still comes first. why suffer in the circle of love? get yourself hurt and screwed up your life. for sure, i'm not stopping anyone from falling in love, IT'S JUST MY PERSONAL PERSPECTION. 'cause i have seen alot. people divorcing, breaking-up, it's scary. it's worse than watching a horror movie. damnit.

and well, that was part of the reason why i'm still so reluctant in getting into r/s. maybe when you can prove to me i'm the only lady in your life, i might give it a try.

of course, i do wanna fall in love for the first time, just like how i fell in love with my LG phone. prolly, i need someone who can get me out of his shadow. prove to me that not everyone is the same.


































wah lan eh, so contradicting la! but i'm a girl also what! falling in love is a must!





















no matter what, MONEY STILL COMES FIRST. so, feb 16, wait for me.

One day, you came and talked to me
And you said we are meant to be
I was happy, everything was so nice
But then I found out that everything was a lie.

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

How could you do this to me
You said we are meant to be
You showed me how to cry
When you told me everything was a lie.

OKAY. i think i need to make realistic wishes instead of one that couldn't/didn't even came true.

i hope more people will be selling their house in punggol and sengkang after chinese new year. PLEASE SELL YOUR HOUSE! and some people(buyers only) please come and buy my orchid park condo and 359C sambawang. ONLY BUYERS. STICTLY BUYER. NO AGENTS. it's not i don't wanna co-broke. it's just that if that LKK co-broke with someone else, I WILL HAVE NO BENIFITS. ROOARRR~

and i hope the market will not fall. cause market falling means houses will be selling cheaper causing me to earn lesser. or worse come to worse, very little houses selling. don't even happen please.

of course, i still, wanna fly over to US to shop there. people only live for once, it is a must to fly around the world, assholes. maybe, at least to america, malaysia, yea. aahhhh, you can leave china and bangadash out, it's okay.

come on, i'm not being racist. you know me.

next, i really don't want anything to take any of my family members away. the sudden impact 2 years ago is still there. so, DON'T!

so, should i wish for good gades? cause i don't even know whether i'm going to continue. if study means projects. i can't imagine myself getting my arses back to the damn school, going for 3 hours lecture and getting a duplicate of the exam papers as revision.

if i'm going back to school, how's work? and what if i'm gonna take ceha? where got time? WHERE GOT ENOUGH? one day only 24-hours leh! then, it will be, morning, school lor. afternoon, work lor. evening, ceha lor.

so, i wish i got 36-hours a day. 10 hours of sleeps. 3 hours at lecture. 3 hours for ceha. 4 hours of project/revision. 6 hours at work. 4 hours of shopping/relaxing. 2hours of travelling. 4 hours of spending at home. but come to think, 36 hours also not enough for me!

AND LASTLY, I WISH ZS WILL NOT TELL MY UNBEARABLE NONSENSE. CAUSE I COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE! ROOOOARRRRRRRRRR!

i think i have more to add. but that zs is telling me loads of trash till my mind went blank. thanks huh.

continue soon.