no more counting down of days of his leaving. yes, he left. i'm definitely sad. no more clubbings. no more jokes. miss those clubbing days. everyone is leaving; the d4e the peeps.

i just wanna leave sg. there's really to many things here that i really made my life turned into pile of shits. i need a new life.

if my dad is going to work together with him, i may fly to canada after my degree. it's a MAYBE thingy. my dad is considering now. IT'S MAYBE! not comfirm.

1 more day and that's it. he's flying over. i'm not going to make myself regret this time, i'm going to send you off even if i still got a whole lot of essay to memorize. I'LL STILL GO. these few days really made us closer a little thou we are always close. but i got to know more about you somehow. i'll miss the days we had. just hope that you lossen up you mind and heart and concentrate on your studies that is really much more important than any other things.

had my treat today by uncle tony. wonderful to get everyone settling down and chat. really brings everyone much closer. that's the thing.

a few more days, i'll get to see you. i don't know if i'm excited, i just hope to see you somehow. i know i'll be unhappy after seeing you, that's a comfirm thingy as it happened almost everytime i see you. i don't how should i react. i don't know.... i just don't know. but i wanna see you alot. wish me the best.

i got no more time to update. whether if i get to see you, whether if i cry when you leave, whether i can finish up memorizing, i'll update some other day.



i hope you put some attention on me.

i'll blog later. but in the meantime, i would like to share a photo. TAKE A LOOK! especially, the one in the middle. location: outside momo.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!







go party people! love all of you! i mean all okay! EVERYONE!

yesterday was DXO. very tiny place i should say. i think is kinda stupid. i don't like their system. but i had loads of fun. dance and dance all the way. together with the lead male KJ, HER, AH KOR, DYAN, JEFF, JAYSON, KELVIN, RONG, SUGI and another two guys. dyan and jayson can really shake well. we drink and drink. get high. took of our footwear. jeff and kj danced shuffle. wonderful i should said. many guys were like trying out shuffle when they saw kj. but sadly, they don't have the talent.

basically, for the whole night. i was dancing with her. danced with jeff but he kept pushing me till i almost fall off the stair. kj stepped on my foot so hard that i fall straight on the floor. pain okay. one thing about dxo, they kept repeating the music played.




i cried when i reach home. actually, i wanted to cry in the cabby when i talked to kelvin. but i think i'll make the whole situation worst.

i know kj was feeling down last night. i want him to be sad. i hate to see him putting the nothing-had-happen front in front of me. i hate it. though i only know part of the whole event, i understand how you feel. certain things i wanna say out, but i'm afraid i might just hurt you cos it's might be something that you are escaping from. i'm searching for time to send you off. i don't wanna regret another time. i wish you all the best there. you are a nice guy. i'm sure it will be a forever thingy.

for jen. i know she suffering too. deep in her. i hate to see everyone pretending nothing happened. i make me more sad. both of them are my love, i can bare to see them getting hurt. cos i feel the hurt too. i just hope the decision you make will be the one that benefit you the most.

for kelvin. i understand everything.

i can feel in pain in you you and you. can you feel mine too?

night at museum was great. watched with my sis and mum along with my aunt and the daughter. i was so excited when my mum told me that we will be watching a movie after my class. i hardly watch a movie with my family. the last movie we watch was MONEY NO ENOUGH. that will be like dinosaur's years ago. shan't comment much about the movie. go catch it youselves. you will be pleased. anyway, i watched in GV max. but i hate the seat style. i had diffculties sitting properly. so, i hate the chair!




LAW LAW LAW. i love studying business law. i got to learn so much. Singapore is a strict country therefore, we got a zillions of law. there's really lot.


one example. many people are putting songs in there webby like blogspot, the most common ones. but how many of you ever register to put the songs legally in you webby? it's illegal to just copy the code of the songs and put it in your space. it's like downlaoding of songs. you are ripping. those music played in shopping centres, in fact, it is not allow. they must register with the government to make it legal. one can be caught if the play DJ with his songs in his computer allowing people from opposite his block of those living under and above him can hear all the song. this is illegal too. the songs you have belong to yourselves. no sharing. f you wanna put songs in your webby, please go register. cos next year, the law will be tough. they will be tracking with a new device. friendly advise to people. stop downloading songs. buy the cds.

MY DAD! =D

MY FACE IS SWOLLEN! tell me. just tell me how am i going to face people? a patch is 'chao ta.' sigh!

anyway, i have been staying here and there recently. going here and there recently. wasting money on this and that. staying over was what i also wanted. however, now, my home is the best. i miss my lappy when i staying out. i miss my bed and EVERYTHING.

my dad is cute and i love him alot! gees.

i think i'm gonna get a degree in FALLING DOWN. i always love to share. so, i'll share some pictures when i'm free. evidences of me falling down and how clumsy i can get! i'm angry! angry with myself for falling.

well, i had a lovely weekends. tried out new stuffs and getting my childhood memories back. i stayed at ah girl jie jie's place. intially, we thought of going gym in late evening. after much consideration, we when K session with desmond. slept between the two sisters. i'm the meat and they are the bread. the feeling is similar to those childhood days expect that the topics are different. desmond was like making fun of the way we talked. cos it's like the way a lil girl speak. perhaps it's becos we have been this way since long.

finally offical for clubbing and turf club. got introduced to many at the turf club. people for different races and country. the purpose of them introducing me so many it's becos they want people to gossip about me. LIMELIGHT you see. it's a place where people are flooded first gossips. they have nothing better to do there other than betting. i won 16 bucks! =) gotta have loads of close up of the horses. actually, for turf club, you can define it as totally low-end or fucking high-end. it depends. low-end has an entrance fee of 3 or 7 bucks. however high-end is for VIPs like ME! hahas. i saw the race live. when the horses are that the finishing line, that's the exciting part of the whole race. these this very memoriable one. the horse was MANUKA and the jockey was C. Goon. they were somewhere back and for the last few metres, they spreed like wind. i was there! right in front of me. i was damn impressed. my new idol is C. Goon. but he's married. the last race is our horse. i get to go have a touch of JIAN FENG. what a wonderful creature. Sharp Spur, our horse, was leading all the way which we hate it. cos sharp Spur prefer to have competitors in front of him. sadly, he came in second. but he's a great horse. if he's first, i'll be flooded by money now. i great experience though.

toey is stupid.

TELL ME! WHICH TEENAGE MORAN WILL HAVE A HANDPHONE BILL OF 600 BUCKS! TELL ME!

and so, we dance and dance and dance. we drink and drink and drink. tring legs. sleepy looks. rejecting people. being portect by AARON. talking, crapping. taking photos. we went high. we sweat. we laugh. we had to shout. we lost our voice. i perfer RnB but trans isn't bad too. cos for trans, the room is bigger and we had more space to dance. i tot i saw JORDAN dancing with another LADY. it's lady okay. yucks! this look-alike-jordan guy really like jordan. the way he walks, dancing, dressing, everything just look so alike, even this face, ear hole and hairstyle. but sigh! it's was not him. if not, i can dance with him. LOLS!!!

anyway, i have loads of fun with SM, JAS, LILING, ADE, JOLIN and AARON

i'm wondering if i should blog something about the "SHOW" i had today or should i just type some shit in here. if i type shit i here, i will have no shit to type. if i make comments about the great "SHOW", i'll be label evil, bastard. BUT I CAN'T FUCKING STOP MYSELF FROM MAKING COMMENTS! so what i'm label as the above. i just love making comments. LET'S START NOW? come on peeps.

SO, the whole class was so slient become these 2 particular person came in. they where somehow sitting in this particular seat and they were affecting me very much. friendly warnings were given to given to them. despite those warning, they still carrying on with their toddler topics. very least interesting and affecting me with their thunderous voice. so, sacastic warning was given and preschooler's replies were given. talking without thinking. obtuse somehow. replies like "you do your thing, i do my things, where got disturb you?" please please please. come on lar, if you are talking so fucking loud with your toddler topics, how can the lecturer continue his lesson." if you can do it, CLAPS! and another reply was "i wanna sue you!" "for wad?" "for nothing." clever indeed. creating a scene, making yourselves in everyone eyes. i really think my lecturer is so great! he's a lawyer you see. so, evidences are need as stated in the law. so, this particular person said something and my lecturer asked she to repeat and she did repeated which was today stupid. cos the lecturer had recorded the whole conversation. they were so pissed off with the lecturer cos the lecturer ask them to shut their bloody mouth. and then, they left the room and while one of them was walking pass the lecture a "FUCK YOU!" came out. it's just so cool got the "FUCK YOU" could be recorded so clearly. dim-wit!

the funny thing was when they left the classroom, from the back of me i could her "chee-bye kia, get lost lar, knn, LL, XL and stuffs" everyone was like YEAH YEAH YEAH!

advise were given for you to change, you ignore. we thought our ignorance could lightened you but your toddler brain just can think further and wider. blame your mouth. blame your character. if your results are good, you don't have to show off. we will know. stop being a cannon.

AAAHH HAHAHAHA! i'm happy but i'm not that happy.

certain issues still whirling in my mind. i like yi ting's courage. she has the courage that i always wanted. ting: can lend me some of ur courage or rather give me some? LOL. i'm jealous, i envy her. i really do. though at times, outcome may turned into shit but think back, we did it. at least we did it. we won't have to continue playing mind games, with answers that will never be told. there no longer be worriess, or irritating feeling inside us. the argh to know how will things go on the next day. at least both knew the whole situation. you just feel that a huge burden put down. so relax. it's a good thing. however, scarification is need. loads of preparations. preparations of the cool replies. the left behind.

SO, i hereby wish TING all the best. and of cos, to myself.

i'm wondering if the information given a reliable one? totally spoilt my mood somehow. but i'll get a recomfirmation of the answer later. but if it happened that it is not the answer that i'm yearning for..... then, CAN YOU ASK YOUR GIRLFRIEND TO GO AND DIE? i'll be most grateful. THANKS. =)

i sprain my ankle and now, i'm thinking how am i gonna walk tml. COOL.

i just don't understand what fucking shit she sees in him. he's just a pile of fucking shit la.

woah! it's came true. so sweet. what bliss! it just happened that i went to the place on this particular day and i got to see this particular person. i was so shocked that it appeared almost the same as in dream. however, absolutely ecstatic. you know, the moment when you just lost control of your behavior, your thoughts and everything and you start going wild! i just love this feeling. it been long since i really jumped with joy. you know, you just jump so high for that beautiful moment.

for my life there 2 person and 1 thing who made me jumped so high. well, the thing was getting my fucking long awaiting results. my dad lied to me that i did bloody badly. PBM2-C, ECON-D. bitch, i got a fucking shock of my whole life. facial expression changed straight. anyway, i got an A and B as expected. yea, this was the thing that made me jumped to high at NIFER'S place. feel the joy in me?



i'm very impress with this china classmate of mine. she looks fucking funny. she's a clown in the class's eye. you see, i labelled her RU HUA. i know it's bad, but i think she suit this nickname best. she buys online clothings and they are totally limted. can't even find her clothings from pasa malam. many tried searching for her clothes. many tried getting into her style but they are upset to say, they just can afford her clothings, shoes and her bag. her favourite colour is pink, hot pink, purple, blue and yellow. woah! 5 colours. just right to fill the 5 school days. i'm just amused that she can actually mix and match with these 5 outfit of hers. i can't. claps! she just have this very fashionable style. or rather unique. alright. i'm not impress with her shit. she impress me with her english accent. i'm wondering does she participate in phone chatting. as in those in the magazines, you call this particular number and so sweet voice come along. if she really does, WOAH to her. her voice is WOAH but bare this is mind, it's her voice, not her. i think something happened to her. maybe someone snap her laughing spot that cause her to interupt our lesssons by laughing at every sentence the lecture said? at times, i just feel like throwing my FAT textbook right at her and ask her to shut her mouth fuckingly. oh ya! she got this very stylish spec that she had bought recently. SPEC? did i said SPEC? i think it's more to magnifying glasses. yup! she wear two magnifying glasses that she hooked on her ears with this AH MA string around her neck. cute right?

since she's just so F-ing famous, i tried being famous in nifer's place. i took nifer's hairband and tied like her. wooow! lynn laughed till she fall straight on the floor. just so f-ing fun imitating CLOWNS.

i just got free waxing. u know, when you fracture your arms, legs, neck and so on, you would prefer to go see a chinese doctor. becos these doctors just have to crack here and there, put some needles here and there, you will be back to normal in no time. mostly, the sin seh will give you this huge SHIT colour plaster and you just have to leave it on your body for the numbers of days that the sin seh had stated. the plaster just has this special function of waxing. SO, i pasted this huge piece of shit on my back and "WOAH!" THERE GOES ALL MY BACK HAIRS! cool man! it's so itchy now!

i din know that my back can actually affect my leg.



kinda weird though. thought my leg has recovered like tons of years ago but it just happened that my leg was killing me last night. no choice but to drag myself to the ah girl jie jie's chinese medical clinic. gees. i was surprised to see norman there too! pathetic knee of his. look so fat with the bandage. count me lucky to see him there. i got a free ride back. i hate the cabby driver. brake and move move and brake. for god sake, i was half dead! nice.

OUT WITH ADE!

sometimes, dreams can be so real, so true. you just hope to be in the dreamland forever if only the dream was a pleasant one. however, at time, some may be forgotten when you are awake while some, the scenes are still playing in your head so vividly.

the dream i had, i thought it was real for sure. i woke up with a smile followed with disappointment. it's so true that i could feel every touch. last month, i had a dream similar, as in a sweet one, not the content. it just similar to what i wanna have in reality. i should be glad to be given such dreams. so what if it doesn't happen in reality. at least they are real when i'm asleep. i know it's absurd but i love it.

yeah, folks always says that dreams are the reverse of reality. but some dreams are given as a clue to reality. i know my dreams are just dreams to make my sleep a better one. i know it will never appear in reality.



if we stop hiding, we will be.

am i affected? if i'm not, why am i thinking?

my sweet temptation