that's the funny thing between melting me, jen, when someone tries to be a bitch, i don't know why, we could always be double of them. and that's probably why are we in such a good and loving terms. oh man! see, now i miss bitching and gossiping with you guys. and that bleedy jen's not back yet.

sorry mellie if my previous second post somehow affect you. i was just trying out something.

boyfriend and i are still happily together. sorry to disappoint you after so many times yea.

this is the freak which i have been mentioning all along.

mum, dad, auntie, uncle and so on, now you see him. told you there's nothing much. not handsome, not tall, not macho. (i'm dead)

i tell you people. i put mascara on my eye lashes. but he said: "eh, you put erm... glue on your eye lashes?" next, he has became melvin's legendary 'teh bao' king. then, he drools. yucks!

we still quarrel. was it counted as quarrel? 'cause we always get back happily after a few minutes or less than an hour. it's my fault. well, the problem is i couldn't change despite knowing this huge temper of mine. it's the medication lar! comfirm. i tried to be nice and everything to my family. but, if they said something which makes me repeat or like they ask what i wanna eat and i told them anything, they would ask "what is anything?" that's where it hits me. that's where my shouting comes.

back to work.
work is really stress these day 'cause i got nothing to do at all! i stare into space. i update the newspaper like forever. i go toilet uncountable times to waste some time, on the other hand, doing a little of exercising. i go coffee bean to chill. using the lappy to watch videos. taking trash to the other agt. AND THAT REALLY STRESS ME OUT! 'CAUSE I GOT NOTHING TO DO! i know i complain and get stress when i got alot of things to do. but i don't mind, 'cause that's when every day, every minutes and seconds are my money. now, i'm complaining and getting stress over doing nothing at work! 'cause every day, every minutes and seconds, i don't get money! i know this is insane complaining that my job is too relaxing. but it's really stress to be relax.

"XIAO MEI, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR LEG?!"
*sighs & poutings* "infection lor." with a damn sad face.

i have become an exhibit for most people in office. or rather my leg. and they will go:

"aiyo! why like that? got see doctor not? i think better go see doctor."
"wah. some people ugly already lor." (leg doesn't matter actually, UNCLE ken.)
"why so swollen?"
"how come like that?"
"it's BLEEEEEEEEDING."
"the beleeding is not stopping."
"you shouldn't sit with your leg crossed. it will affect the infection."
"eeeewwww." (seriously, wtf.)

uncle tim, uncle, winnie, alvin and jeff are seriously drop dead fan of my infection.

anyway, i got a shock of my life at 3.11pm today. while i was teaching winnie and uncle tim how to use the photoshop, my phone rang twice. i thought it was my mum so i ignore it. (LOL!) it kept ringing so i went to pick it up,

"xiao mei, take the case which is on the table and go for completion! NOW! the buyers and sellers are already there."

A HUGE QUESTION MARKS SMACK INTO MY HEAD!

HUH?!

i was staring blanking at alvin who was telling me nonsense. next, i realised he's also an agt so, i asked him how to take the queue number. and A HUGE QUESTION MARKS SMACKED RIGHT INTO HIS HEAD TOO. the last thing on my mind was jeff, all i could think was him and he is the only one who can help me. i flew to his desk and for how god love me, my saviour jeff came to office and he was right there, sitting and talking nonsense.

he showed me his huge helping hand. aww~ glad he came. if not i'll be dead. seriously dead. i will be walking to the 2nd level of HDB Hub, blankly with millions of huge question marks. i might be ended up talking trash to the buyer too. screwing up everything. so, lucky jeff came.

work, studies and relationship.

i get stress from work. i get stressed up with my stress. and i get stressed over my relationship.
i hate it.

so, i had a lot of thoughts last night. finally, i made a conclusion.

i cannot give up my studies, it help me to fulfill my future needs. i cannot give up on my work 'cause i need the experience for my future job.

relationship? yea, i intend to give up my relationship if i really couldn't cope with this three any longer. i's not that i longer like him or what. label me as selfish. i don't know. whatever is creating a huge blockage to what i wanna achieve in future, i couldn't keep them/it for long.

maybe i have grown. maybe i'm not the girl whom everyone knows any longer. maybe i changed because of 'usually'. maybe i change with the environment i'm in. i guess it's all that changed me.

'usually' gave me the thought that there's really so nice guy out there. it's okay if he had not chose me to be his gf but some other girl in a pub, i seriosuly don't mind. yet, whenever his gf is not around, he send me this "my gf is not staying at my house today, you wanna meet me for dinner?" a guy whom i used my entire life to love him, he was just like my soul tattoo and i thought he was so perfect till he sent me this. have he ever thought if his gf is doing the same thing behind him, how would he feel?

'cause of what shadow this soul tattoo of mine has casted, i realise, there is no longer anyone nice in this world. no one should be easily trusted. i totally lost hope in guys.

the enviroment i'm living in now is totally materialistic. how can i not get influence with them? i'm so motivated to earn hell lots to achieve what i want. that's my first priority.

i lost hope in guys and i'm first priority is to achieve what i want. so, how could i get into a relationship in the first place? i should stay single. i hear voices in my agreeing what i said.

i'm really tired. i'm not happy. i made this decision, i don't know if i will regret it, i seriously don't know. all i know is, i want to achieve what i have always wanted for my future.


this is not the life i want any longer.

Rules of the Taggy Quiz:
A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Here are my answers:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
stay in my own world for a few minutes, then, GOOD-BYE JERK.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
can i have 2 dreams? 1) get me to LA right now! 2) penthouse at The Sail please~ can i have 3 dreams? heh!

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
LA la! shopping happily at Victoria''s Secret.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
not really. i have made my future plans. a little confuse at times, when things now don't go my way. it makes me get panic to realise that achieving what i want in future is not an easy job. so, i ended up getting to stressed up and hand tremble like electric chair, and venting all my anger on my family and bf. really sorry. it's not totally my fault, it's the medicine i'm talking now, yea.

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
someone who's like my bf but much more taller and macho. (i'm dead)

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone, of course! and of course, loving someone. LOL!

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
no point waiting. i waited and wasted my time. move on, idiots.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
good-bye, once love.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
EVERYTHING. i'm serious. i get pissed off with the slighest thing. it's the medicine that cause it. i didn't want to.

#10. What do you want most in life?
a pefect life.

#11. Is being tagged fun?
someone forced me to do so! if not my she will be sibei sad. see, she smiling now!

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
top producer. overriding of 20k for a month. big advertisment all over the strait times. trash elaine lee. damn famous in real estate. investing in some business which i have no idea what will that be. senior vice president of some real estate company BUT never HSR. bless with one sweet baby GIRL. and a loving, understanding husband. staying in some newly launched projects in city area.

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
myself.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
what could i ever think? she's my love for god sake!

#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
seriously, i don't mind being single and rich. i don't have to rely on a man. who says being single cannot be happy? it's totally crap!

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
a puppy that will never grow into a dog.

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
taking the MRT. fuck MRT. dirty, smelly. totally digusting.

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
damn friendly to people who i see them as money. super bad temper. (like i said, it's not what i want to be. it's the medicine.) damn violent but always pretend to not be one. annoying. straightforward. bitch. super focus when i wanna learn something.

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
not getting enough of sleep. which also means i have bad day everyday.

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
this is stupid.

1) kayden
2) coeus
3) serena
4) tomtom


THAT'S IT!

AND the wait is finally over, 'high pitch's' precious lil princess is out today. how i wish i was in the hospital to be the first few to get to see his princess.

she's so much alike her brother. look at her mouth. aww~ i'm so gonna go visit her tomorrow. i don't care if the operation hurts till i couldn't walk, i seriously don't care, i'm so gonna see her by tomorrow. gonna pester adrian to stop working and get our ass off the chair and fly over to see her.

THREE CHEERS TO PRECIOUS EN RU!!!

welcome to the world little girl.

OPERATION TOMORROW!
drop dead scared! damn it!

just when i was so confident to tell TNA that i'm also getting iphone, this came out,

SUMSUNG OMNIA

freaking shit $1,098. this is totally, totally insane. while 'high pitch' was there comparing and explaining why ipod is better, i keep telling him that this phone is EVEN better. and when he can't defeat me, he always ends the conversation with 'PI AH!

i think i should start packeting to move over to daniel's house. I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT TO! the thought of it still excite me even though it was planned a month ago. i'm going to daniel's place, i'm going to daniel's place, place, place.

today was pretty relax at work. photoshop was my bestfriend at work. i did 3 flyers. i will be out next week at punggol, sengkang, tampines and of course, almost the whole of geylang. wee~ can't really imagine that so many people in singapore is gonna see my work and the next moment, it will be dump into the rubbish bin or used to throw fish bones. that's the sad thing.

i tell you, TNA is full of insane people. i swear and that was why i'm in TNA too. they are way too sweet and nice to the max. now, they way i talk, is so much like them. i like it when almost all the TNA is in the office. one thing is cause: they are always praising me. i have no idea why too. they just praise the things i do. AND IT'S AN EVERYDAY THING. imgine that!

BUT, i really like them so so so muuuccccccccccccch.

and today, uncle alferd asked if i'm the coordinator, and sylvester told him that i'm the PA, they were arguing about my position till they offically announced to everyone that PA stands for Public Assistant. which means, i'm everyone's Personal Assistant. so, they were fighting over me like:

uncle alferd: original(regina), you have to help me do this and this today okay.

slyvester: don't disturb her, she will be very busy 'cause she has signed the contract for F1 with me.
uncle alferd: you help me do this, i give you commission.(still not giving up)

slyvester: ALFERD!

me: i'm totally devoted to MAG.

one more thing, i'm so so so so proud with MAG. they got promoted twice this year! it's just only june. 6 months 2 promotions. MARKETING DIRECTOR NOW. CONGRATS! i was so excited about it as if i was the one being promoted. 'high pitch' was so calm, he was not even happy la. i was like:

me: eh, you see this flyer colour can not? *walked away to do other things*

high pitch: xiao mei, wrong already. (ya, for you infor, no one calls my name in office. the only name being called was 'xiao mei.'

me: HUH! WHERE?(damn panic. cause 6pm already, i'm suppose to go home, no more editings.)

high pitch: not senior marketing manger, it's marketing director.

me: WOW! REALLY AH? WHY YOU NEVER TELL ME? OKAY! I KNOW ALREADY. I MUST PUT THE TITTLE DAMN BIG IN THE FLYER. (damn excited)

high pitch: shen jing bin.

me: why? MARKETING DIRECTOR LEH. AI SEH MAN!

high pitch: bu yao bai chi leh. (up 5 key.)

Lastly,

LOTS OF LOVE TO TNA!

I'M ALL OVER THE SAIL @ MARINA BAY

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, GIVE ME A UNIT IN THE SAIL @ MARINA BAY TO STAY!!


i don't mind it it's a just studio or 2 room, 3 room, 4 room or even a penthouse(best of all choices). JUST GIVE ME A HOUSE TO STAY OVER THERE!











TELL ME! how to resist this project! it's totally full SEA VIEW. no painting, all full height windows to prevent the sea water from corroding the paints(so thoughtful). it's RIGHT OPPOSITE CASINO. a central park tower on the 34th storey with an exclusive club lounge. and A SKY GARDERN ON THE 44TH STOREY!

man, this project is feaking shit asking for $3Kpsf. which means it can go up to $5M.

it's okay if you think the sail @ marina bay is expensive. what do you expect? it's one of the best project ever.

ANYBODY WANNA BUY FOR ME?! it's TOP-ing in 2011. i can wait! i swear!

or maybe you wanna get it for youself? I WOULD BE SO HAPPY TO HELP YOU FIND THE BEST HOUSE YOU WOULD EVER WANT.


i love this too.

Hillcrest Villa

i doubt i need to give more details. it's fantabulous! anyway, they are selling at $3M.

anybody wanna buy? TOP in 2010!

look at the time now! i need to wake up at 9am to work and still not asleep yet! it's tomorrow and next week's plan that excite me.

1) my ever-waiting kungfu panda.
2) PC show for my laptop!! (eventually!)
3) the arrival of En Ru, whilst getting to see Shao Heng.
4) gonna go grandpa's place, so i get to see my super duper cute niece.
5) going to chase my money back. (sounded like a loanshark) might be creating a scene there. not gonna give any face any longer. CAN'T WAIT TO!
6) no 'high pitch' in office for the whole month!! which means, CAN GO HOME EARLY.
7) shopping after work!! no need to stay in office to suffer telemarker craps. HOLY GOD!
8) boyfriend gonna go office on monday!!
9) DFLY, SATURDAY! (all long awaiting) club till siao LOR!
10) booking of chalet for the whole TNA!
11) boyfriend quits smoking month! muahaha!


how to sleep?!

"how did you manage your job and studies together?" they asked.
people start praising me when they know i started off my day from 10am-9pm almost everyday. they envy me. they encourage me. they pity me somehow. and they go"if my daughter or son is half of you, how good will that be?"

doctors asked me to stop it. i will like risking my health.

BUT! if i don't work hard for money now, i wouldn't be able to achieve what i want in future. i'm doing this for myself. not anyone else. no, not even my family. just myself.

bigger lady boss and bigger boss praised me in front of the whole table today. they told 'high pitch' to teach me whatever they can. i won't make their efforts go down the drain. i admit that it does create a greater stress in me. 'cause everyone have the faith in me. even the taxi drivers and strangers.

i like this family i found. not 'cause they apraise me like everyday. i really feel so much belonged. so much better than the previous one. every gathering is a lesson being learnt. every time, there will always be people who wanna take me away from 'high pitch.'

i hope 'high pitch's' baby girl will be due. so that i can go to the hospital and work cum play with shao heng and his newly due baby girl. awww~

the one who brought life into our family - my niece, raine koh.

okay, she like more 2 months old already and this was the very first time i see her. i don't even know when she was borned. that was how terrible i am being her aunt. i'm the last in the entire family tree to see her. how horrible.

she really soo sooo soooooooo super duper cute. look at her big eyes. and look at the small hands with those tiny fingers.

ain't she cute? there's no way you will say NO.

i really couldn't bare to part with her to meet some milo's friend guy. i didn't even get the chance to carry her!!! ROAR!!! i wanna carry her. but i'm just afraid i might break her bones. she's really soft. even touching her freaks me out, thinking that i might hurt her and SHE WILL CRIES!

i have totally no idea why i'm at office at this time. i have nothing to do at all. i have been surfing the net since 9am. this is crazy. i got nothing to do which makes me get so worried.

GONNA MEET YOUNGEST BITCH LATER! WEEE~~ when are we meeting huh, oldest and second bitch?

pay day was like 6 days ago and it's been a really poor week for me already. i haven't gave my mum money yet, but, 1 more week and money flows into my account. wee~ this time is way so much better. 2 groups of money flowing into my account. 1 more week to being rich. YEAH!!! 4 more days to rich queky. next saturday is shopping for the rich girls. next thursday is facial. next friday is after exam celebration for rich girls. and 1 weeks later, it's a rest week for poor me('cause spend all on boyfriend and me.) but richest day for queky. but 1 week later, it's rich me again. muahahaha!

money really makes one boost their confident level. 1 more week.

gucci sales is on already.

queky loves me. A loves me. A's wife loves me. M loves me. Angela loves me. Andrew loves me. sharon loves me. irene loves me. noor loves me. yiling loves me. china girl loves me. cherry loves me. bigger boss and his wife love me. jeff loves me. anthony loves me. kiasheng loves me. slyvester loves me. uncle david loves me. jennifer loves me. jenny loves me. alvin loves me. biggest boss loves me. ken loves me. 9 kong loves me. brandon loves me. jay loves me. daniel loves me. and my boyfriend loves me.

i see no reason that i will ever ever plan to leave this company. MA.G asked me to work for them till 40 and they will get me a car~~~

SISSOR PAPER STONE!!
we were playing this so happy, ignoring others who are eating right beside us. i know it's really really childish but that's what couples always do, right? stupid stuffs. the purpose was that who lose has to pay the bills. i won, of course and he dragged himself to the cashier. LOL! i cheated anyway.

okay lar, i pay for the oil this thursday also lor.

he bought n82. initially, he was considering n95(stupid phone) and n82(another stupid phone but obviously better than n95). so, at the counter, we were arguing over this issue right in front of the sales guy and to stop us from arguing, the sales guy brought out the 2 phones. i'm a total anti-n95 and so, i demand him to get n85 no matter what. heh! he's worshipping it now i guess. i went off to change my pants and ho-ho-ho told me that the sales guy told him: "your girlfriend very powerful." geees.

he's gonna sign contract with me for quitting smoking. a lifetime one. finally, quitting smoking. muahahaha!

i don't know why. when i'm with him, the whole world seems to be just me and him.

i hope queky feels the same way for 'ahem' too. queky, i know you will be reading this tomorrow at 3pm, might be beside me, i don't know. don't cry okay. =)

i'm serious. no point now. really. an example, "usually" comes and go, the way like what they did to you. i really liked him liked him alot, like my entire life. you know how i feel for him too. he still comes back now, at times, i got stucked with the things he said. but i realised, it's going nowhere for us. he can go dig the sweetest talks that ever exist on earth for you to hear. deep down in you, feel it, who's the one who is truthful to you. yes, i know, the feeling is still there. me too. move on. you will never know if the next one will be better. don't always miss it because of the same old problem. why get yourself in a delimma? come on, what industry are you working at now? wake up, you know all these are just craps. it's just the feelings. one thing girl, feelings can change anytime when you met the right one. i'm not helping anymore to speak now. just from my views, and all the nonsense i ever had, move on. live with the right man, love the right man. come on baby, use your working skills to judge.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY MY MELLIE DARLING!!!


it's really okay to be old. 'cause you get to act really cute now. LOL!

see you soon. love you baby!!!

you see you see. the ah pui is in office already. i cannot stand his voice anymore. "okay okay okay ooooooookay ooooooooooooooooooookay." IT'S ENOUGH! don't make my stuff hamburgers into your mouth.

enough la freak. how many times must i say? can i sop giving you fake smile? cause you might cause me to loose my job. it's okay if you took my list and acted like it was yours. it's okay if you created a blog that "hello, did i just read MA.G's blog which i created?" and you still can freaking shit show it to me right in front of my face. i spend my entire week doing it and you freaking shit rip everything over in just a day.

seriously now, what's the point of comparing how many leads MA.G has? it doesn't makes any differences if you doesn't have so many. you still earn okay freak.

i'm just nothing in office actually. i earn peanuts. you earn huge money. i'm just freaking 20 and you are 20 something. i admit i have more experience than you. but come on, i'm just a small fly. what's so good about my stuffs that you would wanna copy?

just shut up for once is it okay? your voice is seriously damn irritating. i don't care if you read my blog or not, (if you remember my link) just stop being a photocopying machine. enough is enough. i have my limits. don't make my squeeze out all your fats. stop being so hypocrite in fornt of MA.G. stop pulling other people into the picture.

get on with your life. move man. no point comparing. you are just lousy if you don't have leads. that's it idiot. and now, stop using the phone to call and stop talking like me. nabei!

ya i know my coughing is really irritating and i think everyone is praying for me to recover soon cause it seriously affect their job. it's been a month. i think they are so gonna throw me out of office soon and change the password. =(

i know i have alot of people reading my blog. what's so interesting anyway? you hate me and wish me dead so you read my blog. you love me to max so you read my blog. you doesn't know me and you read my blog.

so, you, ah pui, better stop it. it's enough. have your brains and not mine. i have alot of photocopying machines in office. i don't need another one. thank you.

what are you trying to compare now? what's the point actually? get on with you life man, come on.


i saw mellie yesterday. but when will i get see ting and jen huh huh huh?!

sigh, when's the bitches gonna ransake the house ever again? miss that night so much. cause they are always talking about my favourite topic. LOL! just kidding la. cause it was the night the 4 of us get together what! i think we should be like the actress in sex and the city, they meet up like so often even when they are so busy la. unfair. in new york city more relaxing meh? OKAY, i know i know, it's a movie.

but i totally love this movie ending for the drama they acted. it's my all time favourite. gucci, prada, LV, channel, dior, polo, fendi, and so on la. the list go on.

i have customers who have their LV and Gucci. it's seems that LV and Gucci are really big shit for them. they talked so proud and complain for my improfession. nabei! damn these old women. SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE GUCCI & LV? don't you know that, agt at showflat doesn't really serve them. cause it's not hermes and channel. get it? LV, GUCCI, is nothing, old women who wants to buy a pathetic 3-rm flat.

anyway, back to boyfriend again. yes, i know. it's AGAIN. i can't help it. i love ho-ho-ho today and yesterday. for yesterday, it's cos he paid my stuffs for me and he accompanied me for sex and the city along with queky and her new next boyfriend, leon. (OH SHIT!) hmm, i wasn't sure if it's willingly, but yea, he paid, so i love him. as for today, how to put it? erm, sweet? cause we talked like we never talked? make it this way, i just love him. of course it's not cause he paid for my stuffs and so i love him. you know, i love him everyday and more each day. so, yea.

we watched chocolate. it's a disgusting movie cause THEY CHOP TOES!! and that freak love it so much when the dumb girl fights. totally nonsense. lucky we didn't spend it in the cinema. don't watch it. it's a total waste of money. totally turned off la.

you know, of my boyfriend's entire life, he only complains about 4 things to me: army life(which is over. yeah!), when the auntie down his block cut his hair, no money and lastly, the chicken chop. it's totally ridiculous. he complains like a girl and i have to always cool him down. see, i'm the man.

OH YEAH! my boyfriend reads my blog. *waving vigorously* HELLO BOYFRIEND!! =) can see me?
you better wake up huh, freak. or you wanna come office to LEARN some stuff FROM ME?