only queky will understand! LOL! read it queky!
电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下
如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过
短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱
因为对你我连再见都
说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中
Friday, June 29, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
i miss the times when i had sore throat and honey lemon will be deliver to me.
i miss the days when i'm greeted with a morning msges that made my days.
i miss the times when i sick and i'm being brought to the clinic.
i miss the times when we quarrel everyday about nothing.
i miss that feeling when i first sat on a bike.
i miss the the times when i'm brought to the beach.
i miss the times when i'm the first being turned to.
i miss having stories.
i miss that time when i got nothing to eat and food was deliver to me.
would you be there to deliver food to me when my parents are not around?
would you buy honey lemon for me when i have sore throat?
yould you send me msges that brighten up my day?
would you bring me to the doctor when i dead sick?
would you tell me stories in the middle of the night when i can't sleep?
would you bring me around just to see the night scenery?
would you be there still make and effort to call me?
would you accompany me?
would you be there to wait for my msg each day and when i don't msg any single day, you will call?
would you give me irritating morning calls?
would you call me and just to hear me talk?
would you allow me to complete my piece?
tell me you want me.
i miss the days when i'm greeted with a morning msges that made my days.
i miss the times when i sick and i'm being brought to the clinic.
i miss the times when we quarrel everyday about nothing.
i miss that feeling when i first sat on a bike.
i miss the the times when i'm brought to the beach.
i miss the times when i'm the first being turned to.
i miss having stories.
i miss that time when i got nothing to eat and food was deliver to me.
would you be there to deliver food to me when my parents are not around?
would you buy honey lemon for me when i have sore throat?
yould you send me msges that brighten up my day?
would you bring me to the doctor when i dead sick?
would you tell me stories in the middle of the night when i can't sleep?
would you bring me around just to see the night scenery?
would you be there still make and effort to call me?
would you accompany me?
would you be there to wait for my msg each day and when i don't msg any single day, you will call?
would you give me irritating morning calls?
would you call me and just to hear me talk?
would you allow me to complete my piece?
tell me you want me.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
so dead! the bodyaches and the flu is seriously killing me along with all the cold sweats. dead!
i'm so gonna fail BIS i think. one question was BLANK. while the answers for the other questions were all jumble up. i swear i was very confident in doing this exam. real confident. but the air conditional was far to cold for my body to take it. ended up, increasing my body temperature along with headaches and finally, i said "GIVE UP!" i'm just so angry with myself! damn! but shopping cures everything!
either i pray hard to pass it or i pray hard that i will not re-module this stupid subject. i know nuts about it.
alright, i know many out there know my chinese is pretty sucky. not to the max as if i can't speak a word about it. i can speak in fact. it's just that the way i speak, at times, i would seriously laugh at myself.
normally, i speak english this days. so, once, norman said this to eugene
"don't use mandarin to talk to her."
"why?"
"she need to translate into english before replying you."
in fact, i never deny that. i really have to translate it before replaying. my mandarin is so sucky that when i sing i ktv, i know how to pronounce the word but i don't understand a single thing about the whole song. all i know was, they are loves song because they got the word "爱." while for some, the words used must be very simple in order for me to understand. like speaking to ade, she very good in using simple mandarin to talk to me. i really appreciate it so much! maybe she used to the way i speak my chinese.
now, i'm really trying my best to know more chinese wordings. like listening to chinese songs(though i still can't catch what the meaning whlist reading the lyric). i watch campus superstar, trying my very best to understand what the judges are commenting, still, i don't understand a single shit. why doesn't they have english subtitle! UNFAIR! i like watching drama, at least there are subtitles for me! i don't have to translate it myself! even though i'm still stuck, i'll try my very best though i still have thai to learn.
anyway, what wake me up to learn mandarin was this friend of mine, he got this real cool chinese name which i though was representing someone from ancient who has alot of intelligence. his name is "wang he zhang." damn man! it's so chinese and sexy. (mian mian, i was just refering to the name alright. don't anyhow spread.) and when it's converted into english, even more unique and sexier. seriously, i would much perfer to call him wang he zhang than vincent. but too bad, this fella sucks in chinese too. just so cool la. to have a real very real chinese name and doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i also want leh!
to those who went zouk with me the other day, i'm sorry to disgrace myself. i'm sorry to be drunk and talked nonsense. forgive me if i said stuffs that you wouldn't wanna hear.
and javier, thanks so much for being there! at least someone knows how i feel now. for whole 2 years, i finally let it out. though i couldn't do anything now. i just have to abandon the promise i made for the time being till he changes.
i seriously don't understand why certain people made certain promises yet they can just simply treat it like nothing. whereas for me, i made a promise and i didn't fulfill it. I HAVE BEEN GUILTY FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS! just really wondering why they aren't guilty.
i'm so gonna fail BIS i think. one question was BLANK. while the answers for the other questions were all jumble up. i swear i was very confident in doing this exam. real confident. but the air conditional was far to cold for my body to take it. ended up, increasing my body temperature along with headaches and finally, i said "GIVE UP!" i'm just so angry with myself! damn! but shopping cures everything!
either i pray hard to pass it or i pray hard that i will not re-module this stupid subject. i know nuts about it.
alright, i know many out there know my chinese is pretty sucky. not to the max as if i can't speak a word about it. i can speak in fact. it's just that the way i speak, at times, i would seriously laugh at myself.
normally, i speak english this days. so, once, norman said this to eugene
"don't use mandarin to talk to her."
"why?"
"she need to translate into english before replying you."
in fact, i never deny that. i really have to translate it before replaying. my mandarin is so sucky that when i sing i ktv, i know how to pronounce the word but i don't understand a single thing about the whole song. all i know was, they are loves song because they got the word "爱." while for some, the words used must be very simple in order for me to understand. like speaking to ade, she very good in using simple mandarin to talk to me. i really appreciate it so much! maybe she used to the way i speak my chinese.
now, i'm really trying my best to know more chinese wordings. like listening to chinese songs(though i still can't catch what the meaning whlist reading the lyric). i watch campus superstar, trying my very best to understand what the judges are commenting, still, i don't understand a single shit. why doesn't they have english subtitle! UNFAIR! i like watching drama, at least there are subtitles for me! i don't have to translate it myself! even though i'm still stuck, i'll try my very best though i still have thai to learn.
anyway, what wake me up to learn mandarin was this friend of mine, he got this real cool chinese name which i though was representing someone from ancient who has alot of intelligence. his name is "wang he zhang." damn man! it's so chinese and sexy. (mian mian, i was just refering to the name alright. don't anyhow spread.) and when it's converted into english, even more unique and sexier. seriously, i would much perfer to call him wang he zhang than vincent. but too bad, this fella sucks in chinese too. just so cool la. to have a real very real chinese name and doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i also want leh!
to those who went zouk with me the other day, i'm sorry to disgrace myself. i'm sorry to be drunk and talked nonsense. forgive me if i said stuffs that you wouldn't wanna hear.
and javier, thanks so much for being there! at least someone knows how i feel now. for whole 2 years, i finally let it out. though i couldn't do anything now. i just have to abandon the promise i made for the time being till he changes.
i seriously don't understand why certain people made certain promises yet they can just simply treat it like nothing. whereas for me, i made a promise and i didn't fulfill it. I HAVE BEEN GUILTY FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS! just really wondering why they aren't guilty.
Friday, June 15, 2007
damn man! his photos can really melts the freaking shit outta me! it's like every picture i'll go "WOW WOW WOW!" and the wow-ing never seems to come to a halt.
oh my freaking shity 天, he must have undergo plastic surgery!
it's like when you look into his eyes, you must be wondering if you have been to heaven. LIKE SERIOUSLY, SO DAMN GOOD LOOKING! oh my 天! i just can't get my eyes off the pictures!
it's not like having illusions of going mad over luo zhi xiang or wang li hong or daniel wu or edison or wu zun. that's totally stupid cos it's totally so unrealistic, so dumb. yea, that WAS me.
no wonder all the women just can't resist to bring themselves to him.
but actually, good looking man are great disappointment also what!
anyway, i think man is much more perfered than not boys. boys like real boyish, still schooling, stuck with exams, young boys like my age and maybe a year or two older than me. and still having those real freaking childish thoughts suck in their mind. and they come everyday claiming you don't love them and all ther pestering comes and so on. i prefer man! prolly because i hang around with too many people. mature man can seriously suck your heart away. i like man like real man, mature. one the other hand, i like man, like boyish man and mature.
oh my 天! i don't mind you taking my heart away man!
it's party time! weet!
oh my freaking shity 天, he must have undergo plastic surgery!
it's like when you look into his eyes, you must be wondering if you have been to heaven. LIKE SERIOUSLY, SO DAMN GOOD LOOKING! oh my 天! i just can't get my eyes off the pictures!
it's not like having illusions of going mad over luo zhi xiang or wang li hong or daniel wu or edison or wu zun. that's totally stupid cos it's totally so unrealistic, so dumb. yea, that WAS me.
no wonder all the women just can't resist to bring themselves to him.
but actually, good looking man are great disappointment also what!
anyway, i think man is much more perfered than not boys. boys like real boyish, still schooling, stuck with exams, young boys like my age and maybe a year or two older than me. and still having those real freaking childish thoughts suck in their mind. and they come everyday claiming you don't love them and all ther pestering comes and so on. i prefer man! prolly because i hang around with too many people. mature man can seriously suck your heart away. i like man like real man, mature. one the other hand, i like man, like boyish man and mature.
oh my 天! i don't mind you taking my heart away man!
it's party time! weet!
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
YAY! i'm gonna start work next month! see, it's always good to know more and more and MORE people. even a month of holiday, i still can look for an office job. worse, i'm without experience. there's disadvantage in here. cos i know the person who is hiring me and he said i'm still kinda naive, so i have to learn everything. he said i have to try my best to get hold of everything as soon as possible so that other will be able to bring me out and meet the client! YAY! and i'm so gonna be the youngest in the company! AAHAHAHA! the feeling is just so good!
i read the book, man are from mars and women are from venus. real good book. i spent almost 2 lessons to look through the whole book. yeah, i was listening to what the lecture was saying. i even slept in class today and i dreamt that the lecture asked the whole class to go pick litters. how dumb. reason being, before i fall asleep, nifer was complaining that jamie littered the floor till so dirty. yea, that's absolutely dumb. anyway, in the book there this things that the author said
i read the book, man are from mars and women are from venus. real good book. i spent almost 2 lessons to look through the whole book. yeah, i was listening to what the lecture was saying. i even slept in class today and i dreamt that the lecture asked the whole class to go pick litters. how dumb. reason being, before i fall asleep, nifer was complaining that jamie littered the floor till so dirty. yea, that's absolutely dumb. anyway, in the book there this things that the author said
"women can talk about potential problems, politic problems, personal problems and even problems that do not have any solutions."
"to avoid her own painful feelings, a woman may become emotionally involve in
the problems of others."
i'm totally agree this! that book really explains all the problems a woman and man will go through. it also does help in improving relationships problems. see, i'm doing free advertising for the book.
i went party world with adeline, 2 old man-gerald and alvin. nice men. party world always makes me think of mian mian. once i told mian mian: "after marina we go party world la."
and he was like: "party? that side really can party?" actually, it was his expressions that made it so funny. blah blah blah.
2 old man singing and trying their best to be cute.
你知道吗? 我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉. 发生什么样子. 我好希望再来一次 .
Sunday, June 10, 2007
i deny and denied. will you hear me speak the truth?
seriously, i hate the things that have happened. yet, somehow, i think it's just another experience that someone would get through. perhaps, things are happening earlier than what i've expected. or maybe, too many happening together.
pretty funny huh. i love dramas like seriously. but please, not so many at a time can. the times when i'm totally have the whole world's time, no drama. totally silences. now, exams are around the corner and all the shity comes. ah fuck! anyway, i guess, it will come to an end soon, expect for one damn irritating one.
it's like fuck, not interested mean not right? prolly get go die.
and the.... i just hope the betraying might just stop somehow. no more nonsense please. i don't wanna hear anymore. just don't want the both of you to do the stabbing. i don't wish the 3 of us ended up with nothing. we have been great friends. so, be it, yea.
it all ended up to be just a fling thingy.
seriously, i hate the things that have happened. yet, somehow, i think it's just another experience that someone would get through. perhaps, things are happening earlier than what i've expected. or maybe, too many happening together.
pretty funny huh. i love dramas like seriously. but please, not so many at a time can. the times when i'm totally have the whole world's time, no drama. totally silences. now, exams are around the corner and all the shity comes. ah fuck! anyway, i guess, it will come to an end soon, expect for one damn irritating one.
it's like fuck, not interested mean not right? prolly get go die.
and the.... i just hope the betraying might just stop somehow. no more nonsense please. i don't wanna hear anymore. just don't want the both of you to do the stabbing. i don't wish the 3 of us ended up with nothing. we have been great friends. so, be it, yea.
it all ended up to be just a fling thingy.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
POTC is still one of the best movie ever. i love the actions and the way they betray each other throughout the whole series. johnney depp is still the reson for me catching the movie. seriously, i don't mind spending on it again.
i gotta know this guy. late 30s. he didn't mention that he's married or whether he's single. so, he started flirting around at clubs, at bars. he's rich. damn rich. so, he started going out with this lady even during weekends. this lady, she doesn't knows about his background, only his working status. i'm not sure what kind of relationship they are having but i know, he is out there looking for a partner. recently, the lady found out that he's married and maybe with 2 children.
see, rich guys, got children and wife, a family to support and love, yet, he out there looking for another partner.
i asked nifer what kind of life she wanna have in future and she replied that she wanna marry a rich man. the richer the better. i asked her what if he go look for another women. she said it's alright. as long as he give me the money, i can travel around with my kids. what he wanna do, i'll close my eyes. just give me the money.
see, women doesn't need man to live. nifer really has her points. in future, she will have her kids to accompany her and they might even give her more love than her husband does. which women doesn't love shopping? as long he gives her the money she needs, it's alright. as long as he gives her kids a good education and care for them, what's there to ask for more.
rich men are really disappointment.
i gotta know this guy. late 30s. he didn't mention that he's married or whether he's single. so, he started flirting around at clubs, at bars. he's rich. damn rich. so, he started going out with this lady even during weekends. this lady, she doesn't knows about his background, only his working status. i'm not sure what kind of relationship they are having but i know, he is out there looking for a partner. recently, the lady found out that he's married and maybe with 2 children.
see, rich guys, got children and wife, a family to support and love, yet, he out there looking for another partner.
i asked nifer what kind of life she wanna have in future and she replied that she wanna marry a rich man. the richer the better. i asked her what if he go look for another women. she said it's alright. as long as he give me the money, i can travel around with my kids. what he wanna do, i'll close my eyes. just give me the money.
see, women doesn't need man to live. nifer really has her points. in future, she will have her kids to accompany her and they might even give her more love than her husband does. which women doesn't love shopping? as long he gives her the money she needs, it's alright. as long as he gives her kids a good education and care for them, what's there to ask for more.
rich men are really disappointment.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Sunday, June 03, 2007
life just sucked big time! damn.
anyway, thanks to him, i learn about life now. how mean this world can get. there's no such things as promises. if you want something, achieve it yourself. no one will help you. the ones helping will ended up being the ones affecting the things you wanna achieve.
thanks to him that i finally realise, care and concern are just left unfelt to ones heart. kins loves are just trash. no matter how much you care for someone, he just feel that you are just to busybody. no matter how hard you tried to save someone from taking the road that he shouldn't, he insisted that he doesn't need you to care. and when no one care, he thinks everyone doesn't care. damnit. so, he stole money from his grandfather, he requested to be disown, he lied so badly, he think friend is the whole world to him. so, i really hope he will get his retribution soon. he's helpless. if i could, if the government give me a chance, no matter how much i care and love him, i wish i could kill him with my own hands.
and thanks to her who thinks money is more important than friendship.
thanks to him, for giving me dramas.
thanks to him for making me understand that how desperate this world could be.
and thanks to you, for giving me this life which i have no choice but to accpet it! fuck!
anyway, thanks to him, i learn about life now. how mean this world can get. there's no such things as promises. if you want something, achieve it yourself. no one will help you. the ones helping will ended up being the ones affecting the things you wanna achieve.
thanks to him that i finally realise, care and concern are just left unfelt to ones heart. kins loves are just trash. no matter how much you care for someone, he just feel that you are just to busybody. no matter how hard you tried to save someone from taking the road that he shouldn't, he insisted that he doesn't need you to care. and when no one care, he thinks everyone doesn't care. damnit. so, he stole money from his grandfather, he requested to be disown, he lied so badly, he think friend is the whole world to him. so, i really hope he will get his retribution soon. he's helpless. if i could, if the government give me a chance, no matter how much i care and love him, i wish i could kill him with my own hands.
and thanks to her who thinks money is more important than friendship.
thanks to him, for giving me dramas.
thanks to him for making me understand that how desperate this world could be.
and thanks to you, for giving me this life which i have no choice but to accpet it! fuck!
Friday, June 01, 2007
initially, there's tons to blog about. but, i don't know. i'll get myself fix first.
sigh, they always push everything to me. "because you are young, they won't say anything." but how will i feel? always pretending and pretending. sa jiao here and there to get benefits. wtf.
adeline, christina, james, dixion, wei sheng, 1 loner, 1 tall guy, kenneth, desmond and me.
real pack at dragonfly. but with my sunny, we get to go in as soon as we arrived even if it's FULL HOUSE. and we can just shake our ass off to those waiting till even if they get in to the club, they were to tired to dance!
same songs. same live band. BORING!
i did something real bad. seriously bad. i bite james and he will so happy about if. so, i went to bite kenneth's arm. damn, that's the biggest mistake i should have ever made. the first bite was alright. i thought i heard him saying "bite harder." so, i bite harder and then, he BLEED like MAD! so, know how guilty i was la. cleaning up the wound and stuffs. worst thing is he just had an open right on the spot that i bite. the funny thing was he doesn't seems to feel any pain. BUT I'M VERY SORRY!
james is sweet, actually.
sigh, they always push everything to me. "because you are young, they won't say anything." but how will i feel? always pretending and pretending. sa jiao here and there to get benefits. wtf.
adeline, christina, james, dixion, wei sheng, 1 loner, 1 tall guy, kenneth, desmond and me.
real pack at dragonfly. but with my sunny, we get to go in as soon as we arrived even if it's FULL HOUSE. and we can just shake our ass off to those waiting till even if they get in to the club, they were to tired to dance!
same songs. same live band. BORING!
i did something real bad. seriously bad. i bite james and he will so happy about if. so, i went to bite kenneth's arm. damn, that's the biggest mistake i should have ever made. the first bite was alright. i thought i heard him saying "bite harder." so, i bite harder and then, he BLEED like MAD! so, know how guilty i was la. cleaning up the wound and stuffs. worst thing is he just had an open right on the spot that i bite. the funny thing was he doesn't seems to feel any pain. BUT I'M VERY SORRY!
james is sweet, actually.
