PROJECT IS FINALLY OVER! I HEREBY DECLARE, I'M FREE!

YAY! i can go see my doctor tml! it's been long since i last saw him. real long. eversince the last surgery. but seeing him is always a sad and happy thing. sad it's because i might be having another minor surgert which means another disgusting scar. happy it's because i can get to see him. 'cause his real good looking (i feel so la). actually, i don't mind being his mistress. LOL. a part of it was nonsense la. anyway, i really hope he will be in the clinic tml.

i went dragonfly on friday. it was pretty fun that day. i kinda wasted a day there. i was way too tired to dance, to drink and to play around. but when seeing sly and six, i was flying. anyway, the guy that i kinda like he wasn't there whenever i go. sad to say, i gotta know that he's a gay. so, yea, it's a very wasted situation.

and there was this very drunk lady. her friend knew she's gonna vomit but none bother to bring her to the toliet and she fuckingly vomited on my leg! she spilled the mixes before that. i was there "WHAT THE FUCK!" all her friend does wad smile and not apologize. how sweet.
i took a lot of damn ugly photos. some, i can't even recognize myself in some pictures. more pictures with jovern and francis.






i think my kidney will die off someday. there are people there forcing me to drink pure martel and so on. there are people who wanna make my go damn drunk. and there are people who stop me from drink. followed by people who helped me to drink. so, just drink and mix and mix and drink.

and there was this guy who asked me to go have dim sum with him the next morning. i was like, morning? afternoon got dim sum not?

BUT I GOT CONTROL! i was just to tired. i admit i was kinda high. but i'm not drunk. i did cling onto simon. but what's wrong with it? they were there asking simon to pretend to be my bf so that the others wouldn't come to me and kept asking me to drink. and simon was the one who kissed me(that's what he always do when he's high). i pushed him away. so, is it still my fault? i know after the powerhouse case, everyone thought simon is my bf. but pls, he's not. i was drunk at powerhouse, simon and christina was drunk. so, i just roam around. i did alot of stuffs that i couldn't even remember. but we were all dead drunk. how can you blame me? so what if simon has no gf and linked to me that i caused him not to have one? just because of what i did when i was drunk at powerhouse? that was way too long. i just don't see a problem for them to bring it out again. i tried to have fun myself and simon have fun himself. but when guys approached me and stuffs, they asked simon to protect me.

AH FUCK! i just simply couldn't understand what have i gotta do with simon not having any girlfriend! it's not like we go out everyday till he doesn't have any chances to go look of a girlfriend right?

alright, i just have to state here, simon is my brother. so, don't have to think else where. he is my brother and it's a full stop after that.

IT'S S-E-N-T-O-S-A!

no time! why is there only a week of holiday? it's so isn't enough for me. i'm stucked at marketing project! damn!

i used to say "school days are still holidays to use." but now, why are holidays like school days?! UNFAIR! school days are so relaxing. holidays are so packed. isn't it suppose to be school days damn pack and holidays so damn relaxing?! argh!

moday, i went for FTT trail. no slot = waste time = should have slept at home.

tuesday, went to trail early in the morning and headed for FTT = tired to the max = wasted a day to do project cos top tired.

wednesday, morning having driving at 930am-11am = wake up damn early = not enough sleep. now i haven passed my FTT, after driving have to headed to ubi to book the pratical test = sleepy till can die. then, meeting jena for catch up session which is compulsory cos i haven seen her for ages. after that, i'll just drop dead on my bed!

thursday, sentosa which nifer and J. compulsory too. gotta get tan. i'm so ugly fair now! yucks! and again, i'll drop dead home after sentosa.

friday, meeting hui ming and raynu to chill at night. MEANS i can do my project in the afternoon! like finally! just shitty hope that i can finish it up by friday.

saturday, chirstina's birthday. whole day out! no time!

AAAHHHH! i'm finally free on sunday. maybe. but the next day school starts. what's the point man!


alright, i passed my FTT. I PASSED AT THE FIRST TIME. mind you, girl always have the tendency of failing FTT, BTT included too. guys always say ladys are reckless driver, they know nuts, FTT is way to hard for them, they won't be able to make it(they assumed that they are very clever and we are the stupid ones with low EQ and IQ, PUI!) so, they expect we girls to fail and keep failing FTT.

anyway, if that's really the case, i might be a god damn genius! flying with joy man. those who look down on me, don't you be surprise alright. this included those who were so shocked to hear i'm attending driving lessons and commented that "you better don't drive. you will only increase the number of accidents. don't bother to go for BTT." it's my turn to kick your asses. shouldn't be so proud. LOL. cos pratical test has not ended. =/ but i still can yaya to boss!

oh yea, soon-to-be, i'll be having a new book in my bag wherever i'm going. it's a learning thai book. my mum is conquring the whole book now. she just wouldn't allow me to bring it out! i have a year to master it! i can do it, i guess.

there's alot to think these days.

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oh so dead! PROJECTS PROJECTS AND PROJECTS! DAMN!

i'm so stuck at marketing project. damn!

2,400 words. how to achieve that? damn!

final theory is tml and i have not even read all the 500 questions. damn!

a little more to touch up on BIS project. damn!

no computer to print out my projects. damn!

no more money. damn!

no more time. damn!

getting fatter! FUCKING DAMN SHIT! no more clubbing for 2 months!(i'm so not serious.)


anyway, i have been thinking these days. about my future. to futher my studies or just stay put or just act according to what my dad wants me to do. so, i plucked out my courage and talked to dad and asked if i can drop his idea. and yea, he said since i wanna it to be my way, then i should go ahead and do the things i'm interested in. OF COS, my planning was a great one. if not, he wouldn't agreed without much considerations. well, i planned to stay put in this pathetic sg after i graduate from advance diploma end of this year. not gonna continue to get my degree. i'm gonna work! yea! the 19 year old me is gonna work at the end of december. and i'm gonna be the youngest in the company. i choosed logistic under sales line. that's what i always wanted-getting into the sales line. it's great meeting more people. so, i'll for about 2 years and see if the company wanna upgrade me to get my degree. if the company doesn't, i'll just quit and continue studying either that damn MDIS or overseas. by the time i'll be 21 and insurances can be taken up. daddy need to spend so much. insurance can cover up my school fees and by the time, i'll be having loads of savings in my bank! HA! isn't my plan great?!

don't tell me that when i started working, i'll lost intentions in studying. NO WORRIES, i'll be studying no matter what regardless of how much the will increase my pay, no matter how many times i have hit the target and get a whole bags of money home, i will still go back and study. i'm still young! i can explore. time to go hook some more goldfish, salmon and swordfish. 1 is always not enought. we need backups. so, christina, i'm counting on you! =)


life has just started. dramas, wait for me. i'll be back.

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)

My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive

It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake L
uck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)

My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

'Cause it's my life Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

PARTY WORLD!

where got ppl use this pathetic stick on martel? (only chee nas)

HAPPY 20TH ANNIVERSARY, MUM AND DAD!

dad brought us to this very nice place to chill. very very nice place indeed. actually, dad should only bring mum out to have a romantic dinner without the 2 light bulb-my sis and i. =(

i was very crazy with this korean drama. over crazy with it till i think about it all the time. crazy till i even dreamt of it when i was sleeping in class. crazy till i kept talking about it till people get so bored of it. i was cray about till when my eyes are already closing in no time, i still wanna complete the whole drama. this was how mad i was with wonderful life.

the lil girl that made me go crazy about the whole drama!

nifer and i was talking about korean drama. they are always having the same plot.
someone must die.someone must be very sick.there must be 3rd party.they don't really like each other yet ended up, married.there must always be a bitch in between.they story must be very sad, till it makes everyone cry like someone has just died.the actors and actress must always quarrel.

don't ya agree? it's always in this manner. yet, no one find it boring and continue buying dramas of the same plot. it's dumb, but i just love it! LOL! a little mad i know.


i went to watch 200 pound beauty yesterday. everyone was like telling me "very sad. you will surely cry like mad." oh, so i brought the i-will-cry feeling into the cinema and tommy said he i can clean on his shirt. so, i won't be stupid if i start weeping and cleaning my tears of with my hand. in case no one cry and i cried. the moive ended and i was like "very sad meh?" which part of it was very very sad till it makes people cry? i don't seems to understand. there wasn't any part that was very sad at all. all i know was i was shivering like mad in the cinema.


my favourite song: Promiscuous
it's okay. it's alright. I got something that you gon' like.

parents always say "if anything is troubling you, you must say out. we are always there for you."
parents always say "i believe you."

come on, how am i gonna share my problems with them when they don't even believe a shit i said?

you know, i have been having spooky experiences. from stopping me from walking to tappings on my shoulder to blowing my ears. i complained to them that i kept having someone blowing my ears. they thought i was having illusions as i always watch ghostly movies. so, they pilled up all sorts of remarks and ignored.

first, i woke up in the morning, i realised i couldn't walk. what's wrong with my legs? i crawl my way to my parents room. they thought it's the bones problem so they asked my godfather to check. it's was perfectly fine. and after all the dramas, someone was holding on to my legs, preventing me from walking.

years later, the 3 of us were at home and my mum and sis was in the kitchen washing the plates and i was alone watching tv in the room. suddenly, i felt someone tapped on my right shoulder. mind you, i can feel it was a hand. i thought it was my sis and i turned around. F, no one. i was totally freaked out and rushed to the kitchen to tell them. no one believes.

years later again, i was sitting on the sofa watching tv. someone just blew straight into my ear. right into my ear. couldn't be the wind right? intially, i ignored. then, it happened again, in my house, followed by my aunty's place. i told my parents, still the pilled all the excuses they could. so, the other day, i was in school, talking so happily to dlim. it blew my left ear. i was very pissed off as it somehow had troubled me. i thought yp blew my years. i turned to her with this agitated expression and said "blow my ear for wad?" she gave me the totally innocence looked and "blow your ear for what?" damn. you know, my hair are always covering my ears so, there no reason why i can feel someone blowing my ear without my hair flying.

so, i told my parents. still, they don't believe. they must be waiting for the day when someone prevent me from walking again then, by the time, they will FINALLY realise, not believing my is a sin.

SEAFOOD, SINFUL, SWELLS, SUFFERINGS, OPERATION, INJECTIONS, SCREAMS, CRIES, MEDICATONS, 2 MONTHS FOR RECOVERING.

sinful. so sinful. i'm so allergic to seafood. to the max. who could resists they smell of black paper crabs, buttered prawns? temptations kill deadly.

it's really good to see so many people celebrating mothers' day together. 3 big table at long beach. definitely the bill stabbed everyone's heart. good food though. not everyone was present. ah kor wasn't there. duh! when will i get to see him? jian rong wasn't there. and definitely MR. KHOR WEI FONG. it's not amasing at all. i knew from the start he will not be going. all he cares is friends, friends and more dreadful influenced friends. sigh. he's the dumbest guy on earth! spoilt spot.

youngest uncle brought his girlfriend along. i'm really glad he found a pretty and nice lady. friendly lady. something is affecting me. grandma asked me: "who do you think is prettier?" i kept mum. yes, she is prettier. but i can't make myself to say that out. i felt that if i really does that, i'll be betraying my aunty. i know she has left. to me, i still feel her presents around me. she's still around i know it. at times, i could really forget that i have lost an aunt. her death was still a recent thing to me. it's like i can't accept it still. 2 years passed and all seemed to have only happened yesterday.

no, don't get me wrong. i'm not disapproving their relationship. it's my aunt wish for my uncle to look for another partner. i should respect her wish and decision. i'm really glad that my uncle has found someone who could love him. my uncle getting into another relationship seemed that he is real fine. but i know, he hasn't forget about her. life has still gotta go on. what's more, he's still young. he needs a partner. i know my aunt will always be deep down in his heart. he still loves her and she will never be forgotten.

anyway, i feel real good cum happy. the death of my aunt, brought the whole family closer together except for one. including kexin, yi sheng, yi xian and nik. i have never really talked to them. or rather they hardly talked to me. especially nik. i don't know what happened between us and i started to be kinda afraid of him. so, for years, we hardly really spoke. but after her, somehow, there's this magic power that bond all of us together and now, we all have neverending topics even with the 3 kids. we joked around. laughed together. talk craps. but still focusing on nik, he really changed alot. i love his change. =D i used to feel a little uneasy with him around. now, everything under the sun also can! maybe it's because i've grown! HA!

what have i become? it might be a great thing to certain people. while shocking to certain.

a way to protect myself i said. might be just an excuse.

"Pay-Back-Time."

nonsenses are just for once. not twice.

it just so fucking useless to compromise and accomodate someone.

when you can't click, don't even have to think that you can fucking click someday. NO!

they thought i'm fine. i'm not. eveytime the topic is brought up, i have to make everyone believe that i'm so fine. hell no! i feel like killing someone whenever the topic is brought up. if that somone is there, guess, dead!



it's time. scheme triumph over kindness.

it's projects and projects again. damn!

I GOT NO MORE TIME! yet, it's not amasing at all that i can dig out 2hours for shopping. no choice, just ended my test which was like so EASY. my group was like studying the test like exam. ended up, the questions were almost the same as tutorials. stupid manek again! waste my time.

i've been getting more and more vulgar these days. sigh. time for me to quit that habit. all because of BOSS! =/

it's really time to go on diet. everyone thinks i'm crazy for going on diet. i feel so bloated! they said it's due to pms and therefore, i feel bloated everywhere. but I DON'T TRUST THEM LEH! the whole of today i was like "no, cannot eat that, will fat. no, only can eat light food. no, cannot eat tibits."

i went 97 the other day. KTV rooms was damn huge and like those really amasing like in movies type. but i hate that club. techno! i was like what the hell. the songs were like zillions of years ago. i left that club at 1 plus. can you believe it? at 1plus in the morning. guess you know how fun the club can get. if it's fly, i'll be home like 5 plus?




i shall quit clubbing for like 2 weeks. (what a joke. 2 damn weeks only.) and then, if 10cent still does has bottles at mos, i wanna go!(oh no, cannot drink, i wanna go on diet!) and i wanna go fly see alex!

i don't know why, whenever i'm kinda mood and 10cent talk to me, he tends to have this magical power that can really and fast brighten up my day. it's like non-stop laughters. =) just like the other day, last month, i was having serious pms and he suddenly appeared for lesson and brighten me up. how i wish whenever i'm pms-ing, this would happen and i'll be leaving so happily everyday.


and you, i'm sorry if i have mislead you. we have been friends all these years. i hope we just remain this way. and be the way we used to. i'm sorry if i somehow avoid you, i really think there's a need. if its get deeper, i don't think i can handle the mess. so, forgive me, friend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETIE!

SO TRUE!

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie.You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture. Your negative traits: In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved. Your ideal partner: Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks Your dating style: Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert. Your seduction style: Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them. Tips for the future: Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes. Best color to attract mate: Sky blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

I HATE MANEK! I HATE MANEK! I HATE MANEK SO! damn mumble man! stupid pathetic eyes! he doesn't know how to be a lecturer. late for classes. missed classes with the whole most absurd excuses! ARGH! alright, financial test is like next tuesday and for the past 1 month of his lessons, i get hold of only craps(his irritating mumblings). failing is the thing that came to my mind. so, i took out the textbook and looked through all the tutorial questions and answers. i was like DAMNIT! like, so easy can? all this manek does is mumbling and writing so small and so low.(how to see?) dumb right? just so frustrated over his actions! AAAAHHHHH!

woah! it's has been long since i swear, whine and curse. the feeling is just so great to be back cursing! HA!

stupid mumble man!

i went to my sister's place to celebrate my godfather's birthday and i wanted to go 'crack' my back. so, he 'cracked' for me. the main reason was my leg. somehow, the joint from my hip to the whole leg is stuck! STUCK? yes, STUCKED! leading to my backache. so, he 'crack' and pulled my leg. i admit, i thought my leg might drop. so, i thought it's no longer a backbone question. it's my leg. but when he 'cracked' my backbone. he said it was weak which means NO MORE SIT-UPS FOR SURE! duh!

i was in adeline's car when i saw this....

if you're big, never try to hard to fit into small bikes.

the other day, i had this dream. i dreamt that i met with an accident while driving. totally petrified! so, i was kinda 'kanchiong' while having my driving lessons. felt so stressed up and my instructor kept asking me to relax. take your time. but how am i going to take my time when there are so many cars behind me waiting for me to 'GET LOST'? i was real panic. then, it came to this traffic light. my instructor distracted me with his mumbling and suddenly he "BRAKE!" i was there "HUH? oh no!" so, i messed up my footing and ended up having my right foot on the brake and right on the accelerator. how to step the clutch? =/

yeahie! tml is friday and comes saturday and sunday. my loves. i love weekends. just love it so much. and i love public hoildays. so, i'm waiting for her to meet him so that i can meet him and he can meet me and we can meet up and they can meet us and i can meet them. =)

我其实想你越来越多

Hey hey, you you
I don’t like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey hey, you you
I could be your girlfriend


Hey hey, you you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
You know it’s not a secret
Hey hey, you you
I want to be your girlfriend


You’re so fine
I want you to be mine
You’re so delicious
I think about you all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know
What I can do
To make you feel alright


Don’t pretend
I think you know
I’m damn precious
And hell yeah
I’m the mother fucking princess
I can tell you like me too
And you know I’m right


She’s like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about


I can see the way
I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away
I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time
Again and again


So come over here
And tell me what I wanna hear
Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don’t wanna hear you say her name
Ever again


In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
‘Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other, so when’s it gonna sink in
She’s so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

you might be thinking what's with: WHAT YOU SAY, HUH? yea, that's MY LINE. LOL. it started off when i went st. james with mian's gang. i keep repeating it like so many times and so irritating. then, it became a topic for mian mian, vincent and cheeky.

mianhao says: u see she dun wanna tok liao..
mianhao says: dulan wif both of us liao
whz says: HAHA
mianhao says: abit abit cant le..
whz says: anti social sia
mianhao says: WAT YOU SAY!!!!
whz says: HAHA
GINA ; says: who say u can say that?
whz says: HAHAHA
whz says: who say one
mianhao says: I SAY!!!
whz says: what u say
GINA ; says: eh!
GINA ; says: cannot say that
mianhao says: all cant say la..
I GoT 2 ChI HuA HuA NoW HaHa(back in tekong) says: what u say huh
GINA ; says: u see!
whz says: HAHAHA
mianhao says: DUN SAY AR!!!
mianhao says: WHY U SAY HUH!!!
mianhao says: I SAY DUN SAY HUH!!!



this was part of the conversation. so, can you imagine that they were saying almost the same thing throughout the whole conversation? pathetic old men. all so OLD already still wanna bully YOUNG GIRL.


anyway, i feel so fat now, can? so, DIETING TIME! more meals, less food. no choice. i can't jog cos of low blood. can't do sit-ups cos back problems. how pathetic can i get? just like today, i tried to jog 1 pathetic around with my sis. just 1 around and my ears can barely hear what my sister was talking. i'm like almost blackout. glad i reached home fast, managed to lie flat on my corridor.