it spells it all

surprise comes along with enthusiasm, excitement, loads of assumptions, irritated and it can conqure your concentrations.

it is one of the usual sunday out yet he make me keep thinking where he will be bringing me after our movies.

"i bring you to somewhere later in the night."

my immediate reaction that i told myself was "please don't bring me to mt faber. DON'T!"

on the second thought, i asked, "where? nice not? romantic not?" all he replied was "you will like it and you will be surprise."

SURPRISE?! did i hear it wrongly? my boyfriend who has never give me surprises is going to give me one, tonight?

to my heavy relive, it wasn't mt faber. it's henderson waves. (i knew wouldn't be so dumb to bring me to a place where LKK brought me before.) he hates him anyway, so, yea.

initially, we were very happy with the shelter we found 'cause there was nobody over there and which also mean that we can have our own sweet time taking nonsensical pictures of ourselves. till so shitty came over to sit right beside us. damn. if not, i will have zillions of photos to upload in every website that i have an account in. HEH!

we both agree that this one of the best photos we have took so far. it's on the wallpaper of the the both of us. sweet! anyhow, he was the one who suggested that we should do this back-to-back pose.

oh-so-lovely.

it's a surprise for me to be frank. the way how a bridge could be build so high up. the structure and interior designs was way too perfect to be just given a praise or complement. wonderful place indeed.

i like it.

thanks to his job that travel alot, he mange to find a nice place for the both of us to chill and relax. well, he said he will try to look out for more of such places or other better places for us to go in future!

way to go! i can't wait. and keep up the good job, baby.

ah beng and chow said i'm like the lp man's wife. so boyfriend was so eager to watch it and eventually, he agreed with them too after watching it. BUT I TOTALLY DISAGREE WITH. it's a great movie though.

***lastly, i cook good soup, he said. he loves it.

15th on the 29th Dec 2008

IT'S MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY TODAY, AND SO,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIECE OF SHIT!

present will be given when i found the best thing to give you. promise!

christmas party with family and relatives was great!

i'm not gonna blog any details about it. you can click onto these 2 blogs,
http://serena-screams.blogspot.com/
http://the-red-lollipop.blogspot.com/

they have the detail-est informations.

great, save my time.





yea, you didn't see it wrong, my boyfriend was at the party tooooooooooo! and he loves my family!

anyhow, boyfriend says 31st december go thai disco! but ah beng says go ah tan's house and bbq!


and and, boyfriend and i went to punggol end. totally scared the shit outta me. WE SAW SNAKE and boyfriend almost ride into the grass 'cause i pulled him. you see, when we were into the road towards punggol end, i kept telling him that there will be snakes and so on on the roads which i was pratically lying to him. because i have never see any snakes there at all for these 5 years.

i was like "faster leh, later got snakes. FASTER!"

so, because of my nonsense, i finally saw a snake right beside me. this time round, i was screaming at the top of my voice to ask boyfriend ride as fast as he could 'cause i was so afriad that the snake will crawl behind us. i was so scared that i didn't wanna get down when we reached our detination. i cried.

so lousy right?

SHAGGED OUT

7 in the morning.
bade good-bye to boyfriend.
took a fresh warm bath.
it felt so great with the warm water flowing down me.
wiped my hair dry and headed to bed.
i was thinking, i was reminiscing the night.
it's was just so great to go clubbing with boyfriend.

thanks to anthony for giving me the bottle of martell at dfly.
we manage to finish it, fast with his usual friends.
i never ever imagine i would go club with my boyfriend.
good that ah tan came up with the suggestion of going dfly.
i saw many familiar faces including, mr flirt.
everything there is stilll as before, the musics, the songs.
boyfriend always hate clubbing.
pubbing is okay for him, but never clubbing.
but i'm glad, we had fun last night.
he was there "protecting" me,
and also showing me certain scenes of "why he doesn't allow me to go clubbing."
five-ten was hilarious with ah beng and chow's nonsense
and me getting boyfriend to drink.
his face was red after a few glass. so cute.

10 in the morning.
a message from boyfriend that i just glanced through.
"tonight got soccer match at kallang stadium. singapore vs vietnam."
OBVIOUSLY, he wanted me to go watch it with him.
and OBVIOUSLY, i didn't reply.
headed back to my deep sleep fantasy.

12 in the noon.
2 missed calls from him.
(must be wanna pester me to watch the match)

1 in the afternoon.
i woke up.
8am to 1pm, it's merely 5 hours of sleeps.
i'm so awake,
also prepared that he will whine to me for the soccer match.
being a lovely girlfriend, i agreed to watch it.
to make the match an exciting one, we bet a little on Singapore.
i was way too shocked when we reached kallang.
SO MANY PEOPLE.
it was like second NDP of the year.
squeezed our way through and we found a spot,
not that fantastic but still acceptable with the crowd around us.

Singapore was insane.
players from vietnam got injured, the crowd went boo-ing.
players from vietnam scored, the crowd boo-ed loudly.
players from vietnam kicked the ball away, boo.
everything they do, as long as it them, whether it's good or bad, the crowd boo-ed.
the match was a total adrenaline rush for Singapore.
there was this one time that a player from vietnam got injured,
yet everyone ignored him and continue with the match.
pratically, he was trying to waste time.
then, the medic carry him out of the field.
that was when boyfriend got so pissed off and he said,
"bring him go cremate lah!"
till now, i'm still laughing about it.
albeit the fact that Singapore lost to Vietnam,
it's a good experience to be there with boyfriend,
boo-ing, cheering, cursing and laughing with the crowd.
it's so cool. it's way better than the one we watched at bedok.

can't wait to go more places with him.

let's see if the cassified advertisment will be as shocking as last saturday's.

i can't wait for Christmas. because it's 10th!

i can't wait for my birthday. yet, everytime i think about my birthday, i couldn't get over last year's. it was due to someone who tried to have me 24/7 beside him and that's why, the celebration i had, the surprises that boyfriend planned, was a waste. it didn't even happened. till this day, almost a year, i regretted it deeply.

i want something to be like last year's. but what's the point now?

maybe, santa would wanna give me a time machine that turn back time to that day.

which also conclude that i resent the person who used to want me 24/7 beside him by using his status to control me, till today and always.

OH SO FUCKING RAMDOM!

you wouldn't want to read this post. it's fucking RAMDOM! i swear.


Popeye at Singapore Flyer on monday.

boyfriend and i had the same conclusion that KFC taste so much better instead. it's a disappointment for us. thumbs down.

boo!

East Coast for Carl's Junior on wednesday after chalet.
some stupid agt cancelled his appointment last minute. imagine, i ended work at 6pm that day at tiong bahru then, we had our dinner and we rushed down to punggol for this-always-view-but-no-offer agent.

we were at punggol around 745pm and at 810pm, he called and cancelled the appointment. ROARRRRR! totally waste our time.

so, by the time we reached the chalet, it was going to 10pm. eat what lah!

boyfriend came to pick me up after going to the 'fish tank'. we had our dinner at 12am. it's dinner. you didn't see me typing it wrongly.

Geylang for dim sum on friday.
it should be with pimps and bitches along with boyfriend!

but we quarrel like fuck shit, nut shit at some car park there. so, apparently, i get to see none of them. SHIT HIM! and of course, his punishment for bullying me that night was great. 'cause he saw ghost. serve him right. (picture will be out soon.)

geylang for soya bean on saturday.
i have been waiting to go there for long but the food was disappoinment too. yuck!

headed to fort canning park to date. we were walking here and there, the weather was so cold yet we were sweating! on the other hand, my leg itch like hell and the skin got tore off due to my over scratching. this was caused by some insect that attacked me fiercely. causing my leg to swell like an elephant's.

he piggybacked me 'cause i was complaining that my leg was extremely itchy, it hurts and i can't walk anymore. tooooooo tired.

it was getting humid walking around the trees and lastly was PS movie. twilight was wonderful. it's my fantasy. gonna go get the books!

it's was so fun that night. it was love.

Sunday! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SENTOSA! we planned already la!

THEN, rain like shit la!

so, sweet boyfriend came to pick me up after my prayers and we headed to East Coast for sting ray and flea market.

it was also suppose to be ben&jerry at demsy after dinner. BUT, we went PS AGAIN, for 'the day the world stood still'.

i was so reluctant to watch it, from the advertisment, i knew it's going to be lame. since the smart ass insisted that it will and comfirm chop that this movie will be better than twilight, i went mute and to watch it with him.

i was in period pain so we went Mac for real hot milo that took a whole life time to cool. while waiting, it hurts like hell. i told boyfriend that i will faint if i don't take the medicine. he stood up and left Mac.

did he had some skills of teleporting? 'cause the moment i looked up again, he was back with my medicine.

sweet right? SO NICE OF HIM.

though we always quarrel, sometimes like breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper, while other days would be 'cause of me being too stress and other times would be 'cause of silly issues, we are still very much in love. =)

despite all my nonsense, demanding requests and my stubborness, he still picks me up from work everyday or anywhere i am, brings me to shopping or anywhere i want to go, he puts up with all my nonsensical demands and he never ever says "NO" to me.

when i say, "my bag is heavy",
he carrys it for me.

when i say, "i'm hungry",
he buys food for me.

when i say, "fetch me",
he will appear 30 mins later under my block.

well, the lists will go on. as long as it's anything about me, regardling me, as long as it is from me, he never fails to fulfill it.

so, doesn this means my birthday wish will come true? LOL!

another thing i love about him is that, HE IS SO AFRAID OF ME. muhahahaha!

rewind....

SIBEI CHIO RIGHT?!

BUT WHAT ABOUT THESE?!

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damn, my sis spoilt it.

because boyfriend kept singing this song, i fell for it.

damn enthu for tomorrow's chalet. can't wait to see cutie shao heng. and boyfriend said he is coming along toooooooo. so, i don't need to go and ask the big bossy to "eh, handsome, send me home leh. don't like that lah. a while only mah."

ONE MORE THING! everything for my birthday party is NOT SETTLE YET! it's just a month away. i got the venue already. buffet not done. theme not planned. numbers of people planned. cake? emicakes? the D24 durains one? cos got 50% off? songs planned, but not sure if the sound system there would be good enough to blast it like club.

i'm intending to rent a car. so that my parents can use it, it's more convient for them. on the other hand, it will be easier for us to bring our stuffs over. cause i don't wanna borrow cars from my relatives. another thing is, i can bring boyfriend's whole sound system to the chalet just in case the one in the chalet is LOUSY.

i'm quite stress about that day. 'cause there's really ALOT of people i'm inviting. hope that the theme i'm planning will not leave anyone out and also, hopefully my location of the chalet, facing the seaview, will help it out by its scenery.

ANYONE HAVE ANY IDEAS FOR MY BIRTHDAY THEME? leave me a zillions of suggestions please. you are most welcome. =)

lastly, as for my birthday present, heh heh heh, you see, hitting the big 18 is really something very big. it's a once in a life time thingy. so, i hope they will be from gucci, lv, prada, dior, fendi, tiffany&co and so on only lor. i'm sure you guys will be able to fullfil my life long dream. LOL! BUT OF COURSE, don't give me things like gucci perfume, dior perfume, chanel perfume. don't be lame.

OH, of course, if you don't have anything in mind that you wanna get me or maybe you are afraid that i might not like the things you bought, NO WORRIES, 'cause my birthday wishlist will be up so and this blog will be open to everyone who is invited. if you are scared that you might get something that someone else will get it for me, GIVE ME CASH INSTEAD. it's a warm welcome.

so, jen, mellie, elmo, ting, ranie, queky, leon, michelle, dicky, tom tom, niffer, jamie, d, kg and lynn, please start to save money for my life long dream ok. you've got a month from now, don't say i din give advance notice alright. heh heh!

by the way, couple who are invited must bring 2 presents ok. not 1! this apply to ting and queky. LOL!

and eventually, to end this piece of shit, the above are all purely nonsense, you have wasted your time here. thank you!

can't wait to see shao heng. can't wait to see shao heng. can't wait to see shao heng. can't wait to see shao heng!

there is one thing in particular that you should never ever lie to me,

YOUR ADDRESS. get it.

don't ever come out with craps to aviod me by saying that you sold your house and that you have moved to JURONG! what a great trick. don't ever lie to me where you are staying.

cause you will never get away, fatso! and you are pissing me off right now. i'm not gonna let you off.

this is how my boss introduce me to people:

"this is my PA, Regina, she is full of nonsense."

oh right!

Thank you bitches & pimps for last night.

i love you guys! you guys are the best damn thing i have ever had.

the pictures have clearly stated, THAT NIGHT WAS A BLAST!

we should go back and finish the half bottle soon. start choosing the dates! =D

i got the most ridiculous call from my telemarketer thursday. she missed me so i called her back. okay, let's name her as A.

me: hey, A, you called me?
A: ya, is this regina?
me: yes, wassup?
A: regina, that time u give me drink the ice lemon tea you put something inside is it?
me: *blank* huh? put what thing?
A: you put poison inside right? you want to kill me is it?
me: WHAT! who told you this?
A: everyone knows about it. why you want to kill me? i treated you so well. why you want to do this?
me: NO, for what i put something in your drinks? what's more, it's an unopened can drink.
A: no, you open the can for you then you put something inside.
me: *feeling damn fed up with her nonsense, i shouted over the phone, * HOW THE HELL CAN I PUT SOMETHING INTO THE CAN WHICH IS NOT EVEN OPEN!
A: why? i treat you and melvin so good, why you all want to kill me?
me: WAIT, WHO TOLD YOU THIS?
A: god told me.
me: then, tell me why we would want to kill you?
A: because i'm ugly. maybe you all don't like me.
me: *i knocked my head against the bed* WHO SAYS WE DON'T LIKE YOU? DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WE WOULD WANT TO SEE YOU IN OFFICE AGAIN!
A: i don't know lah. where's melvin? why i call him he didn't pick up?
me: not sure. today thursday, it's off day. okay, A, can tell me who told you about this.
A: the devil. i think it's my mistake. sorry. when i'm okay then i come back and work.
me: -__________________________-" okay, hope to see you in office soon alright. take care of yourself.

initially, i was so pissed on while having the conversation with her. 'cause she keep insisting that melvin and i wanna kill her. which is so out of question. BUT, after hanging up, it totally freaked me out. what's on my mine was "siao already lor, she crazy already then i still shout at her, later she come TPY and stab me to death."

yet, the interesting thing was, she never mention about adrian in the whole conversation. it's funny because she loves melvin, hence, she wouldn't be accusing him like that. as for adrian, she has no other intention for him.

so, i quickly phoned melvin. he was freaked out too upon telling him what happened. and he is so so damn no guts la. when she called him, he don't even dare to pick up. damn. i'm always the one cleaning up the mess. so, i asked melvin today if what if she comes back to work, guess what, he gave me the popped out eyeballs look.

i have no idea what had happened to my telemarketer. she used to be so nice and after melvin scolded her, she started to change a little bit. but now, it's getting worse. or prolly, she was like that all along, some people told me. just that she was more stable previously.

so, if someday, melvin or me were to be stabbed to death, it must be her. remember this.

well well, i'm gonna re-sit for the paper i did this morning. i memorised like hell and ended up, 4 out of 7 question, yes, i did answered the 4 question, BUT, all were just half a page. damn. it's so sucky.

it's so damn true that we should get enough of sleeps before the exams. i slept only 2 hours. this is disappointment.

and hell yeah, i'm meeting bf tomorrow for the usual shopping of every saturdays and sundays (and sometimes late night movies) then will be meeting pimp and bitches! wee-o-wee! 'cause bf is coming along too! more more more photossssss!

12nn to 430pm

work is super cool these days.
i did nothing.

i'm very sure i can't work in any 9am-5pm organization. never! and if i ever did, i guess they will ask me to leave after a week.

the thing here is, i can start work at any timing i like. no more bothers. prolly, it's because i'm too effective and effiicient and that's why. i can't wait for my birthday to arrive. it's gonna be so cool. can't wait to sign the associate form.

can't wait to earn big bucks! totally boost my motivation with the thought of it. and i guess, it's time for people to meet me now. i'm gonna request for it. damn excited la!

gonna work hard, extra hard and go the extra mile. you see, many have been RETRENCHED! so, all these people will most likely join singapore's largest property agency- HSR. which also conclude that there will be SO MANY competitors whom will create a whole lot of jokes.

real encounter with HSR agent. Theresa, who's an agent from HSR and also the seller's agent. the purchase price of the re-sale flat was valuation+$25k. so, she was drop dead clever to inform the buyer's agent on the 1st appointment,

"don't forget to remind your buyer to write the $25k cheque; pay to my seller."

* BLANK! *

she is totally crazy. i laughed like mad when i heard about it.


oh yeah, the wedding pictures you must have been waiting for. sorry about it. i will only post them all only when i have the whole collection. the photos from camera man will only receive like quite some time later and my cousins who HAD camera haven't been online since that very joyful day. we totally have a lot of photos with the camera man. reason being, we made friends with the camera man. BUT, we didn't did it on purpose. we just purely wanted talk to him. we didn't know that he ended up fallen in love with either one of us and that's why he took so many pictures of us. perhaps, he is going to keep some for souvenir.


meanwhile, have some grab of the previews.

Happily Ever After

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Madagascar

dragged bf to go watch Madagascar with me. he always wanted to watch Saw. but i'm only eighteen, how to go watch it with him.

anyhow, last week, we went to singapore flyers to SEE the surrounding. it's so cute there, especially the cute rain forest. hmm, was it a rain forest? i'm not too sure, but it's really so cute. i love that place. the view is good. it's clean most importantly. LOL. oh well, we also went to the club 21 annual sales. it's so insane just like every year though everything was antique over there.

exams is ahead. just couple of days more and i have the feeling of having fever. it's the same old damn thing!

big day is coming. bitch and me, we are going on the stage to give our wonderful, sweet and loving speech. IT'S SO STRESSFUL. it's only a couple of days more and i have not even planned my speech. imagine the number of people there.

faints.

working hours for today:

830am to 1230am.

mission:

inspect the cleaning process.

i woke up the earliest for this year. rushed all the way down to leonie studio. god, i love that project. mainly was because of its sky terrace. totally paranomic view of the city.

guess what? i slept on this sofa for an hour. it's so comfy there. and also, mostly importantly, it's god damn clean.

whilst waiting for the cleaner to complete their cleaning process, i took out my gonna-throw-away-LG-Viewty-and-hello-iphone. i gotta admit that it's camera is goooooooood but not great.

it's so not me to take photos of myself. which also proved that i was dead bored over there.

anyway, black hair look great on me and i'm getting it before the big day!

if i could get away and turn back the time
i wouldn't change a thing
wouldn't change my mind
if i could make you see
what you are to me
baby, that's something i could do endlessly

everyday, i wake up with you by my side
i can't help but smile
'cause i know that you're all mine
and every single kiss
every time you hold me
baby, you made my loneliness a memory

it seems like yesterday when we first meet
but after all this time
there's no regret
and it's so plain to see
you're everything to me
baby, i fall for you so easily

the way you look at me
how you make me feel
never let me doubt what we have is real
the love you that you give to me
set my spirit free
baby, you know you mean the world to me.

with you all is beautiful
with you i've got all that i need
to me,
you made every single love song written worth singing
so blessed to have you with me
so blessed to share this journey with you.

Job Scope For Today:

FIND THE CHEAPEST SECOND HAND NOKIA E51 IN TOA PAYOH!
budget $200 and below.
one condition: must be without camera.


i love my job.

everything was great during the weekends.

the girls partied. i was on wrong frequency as usual again. what's new anyway. i swear i will never go obar dbl o anymore. NEVER! it's meant for K-I-D-S.

i know my face is damn sharp. i know i ain't pretty anymore. just keep your mouth shut for a moment. i trying hard to be fat now! give me another 1 month.

the red cutie

new love sucks. i hate it! but i left with no other choices.

i miss baby. it gets me so depressed whenever i think about it. one of the best yet left so soon. the thought of how i learn to accept, screws my day. hope you are better in the hands of others.

i miss the way you move. i miss the way you sounded. i miss the way you look. i miss the time i spent with you. i miss the way i admire how good you looked. i miss the cosy feel.

i didn't know i'll lose you so soon. shouldn't have mention of letting you leave. my bad. things wouldn't have been like this if it wasn't me.

i want you back so much. but how to?

i'm not gonna see you again. never again!

bye baby. it's been a year with you around.

should have cherished you more. should have took more pictures with you. should have appreciated you.

i din know you will leaving so soon; after sending me to school tomorrow.

i teared knowing that you will be leaving. i can't bear to part. i can't keep you anymore. i tried to but we have our difficulties to keep you.

thank you for being there all the time and never had you gave us any problems.

you will be better with someone else.

you will be missed.


byebye.

i'm gonna screw Mac up. mother-fucker

i'm so so so bleedy pissed off with Mac delivery now!

it's not that their delivery is so slow or bad. it's just that HOW CAN THEY EVER LEAK OUT ONE'S PARTICULAR TO AN UNKNOWN. chee beh!

eg,

operator: hi, good morning/afternoon/evening sir/mdm .........
unknown: i would like to make an order.
operator: okay, can i have your contact sir?
unknown: 9*******
operator: can i comfirm that you are staying at blk *** tampines st ** #**-**?
unknown: ya

see it. this is what every delivery does. i'm not boycotting Mac here. it's just that my situation occur with Mac.

why can't they just ask if they can have the address AGAIN instead of saying it out to have our comfirmation.

so, where's the privacy here in singapore now?

so, everybody can just f-ing shit give Mac the number of the person they are looking for and they can get the address. WOW! that's the best information centre worldwide.

thank MacDonalds, how are you gonna compensate this mistake you have done which caused so many unhappiness?

dumb. really faggots.

if i know who's the god damn operator who did it, mother fucker, you die!


stay tune for tomorrow. i'm gonna screw them up.

dad just came back from his business trip! wee.
glad to hear good news from him.
things over there are progressing extremely well.
hotels are giving us the exclusives. loads of rooms.

and there will be some showroom or exhibition going on over there next year.
GREAT JOB!

waiting for more good news.

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anyhow, bf and i were glued yesterday again.

he's a really great boyfriend to me.
when i'm hungry, he never fails to go and buy food for me.
when i'm thirsty, he never fails to bring water to me.
when i wanna go out, he never fails to accompany me.
basically, he will do anything for me as long as i say "i want."
he can do stupid acts and pretend to be a kid just to make me smile or even laugh.
i'm really very happy being with him

but why do i still feel neglected by him?
this is insane.
he spends all his time with me.
maybe i'm demanding to much.
maybe i need assurances. but i have all his assurances.

so, what's wrong?


or maybe, all i need is him to listen.

a year....

my P Plate can go suck dick now!

but come to think again, since when did i had a P Plate whenever i drive. hmmm.

happy one year licence. =)

late night sex so wet so tight

life is way too busy.

BUT! life is still good 'cause every wednesday is extra pay day!

i told myself i need facial and massage, yet i cancel it twice. goodness.

GRANT ME 48 HOURS A DAY PLEASE!

i need to work harder and 2 case for this month is still not enough! i need to have more than $2k a month.

Envious Eyes

NO, this is not any bouquet in any country.

for god's sake, this is mariah carey's closet. she has a thousand pairs of shoes. this is insane, it's getting me to excited. i want this!

damn, my birthday wish might be having a closet like this. isn't it better than the silly one (about me getting to know a rich man who has a private jet and could bring me to US to shop at VS, 'cause it was on sale that time) i made? ha!

man, she needs a ladder if she wants to wear something from the top or maybe getting a her handbag. WOW!

WASSUP

it stated it all. met up with mates on friday. a pretty (or maybe real) quick catch up 'cause bf fetching me to go for movie. so many stories shared. sex, rape, molest, killings, ghosts, mirrors and so on. it was joy that ended the night with.

it's a good place to chill. food isn't that bad neither was it a disappointment. the most crucial thing was the catch up. it was still like before, just that, we all have grown. changes. but D, my sharing mate. he didn't turn up for any of our gatherings which also means i didn't get to see him for a year?

hmmm...

mum has been pestering me for my birthday celebration. i wanted to go overseas with bf and friends, but my mum scolded me "siao" cause she said it is important to celebrate my 21st, keep those memories and all my bosses too, encouraged and even planned for me to open a chalet. BECAUSE, hmmm, it's inner secret.

my initial plan was to celebrate it at Bali Sentosa. it's really an awesome place to be at. man, we can rock the whole room.

isn't it wonderful? what's more, private pool! aiseh! but mum said too expensive. cheap rooms can't accomodate the amount of people i'll be inviting.

unwantedly, i have to give up this plan. but i still do visit the webby just in case i become rich out of a sudden.

so, i'm gonna get this cheap cheap really cheap chalet. 2 days. it's really cheap. gonna book it on monday. everyone said the chalet is like a showroom, so, hopefully, it will not be a disappointment like desaru.

awww, i miss the time i spent with bf at desaru. the two of us were really glued to each other and most importantly, bf knows how to take care of me throughout the whole trip.

back to birthday, boss of company asked me to rent a yatch, sadly, i got sea sick. he recommended to book a suite. but my boss said i won't have any returns. chalet is still the best. guess all the bosses will be gambling and mj-ing. and and and, bigest boss(boss of co.) got 50% discunt for emicakes. wee-o-wee!

i'm sure i can get what i want this birthday.

i'm the dumbest and blur-est person you can find on earth!

how can someone actually make a mistake in handing up the wrong assignment. i repeat, WRONG ASSIGNMENT! and i realised it only 2 days after i handed in, which is also the due date.

hello? i'm in a degree course, not diploma. it's expensive. i don't wanna remodule for this stupid mistake.

i rushed all the way to school early this morning. to my relieve, the lecture had not went to take all the assignments yet. my wonderful coordinator, she really the best, florence, allowed me to make changes with my assignments.

i think i'll go insane if i couldn't get to change over my assignments.

I LOVE FLORENCE.

anyhow, i went over baby's place today while waiting for him to end his interview. yea, i got his house keys, way long long ago. i didn't expect him mum to be home so, i was pretty surprised to see her.

and you know, when 2 women are home alone, they talked like never. usually, she will always ask me questions and i will answers and after that, i do my stuffs. eventually, today, i broke the ice between us.

the interesting thing was that she asked me if i do collect shoes. answer was yes but i told her "no la, just take got a few pairs." prolly, i should do something like mellie - take photos of all the shoes i have so i will realise how many i bought yet have not touch them. i can go to the extend that if the shoes have 3 designs of different colours, i can buy all of them.

siao right?

so, she carried on asking why i got so many shoes, where i buy, how much, including my clothes too. heh! she said my clothes are nice! then we gossip about he son, she complained so many things. anyway, we talk everything we can talk about.

women.

eventually, she asked me to go buy toto for her. duhhhhhh~

and so, on another month, we went to watch a live soccer match. it wasn't that exciting as watching matches like the euro on the television. yes, i meant on tv, not live.

i don't know why he loves it so much.

he bought me to kent ridge park after he went to see my uncle for his fall. it was such a paranomic view. i wish i could just plant my house up the hills with sea views and greenery. which also include the architecture of the bulidings. it's such a waste not taking any photos of the views. i wanna go there again!

HELLO BF, YOU SEE IT? I WANNA GO THERE AGAIN OKAY!

result was out. i'm fine. no thyroid. i'm lucky. i was relieve. if not, taking the medicine can cause me to turn in a pig. that was what happened to people who were diagnosed with any stage of thyroid. mum was relieve. dad was relieve. thank god!

so, *scratch head* what's all the symtoms of thyroid about? there were question marks on the doctor, my mum and me. the doctor seeing my weight dropping rapidly had no choice but he said "it's better for a full body check-up."

i'm still eating like a king kong. bf couldn't stand it. he would go "huh?!! still not enough?" "what? again? we just ate?"

so, this is the 45kg me. grandpa noticed it on his birthday and he kept telling my mum to not let me go on diet. ON DIET?! huh? since when?

each and everyday, i stand in front of the mirror. it goes like this: god damn it, i look so so damn ugly. i hate my face. there were times when i feel like killing myself, and i hope i don't go out and scare people.

i hate the comments that i'm going on diet given by people. this isn't what i want at all.

i forced myself to eat. i ate breakfast, then lunch, yet after lunch i bought a lot of tibits or snacks and i countinue eating non stop till i meet bf for dinner and i eat again. and at times, i will say "can buy another meal?" and if bf said he is too full to share with me, i have to stop eating till the next day. this routine has been going all day.

and eventually, eating too much makes me wanna puke. therefore, i cut down to have breakfast, lunch and dinner only. i might skip either one till i have gastic ache, that's when i proceed to get my snacks and so on and force it down me.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG?!

i so do not want to go do the full body check up. imagine how much more courage i have to put up for it. the blood test had almost killed me.

HOW LA!

it's either i stay put at this weight or i maintain it. if i go on loosing, i'll kill myself. i'm i put on weight till over 50kg, i will kill myself too. 'cause there's a big day coming, i don't wanna ruin the way i look.