REGINA'S

yesterday was DXO. very tiny place i should say. i think is kinda stupid. i don't like their system. but i had loads of fun. dance and dance all the way. together with the lead male KJ, HER, AH KOR, DYAN, JEFF, JAYSON, KELVIN, RONG, SUGI and another two guys. dyan and jayson can really shake well. we drink and drink. get high. took of our footwear. jeff and kj danced shuffle. wonderful i should said. many guys were like trying out shuffle when they saw kj. but sadly, they don't have the talent.

basically, for the whole night. i was dancing with her. danced with jeff but he kept pushing me till i almost fall off the stair. kj stepped on my foot so hard that i fall straight on the floor. pain okay. one thing about dxo, they kept repeating the music played.




i cried when i reach home. actually, i wanted to cry in the cabby when i talked to kelvin. but i think i'll make the whole situation worst.

i know kj was feeling down last night. i want him to be sad. i hate to see him putting the nothing-had-happen front in front of me. i hate it. though i only know part of the whole event, i understand how you feel. certain things i wanna say out, but i'm afraid i might just hurt you cos it's might be something that you are escaping from. i'm searching for time to send you off. i don't wanna regret another time. i wish you all the best there. you are a nice guy. i'm sure it will be a forever thingy.

for jen. i know she suffering too. deep in her. i hate to see everyone pretending nothing happened. i make me more sad. both of them are my love, i can bare to see them getting hurt. cos i feel the hurt too. i just hope the decision you make will be the one that benefit you the most.

for kelvin. i understand everything.

i can feel in pain in you you and you. can you feel mine too?