i don't know why. but i always feel real good when i'm out with jena.
i'm so so sick now! =( lost my voice. my eye is red. fever is gettting better though. i was fortunate, i got people to bring me go see doctor yesterday. if not, i wonder what will i become today.
seriously, i'm still thinking if i should attend it. jena and simon agreed that i should go.
simon is conflicting me. should i take his advises or should i go my way? 怎么说, i know him longer than him what. 怎么办?!
i wanna watch MR.BEAN!
Friday, March 30, 2007
there are pretty unexpected and unpredictable thing going on. no one knows what will happened to the 10 years down the road.
neither did i ever have the thoughts of knowing simon once again after 12 years.
suprisingly, i was introduced to simon when i was 7. being young and having a dead grandma beside me, i didn't give a damn to his appearance. yea, i gotta know him on my grandma's funeral. cool isn't it. 12 years ago, i din even bother to take a look at him. and now, 12 years later, everything changed so much. simon and i had become friends. not longer the thinkings of age-does-matters thoughts.
i used to think that mixing around with the older ones might be difficult of me as the topics they are having are not what i can a accomodate. it's was so wrong! look at what's happening now, i got hell lots of friends whole are so much older as me and as old as 42 which is 23 difference in age!
next week, please wait for me, i'm coming. if i'm going to watch the match, i shall take some pictures. but where the hell is padang?!
neither did i ever have the thoughts of knowing simon once again after 12 years.
suprisingly, i was introduced to simon when i was 7. being young and having a dead grandma beside me, i didn't give a damn to his appearance. yea, i gotta know him on my grandma's funeral. cool isn't it. 12 years ago, i din even bother to take a look at him. and now, 12 years later, everything changed so much. simon and i had become friends. not longer the thinkings of age-does-matters thoughts.
i used to think that mixing around with the older ones might be difficult of me as the topics they are having are not what i can a accomodate. it's was so wrong! look at what's happening now, i got hell lots of friends whole are so much older as me and as old as 42 which is 23 difference in age!
next week, please wait for me, i'm coming. if i'm going to watch the match, i shall take some pictures. but where the hell is padang?!
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
HELLO DAVIDSON! THANKS FOR PASSING ME YOUR SICKNESS. =) i'm so sick now.
i went out with d today. it's a shopping day for us but we din buy much(NOTHING) though we got a whole bag of money. =/ i like going out with d cos we really talked alot about our lives and stuffs. if anyone wanna know my secrets, go and bid him. he got a whole brain of my secrets. but don't kill him alright.
i headed down to cine to meet up with simon. we had dinner at this wang xin or xin wang hong kong cafe. the food isn't that bad and still kinda worth. but the employees don't really know how to speak english. they are all the foreigners from china. you can't expect me to speak my damn funny chinese language with them right? they will laugh! so, simon did everything. one thing i like going out with simon is he tells me about life, kinda open up me to see further stuffs in a situation. he made me realised that i have not grown up as in the things that i have seen are just tiny bits. the problems i have are just minor ones. but for one of my situation, he gave me real advises which i think i should take note of and he teaches me some stuffs. somehow, i know what i'm suppose to do. alright, we went to watch haunted school. i was grabbing his arm that weigh about 10kg. damn heavy. but the movie is kinda stupid.
i'm sorry tat i lied. but i just don't want you people to make unwanted thinkings.
Monday, March 26, 2007
simon is really scaring me. ARGH! damn it. he should at least give me some hope and not conflicting me. i was sleeping in class today, yes, first lesson and i'm sleeping, and i dreamt of what simon had told me. totally freaked out.
i, seriously don't know what is going on now, until the answer is out. when will that ever be? when i'm drunk? but fuck, what i have done is real obvious, stop pretending please!
maybe tml will be a better day. maybe i'm thinking too much. i'm having this real serious PMS currently, it's so obvious that norman is complaining. perhaps that is why i'm thinking so much and getting annoyed easily.
the next date.
i, seriously don't know what is going on now, until the answer is out. when will that ever be? when i'm drunk? but fuck, what i have done is real obvious, stop pretending please!
maybe tml will be a better day. maybe i'm thinking too much. i'm having this real serious PMS currently, it's so obvious that norman is complaining. perhaps that is why i'm thinking so much and getting annoyed easily.
the next date.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
it's so sweet for the two guys who came to accompany go shopping though it's was really late when they reached and i hardly can shop for anything. BUT! i still appreciate everything you both have done. THANKS SO MUCH, DUDE! oh yea, they brought me to this place, to look at some cars. those stickers ones. alright, what is so funny about stickers? cos the moment i said that, both of them were laughing. =(
eugene was telling me stories about the haunted house at punggol MRT station. cos he's an agent. so he knows stuffs about houses and so on. i was totally freaked up and i screamed in the car. =/ the next moment, i turned to norman and said "send me up later." he told me that many went missing when they go into the house. like those grass cutter and some policemen too. isn't it freaky? maybe someone might just wanna go try it.
eugene was telling me stories about the haunted house at punggol MRT station. cos he's an agent. so he knows stuffs about houses and so on. i was totally freaked up and i screamed in the car. =/ the next moment, i turned to norman and said "send me up later." he told me that many went missing when they go into the house. like those grass cutter and some policemen too. isn't it freaky? maybe someone might just wanna go try it.
TITLE: WHITE LIES. *opps.
Friday, March 23, 2007
seriously, is there any cures at mos? it's like everytime we go there, so many things will happen. it's like always having the same thing happening. twice, i was with the same group at mos, almost the same thingy is recurring. everyone is like FUCKs!
i was with my 2 sisters, MY BOSS-simon, justin, tommy, alex and christina's so called "dear dear." while waiting for MR. ANDREW to sign us in, there is this group of caucasians, they came up to ask about directions. and one of the caucasian came up to me and sat right beside me. as in shoulder to shoulder. at first, i was like what the fuck is he gonna do, as i was about to move myself away, he turned and i saw him. WOAH! he is so so HANDSOME! just like those celebrities. so, he held my hands up and......
i was kinda wacky yesterday. BOSS seems to be my punch bag. simon is always my dance partner whenever we happened to club. but this time, he initiate to dance with me. so, you know, when sober and sober got together..... he told me something while we were dancing. but i pretended to fool around about the topic. and i tried avoiding eyes contacts and same to justin. damn simon! always wanna bully me. i like having simon around whenever we go party. cos he is so so fun. and he really party. and for justin, i think he really had a real fun partying with us cos he got the chance to dance the 3 of us(girls). no choice. we wanna give me a fun night out, cos he's going in to sit for don't know how many months or years after this tuesday. so, BYE BYE! =(
things are getting pretty screwed up now.
and for today, i went NEW ASIA BAR! 72-LEVEL! you know, i was having phobia for heights. so, i gotta take some time to adapt to the environment. no on was at the member level which was 72. it was like gerald have reserved the whole level. and when i did so,
he was the sponser.
it's was half eaten when i finally realised "hey! we have not take any photos." i'll regret if i didn't. just like what happened at MOS.
it's 72!
can you see the SALMON?!
i was with my 2 sisters, MY BOSS-simon, justin, tommy, alex and christina's so called "dear dear." while waiting for MR. ANDREW to sign us in, there is this group of caucasians, they came up to ask about directions. and one of the caucasian came up to me and sat right beside me. as in shoulder to shoulder. at first, i was like what the fuck is he gonna do, as i was about to move myself away, he turned and i saw him. WOAH! he is so so HANDSOME! just like those celebrities. so, he held my hands up and......
i was kinda wacky yesterday. BOSS seems to be my punch bag. simon is always my dance partner whenever we happened to club. but this time, he initiate to dance with me. so, you know, when sober and sober got together..... he told me something while we were dancing. but i pretended to fool around about the topic. and i tried avoiding eyes contacts and same to justin. damn simon! always wanna bully me. i like having simon around whenever we go party. cos he is so so fun. and he really party. and for justin, i think he really had a real fun partying with us cos he got the chance to dance the 3 of us(girls). no choice. we wanna give me a fun night out, cos he's going in to sit for don't know how many months or years after this tuesday. so, BYE BYE! =(
things are getting pretty screwed up now.
and for today, i went NEW ASIA BAR! 72-LEVEL! you know, i was having phobia for heights. so, i gotta take some time to adapt to the environment. no on was at the member level which was 72. it was like gerald have reserved the whole level. and when i did so,
he was the sponser.
it's was half eaten when i finally realised "hey! we have not take any photos." i'll regret if i didn't. just like what happened at MOS.
it's was on of the BEST!
this was how high it was.
it's 72!
can you see the SALMON?!
this was the menu.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
i so gonna miss syaf. she sucha sweetie. i got 2 and a half days of laughers with here! mostly, we were laughing at the guys and the customers. yesterday, there was this lady, she ask me:
LADY: what should i use to paste these fake nails on my nails?
ME: you can use nail tabs or glue?
LADY: glue? you mean elephant glue?
i turned away when i heard the words 'elephant glue.' but i manage to explain to her which type of glue she should use. i told syaf and she like laughing madly at the lady when she left. it's like why would you wanna use elephant glue on your nails? it's like do you really need to stick those fake nails so firm to your nails?
becuase of this whole joke, i laughed the whole day. eugene and norman came to pick me up after work for dinner(supper) and i just can't stop thinking about the joke. they couldn't take it somehow. they were there "elephant glue only what. what is so funny about it?" to be true, initially, i was laughing about the glue thingy but after that i was laughing at eugene's laughers. =/ somehow, they manage to shut me up by telling me ghost stuffs.
and today, syaf and i were like laughing at EVERYTHING. the tiko uncles. the smack that guys. the guys who waved at us from 4 level to 1st. and the last laughter i had with here for the week was this.
LADY: what should i use to paste these fake nails on my nails?
ME: you can use nail tabs or glue?
LADY: glue? you mean elephant glue?
i turned away when i heard the words 'elephant glue.' but i manage to explain to her which type of glue she should use. i told syaf and she like laughing madly at the lady when she left. it's like why would you wanna use elephant glue on your nails? it's like do you really need to stick those fake nails so firm to your nails?
becuase of this whole joke, i laughed the whole day. eugene and norman came to pick me up after work for dinner(supper) and i just can't stop thinking about the joke. they couldn't take it somehow. they were there "elephant glue only what. what is so funny about it?" to be true, initially, i was laughing about the glue thingy but after that i was laughing at eugene's laughers. =/ somehow, they manage to shut me up by telling me ghost stuffs.
and today, syaf and i were like laughing at EVERYTHING. the tiko uncles. the smack that guys. the guys who waved at us from 4 level to 1st. and the last laughter i had with here for the week was this.
the problem here is, why does he have to open his legs so wide?
we were laughing like fucks man. angela thinks we were mad.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
it's another amazing thingy that i can wake up at this time to blog. first, i went to work in the morning. next, i went to partyworld. then, i headed for a moive. finally, i went to amber 21. so, i reached home at 7 but claiming to my mum, it was 6.
there were seriously a lot of drama at amber 21. handcuffs, pushings, laughters, heart to heart talk, knowing new people and almost some fights which we manage to maintain the situations. should i say it was a fun day yesterday or should i claim that it's another fucking day out. you see, the plans was to meet at amber 21 and we'll head down to drangonfly at 3 for R'n'B. so, amber was filled with all the people i know. everyone there knows that i can't wait for 3am to arrived and shake my ass off the dance floor. they knew i was very keen. but hot-tempers, they just couldn't control themselves so, drama with police and got handcuffs. seeing that situation, i know my hopes are all down the drain. i'm not blaming them. they are lucky. cos dragonfly was having spot check, so can't headed down. no choice, gotta stuck my ass at amber.
i got to know a few more people. mian hao(mian mian), vincent and chee kok. they are so damn funny. i think vincent is kinda cute. =/ when the drama was going on, they were there taking care of me. i swear i was damn scared. i thought botak might just come straight to me and kill me. what do you expect, out with real gangters. i decided not to care much about them and sing song. after the song, mian mian was there: "WOOOOO, ABC sing not bad ah."
alright, serious stuffs now. i told you zillions of time, it should be a secret between me and you and you are not allow to tell adeline. but fuck, how many times do you have to leak out the secret? and why must you tell sunny? it's really has nothing to do with sunny. what more, it's a secret. you know it, when you tell sunny something, it's like the whole fucking drangonfly will knows about it. in future, how am i going to go drangonfly with my friends? surely he will ask people to look out for me right? because the fucking moment i stepped into dragonfly, he will knows! i know you are trying to protect me. like for norman, seriously, you don't have to go straight to him and ask him to send me home safely and shit. cos he definitely will. it's like asking stupid questions. i'm fucking 19 already, do you really have to do these? like if i go dragonfly, i wanna have fun, if you ask people to keep looking out for me, fuck, how am i going to have fun? just like at amber yesterday, i just gave you some signs and you annouced it. so, the whole amber knows la. where's your fucking brains?! do you have brains? you are making things worse for me. you think it's helping, you think it's for my own good. but all i have to say, SORRY, I FUCKING DON'T APPRECIATE ANYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME SO FAR. it's seriously not helping. if one fine day, because for what you say and i done for good, sorry, i think we should stop talking. please, i beg you, go have some brains. shan't comment about the desmond thingy, you just go reflect about yourself.
people see it, they can hear it, they can feel it, still, why you don't.
there were seriously a lot of drama at amber 21. handcuffs, pushings, laughters, heart to heart talk, knowing new people and almost some fights which we manage to maintain the situations. should i say it was a fun day yesterday or should i claim that it's another fucking day out. you see, the plans was to meet at amber 21 and we'll head down to drangonfly at 3 for R'n'B. so, amber was filled with all the people i know. everyone there knows that i can't wait for 3am to arrived and shake my ass off the dance floor. they knew i was very keen. but hot-tempers, they just couldn't control themselves so, drama with police and got handcuffs. seeing that situation, i know my hopes are all down the drain. i'm not blaming them. they are lucky. cos dragonfly was having spot check, so can't headed down. no choice, gotta stuck my ass at amber.
i got to know a few more people. mian hao(mian mian), vincent and chee kok. they are so damn funny. i think vincent is kinda cute. =/ when the drama was going on, they were there taking care of me. i swear i was damn scared. i thought botak might just come straight to me and kill me. what do you expect, out with real gangters. i decided not to care much about them and sing song. after the song, mian mian was there: "WOOOOO, ABC sing not bad ah."
alright, serious stuffs now. i told you zillions of time, it should be a secret between me and you and you are not allow to tell adeline. but fuck, how many times do you have to leak out the secret? and why must you tell sunny? it's really has nothing to do with sunny. what more, it's a secret. you know it, when you tell sunny something, it's like the whole fucking drangonfly will knows about it. in future, how am i going to go drangonfly with my friends? surely he will ask people to look out for me right? because the fucking moment i stepped into dragonfly, he will knows! i know you are trying to protect me. like for norman, seriously, you don't have to go straight to him and ask him to send me home safely and shit. cos he definitely will. it's like asking stupid questions. i'm fucking 19 already, do you really have to do these? like if i go dragonfly, i wanna have fun, if you ask people to keep looking out for me, fuck, how am i going to have fun? just like at amber yesterday, i just gave you some signs and you annouced it. so, the whole amber knows la. where's your fucking brains?! do you have brains? you are making things worse for me. you think it's helping, you think it's for my own good. but all i have to say, SORRY, I FUCKING DON'T APPRECIATE ANYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME SO FAR. it's seriously not helping. if one fine day, because for what you say and i done for good, sorry, i think we should stop talking. please, i beg you, go have some brains. shan't comment about the desmond thingy, you just go reflect about yourself.
people see it, they can hear it, they can feel it, still, why you don't.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
the thing here is COUNT the NUMBER OF PEOPLE.
yea, so just count.
4 aunts missing.
8 people missing in this picture of grandchildren.
2 brother missing
how many is missing?
this is extra. I WANNA COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS! why the youngest always have priority?
why can she get the cake first?!
so, have you counted how many people are there? there are 2 women missing in the family pic. actually, there are more missing, but i simply can't remember how many cousins i have. I HAVE TO MANY TO REMEMBER. so rounded up, there should be around 50. just my grandmas and granddad, and it's turned up to such HUGE family tree.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i did something amusing today. it's an unbelievable act. after that, i was like "what the fuck, was that me talking?" so, ya.
i hope everything will not turn to dust. on the other hand, i hope things will come to an end. see the emo issue here?
what if....
there's this bag A that you were always yearning for. no matter how expensive, you will just fight your way to get it. however when starving yourself to save enough money, you happened to come across another bag B which is very easy-to-bring-out type. you planned to forget about getting bag A and just concentrate on saving your money to get bag B. however, whenever you are heading to get bag B, bag A caught your eyes again. see the dilemma situation here?
it's irritating, it's annoying, everyone hate this feelings. so, many will suggest to get BOTH bags. the question is how long am i suppose to save enough for both bags? yes, i can buy either one first. what if i buy B and regret, and prefer bag A? yes, i can save money again to get bag A. what if it's out of stock? it's never gonna come back!
see it. i guess it's time for me to chill.
i hope everything will not turn to dust. on the other hand, i hope things will come to an end. see the emo issue here?
what if....
there's this bag A that you were always yearning for. no matter how expensive, you will just fight your way to get it. however when starving yourself to save enough money, you happened to come across another bag B which is very easy-to-bring-out type. you planned to forget about getting bag A and just concentrate on saving your money to get bag B. however, whenever you are heading to get bag B, bag A caught your eyes again. see the dilemma situation here?
it's irritating, it's annoying, everyone hate this feelings. so, many will suggest to get BOTH bags. the question is how long am i suppose to save enough for both bags? yes, i can buy either one first. what if i buy B and regret, and prefer bag A? yes, i can save money again to get bag A. what if it's out of stock? it's never gonna come back!
see it. i guess it's time for me to chill.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Q: what is Chinese New Year for?
HIS ANS: to get more ang ba.
FACTS: GATHERING
HE to HIS DAD: i never take money from you, i only take from ah ma.
SITUATION: mother's health is deteriorating and she has to reply on the oxygen tank at home. the oxygen has been used up and HIS aunt asked him to change the tank.
HIS REPLY: later then change, i play computer first.
*his aunt scolded him. without any choice, he dragged himself into the room to change.*
*his mother took out her inhaler and used all her strength and shout*
MOTHER: by the time you change, i'm dead.
this is totally fucking shit.
HE TO HIS AUNT
HE: why your son taste like getting worse already? girlfriend all like worse already.
AUNT: then your girlfriend can make it not?
HE: can! 100% can.
FATHER TO HIM
FATHER: i brought a lot of drink. 5 min later come down and help me carry some up.
HIM: okay.
*15 min passed, he never turn up*
DURING GATHERINGS
HIM: wah! you all playing games ah? i go down and meet my friends.
HIM TO FATHER
HIM: pa, i go out awhile.
FATHER: come back early ok.
*he reached home at 3am*
i think this is enough to comdemn him.
it not we no longer dote on you. let me ask you, if someone from love and dote on you so much have hurt you, moreover, he is one of you family member, would you still wanna talk to him and treat him as good as before?
HIS ANS: to get more ang ba.
FACTS: GATHERING
HE to HIS DAD: i never take money from you, i only take from ah ma.
SITUATION: mother's health is deteriorating and she has to reply on the oxygen tank at home. the oxygen has been used up and HIS aunt asked him to change the tank.
HIS REPLY: later then change, i play computer first.
*his aunt scolded him. without any choice, he dragged himself into the room to change.*
*his mother took out her inhaler and used all her strength and shout*
MOTHER: by the time you change, i'm dead.
this is totally fucking shit.
HE TO HIS AUNT
HE: why your son taste like getting worse already? girlfriend all like worse already.
AUNT: then your girlfriend can make it not?
HE: can! 100% can.
FATHER TO HIM
FATHER: i brought a lot of drink. 5 min later come down and help me carry some up.
HIM: okay.
*15 min passed, he never turn up*
DURING GATHERINGS
HIM: wah! you all playing games ah? i go down and meet my friends.
HIM TO FATHER
HIM: pa, i go out awhile.
FATHER: come back early ok.
*he reached home at 3am*
i think this is enough to comdemn him.
it not we no longer dote on you. let me ask you, if someone from love and dote on you so much have hurt you, moreover, he is one of you family member, would you still wanna talk to him and treat him as good as before?
Saturday, March 10, 2007
okay, i was too paranoid. i admit. but i'm sure it will happen. not now maybe; someday later.
for the first time of so many days, i felt sleepy. it's something amazing cos i have not experience such stuff for days and weeks. there's a possibility it's because of the beam lights in the ktv which causes me to feel sleepy in the ktv as well including the freezing air con there. or maybe it's because 10 cent voice made me so. LOL! i was just kidding. 10 cent's voice is more suitable for rock songs. more man you see. he din get to take photo. i wanna take photo with him leh. one fine day, i'll get him to take some with me and it's a MUST! well, still, k session for 2 is still the best. no one to fight over the mic!
for the first time of so many days, i felt sleepy. it's something amazing cos i have not experience such stuff for days and weeks. there's a possibility it's because of the beam lights in the ktv which causes me to feel sleepy in the ktv as well including the freezing air con there. or maybe it's because 10 cent voice made me so. LOL! i was just kidding. 10 cent's voice is more suitable for rock songs. more man you see. he din get to take photo. i wanna take photo with him leh. one fine day, i'll get him to take some with me and it's a MUST! well, still, k session for 2 is still the best. no one to fight over the mic!
Friday, March 09, 2007
is that a warning again? never once was i given a feasible reason or explaination. pretending to be preoccupied or adsent minded now? or pretending to forget my existence? i thought everything was going on pretty well. and that day.......we....... how can it happened so fast again?! AGAIN!
i have done my part. if you still prefer to continue avoiding and decieving yourself, fine, i have nothing to say. if you choose to withhold, sorry, i'm running out of time. things are changing now. once they made the decision, i'm sorry, i'm not gonna look back.
so now, my messed up life is about to end. which is a good thingy, however, i'm not even happy. everything that was done was a glimpse of hope for me. somehow, i was given the hope and it was banished by the same person. the fun thing about my messed up life is i have not even shed any tears. maybe it's because i experienced hell the pervious time, or am i just too tired? maybe after ending this post, after thinking what have i done wrong(which i don't think i did), i'm gonna breakdown. i did all i could. i did what i was told.
WHY? i have always been asking myself. WHY! i'm 19 already! i'm not any lil girl anymore. but WHY?
i'm not feeling fine. i so do not. i can't sleep but i eat alot. drinking seems to be the best way for me. FRIDAY! i shall call simon and ask later. i know it's unhealthy to drink and get drunk. i can't resist. i love the feeling alot. how i wish i get drunk and i screw everything out, i get i'll feel even better. it will be better if i get drunk everyday so i can fall asleep faster and i don't have to keep asking myself why and start seeking for answers.
i think i'm too free and that will lead me to thinking of stupid issuses. so, hopefully when work starts, i'll be better and it will be my turn to forget his existence. i'm looking forward working!
emo and breakdown session in a moment.
i have done my part. if you still prefer to continue avoiding and decieving yourself, fine, i have nothing to say. if you choose to withhold, sorry, i'm running out of time. things are changing now. once they made the decision, i'm sorry, i'm not gonna look back.
so now, my messed up life is about to end. which is a good thingy, however, i'm not even happy. everything that was done was a glimpse of hope for me. somehow, i was given the hope and it was banished by the same person. the fun thing about my messed up life is i have not even shed any tears. maybe it's because i experienced hell the pervious time, or am i just too tired? maybe after ending this post, after thinking what have i done wrong(which i don't think i did), i'm gonna breakdown. i did all i could. i did what i was told.
WHY? i have always been asking myself. WHY! i'm 19 already! i'm not any lil girl anymore. but WHY?
i'm not feeling fine. i so do not. i can't sleep but i eat alot. drinking seems to be the best way for me. FRIDAY! i shall call simon and ask later. i know it's unhealthy to drink and get drunk. i can't resist. i love the feeling alot. how i wish i get drunk and i screw everything out, i get i'll feel even better. it will be better if i get drunk everyday so i can fall asleep faster and i don't have to keep asking myself why and start seeking for answers.
i think i'm too free and that will lead me to thinking of stupid issuses. so, hopefully when work starts, i'll be better and it will be my turn to forget his existence. i'm looking forward working!
emo and breakdown session in a moment.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
I SAW THIS AT YI TING'S BLOG AND IT'S SO TEMPTING THAT I CAN'T RESIST MYSELF TO SNATCH IT!
People born in the Year of the Rabbit are articulate, talented, and ambitious. They are virtuous, reserved, and have excellent taste. Rabbit people are admired, trusted, and are often financially lucky. They are fond of gossip but are tactful and generally kind. Rabbit people seldom lose their temper. They are clever at business and being conscientious, never back out of a contract. They would make good gamblers for they have the uncanny gift of choosing the right thing. However, they seldom gamble, as they are conservative and wise. They are most compatible with those born in the years of the Sheep, Pig, and Dog.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i have lost; to myself.
i'm so so so tired! eversince the eve of chinese new year, or rather eversince the start of my exams, when did i ever have enough of sleep? yes, i'm lacking of sleeps. the problem here is i can't sleep till 3 or 4am. am i suffering from insomnia? i really think i need sleeping pills. seems that most of the people around are taking it. yea, due to late nights out. i'm down. i'm sick along with people around me. cos of late nights, everyone is lacking of sleeps and all falling sick. but no one seems to care a single shit about it. this moment we complain we are so damn sick and so on and we can't go out and stuffs, the next moment, we will be searching for people and "hey! tonight dragonfly? mos?"
i don't mind being sick. i wanna get sick. i wanna have a real rest. i hope i can sleep all the way so that i can stop myself from messing up my life every single day. every morning, the first thing that came to my mind is "fuck! i lost!" knowing that i the same protocol everyday will still lead me to nothing, i proceed.
2 days in chalet, i have serious mood swings. partly because i'm pmsing and the other is about my messed up life! but i'm glad my sharingmate is there to listen and give me advise and accompanied me. even though my mate's situation isn't any better than me, he manage to smile so much. perhaps, he's a guy, he is still able to accept the fact. so far, i think only mate know the whole situation about me. tml it will be yi ting's turn. he gave me advises. but still, i hate to believe it. somehow or rather, we conclude that no matter what, still we will have that mini hope there. hoping someday, things will just go our way. thanks mate, for caring.
oh yea, I WANNA COMPLAIN! it's very stupid to have blankets in the chalet. what's the point of having blankets when the are so many holes. isn't it suppose that blanket should keep a person warm and not cold? i was shrivering the whole night covering the chalet's blanket. thank d, he gave me his jacket. yes, i felt better after that for the upper part of my body only. =/
i'm feeling fat now. supper after supper. i'm dead. time to go into my usual diet plan.
that day, was a day that i have longing for. i thank you for making part of it come true and making the other part into shit. you knew it. admit it. everyone felt it. even i did not make it obvious, they felt it still. they asked. but i denied; still.
i'm so so so tired! eversince the eve of chinese new year, or rather eversince the start of my exams, when did i ever have enough of sleep? yes, i'm lacking of sleeps. the problem here is i can't sleep till 3 or 4am. am i suffering from insomnia? i really think i need sleeping pills. seems that most of the people around are taking it. yea, due to late nights out. i'm down. i'm sick along with people around me. cos of late nights, everyone is lacking of sleeps and all falling sick. but no one seems to care a single shit about it. this moment we complain we are so damn sick and so on and we can't go out and stuffs, the next moment, we will be searching for people and "hey! tonight dragonfly? mos?"
i don't mind being sick. i wanna get sick. i wanna have a real rest. i hope i can sleep all the way so that i can stop myself from messing up my life every single day. every morning, the first thing that came to my mind is "fuck! i lost!" knowing that i the same protocol everyday will still lead me to nothing, i proceed.
2 days in chalet, i have serious mood swings. partly because i'm pmsing and the other is about my messed up life! but i'm glad my sharingmate is there to listen and give me advise and accompanied me. even though my mate's situation isn't any better than me, he manage to smile so much. perhaps, he's a guy, he is still able to accept the fact. so far, i think only mate know the whole situation about me. tml it will be yi ting's turn. he gave me advises. but still, i hate to believe it. somehow or rather, we conclude that no matter what, still we will have that mini hope there. hoping someday, things will just go our way. thanks mate, for caring.
oh yea, I WANNA COMPLAIN! it's very stupid to have blankets in the chalet. what's the point of having blankets when the are so many holes. isn't it suppose that blanket should keep a person warm and not cold? i was shrivering the whole night covering the chalet's blanket. thank d, he gave me his jacket. yes, i felt better after that for the upper part of my body only. =/
i'm feeling fat now. supper after supper. i'm dead. time to go into my usual diet plan.
that day, was a day that i have longing for. i thank you for making part of it come true and making the other part into shit. you knew it. admit it. everyone felt it. even i did not make it obvious, they felt it still. they asked. but i denied; still.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
and so, i had a lot of fun yesterday though i din really get to dance.
cloud nice's boss asked if i wanna work at his pub! duh! of cos reject right?
i hate it when eugene called me mei mei! i'm 19 already leh. still mei mei!
norman helped me drink alot at cloud nice cos i kept lossing the game. anyway, it's beer. i don't like.
but at dragonfly, they open bottle!! of cos is drink till siao right?
i was real sleepy when the lights are on. i just slept in the van. JUST SLEEP! who cares about imagine. sleep! norman was sitting beside me and he hit me twice don't think i don't know! but still i gotta thank his for taking care of me the whole night.
sorry, no photos!
cloud nice's boss asked if i wanna work at his pub! duh! of cos reject right?
i hate it when eugene called me mei mei! i'm 19 already leh. still mei mei!
norman helped me drink alot at cloud nice cos i kept lossing the game. anyway, it's beer. i don't like.
but at dragonfly, they open bottle!! of cos is drink till siao right?
i was real sleepy when the lights are on. i just slept in the van. JUST SLEEP! who cares about imagine. sleep! norman was sitting beside me and he hit me twice don't think i don't know! but still i gotta thank his for taking care of me the whole night.
sorry, no photos!
Friday, March 02, 2007
damn sian la. i wanna club leh. but tml like no one going. have is have la. but i scare not use to the group. cos dinner is with norman and he said after that go club. club with him? a bit funny. cos adeline not going. and chirstina! say tml comfirm comfirm, deal deal, deal till say see first. argh! only hope is adeline. just pray that desmond allows her to go so that i'll get EVERYTHING FREE again. =D so, now, i shall go and rest, wait for 730 to come and give norman a morning call. give morning call also good. got free dinner. woah! envy me, ENVY ME people. LOL! just kidding. all this free stuffs will never be everlasting. when things get a into a longer period, they will found out everything. so, if can, try to use all the advantages before they are all gone in a day!
the stupidest dog!