HI SERENA KHOR CAI LI! i know you do read my blog. but please don't tell mum about it. thanks so much! and i love you. LOL!







alright, this post is for someone who view my blog almost everyday to see. you know who you are with the pictures. =D you must thanks me with a big prezzie to be able update you, still.





anyway, i went out with my brother a few days ago for his cut-like-never-cute hair!

i think he's stupid to not keep his hair short! i miss his short hair!

i think he's good now. no more westlife-mandy song being played. YAY!

that's all i wanted to say:

know what, secret is STUPID, STUPID and the STUPIDDESTTT! argh! waste my time.

so many people around saying that they wanna watch the 2nd time. hell yea, i don't see a point in watch that damn movie.

so many girls saying that it's a damn sad movie. it's a for sure thing to cry. what the fuck! which part of it makes you wanna cry. a little sad i can understand la. cry, NO WAY!

as usual, i turned to tommy after the movie and asked him "sad meh?" and he was there, making that crying voice.

and throughout the whole movie, i was waiting for the soundtrack song, 不能说的秘密, i thought they would play it with the piano or whatsoever. but know what, the song doesn't appear in the movie, it only appeared after the movie has ended. oh, so this song was one of the soundtrack cause it appear after the movie.

alright, maybe it's me. i actually cried when watching meet the robinson and not secret. i cried when i watched click, evan almighty, i now pronounce you chuck and larry, and so on. i know some are new movies, but you don't have to care how i get to watch it before the cinema screen it, i just get to watch english movie first. and that was why i insisted to watch a chinese movie when tommy said he wanna watch english.

so, i guess it's me la. cartoon also can cry. i know it's dumb. prolly it's because i just couldn't feel the saddness in the chinese words used. english has more feel. and what's more, they are more emotional.

blah blah blah. alright, it's me.


OKAY! I'M SO GOONA WATCH SECRET AGAIN! no in cinema of cause. i just wanna try and see if i will be crying the 2nd time. =D


and HELLO OUT THERE! can someone gossip about me!


alright, it's me. i'm a little outta my mind. whatever~


anyway, secret is actually a nice movie, just that it's stupid. geddit?!

oh, so now you remember me, uh?

so was it because

1. you broke up with that bitch? (i really think you should)
2. you wanna know if i hates you?

if it was the (1), great for you. you made the perfect choice. however, if it's the (2), you know what, actually, i don't hate you at all, yet after this msg, screw you. you prolly hopes i will text you back, hell NO WAY! only if you broke up with that bitch.

so, for now, happy together.

just a little tiny mini bits of crazying over him. he is so so so cuteeeeeeeeeeee!



it's just idolizing. yea. =D



i went to check out all his pictures and news 'bout him, I WAS SHOCKED! he was the youngest among all who has so many achievements. awww~ it's in the blood for sure.



weee~

EVERYONE LOVES MY HAIR! ROAR!
kenneth, thumbs up.
yilong said it's nice.
desmond said it's pretttiest. LOL!
christina said nice new look.
adeline said nice!
jimmy said nice new hairstyle.


you see, i was forced to go fly last night. was so reluctant. i took my time. meeting the gang at 930 yet i was still home blowing my hair and blah blah blah. so, i brought the i-have-totally-no-mood-to-club mood which turned out to be sucha huge fun! just like shopping, when you bring the i'm-not-gonna-get-anything-today-just-seeing mood you, you tend to spend double of what you always spend.


never buy N76, the phone simply sucks in taking pictures. wtf! we looked so WHITE! and it's like GHOST!

she too tired.

i got to see ronnie. i was pretty much excited. cause the last time i saw him he was on the race track and a little distance away from me with his helmet on. couldn't really see his look actually. another thing was i bet on him of a few races and i won! =) i always have this eagerness to see him in person!

anyway, i know another waiter, edmund there. i think he feels that i'm very irriating cause i keep asking him to collect the martell marble for me. but he's nice. he took 8 for me. he's short! oh yea, he look alike chen yi xuan.

this is ryan. ssssoooooooooooooooo cute! i wanna see him race!

demond sent me home after that and i kept disturbing yilong in the car. he wanted to sleep but i forbid him from doing so. cause it was a month since i last seen him. when we were about to reach my home, he was closing his eyes and i said this:

i'm reaching home already. just accompany me 走完这个路, la.

and hell, yilong was laughing the hell out of him. funny meh? oh yea, i tired taking pics with him but seems that he like having only half of his face in the photo.

AHAHAHA! he asked me to delete this photo away. cause this is the only photo i got that have his whole face!

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


The Real You

Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx


it think it's pretty true. GO TAKE THIS TEST NOW!

Blu Jaz, one of the best place in town for chilling. mmmm~ yummy!

totally, FAB!

YO HO~ nunu, you should be looking over HERE!
anyway, i hate standing beside you. i look so WHITE! damn it!

that's ming's dory fishy.

DAMN! i hate this picture. it was suppose to be a "GOOD" sign NOT A "PEACE"!
ARGH!

AAAHHH! just look at nunu and she just tells you the food taste totally like heaven!

coke, fruit punch and soya bean.
FOR REAL! if you stupidly believe.

that's us. ching hoon wasn't in here cos she put as aeroplane to meet her man!
argh!

anyway, the total bill was like near 80 bucks and my dad paid for us. he was in the same cafe as us. i really really really think my dad is sucha nice man in town. damn! whoes dad will pay for her friends man?! and whose dad will send her friends home after paying the bills? OMG! that's why, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! i think my mum has seriously picked a precious gem and that is why, i always envy my mum; ALOT and ALWAYS.

i had this dream last night, that caused me to cry through the whole day. i woke up 3 times last night to realise i'm still crying. pretty shocked that i could cry so hard in a dream. it's a weird dream. like a playback of the memories i had. i tried to forget certain things, but the dream somehow bring back everything and still whirling in my head. i was like being hypnotize in that bloody dream, finding back those choose to or "STM-ly" forget. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS DREAM FOR!

this was the 2nd time i cried so hard in a dream.

i tried my best to forget you, i forced myself too, but i can't.

bitch, rip off that fake smile off your face. you look ugly with it.

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你想起我
你会想到什么

i was reading cleo and came to the QA life section which was kinda alike mine.

"my bf is somewhat possessive and places many restrictions on me. he doesn't like me to hang out with my friends past midnight and doesn't allow me to go clubbing or go abroad with my friends, even if it's a short trip. he says that he trusts me but no others and just wants to protect me from harm. he doesn't feel guily for placeing such restrictions on me and says if i want to be with him, i have to follow his rules and he'd rather lose me than see me get harmed. i'm at loss. i feel suffocated yet can' bring myself to leave him cos i really love him."

well, i guess many have experience such shity before.

and so, cleo's reply was:

"............ i can't understand how you can let a man control you like this. his excuse about not wanting you to come to any harm is rubbish. why should staying out past midnight mean you're going to be harmed? ...........by not letting you go out with your friends, he'll soon isolate you from them. as a grown up women, you should be able to make your own decisions. a healthy, mature relationship is about balance, not someone telling the other what to do. you are in a hand of a control freak.............. i personally have no idea how you can love someone who stops you from having a life."

i kinda agreed! like, VERY. like tha last part "no idea how you can love someone who stops you from having a life. i think she should just bloody broke off with that freak!

i seriously think this month cleo's topics have so much to do with me. damn.

another bloody one.

"after a series of disappointment, i became resigned to the fact that he'd never be my guy again. but just when i felt ready to throw a mini-celebration for having gotten over him, his blinking name on my mobile displace me. all the barriers i'd so carefully built up against him during the healing process crumbled. our past memories flooeded me and i went back wishing he'd call me soon."

well, know what, it was just and action to ease his feelings of guilt. that's why guys is specialized in. for god sake!

there's this dumb lecturer who wants the class to do the project with 3 people from different counties. reason being, we, singaporean, he claimed that we are better educated, have to help the other foregin students whom he said they are the weaker ones. what fuck?

want me to group with cheenehneh? NO WAY!

come on la, we don't pay to help the cheenehneh students to acheive better results. it's none of our business if the fail for their project or main papers. puhlease la, some of these kaninas even score better than us, leh! want the singaporeans to pull their marks higher? you must be drop dead mad and senile. get alive la, old man!

why should we help them when they got voice as loud as a mic? they have no sense of embarrassment yet so proud over their great achievement. shame on you. talking louder than the radio. i felt so humilating of being a species of yours.

come on la cheenehneh, you made people have the mindset of prejudging the same damn species of yours, singaporeans; chinese. because of you, cheenehneh, others used the OH-YOU-PRODUCE-UNHEALTHY-PRODUCTS-CAUSING-SO-MANY-SUFFERINGS-TO-PEOPLE-ALL-AROUND-THE-WAY and YOU-ARE-SCHEMING and YOU-SNATCHED-OTHER-PEOPLE-HUSBAND and YUCKS-YOU'RE-DIRTY looks.

you, cheenehneh just bring down the whole community of yours. disgrace your ancestors. such a big humilation which they are so proud of it. great!

SO, NO WAY. I WILL NEVER DO MY PROJECT WITH A CHEENEHNEH. F! NO WAY, FUCK! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE THEM!


if you don't even trust my dressing sense, why bother to ask for my opinion.

MY DAD, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D

i think my mum's gonna lead her way to my blog soon which i kinda resent it. it's alright if she reads my blog, but don't comment. like, "why so many vulgarities?" and she will eventually realized that i'm mostly drunk after clubbing. then, she wouldn't allow me to go anymore.

but on the other hand, i guess she will be laughing away after reading my posts like what many complain. she will, however, also finally realize what a cute daughter she has! LOL.

i can assure that i WILL NEVER have vulgarities in here even though i know my auntie and underage cousin's are exposed to my blog, and that is why i have tried to cut down on "fucks." but the "fucks" only appear when i'm damn annoyed with something and so on. you can't expect me to type something like this when i'm fed up, "I'M SO ANGRY, I'M SO ANGRY!" for god sake, the anger will never minimize if the word "angry" kept appearing. like,

that idiot, she's doesn't appreciate everything i did for her. I'M SO ANGRY ABOUT IT! i shouldn't have do so much for her. DAMN ANGRY! if it's wasn't because of blah blah blah, i wouldn't have treat this idiot so nice all this while. she is making me so ANGRY!

if it was this way,

that bitch, fuck her. everything i did wasn't apperciated! asshole! i should have do so much for her. screw her. if it's wasn't because of blah blah blah, i wouldn't have treated her so mother fucking nicely! i wish i could squezze her neh neh till it really go flatten! OI, WHORE, you think it's funny is it?(damn la, when i'm mum reads this, i'll get screwed up. but it's just AN EXAMPLE. =))

AH~ at least when there's fucks here and fucks there, at least i sweared, the anger will just minimize automatically. incredible! =D

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

as promised, the pictures at jen's place! initially, i was pretty down 'cause i din get to club today. i was kinda down and isolated myself. felt so fed up 'cause my mum lied to me! argh! i was fine after looking at these pictures! they made me laugh the hell outta my family. =D ENJOY! oh, about the boobs, i din include here to protect the image of the 3 of us. damn! that's crab la~ what images do we still have after the photos below!

alright, i know it's kinda O-V-E-R. obviously, we did it on purpose right?

OF COURSE! for this, we were awarded best in acting crazy, stupid, silly, dumb and idiotic! but, DON'T WE LOOK CUTE, UH?

this, needless to say. it's already approved. LOL! i think it was too chaotic till yi ting went missing in the picture except for her legs. =/ opps! i think i pushed her away. LOL! was i me?

we got pretty tired of doing stupid faces and inmitating people.

so, in the first picture,

me: smell my leg!
ting: eeeee!
jen: what about my butt?

second picture,

i have seriously no idea why we did that pose. duh~ prolly we just wanna show
that we are still kinda flexible?

third picture, to jen and ting,

it's always good to do some leg exercise before you sleep.

forth picture,

me: SEE! i can do the "GOOD" sign using my toe.
ting: yea, it looked like my
thumb!
jen: *cries* i can't do that!

have been staying over at jen's place since last saturday till yesterday. might be going over again tomorrow night or maybe friday morning. i just love her house alot. they got everything needed over there.

anyway, thousand of pictures of bitches camwhoring will be uploaded soon, like next week. you will get to see boobs, sexy legs, absolutely perfect poses and definitely alot of kissing scenes. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THOSE PICTURES! wee~

well, it was suppose to be a les party at her place. we were all well dressed up waiting for mellie to arrive. LOL! but we ended up having eating party. it was a great time catching up with each other. the special thing about girls is that they will never run out of topics to talk. so, guys, you all should worship us damnit! and not always talking advantage of us like one great example, wantan, the one in my tagboard. he's a great disappoint. totally disgrace the shit outta all the guys.


i have this feeling.
you will be back.

i went back to read this little secret book of mine, AGAIN! what a clever moves. was reading the things that happened 3 years ago. first was 27th NOV 2004. next was i forgot which month in 2006. then, 1st JAN 2007. no one will know when the same thing will happen again. but i have this feeling that the same thing will happen again. whatever it is, i'm not gonna count the steps anymore. it will definitely not be me any longer after thinking how screwed up my life after. NO WAY! prolly the other way around the next time. till then, we shall see.