WEDNESDAY! i can smell martel now! i can! i can hear them calling me! but i still got panda eyes leh. how to go chiong like that?! if i go today, i can't go on friday. if i wanna go on friday, i have 2 days to act like a good girl in front of my parents. =/ i know i have been going home late recently and my parents are kinda unhappy. but i don't understand. it's not like i go out till 3 4 plus right? it's just around 12 plus when i got home. they are very weird too. i can go club till 6am but i can't go out till 12 plus. a little bit wrong right? sigh.


i'm waiting for simon to inform me about tonight's plans.


at times, i really don't know what is going wrong. everything i did, have you ever apperciate? if you never, why bother to ask for more? i guess the time has passed. the times when i have gone totally mad about you have passed. maybe you are trying to save this shit or am i thinking too much? if you are not, why do you still have to search for me the other day just to tell me that? why do you bother to give in to me? why bother to listen? why bother to make some effort? i have given you so many clues, but why, only now you realize? why bother to care when i think it is a little useless now? can you somehow, try to react faster? why aren't things going my way? i always wanted to see you so much yet, you just disappeared straight. when i don't want, you appeared shaking your ass right in front of me. wanna play mind games with me? I'M IN IT! it's my turn to start the ball rowing, and you sit back and guess. i'm not gonna lose.


btw, my name is regina, gina, regi or nana. i'm not gi na or ki na. thanks.

was it me? or was it you? maybe the time has passed.


just reached home from meeting christina, gerald and 10 cent. i'm really glad that christina and 10 cent can get along well. i guess i was thinking too much about having a quiet atmosphere. so, it turned up real good! 10 cent and i had most of the things FREE! i'm not a cheapo. they are willing to pay. i didn't force. dinner free and drinking free. we had swensen for dinner and we headed to waiting bar after that. damn sian la. nothing much to do there. but 10 cent sang a song. not bad. all i did there was drinking. i just don't wanna go home early. I GOT NOTHING TO DO AT HOME! duh! so, 10 cent, still not so bad to go out with me right? only gotta pay for oil.


I MUST REMEMBER TO TIE MY HAIR THE NEXT TIME!


the ride was fun. but it almost scare the living shit outta me!

so, does that means that you are officially back? does that mean that whatever you have said are jokes? so, should i believe you?


anyway, i just came back from watching norbit. damn stupid but i don't know why 10 cent can laugh throughout the whole movie. damn disgusting la. perhaps i'm too tired today that's why i can't really get the whole meaning. a little slow somehow. duh!


yeah yeah! 10 cent said if i got nothing to do can go rounding! peace!

opps! i forgot to take photo with ALVIN! duh!

once again, i was drunk. it was ah meng's birthday yesterday. we celebrated it at momo. i don't really like momo. just feel that there's something wrong over there after my last visit. i felt so cool when simon signed us in. cos we were clinging on his arms when we walked in the entrance. like some function and people at the entrance was looking at us.

intially, we thought of heading mos after momo. but it was later cancel. and so, i drank and drank there with ah meng and this guy. oh ya! there's this crazy guy in our group. he went up to the pole to dance and i dropped myself on the floor and laugh. gosh man! it's like a freak dancing. ah meng said he admire that crazy guy courage cos he doesn't dare to go up and dance but the crazy one dare. i think his words are some kind of sacasm.

there's this girl in the club that keep talking to me. she neither my friend nor my friend's friend. she just kept talking to me till i can't dance cos she was so close to me. i din really get to dance la! dance floor was packed and there this pervert there who can to touch my leg! so, i only got to dance with simon. i love dancing with simon. hahas.

i left the club at 3 plus. cos andrew came early to pick us up. the moment i went up the car, ah cai was like asking: "so how? drunk today?" i turned and he say:"yes, you are." i kept repeating"NONONO!" my whole mind was mos. i think i kinda pissed them off with the mos thingy. i don't know what i said. but christina told me that i talked none stop and my voice was very loud followed by walking like a snake.

oh ya! before i left momo, i gave simon a kiss. it's so fun to club with them!

and the 10 cent! always faking me! so angry la.

fuck this world!

HAHAHAHAHAHA! the world is so funny and everyone is so silly. fuck man!

went mos yesterday. I WAS DRUNK! nice. i had fun at the club dancing with christina, adeline, simon and alvin. whatever it is, my leg is so tiring still. anyway, i'm going zouk tonight! weet. ALL FOR FREE AGAIN!

everything is gone is a phone call. everything! how should i put it? i get whole of the whole situation and i understand what everything meant. but after later, i got something again. being responsible for the first time. searching for me again. should i thank you? or should i......

sometimes, i think that what d had suggested me to do i pretty good suggestions. i wanted to do that but i'm just afraid.

i am SO ANGRY SO ANGRY SO ANGRY! i can't even cook a proper meal for my sister! damn.


i shan't be blogging anyway. i'm having exam tml. but i think somehow, i can manage to memorize everything by tonight. so less things to memorize la. my whole mind is only filled with scenes at drangonfly. can't wait for tml night to come! yea yea. i'll be staying over at my cousin's place till sunday. tml will be a busy day for me. i gotta go cut my fringe after school and buy some stuffs, rush home before 5, keep the house clean before leaving, packet my things and by 6, i gotta leave my house if not my 3 mothers will nagging at me. =(


i think yesterday was a very memorable day. and it should also be stated as a memorable day in my history. you see, my sister can't go out cos she has homework. for me, i can't go out, cos i gotta study and i'm too tired. and suddenly, a suddenly sweet guy initiated to buy dinner for us! wooo~ it's a really shocking thing when my sister read the msg to me. and so, norman deliver the food to me. and it's FREE! =/ i feel kinda bad though. cos he has to work and he went home late the day before. but whatever it is, at least i got dinner to eat, if not my 4 mothers will smack me for not giving my sister anything to eat.


and so, who will be MR. NICEY today?

FUN FAIR!

i'm like having another 3 mothers now! when reach home i gotta call 3 of them and same goes to my sister. argh! it's like i'm so restricted in doing my things. i know they are worry. i know it's their job to check on us. i'm not complaining. whereas, i feel so loved. really. so many caring for us. they call to check on us but it's a fine thingy for me. cos they are real worried about us. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME FOR US you see. i felt that in this situation, i'm VERY VERY VERY responsible for the things my sister and i did. if there's any mistake, i'm responsible. so, i'm trying very hard to not make any mistake. i have to brain wash my sister to prevent us from quarrelling in case she gets stubborn and insist that she doesn't wanna do the housework. i got not much time to do the housework. i gotta study. but i'll try to learn to wash and hang the clothings and maybe try my very best to cook something edible for my sister. i'm like the head of the house now. so, i gotta check everything VERY carefully before i go out and so on. IT IS VERY TROUBLESOME! argh!


i went studying earlier on. bill sent me home which i think it is a mistake. cos the moment i stepped in to my house and changed my clothings, they called and asked me to meet them at hougang. WE ARE GOING TO THE FUN FAIR you see. i met norman, desmond and adeline first. i think i gave norman a shocked. so fun la. i tried this ride and it made me go so sick after that. i told i was going to die. it's not about the spining but the heights! i have phobia for height and it never seem to get better! but i really feel better after the ride. cos i shout my lungs out! i rest myself in the middle of the field. i'm like a jelly! i can't walk! desmond was there helping me and stuff. glad i didn't vomit. but norman is sweet, he initiated to buy mineral water for me. FIRST TIME! should i name it as a memorable day too? =D i met my sister later on. she played the kiddy rides. let's all laugh together! HAHAHAHA! nah la. she has to accompany my lil cousin. she wouldn't dare to try out the more matured rides. later on, they all agreed to come my place but ended up, only des and adeline came. cos norman didn't dig his ears today. he agreed to come to my place but he heard something else. NICE! but it's okays. he's my part-time bf now. so, he will buy dinner for me for a week till they return! WAHAHAHA! and he will have to bring me go clubbing and dance with me. and he will have to treat me sushi and ben & jerry ice-cream. and he will also bring me go riding. and he will also have to buy alot of presents for me. damn. i'm like so greedy.


i'm going dragonfly this friday again! yeah yeah! be happy for me! anyway, i'm sleeping in my parents' room with my sis now. nice bed. so cool. i like it man! oh ya! i just gave me mum a shock of her life. alright, that's all for the day. I LOVE TODAY! though i somehow DISLIKE IT!

FORMAL

INFORMAL

wah lau, what a picture.

alright, tevin, that's stupid enough.

this is the reason why i am so playful.

AGAIN?! so ugly la.

will all the men please stand aside?

DRAGONFLY

it's been 6 years since i last took a pic with him! anyway, he's my new BF!

went dragonfly yesterday. i like the place alot but i only got to dance for about half an hour. =(

i went there with ALOT ALOT and ALOT of guys. this is the first time i went clubbing with SO MANY guys. real alot la. there were only 3 girls in the whole group-me, adeline and christina. i got introduced to many guys but i only remember only, simon, kelly, sunny, kelvin, ah mao, guo liang, lizard, fatty and louis. yup, that's all when there was like around 20 guys there. i think i drank alot last night but i'm not drank! and so, we drank and drank, the guys kept paying and paying. basically, everything including entrance fee and supper was free. evening going home was free. weet! i saw bill there. he was singing in the ktv room. he's voice is so fucking NICE!

it was 12 when reached the club but i only got to dance at 3 plus. that the time when there was r&b. the past 3 hours was TECHNO! yucks. i learned how to play five ten. as you know, first timer always make mistakes and i made ALOT OF SILLY MISTAKES that made the whole group laughed at me. louis has STM i guess, he kept forgetting others names expect mine. =) but he's damn siao la. everytime shout at me "GINA!" and i would shout back "WHAT!" maybe the group thinks that i can click well with him therefore adeline asked him to dance with me. argh! he was like taking advantage of me. damn. so, i told him, if he wants to dance with me, DON'T TOUCH ME! but again and again, he broke that agreement, so, i asked simon and adeline to protect me. so, i went to dance with someone else who doesn't touch me. =/ adeline and christina are very protective. they were like so fierce to the guys who wanted to know me. kinda shocked i should say.

fun things doesn't last. we got information that there are police around so, we left the club. actually we don't really have to leave. a) we don't want our IC to be check. b) one person predicted that there will be fights later. c) he had taken medicine*. so, no choice, to protect him and us, we gotta leave. he told adeline that he had not taken the medicine but i do believe that he did. the symtoms were all the same as those addicts. no point lying.

we headed for prata and adeline said the si ah pui like me la. cos he helped me with the menu, fan me when i'm feeling hot and talked to me so sweetly. YUCKS! anyway, i almost had an accident yesterday when guo liang sent me home. if it really happened, i think i'll be very seriously injured now cos i din put on the seatbelt and he was driving at a very fast speed. so, i'm blessed! you should be lucky to see me blogging!

i really don't understand the need for him to change his hairstyle while he's still in school. PURPOSELY! everytime doing those things that my youngest uncle dislike. when the fuck will he ever get to understand?! when man?! just by cutting 2 lines on his head, he wasted 10 bucks and he said "cheap what." fuck shit. just 2 ugly lines that doesn't suits him and his school, costed 10 BUCKS! damn! why can't he just save the money and spend it on something better? it's not like his family is REAL RICH. his dad business is still unstable and he thinks that his dad is rich and so on. the worst thing was third uncle comment that his new hairstyle is very fashionable. kee yong and i was like "same people, same pattern, agree the same thing."

sigh~ youngest uncle asked me to talk to him cos youngest uncle believe that when i'm there to talk to him, somehow, he might change. i agreed. BUT HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO TALK TO HIM WHEN EVERY SINGLE SHIT I TOLD HIM HE JUST PRETEND TO BE LISTENING?! i wanna help him. i really want to. i can't find the right time somehow. there's always people surrounding me. no choice, i'm famous. =/ if he's staying in my place, at least i can somehow talk to him in the night. i planned everything. but i still feel that it's still useless. once, i told him alot of stuff. i bring in topics like his mother, how much have he disappoint her even when she was waiting for her leaving time. somehow, he cried or maybe just some tears. he kinda changed the next day but his fucking AH BENG friends have so much influence in him!

if he wanna act like so damn ah beng, FINE! but bring back the good grades! damn!

oh yeah. 3rd uncle came for the dinner today. i was praying damn hard for them to come. cos the family memebers are getting lesser. sigh. i was damn pissed off with my 3rd aunt. the moment she reached, BLACK FACE. WTF. it's not like my grandmother didn't wanna help her when she was having fights with my uncle. grandma already had her unsolved problems and worries. so, she just sat there like some inspector, looking at my mum and grandma preparing the food. "hey! you got some damn bloody hands and legs can't you just get your ass off the chair and contribute something? WE SO DO NOT OWE YOU ANYTHING!" every year, she just relaxing without helping. nice. last times, there were youngest aunt to help up. now, she gone, and though there were less people now, at least help la! and, my 3rd uncle, the damn ah beng pattern never even change a single bit. always instructing people to help him do stuffs. i don't know what to say about them. THEY JUST DON'T APRECIATE EVERYTHING WE HAD DONE FOR THEM!
what the hell is going on?!

anyway, i just got to know that there's some kind of mistakes in my family's surname.

alright you see, my grandfather's sister's surname is KOH.
my grandfather's surname is KHOR.
my great grandfather's brother's surname is KOR.

overall, we are family, blood related and we have different surnames. COOL MAN!

yeah yeah! it's almost done! my voice is almost BACK! I CAN EAT COOKIES TML! peace!

sick sick sick, so sick!

sigh. i'm still so sick. cyn is like 2 more days away and i'm still not at any point of recovering. argh! perhaps it was the baked rice that i ate yesterday that caused my voice not to have any improvement. screw man! i can't eat ba kua and cookies this year new already la.

anyway, yesterday was the first time i went out in the afternoon and reached home during midnight. mostly, if i really wanna stay up till late, i'll leave home around evening time. i was real tired when i reached home but certain issues kept me awake and it's getting so yucky. YUCKS! damn man!

weet!

i had fun today!

watched 2 movies. epic movie and the law movie.



that's all!

VS

VICTORIA SECRET FASHION SHOW WAS JUST SO "WOW!" * weeet! *

there's more pictures actually. you can try this webby: http://theblemish.com/2006/11/victorias-secret-fashion-show-2006

[JEN: this is specially for you!]

yeah yeah! i passed!! pass pass pass!

went out with ade.

met a STM mixed blood guy







no pictures today. cos ade was very busy doing her last minutes shopping! so sad. =C

what's the point of asking me if i regret?
what's the point of turning back now?
what's the point of rescuing the whole situation?
what the point of asking me how i feel when you have already made your final decision?


yes, i am, very affected by this. i'm very sad. but there's no tears which i find there's something weird about it. perhaps, i'm sick and tired of all this shit. i just need some time to sort things out and i'll be fine

you don't have to treat me this way, cos you are at fault too. that's the thing; you always like to push all the blames and mistakes to me.


why not? let's continue our relationship as friends.

a second of happiness.

ARGH! i injure my leg!!! anyway, i had fun gossiping today.



we were all so decent........ intially.....




so, i started doing some cute stuffs.... and....




LOOK!



OH MY GOD! i'm wondering will i get kill exposing these photos.



and i laughed all over....

LUO ZHI XIANG! SIGH!

sigh. DISAPPOINTED, DISAPPOINTMENT. why is LZX staying in SG for only 3 days. he's shedule is so tight now and ah girl jie jie said there's not much chances for us to meet him cos he has to do alot of stuffs in SG. the only thing she can help is to tell us which hotel he will be staying and we go there and see him. (what a stupid idea.) i mean it's really stupid to wait for him at his hotel lobby. mad right. so, i'm not putting high hopes in meeting him. sigh! i'm just so affected by this. IT'S MY DREAM you know. and it can't be fulfill.

saw dan dan today from a mirror refection. i got so excited and i just turned over and hugged him.(sorry jen i couldn't resist cos it's really been long since i last saw him) after that, i think back, hey! what if it wasn't jordan and someone alike and i just turn over and hug? bless, it was really dan dan. so great to see him but he seems so dead and looking real old now. we only got 3 stations to catch up yet we manage to catch up quite alot. hopefully, i'll be able to meet him up for lunch or dinner soon.

meet my sweethearts today - michelle and gracie. so excited to see them. the problem is michelle doesn't wanna take photos with me. =( d can really click fast with michelle and gracie man! this moment i introduced them and the next moment, they we there bullying each other. cool isn't it. initally, i scare either parties might be left out but from the whole situation, i'm totally relieve. i think i really do a good deed today. you know, there's this old lady always sitting along the pathway from scotts to far east selling tissues, you know? yea, i kinda pity her. it's like hardly someone will buy tissue from her and i told d and he agreed! so, we planned that if we return back later, if she's still there, we will both share 2 bucks and give it to her w/o taking the tissues. however, i felt that not taking anything from her might be an insult to her so, at least we take 1 or 2 packets. and we did what we had planned. but d did more than me. i really took pity of that old lady. she almost there everyday. don't she have children to support her? what have the younger generations become? if i see her there again, i'll try to help her as much as i can. it's just 2 bucks. but when i really got the money, i guess i'll give her more.

anyway, i dyed my hair and they said i look alike mixed blood which is something i feel very cool about myself. WTF! I LOVE MY NEW HAIR COLOUR! weeeeeeeeeeeeet!



turn back please!

memorable day

this is crap anyway.

today is a memorable day beacuse it's my first time stepping into ART FRIEND with d, michelle and gracie.

and it is also a memorable day for i don't know what thing la. forget already!

actually, there's more photos to be uploaded. those i had with ting and her friends. but i'll do it tml!

PHOTOS time!

just bombed the toliet!

after so long, i'm finally gonna meet yi ting with another 2 people tml. WOOO~ we're gonna take a whole albums of photos i guess.

melissa said i'm like an ah lian.
tommy said i'm playful.

i don't that which part of me that makes that ah lian impression in melissa. i so not. the problem is i behave so well in school. maybe she meant i'm playful too? i will never disagree with people who has the playful impression of me. i love to play. any games, any fun activities, any things that are happening, i will totally love it, so, count me in. i love disturbing people. to conclude this shit, i'm just playful and not any gangsta. maybe i just simply overuse some vulgarities. or maybe it's because.... i don't know la. i'm just a good girl!


i don't know what's wrong with my dad these days. he has been initiating to eat at some restaurants when we are out as a family. guess mum was kinda surprise when dad initiated yesterday. QUICK! JOIN IN THE FUN OF BEING SURPRISE AND SHOCK. my mum, sis and i were there asking my dad "daddy, you are not kidding right? really? so good? never blufff? you strike lottery? why u cut your hair already then so good?" anyway, he said we were too noisy and asked us to shut up. DOTS. unbelievable act of my daddy. perhaps, he realised that he should spend more money like me to save the economy. =x oh! we went cafe cartel.

though i have swear that i'm so not gonna dye my hair DIY but i had no other choice. i'm being forced! my mum told me that either i get my hair cut, dye and highlight at a salon or i do it DIY so that i can buy my spec and she will pay for my tiff&co. necklaces and earings and i can buy another set of clothing or another pair of shoes. being very smart, i taken the second deal which seems more appealing. =) in another words, i'm being forced. blah blah blah.

oh yeah, i have been staying in punggol for like 3 years only and my dad is gonna renovate the kitchen! i will never step into the kitchen to cook when the renovation is done. 'cos i don't know how to stand in the new position to cook. pity my mum. but i'm happy for my family because we might be able see a bright future ahead. hopefully, when daddy goes to thailand this year, he will be able to make up his mind. so, i really can see a clear future in me. LOL. never mind if you all don't understand. cos it doesn't meant to be understood. i'm cute right.

speaking about thailand. SIGH! i miss song sak. can't get to see the handsome policeman this year. i jwanna see his shiny as mirror boots. i want him to bring me go learn shooting. shooting as in gun shooting. then, i can whole and fire a real gun. he promised me last year that he will being me go if i'm going thailand this year. nvm, there's always another year. daddy said he's gonna ask song sak if he remembers. JEN! i think you wanna go too right. REAL GUN!

oh ya! LUO ZHI XIANG is coming sg. i'm very excited and nervous. cos i might get a close up of him and even talk to him. cos ah girl's friend is luo zhi xiang friend. but i have been thinking, if i really get to see him, what should i say? come to think, it's kinda stupid so, i think i'm not going. but thinking again, if i don't go this time, when will i get the chance again? it's like a once in a life time thing. MY FAV. IDOL you know. i can get to talk to him. get his e-mail. befriend with him. take thousands of photos with him. laugh at his funny actions live. see his sing and dance live. get him to sign all his 4 albums for me. the HUGE problem here is, I'M SO SHY. LOL! anyway, ah girl jie jie haven comfirm this whole shit with me yet, so, i shan't get myself to be too excited. sigh. i just can't stop myself from fantasizing the whole situation. HAHAHAHAHAHA! i'm going crazy.

WEET!

OLE OLE OLE. singapore won the asean football. kinda dislike the way the thais play the game. just so sick. boo~ boo~ get a life and have some sportmanship. just don't understand why do they have to play so rough. yucks!?


my mum said i'm acting like a mad lady, 'cos i kept jumping around when the last whistle was blown. like the previous game, thai vs sg, i did the same thing too. oh, and the game when malaysia vs sg, i did that too. my mum was like what's the point of being so happy? the money doesn't goes to me. =/

so, SINGAPORE WON THE ASEAN FOOTBALL LA!



actually, i'm wondering, why am i so interested in soccer these days? hmmm....

woot! mask! try it!

irrtated, annoyed because your pimples just seem to be too stubborn to get rid off? you may wanna try this out.


things needed:
1 aleo vera plant.
1 egg.

directions:
cut 5cm from the aleo vera plant.
cut them into cudes.
separate the egg yoke and the egg white.
throw away the egg yoke and add the egg white into the aleo vera cudes.


that's it! start applying it on your face till it drys up. your face may feel very tight when it drys up but it's okay. while washing, it may feel a little itchy too. no worries. it's okay too. apply it every 2 twice a week. it reduces winkles too! what are you waiting for? get you ass moving!

my happy ending

kinda got influence by d today. the song is still whirling in my mind.



So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything,everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh,
oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things
I thought I knew
And I thought we could be



It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like
I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

AAAAHAHAHAHA! i caught DIXION and TOMMY reading my blog! gees. i'm clever. leave your footprint la! aiyo. =D

no pls. i hate mind games!

FINALLY, it's february! gees.


i have been given a new nick name by norman. now, he start calling me "it". how nice. he said something like this to me "wishing blah blah blah for ITS test." so now, i'm not her's, her, herself. i'm it, itself, its. nice. before this 3 of us were in the S gang. he is sunshine, i'm summer and ah girl is spring. so, he changed ah girl's to shit. it became sunshine, summer and shit. soon, he changed mine to alien. giving all sort of excuses that i must be named alien. FINE. then, he changed to ET. cool. cos he said my fingers are like 3 fingers. and so, now i'm labelled as IT.

it's better now, he added something in so, it sounds better and cuter. LOL!


after all, singapore won another match! i wanna watch the next match live leh. =/




after so long i'm finally given in for once and being compromised which is what i always wished for. i kept telling myself, one fine day, one fine day. and blink! it happened. though i wasn't any big thing that i was given in, all i'm waiting was that word that i have always been waiting for. it's not any big word anyway. it's just something which that someone will never say or rarely say. like once in a blue moon that kind.