WASSUP

it stated it all. met up with mates on friday. a pretty (or maybe real) quick catch up 'cause bf fetching me to go for movie. so many stories shared. sex, rape, molest, killings, ghosts, mirrors and so on. it was joy that ended the night with.

it's a good place to chill. food isn't that bad neither was it a disappointment. the most crucial thing was the catch up. it was still like before, just that, we all have grown. changes. but D, my sharing mate. he didn't turn up for any of our gatherings which also means i didn't get to see him for a year?

hmmm...

mum has been pestering me for my birthday celebration. i wanted to go overseas with bf and friends, but my mum scolded me "siao" cause she said it is important to celebrate my 21st, keep those memories and all my bosses too, encouraged and even planned for me to open a chalet. BECAUSE, hmmm, it's inner secret.

my initial plan was to celebrate it at Bali Sentosa. it's really an awesome place to be at. man, we can rock the whole room.

isn't it wonderful? what's more, private pool! aiseh! but mum said too expensive. cheap rooms can't accomodate the amount of people i'll be inviting.

unwantedly, i have to give up this plan. but i still do visit the webby just in case i become rich out of a sudden.

so, i'm gonna get this cheap cheap really cheap chalet. 2 days. it's really cheap. gonna book it on monday. everyone said the chalet is like a showroom, so, hopefully, it will not be a disappointment like desaru.

awww, i miss the time i spent with bf at desaru. the two of us were really glued to each other and most importantly, bf knows how to take care of me throughout the whole trip.

back to birthday, boss of company asked me to rent a yatch, sadly, i got sea sick. he recommended to book a suite. but my boss said i won't have any returns. chalet is still the best. guess all the bosses will be gambling and mj-ing. and and and, bigest boss(boss of co.) got 50% discunt for emicakes. wee-o-wee!

i'm sure i can get what i want this birthday.

i'm the dumbest and blur-est person you can find on earth!

how can someone actually make a mistake in handing up the wrong assignment. i repeat, WRONG ASSIGNMENT! and i realised it only 2 days after i handed in, which is also the due date.

hello? i'm in a degree course, not diploma. it's expensive. i don't wanna remodule for this stupid mistake.

i rushed all the way to school early this morning. to my relieve, the lecture had not went to take all the assignments yet. my wonderful coordinator, she really the best, florence, allowed me to make changes with my assignments.

i think i'll go insane if i couldn't get to change over my assignments.

I LOVE FLORENCE.

anyhow, i went over baby's place today while waiting for him to end his interview. yea, i got his house keys, way long long ago. i didn't expect him mum to be home so, i was pretty surprised to see her.

and you know, when 2 women are home alone, they talked like never. usually, she will always ask me questions and i will answers and after that, i do my stuffs. eventually, today, i broke the ice between us.

the interesting thing was that she asked me if i do collect shoes. answer was yes but i told her "no la, just take got a few pairs." prolly, i should do something like mellie - take photos of all the shoes i have so i will realise how many i bought yet have not touch them. i can go to the extend that if the shoes have 3 designs of different colours, i can buy all of them.

siao right?

so, she carried on asking why i got so many shoes, where i buy, how much, including my clothes too. heh! she said my clothes are nice! then we gossip about he son, she complained so many things. anyway, we talk everything we can talk about.

women.

eventually, she asked me to go buy toto for her. duhhhhhh~

and so, on another month, we went to watch a live soccer match. it wasn't that exciting as watching matches like the euro on the television. yes, i meant on tv, not live.

i don't know why he loves it so much.

he bought me to kent ridge park after he went to see my uncle for his fall. it was such a paranomic view. i wish i could just plant my house up the hills with sea views and greenery. which also include the architecture of the bulidings. it's such a waste not taking any photos of the views. i wanna go there again!

HELLO BF, YOU SEE IT? I WANNA GO THERE AGAIN OKAY!

result was out. i'm fine. no thyroid. i'm lucky. i was relieve. if not, taking the medicine can cause me to turn in a pig. that was what happened to people who were diagnosed with any stage of thyroid. mum was relieve. dad was relieve. thank god!

so, *scratch head* what's all the symtoms of thyroid about? there were question marks on the doctor, my mum and me. the doctor seeing my weight dropping rapidly had no choice but he said "it's better for a full body check-up."

i'm still eating like a king kong. bf couldn't stand it. he would go "huh?!! still not enough?" "what? again? we just ate?"

so, this is the 45kg me. grandpa noticed it on his birthday and he kept telling my mum to not let me go on diet. ON DIET?! huh? since when?

each and everyday, i stand in front of the mirror. it goes like this: god damn it, i look so so damn ugly. i hate my face. there were times when i feel like killing myself, and i hope i don't go out and scare people.

i hate the comments that i'm going on diet given by people. this isn't what i want at all.

i forced myself to eat. i ate breakfast, then lunch, yet after lunch i bought a lot of tibits or snacks and i countinue eating non stop till i meet bf for dinner and i eat again. and at times, i will say "can buy another meal?" and if bf said he is too full to share with me, i have to stop eating till the next day. this routine has been going all day.

and eventually, eating too much makes me wanna puke. therefore, i cut down to have breakfast, lunch and dinner only. i might skip either one till i have gastic ache, that's when i proceed to get my snacks and so on and force it down me.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG?!

i so do not want to go do the full body check up. imagine how much more courage i have to put up for it. the blood test had almost killed me.

HOW LA!

it's either i stay put at this weight or i maintain it. if i go on loosing, i'll kill myself. i'm i put on weight till over 50kg, i will kill myself too. 'cause there's a big day coming, i don't wanna ruin the way i look.

my heart beat went up to 160 per min. it's insane. i almost faint flat on the ground when he told me he gonna take 5ml out of me.

though he had already comfirmed my situation, i still have to do the test for a better comfirmation. i thought i could skip the test when he said, "it is."

i screamed as loud as i could, i stomp my foot even before he insert the needle into my arm. he calm me down, holding me tight. my mum hugged me. they both knows, i hate or rather put it this way, i totally afraid of it. the nurses peeked into the room, as usual. i bet they got used to my screamings. i hugged my mum so tight when he used the cotton to wipe my arm.

damn dramatic.

yet when he was done, i was shocked. so fast? i didn't even feel a thing. not even when he put the needle in or when he pull it out. i felt nothing.

BUT, when i saw that tube of my blood in it, i turned jelly.

monday is doomsday.

doctor comfirmed and i know it myself. seeing the way i loose weight whlist eating like a king kong, i can't run away anymore. i know. yet to hope that the result will be negative.

how hard should i pray this time for a negative?

or probably, when i wake up the next morning, all i have been through was just a dream and i will be as healthy as ever. i swear, if the result is negative, i eat any shit my mum said it's good for me. i swear.

why? of all, me again?

wasn't your favourite at all.

still remember when i was 3, all the kids of my age are happily living their childhood, but you chose me, to not live my life like them. i was out there busy looking for the best doctor to cure me. every kid of my age run around. wasn't that the life everyone should have. you took that away from me. i couldn't run. i couldn't eat kids' all time favourite happy meal. i couldn't eat any tibits, no cold drinks, just plain water. no fried food, no chicken, just plain breakfast, lunch and dinner.

when i was 6, because you chose me, i was in and out of hospital. how many times was that? how much did daddy spent on me? how many times did i have to fight to breathe? well, there was this one time, i really thought i was gonna die. mum and dad suffered with me.

that night at 6, why didn't you stop those things away from me? you know how was it like to wake up in the morning and to realise i couldn't even walk? you never protected me once. am i really that insignificant to you?

when i was 7, i went to primary school. no one likes me. everyone likes to run. but i couldn't. i'm a black sheep. during PE, no one wanna be in the same group as me, cause i couldn't run. because you chose me, i'm being left out.

remembered when i was 8, school had their annual fun fair? i wanted to play treasure haunt so much. no one wanna be in the same group as me. i already got my tickets. mum knows i'm upset. she said she could join me, but i didn't want to. i want to play with me friends. because you chose me, i can't play my favourite treasure haunt. all mum could do was to do her best to stop me from being sad. she suffered with me again. you know, i'm still affected by this. it might not be anything big to anyone, but it is to me. you made me hate myself.

and again when i was 8, i dreamt of grandma dying. 2 days later, everyone went to the hospital to see grandma, mum was kinda reluctant to bring me there as she said hospital had alot of gems. that evening, grandma died. i didn't get to see her. because you chose me, i couldn't see my grandma the last time. i live with this guilt till this very day.

when i was 11, i thank you. 'cause you stopped me from suffering. i stopped going in and out of hospital and i stopped on my medication. i thought you started to realise you made a mistake on choosing me to suffer at such a young age.

when i was 14, people eat seafood like no one's business, yet, i get swelling that i have to go for operations, leaving so many scars on my body now. because you chose me, to suffer again.

when i was 15, doctor told me i had white blood cells more than the reds. because you chose me again.

now, you din love me either. despite me not having a good childhood, won't you just leave me alone for a better adult life? why of everyone, each and everytime i am being chosen? what have i done to suffer all this craps? what have i done that my parents have to suffer with me? why me this time, again? this is a life time thing. you made me go on medication for almost 8 years, now, you want me to go for a lifetime medication? how could you be so cruel to me?

check out this smart boy.

reeeeeeeallly cute.

Boy meets girl and looks in her eyes

Time stands still and two hearts catch fire

lost and found

GUESS WHAT! baby's gonna give me money to shop! it's either he's giving me, or he will accompany me to go shop and he pays for it, he said! grreat!

it's been so so so so long since he's doing this.

you know, he used to give me money to go shopping even before we got together. but yea, that was when he was damn rich. those were the days. should have cheated all his money before they all gone. it's okay. they weren't meant to be his anyway.

one more paper and it's freedom. and then, baby and i can have many desaru days.

3 times a week make things great!

baby and i decided to do something different on our sixth. he seems very interested in this new thing. we totally love it! thanks to jen, huh.

anyhow, we went over to MAG's chalet. shaoheng is reeeeeally cute. "daddy, daddy, daddy, DADDY, DADDY, DADDY, DADDY, DADDY, DADDY." it never ends till melvin answer him. it's really irritating but you just can't get pissed off with him. he's so lovable. AND, he only talks to girls/ladies.


look at this boy. such an intelligent kid.

he makes everyone wanna have a baby like him!

and well, bitches din meet up this week due to broke-ness. but we met up last week. it was great taking about our favourite topic. sad to say, photos were in the hands of jen who is so so so busy that she don't even have time to send us the picture. WOW, really busy huh.

also to mention. baby and i were seriously broke. we go budget this whole week! i can't believe i spend $1K on NOTHING. i repeat, DAMN $1K ON NOTHING. it's not like i spend on any labels. NO! so, i'm very keen on 1st sept, that's when i get all my money. imagine getting 2.5 months pay in a day.

and if lkk gives me my money, it's makes it a 3 month pay!! i doubt he will give me. he has no balls to pick up my calls.

oh man, thinking about 1st sept makes me damn high. can lead my rich life back again. can't wait to!

damn the night.

the night ended with love.
yet baby ruined it. he ruined the happy night. fuck.
he just don't understand.

it make thing worst when i saw my result. it sucks. how can i ever get a good degree?
plain disappointment in myself. guess for MO, i screwed it too. damn!

TWO MORE DAYS TO BITCH DAY!

lovesloves.

new love

check out my new boyfriend!

actually, i forced him to cut his hair. 'cause i couldn't stand the sight of seeing him with such long hair. i hate guys with long hair. i must emphasize on this: I LOVE GUYS WITH SHORT HAIR.

and i'll be totally in love with guys who have short hair!

just like him.

see, it's so neat now. so clean. don't even have to see him having bad hair day everyday.

this haircut reminds me of the him i met five years ago. or was it six? anyway, way back then, he was really good looking yet now, see the small eyes cum the eyes bags, how saddening.

i was so afraid that he might get so mad and grumble about his really short hair. he loves long hair. i was praying so hard. 'cause he never fails to complain about his hair after cutting it. it never ends unless i lied to tell him that he still looked good. he all i did to his hair was to tell the hairstylish: "just cut it short." it's a risk.

well, i can predict that he will be spending time looking into the mirror when he's back home. oh ya! ithis makes me realise why he was so long in the toilet just now.

anyway, bf been wearing the jacket i bought. totally melt me to death. like so YO! and he puts in hand into the 2 front pocket, just like how i always do. so, imagine us waking down the street, both doing the same thing: putting our hands in the front pockets.

bf taste of dressing changed alot. from the old-school-uncle to a-bit-more-modern-guy. of course, you have to see who he is with now: ME! he will be so much better if he throw away that army pants of his. i hate the sight of it.

look at the shoes, i choose it. look at the 3-quarter pants, i choose them. look at his shirts, i choose them. look at his belt, i choose it. look at his watch, i choose it. look at his hair, i demand for it.

imma like doing everything for him. eg, searching for jobs. especially, cleaning up his room. he can call me and ask me where did i put his things. like his time sheets, tv controls, clothes and so on. don't you think i'm a maid?!

from what he had done for me, i know i can count on him.

and he will

HELLO, IPHONE

the longer the wait, it's dilemma. SEE LAH!

last night, when i was taking to winnie online, she told me her friend was using iphone and it kept on hang. out a sudden, the percentage of me getting the phone, dropped to 50.

but theirs was imported from US. wouldn't Sinagpore's be better? cause it's singapore? sounded so stupid. will Singapore's technology be better than US? okay, maybe somehow, but the iphone in SG will be second batch what, of course they will know how to crack the problems by now. isn't it so?

i saw the price of iphone. so to speak, it was actually a reasonable price. the whole group was so excited about it and for the whole day, iphone has become our main topic.

should i wait for them to get it first and see if it will hang? but what if it doesn't hang and i wanna get it, yet, buy the time, it's out of stock?!!!! or should in join in the fun with them this friday?

the problem her is, why did apple only gave singtel the exclusive? or maybe, shouldn't it be selling at ishop instead where all the ipods are?


ROAAARRRRRRRRRR! so how now, lah!?

boyfriend is trying to tell me something romantic now, but i don't get him!

am i an idiot or he doesn't know how to put it?

i'm cute with short fringe! THAT'S ALL!

received another complain. here it goes:

"she's not really that good in doing viewing. but she's really cute and pretty. and she loves my dogs."

this uncle is really itchy.

"BANG!"
i woke up in a shock. trying to recall the scenes in my dream. it's was the last thing i would ever want it to happen.

it was so real.

i grab my cellphone and dial bf's number. all i could hear was just the operator's voice. redialing it 5 times, 6 times, 10 times, it's still the operator's voice.

where are you? why aren't you home at such a late hour? why is you phone off?

it kept repeating on my mind. the scenes in my dreams. it's scaring me. 2am, i couldn't sleep still. though my six senses told me that he is at still at work. but i couldn't bring myself to believe my six senses. i couldn't get the thoughts of the scary dream away from my mind. it's all so real. i lied on the bed, tossed and turned, how many times the whole night?

still redialing. it's still the voices of the operation's. redial. redial. redial.

it was getting me so worried, so panic, so scared and so helpless. i felt so useless. i couldn't even know where is his whereabouts. i prayed that he will be fine and will be calling me any moment from now. if he's at work, he will use the office's phone to call me. he won't leave me throughout the whole night just like that. he just busy. 415am.

it's 6am. i'm still awake. i'm lost. if what happened in my dream happened in real life, what if, what ifs.... i told myself if nothing bad happens to him, i will slap him when i see him for making me so worried.

9am. swollened eyes. my mind is all about him. i walked aimlessly. so lifeless. still habouring hope that he will call me any moment. should i go to school or should not? but where am i suppose to go to find him? why didn't he call me?

10am. lecture starts. i totally lost my soul. i have no idea what the lecture was about and i have no idea what i am doing. i wish, i hope, i prayed that he will call me.

1pm. lesson ends. no calls from him. i'm insane. i'm breaking down. i'm so scared.

110pm. beng told him he saw his bike down his house. i called his cellphone, it's still off. i burst him home phone. no answers still.

130pm. finally, after 12 hours, i received his call. just like what my six senses told me. work, and cellphone batt went dead. i was dumbfolded. i don't know if i should yell or should i stay calm. i was totally dissapointed. to realise how insignificant i was to him. he could have used his office phone to inform me he was going to work ot. but he did not.

i hate him. for having swollen eyes for nothing. for spending my night waiting aimlessly for nothing. for not being significant to him. for not having me, in his mind all the long. it was worse when he told me only this,

"sorry, i was working."

no other explainations. working can't use the phone to call me? ridiculous. somehow, i wish something really bad happened to him so, i wouldn't stay up for nothing.

i'm disappointed. he couldn't even explain why he couldn't call me. it's all his excuses of being tired. i'm mad. i hate him. i wanted to give him a slap so hard on his face that he would be disfigured.

does he even knows how hard i tried to survive the night through? NO. i bet he didn't care.

to also realise, i'm actually nothing to him.

i'm nothing. you can never amend what you did. i hate you so much.

whenever i go for viewing, the little girl of my seller's always look at me shyly, and run into her room when i smile to her. so, i curiously, asked her mum:
"why is she behaving this way? she keeps looking at me and runs into the room next."

it's really good to hear this from my seller that her daughter told her this:
"mummy, i like this jie jie. but i'm very shy to talk to her."

she will always follow me around the room whenever i'm doing viewing. then, she looks at me with a shy smile, i looked back with a warm smile. then, she runs back to her room and seconds later, back beside me. cute, eh.

it was probably because there was this one time, i read a storybook to her which left her having likings for me. anyway, kids really love me alot, somehow. i'm serious.

do i have a motherly look?

my previous seller, his both girls kept wanting me to play with them whenever i'm having viewings. like taking their toys and put on my hands while i'm having viewings with co-brokes. and when i have to rush off for another viewing, they will always be so disappointed.

baby, am i?

Like a star star star star

She's my everything, like a morning girl
She's my angel, up above my world
She's the only one, who understands me
That's why I called her, my new family

She's the only one that I want by my side
She's the only one that I believe can save my life
She makes me wanna be a better man ohh why,
She's higher then the sky, the suns and the moon

She's like a star, like a star, like a star

First let me say, she's the best of me
Is it clisha, to say she's destiny
It's no one else but her, well at least for me
That's exactly why, I must now repeat

She's like a star, like a star, like a star

She's my star, my light, starry night, aviator shades, cause she shine so bright
Beats on the G5, songs I write, just so I can take her on a G5 flights
Ya she my type, just my height, she's my fan, she's just right
She's like, “I think we might, go far”, I'm like, “you right”,
She could be my angel wings, her voice sounds like an angel sings
Ya I'll be back with the trade mark trends
Just try to compliment the sounds she brings
She's like, We could go far, I'm like, you you you are. I'm like, you you you are”

She's like a star, like a star, like a star

i'm being spoilt by boyfriend!

i really couldn't accept it when a person get so fickle-minded.

BUT, i'm in that category. i get really pissed with myself for being indecisive.

me: eh, go and see if this dress is nice.
boyfriend: not bad.
me: so the green is better or the black?
boyfriend: geen. green suits you.
me: black leh? but i like the black one leh.
boyfriend: okay lor.
me: then how?
boyfriend: black lor.
me: but you said green is nice.

seriously, don't you feel like giving me a slap on my face? but boyfriend is used to my this kind of nonsense and he is just so paitence.
anyway, i ended up not buying. 'cause i couldn't decide which to get.

like getting a dress or a pair of shoes, i always can't decide which one to get. ended up, getting nothing or even spending more.

now, saving money is equivalent to not saving. this dress nice: buy. this pair of shoes nice: buy. this belt nice: buy. this bag nice: buy. this restaurant the food not bad: go in. this one suits boyfriend leh: buy. i feel like buying something: ended up buying stuffs i don't even like.

money coming in again this wednesday. it's time to get my pretty dress and it's time to go indulge myself in some facial and body massage again, prolly foot massage too. i'm still thinking if i should spend my money on gucci or LV. 'cause i might not get to save any after that. 'cause that stupid LKK still owe $1k. seriously, he disgraced the species of man. can't even pay a lady back her money. even trying to aviod her and her calls/msg-es. can someone please save this stubborn shit? he is seriousy helpless with his current attitude. he doesn't do refelections on his behavior, like why everyone is leaving him and why he doesn't have any friends, so on. pathetic shit.

i want NEED more money!!!
I want The Sail. I want Lexus IS 250. I want Type-R. I want SLK. I want Gucci. I want LV. I want Dior. I want a closet like Carrie's. I want my own house.

anyhow, mum's making a huge fuss about my weight again! it's really getting on my nerves. know what! she went to the doctor, and weigh her weight. she weighed 50kg. so, she called me during my work. she was so panic.

mum: YUN AH! your weight is only 44kg!
me: huh? NO! it's 47(round up) when i weighed last night.
mum: NO LA! 44kg.
me: WHAT 44? YESTERDAY I ALREADY TOLLD YOU 47 ALREADY RIGHT?(i was shouting over the phone. pissing me off as you can see.)
mum: i just weighed my weight. it's 53 when i weighed at home and here, it's 50.
me: DUHHHHHHH~ the weighing machine there is spoilt.
mum: cannot be la! our house one is the one that is spoilt.
me: -___________-"

i don't even know how to reply her. she must be happy that she weighed 50kg and not 53kg. else, for me, i seriously don't think i'm weighing at 43.5kg. it's really NO WAY! i'm still fat. i think there's seriously something wrong with the machines. cause mellie's weight is the same as mine and she is so slim. and me, i'm still fat!

if i'm really weighing at 46.5kg or even 43.5kg, i will be damn panic. i'm serious. everyone has been warning me that from the way i'm eating everyday, one find day i'll turn into a pig. and that the other time when i swore that, if my weight ever reaches 51kg, i will jump down from HDB Hub, will come true very soon.

bf, he been saying that i have been eating alot too,
"you just eat only still wanna eat?" which was like half an hour ago.

what the hell is wrong with me?

a week just ended in a blink of an eye. yet, so many things happened.

finally, used my marketing power to convince alvin to get iphone with me. we were so excited and everyday talking about it. initially, we wanted to get omnia together. but, the young man in the handphone store told us the depreciation for samsung is like lightings and so, i cut of that idea. so, tuesday, when i took MC from work, i went back on wednesday and alvin was also sick and on MC. finally saw him on thursday, the moment he saw me, it was as it he seen some fairy. "XIAOMEI!!!!!!" it's very obvious that i got a shock. guess what? he told out a phone from his pocket, samsung touch wiz. i was excited though 'cause i wanted to get that too. after exploring his phone, i was lost again. NO ONE GONNA BUY IPHONE WITH ME AGAIN?!

damn it.

biggest boss is looking for PA. i intend to give this place to michelle. wonder if she wants it. he is willing to pay more than michelle's current pay and i'm sure michelle will earn alot here 'cause there's alot of projects coming up and she can get the money and marry! biggest boss wanted to hire me so much too. am i really that impressive at work? why are people snatching over me? but i'm gonna stay put with MAG 'cause adrian gave me extra 50 bucks for pay and he didn't even realise till the honest me spoke up to him. anyway, anyone looking for full time job? part time is also okay. just give me a call @ 92354503 okay.

punk'd another annoying guy again. he seriosuly deserve it man. maybe he don't. but sorry, i just have to use him to achieve what i want. the market is like that. it's competitive and to remain in here for long, you have to strike all the way and victory will be yours. just like us. okay, i punk'd another 2 more people back then. so, i told them i need a new number if not, both numbers will be bar from this market. of course, they will agree with what i suggest. see, effective and efficient. will be pranking abother asshole tomorrow. he's gonna be dead. MAG asked me to prank him but pranking isn't enough for people of the same coy.

i know it's childish. but we seriously enjoy it. they stepped on our tails and it's time to pay back. this is the market. we have to do this if not, they will assume they are the king!

oh yeah, i feel like playing a prank on someone too. heh!

finally, my mum asked me if i have been eating lately, 'cause i look so, yea, slim. i argue back 'cause she's always complaining that i'm not eating enough when i actually eat more than what i usually do. i really ate alot recently, a plate of whatever crap i ordered isn't enough, i have to order something else after finishing it. i was quite pissed of when she keep repeating. so, as i was arguing back, i went to the weight scale, to the shock of my life, 46.5KG! where did the junk food that i ate all went to?! was initially weighting at 49 to 50 which is quite fat! till now, i'm still having question marks. i lost like 3.5kg in a week whilst eating like a monster?!

and and lastly, my classmate, ainsley whom i just got to know her for like 2 weeks is gonna get married. and i am invited. wee~ i'm happy that she will be happily married. i'm not happy in cutting a hole on my pants. anyway, daniel's wedding is this month! can't wait to go, which also mean another hole in my pocket. uncle's wedding this coming nov if i'm not wrong. it's time to get the pretty dresses up!

can someone please slap my boyfriend? he has been asking me why i didn't talk to him.

"baby, why you never talk to me today? you used to be so noisy."

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SLAP HIM HARD TO WAKE HIM UP? i've got no voice, how am i suppose to talk? and HO, AM I REALLY THAT NOISY, HUH HUH HUH?

i think boyfriend gonna die one fine day if he doesn't have me. maybe not die that serious. but lost. i'm doing everything for him. searching for jobs, cleaning his room, he got no one to "teh bao" to, i teach him about real estate, i talk sense into him head, etc. see, super girlfriend.

one thing super about boyfriend is that, somehow he reads me like a book. pro leh!

anyway, we were super glued again on friday. we had fun playing with armpits.

it was love, though.

it's really long since boyfriend brought me out.the last time we did was desaru which was so long yet still living in it. i wanna go out with him. just the both of us. or along with the obsense couple. even if it's double date, it doesn't matter. i just wanna be in our own world, holding hands walking down orchard despite having the public seeing us doing silly stuffs. laughters and smiles. then, for a late night movie and my durians. that's make it a great day which ends with a goodnight kiss.

i don't need a posh restaurant to dine. i don't need flowers to make me the limelight in public. i don't need my drinks to be champagne. i don't need the whole day of yours. i don't need gold class for the movie, just the normal one will be fine. we don't have to be well dressed.

all i want is just an evening spend.

i don't want our day to past like a routine. it's good, though. 'cause it's safe. yet, it's boring when you know what's gonna happen every single day. when every day is the same, it's really difficult to make it a different one.

i lost my voice. the moment i opened my mouth,

"EEEEEEEEEEEEYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
admin chio behs: SICK AGAIN?!
eric: i hope your voice will be so sexy forever.
chase: don't scare me leh. (and he kept moving away from me as if i was infected by SARS)
javen: WAH!(with a very shocking voice) why like that? faster go home leh, don't spread.
big boss: xiao mei, why sick till like that, ask your boss let you go home and rest la. can go home alone not? i give you 2 bucks, enough?

they are so damn evil.

I DID NOTHING AT WORK TODAY!
and that is scaring me all over again.


all i did was to read Sam Gian's market review for july 2008, scanning through the HDB webby, new homes, laughing, blogging at http://MAG-property.blogspot.com and if you are interested in any, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CONTACT ME OKAY. don't call melvin and adrian, they are MONSTERS, don't get cheated by their innocent looks! CALL ME! my number is 92354503. LOL!

and also, i explored which cellphone should i get this time so, i can throw that lousy fucked-up LG viewty into the bin sooner. you know, they said they wanted to get iphone, now, everyone changed their phone but it's not iphone. i was pretty lost 'cause didn't they said they wanna order it together? i was waiting and waiting la! now, i'm getting samsung omnia. another shit phone, i know. 'cause it's samsung and i'm not signing on any plans. well, it's good 'cause it's touch screen, AGAIN! it's bad 'cause there will be fingers prints, AGAIN! i'm gonna regret getting it. i know. just like viewty, everyone said "NO!" i still insisted. now, fuck that phone, seriously!

went into Noel Gift to purchase a get well gift pack for my seller. she had stroke few days before completion. this webby is really good. you just pay online and the gift will be received by the receiver right on the time you want it to be sent. they even do international shipping. it's cheap. you can even link to other webby like Love Chapter and The Birthday Shop. it's really worth it. worth the time for seaching, wrapping and sending. all you have to do is to select which gift pack you want and click on either pay by visa or mastercard, everything will be process with trust.

you know what. the case i closed 3 months ago, commission recieved. BUT FUCKING COMMISSION CLOSED MORE THAN HALF A YEAR AGO IS STILL NOT TRANSFER TO ME! what is seriously wrong with all these people? why are people from the same coy the same? michelle's commission is also held back for so long. can't they be more responsible? michelle's quitting anyway. YAY! everyone is leaving that annoying coy filled with assholes.

alferd used to be an alcholic. 'cause he used to drink a lot of root beer.

MONDAY BLUES

i lied. as usual. went to work. as usual. updated the newspapers and it's really pissing me off to see that almost all the listings are the same and so so many open listings. it was as though there's no point in updating. 'cause i'm typing the same thing over and over again. ask me which are the open listing units, and i'll give you a whole list of it.

i did alot of complains. i complained that i didn't wanna take up telemarketing. 'cause i get the same shit. it's a waste of my time. adrian agreed. i complained about jay, they both agreed too. air con not being cold. about being monday and having blues. ROARRR!

...............................................

bf and i were super-glued on saturday.

free maid at bf's place again, yesterday. i did it willingly this time. or rather, i couldn't stand seeing such an untidy room. it was better this time. room totally CLEAN! i meant REALLY CLEAN! bedsheet changed. all nonsenses were thrown away. windows wiped. floor mopped. desks all cleaned. so, bf and i worked together to get his room cleaned. well, he did helped out with the carrying of heavy stuffs, wipping the windows(the above part), what else? i can't really remember. but he really did helped, ALOT.

went over to mel's place for his princess 1st month! both brother and sister are so damn cute. and mel thinks that i'm co-broking with him when i asked him which level his house was at. "14 floor. top floor. sea view. corner." which is totally dull shit! it's top floor. but it doesn't have any sea view and it's corridor. it has some views actually. firework views from the kitchen. totally cock. oh shit! i talking like mel now.

bf has been super duper sweet to me lately. he's more understanding. he pays more attention to me. he calls me more often and tries to spend more time with me. we do a lot of compromising, in fact. i will never forget the 50 plus calls he gave me that day. and so, i love him loads.

from disturbing me through msn till the first BK we had till the uncountable meet ups for disgusting movies till i got my driving license till finished schooling and went over to HSR which causes many quarrels till i stopped clubbing till my birthday along with his and till chinese new year and finally i said "yes" till he finally ord tilli went for my degree and joined global and till he joined too and till desaru, it's been 10 months. baby, it's been 10 months of playing your part in my life that makes me as a whole this very day.

see, all these chio beh damn know how to relax la.

irene's butt

jennifer's butt

right, right, RIGHT!!! STOP! SLOWLY, LEFT, RIGHT. OH NO!

NOOOOOOOOO~

left.... a little more to the left, stopppp! RIGHT!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

eric's butt. a little bit more....


eunice's butt.

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










SPLASHHHHHHHHHHH......

opps....

shit....

argh!!!!

THIS IS WHAT I HATE!! 1KM WALK TO THE DAMN FOREST/JUNGLE!

anyway, i seriously don't understand why the chio beh were so happy being in this forest. i got freaking shit mosquitoes' bites!!

BF caught not helping at all!

WE ARE FIRST!!! even though i didn't help. so to speak, i shouldn't have went there.

jeff's and alvin's cock face.

lastly, to award our hard work of the day, the organizer treated us like monkeys.

that's all. i'm lazy to upload the rest. if you are really very interested like leon and queky, you can click on this LONG link below:

http://www.globalrealestate.com.sg/Photo%20Gallery/Global%20Desaru%20Retreat%202008%20dated%2010-11%20July%202008/index.html

Desaru wasn't really that bad if they didn't include going into the jungle and walking about 1km to reach there. should have listened to bf that we should have just go back our room and not join them. 'CAUSE i had uncountable mosquitoes' bites. totally irritate the shit outta me. everyone was there burning the dead leave to create smoke. well, it was as though we were about to burn down the whole forest. and it's my very first time that i encouraged bf to smoke and blow it right at me.

the resort was VERY run down kind. though angela did warn us about it but i was still putting high hopes that it woulsn't be that bad. but, yea. the air con in our room was spoilt, which also means, winnie, bf and i was freezing like hell despite i have changed the temperature to 30 degree celsius. it was really cooooooold.

the whole coy was totally hilarious. especially the whole of TNA. we had a great time gossiping. i still think TNA is the best group among all. the bond we had were different.

i must really admit that bf was super sweet. he somewhat took care of me for the whole trip. so to speak, bf and i actually used this trip to spend more time together. we were almost super glued except for some part whereby there's alot of sun and i walked as fast as i could to the shade leaving bf walking slowly behind.

anyway, bf got a new name from alvin, johnson. and everyone really called him johnson.

oh yeah! bf and i saw this damn nice rainbow while we were on the way to meet the whole coy. it's really good to see sucha lovely rainbow to brighten up our day.

prolly it's cause i got used to how 'usually' have always been there for me whenever i'm down. and how he always make my days a better ones.

maybe it's cause of all these, whenever i get so down, i think about him and when i think how things screwed up between the both of us, i get worse. i'm always in a situation whereby, am i more sad with my current problems or i still can't forget all the things we went through?

this really gets me into delimma.

once, i watched this drama. the lady told her husband this,

"i know i'm always making a huge fuss to divorce with you but it's not what i wanted at all. 'cause i know in this way, you will give me the attention i want."

THE SUPER PA

me: will you guys be going out later?
mel: why? wanna eat snake is it?
me: no la. you all always go out, i alone very bored one leh! so, are you guys going out?
mel: yup.
me: viewing huh?
mel: we're gonna go test drive cars. mercedes and lexus.
me: really?!!!!!
mel: (very high pitch) YA LA! wanna go not?
me: erm.... * thinking if i can actually leave my job and go with them? *
mel: oh, sorry huh. today you got a lot of things to do.
me: HUH~~~~ then like that i in office alone AGAIN LOR! wah sian!

so, the two bosses instructed me on what i should do:

1) submit 2 cases
2) logo claim
3) arrange 2 viewings for buyers
4) find lastest condo for district 14, 15,& 16
5) buy 200 stamps
6) go C. C Cheong and check who will be the lawyer
7) go for completion, ALONE
8) update listings
9) do mail list
10) call buyers
11) do feature sheet
12) check telemarker leads
13) arrange cases
14) find the cheapest hamper
THEY LEFT ME WITH SO MANY THINGS TO DO AND LEFT FOR THEIR TEST DRIVE! wah piang eh!

see now, first appointment i go, completion also i go. viewing i drive their car and go for viewing. submit case also i do. resale net also i do. see, where to find such a PA? must ask them to give me appraisal so i can request for a higher pay. nehneh. HSR offered me higher pay and plus overtime pay plus viewing pay plus commission man!

anthony said i'm a super PA. somehow, i agree too. LOL! but it's true what! where got PA go for first appointment and completion alone? where got PA drives and go viewing alone? where got PA can be so independent when the boss is not around. know what, my bosses will never get worried if i got nothing to do or will i screw things up. when time comes, i will bring my lappy to work. next, i think i will never get to see my bosses in office anymore. reason being they are always in the office 'cause i need to use their lappy. geddit?

AND SO, i'm trying very hard to bring queky back to me now. if not i will die in office if nobody comes. like today, no one from the same division was in office. the moment i saw jeff, it was like seeing GOD. that was how lonely i were in office. damn bf, still don't wanna come office and accompany me.

BUT, whilst doing so many work, i don't know why. i'm still so happy working with melvin and adrian! should have joined them way long long ago man! i so wanna show you my bosses photo la! so proud to be with them and be their PA.

school's good! GREAT in fact with my new lecturer, a gay. i really dislike him initially. he talks like crap, softly then loud. seriously, it was really what-the-fuck when i was really drop dead sleepy. imgaine i slept at 3am and wake up at 845am when class starts at 10. so, as i was saying, about this gay, the whole class was laughing so happily with his nonsense and i was the only one, i guess, to stare into space. all was just pure nonsense.

and it was only 12.05 and he said we have to be quick 'cause it's gonna be 1pm. guess what, we only have 3 more pages to go through and he thinks 55 mins isn't enough? totally insane. he crush his 50 dollar note and throw it in the air. totally mad. everything he does was really a turn off with his super girly actions. OH-DAMN.

well, i changed my impression for him at 12.45pm when he talks about singapore. he was having the same views as i have about singapore. about ERP. the increase the price to prevent jams but does the trafic jam stops? NO! it's still the same. thinking that more people would be talking to public transport. god! would someone who owns a 60K car just leave his car at home just to take the BUS?! huh? so, they asked us to wake up earlier to go for work. it's okay if one person wake up early to go to work. he wouldn't be in a jam. WHAT IF, everyone starts going to work early? wouldn't there still be a jam?

*** right at this point of time, there this idiot who raised his hand ***
IDIOT: what if they increase the ERP to $1K will people still wanna travel by cars?
i tell you, i so wanna take off my heels to throw it over at his face. a guy, taking degree now, it having thoughts of an idiot.

next, public transport. it's a public transport so, the company should be making profits isn't it? yet, public transport co. makes a million profits a year. isn't anything related to public should be subsidize? then, i don't mind to take public transport if it really can take me to my destination faster than driving a car. if singapore could do this, i bet there would be lesser cars. look at the trains in sg, morning, totally no seats still need to squeeze with people. by the time you reach you work place, you are already squash.

another thing is the culture of singapore. typical singaporeans-kiasu, busybodies, cheepo, AND WE TOTALLY LOVE TO SHOUT ON THE PHONE WHILST SLAMMING IT AFTER SHOUTING. why do we have such culture? for example, when telemarker call to ask if you are interested to sell you house, replying back a "sorry, no thanks." is this really that difficult? instead of scolding them(for what?), and slamming the phone before or after the sentence was complete. can't we just be a little more poilte and considerate at times? see how disgusting is it to have such culture. are you disgrace of yourself? i am. i admit. 'cause i do the same thing. i think we should really put ourseleves in another's shoes. maybe we will learn from there. and again, we don't even bother to learn. see it, this is singaporean.

so, i love this new lecturer. can't believe someone actually, or somehow has the same views as me regarding certain issues. in so gonna love econ.

next, i left for home earlier despite i have school today. bosses really good. so, work ends means staying in my own world which could just be a blank piece of mind. so,
someone: regina~
* i turned back and look. there was no one i knew *
someone: regina......
* oh the voice was coming beside me. i looked blankly at the person. who the hell is he*
someone: i'm zhongsheng's friend.
* huh? who is zhongsheng? *
someone: zhongsheng's friend lar~
* i tried to think harder and oh, zhongsheng is my bf *
me: oh
and he carries on.....

see it. when i'm in my own world feeling sleepy. prolly i was in a world without bf, so, i kinda forget his name at that point of time. this is also to tell you, if i response real slow to you in future, please bare with it. i need some time out to be in my own world after my work and study. i has became a habit man. it's pissing people off and i'm lovin' it.

MARCHE! all time favourite eversince AX days. steaks, creeps and disgusting huge saugage with cheese that bro put in his mouth! eeewww~

this is how you look when you don't have marche in canada. told you to stay in sg already.

mad day out.

that night was so fun. and i will never ever forget how ah lian i was despite wearing so formal. thank huh, bro and jen and the freaking shit cab!

AND LASTLY, PEOPLE, PLEASE LAUGH!

i'm really sorry, bro. you know i love you the most my entire life and i wouldn't wanna do this to you. but, yea! muahahaha!