and so, we went fly. then, to rumous(i think it's spelt like that). and then, to mos. everything was going fine before going mos. AND only when we left, just like what i expected.

and so, we waited from the sky that was this dark,

you can actually still see the moon, you know.

till it when this bright. lights out! i thought we can leave soon somehow, but hell NO!

and so, we waited till you can actually see the cloud so clearly.

and when the police were still investigating on our case, all this people are having sucha fun time! we had fun crapping around. especially with hong seng around. he's one hell of shit and he believes i'm married. OH MY FREAKING GOD! and he said in hokkien, in a pretty fast manner: "like that jialet already. if ah heng knows about it when he's driving, i ask him to turn left, he go right, when i ask him to go left he go right. when i ask him to go straight, he go up the curb. ask him drives, he go make a big u-turn." it's pretty funny la. should have recorded it.

i knew it! i swear i knew it! i knew he's gonna win 2 races! i knew it! AND DICKY DOESN'T BELIEVES ME! if not, we have made some money! wee~

which means getting extention! =)

anyway, i had this call during my lecture today. as usual, i took out my cellphone outta my bag, SLOWLY. i hate picking up calls during lecture 'cause i had to leave the class room just to pick up pathetic calls. and the class has this damn heavy door whereby when you close this damn door, the WHOLE class knows someone went/out of the class, like being a limelight or something. for today, it was absolutely different. i pulled out my cellphone outta my pouch and i saw a name in capitalize, i jumped up and flew out of the class. all i had in mind was getting out of the classroom as soon as possible just to pick up the call.

and i was smiling all along after that call, which i simply couldn't understand what he was talking about. it was way too FAST! yet, i'm smart to capture all the main points. woohoo~

oh yeah~ i went to watch dead silence with that tommy guy. shit him. he was laughing throughout the whole movie. i have no idea why.

HI SERENA KHOR CAI LI! i know you do read my blog. but please don't tell mum about it. thanks so much! and i love you. LOL!







alright, this post is for someone who view my blog almost everyday to see. you know who you are with the pictures. =D you must thanks me with a big prezzie to be able update you, still.





anyway, i went out with my brother a few days ago for his cut-like-never-cute hair!

i think he's stupid to not keep his hair short! i miss his short hair!

i think he's good now. no more westlife-mandy song being played. YAY!

that's all i wanted to say:

know what, secret is STUPID, STUPID and the STUPIDDESTTT! argh! waste my time.

so many people around saying that they wanna watch the 2nd time. hell yea, i don't see a point in watch that damn movie.

so many girls saying that it's a damn sad movie. it's a for sure thing to cry. what the fuck! which part of it makes you wanna cry. a little sad i can understand la. cry, NO WAY!

as usual, i turned to tommy after the movie and asked him "sad meh?" and he was there, making that crying voice.

and throughout the whole movie, i was waiting for the soundtrack song, 不能说的秘密, i thought they would play it with the piano or whatsoever. but know what, the song doesn't appear in the movie, it only appeared after the movie has ended. oh, so this song was one of the soundtrack cause it appear after the movie.

alright, maybe it's me. i actually cried when watching meet the robinson and not secret. i cried when i watched click, evan almighty, i now pronounce you chuck and larry, and so on. i know some are new movies, but you don't have to care how i get to watch it before the cinema screen it, i just get to watch english movie first. and that was why i insisted to watch a chinese movie when tommy said he wanna watch english.

so, i guess it's me la. cartoon also can cry. i know it's dumb. prolly it's because i just couldn't feel the saddness in the chinese words used. english has more feel. and what's more, they are more emotional.

blah blah blah. alright, it's me.


OKAY! I'M SO GOONA WATCH SECRET AGAIN! no in cinema of cause. i just wanna try and see if i will be crying the 2nd time. =D


and HELLO OUT THERE! can someone gossip about me!


alright, it's me. i'm a little outta my mind. whatever~


anyway, secret is actually a nice movie, just that it's stupid. geddit?!

oh, so now you remember me, uh?

so was it because

1. you broke up with that bitch? (i really think you should)
2. you wanna know if i hates you?

if it was the (1), great for you. you made the perfect choice. however, if it's the (2), you know what, actually, i don't hate you at all, yet after this msg, screw you. you prolly hopes i will text you back, hell NO WAY! only if you broke up with that bitch.

so, for now, happy together.

just a little tiny mini bits of crazying over him. he is so so so cuteeeeeeeeeeee!



it's just idolizing. yea. =D



i went to check out all his pictures and news 'bout him, I WAS SHOCKED! he was the youngest among all who has so many achievements. awww~ it's in the blood for sure.



weee~

EVERYONE LOVES MY HAIR! ROAR!
kenneth, thumbs up.
yilong said it's nice.
desmond said it's pretttiest. LOL!
christina said nice new look.
adeline said nice!
jimmy said nice new hairstyle.


you see, i was forced to go fly last night. was so reluctant. i took my time. meeting the gang at 930 yet i was still home blowing my hair and blah blah blah. so, i brought the i-have-totally-no-mood-to-club mood which turned out to be sucha huge fun! just like shopping, when you bring the i'm-not-gonna-get-anything-today-just-seeing mood you, you tend to spend double of what you always spend.


never buy N76, the phone simply sucks in taking pictures. wtf! we looked so WHITE! and it's like GHOST!

she too tired.

i got to see ronnie. i was pretty much excited. cause the last time i saw him he was on the race track and a little distance away from me with his helmet on. couldn't really see his look actually. another thing was i bet on him of a few races and i won! =) i always have this eagerness to see him in person!

anyway, i know another waiter, edmund there. i think he feels that i'm very irriating cause i keep asking him to collect the martell marble for me. but he's nice. he took 8 for me. he's short! oh yea, he look alike chen yi xuan.

this is ryan. ssssoooooooooooooooo cute! i wanna see him race!

demond sent me home after that and i kept disturbing yilong in the car. he wanted to sleep but i forbid him from doing so. cause it was a month since i last seen him. when we were about to reach my home, he was closing his eyes and i said this:

i'm reaching home already. just accompany me 走完这个路, la.

and hell, yilong was laughing the hell out of him. funny meh? oh yea, i tired taking pics with him but seems that he like having only half of his face in the photo.

AHAHAHA! he asked me to delete this photo away. cause this is the only photo i got that have his whole face!

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


The Real You

Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx


it think it's pretty true. GO TAKE THIS TEST NOW!

Blu Jaz, one of the best place in town for chilling. mmmm~ yummy!

totally, FAB!

YO HO~ nunu, you should be looking over HERE!
anyway, i hate standing beside you. i look so WHITE! damn it!

that's ming's dory fishy.

DAMN! i hate this picture. it was suppose to be a "GOOD" sign NOT A "PEACE"!
ARGH!

AAAHHH! just look at nunu and she just tells you the food taste totally like heaven!

coke, fruit punch and soya bean.
FOR REAL! if you stupidly believe.

that's us. ching hoon wasn't in here cos she put as aeroplane to meet her man!
argh!

anyway, the total bill was like near 80 bucks and my dad paid for us. he was in the same cafe as us. i really really really think my dad is sucha nice man in town. damn! whoes dad will pay for her friends man?! and whose dad will send her friends home after paying the bills? OMG! that's why, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! i think my mum has seriously picked a precious gem and that is why, i always envy my mum; ALOT and ALWAYS.

i had this dream last night, that caused me to cry through the whole day. i woke up 3 times last night to realise i'm still crying. pretty shocked that i could cry so hard in a dream. it's a weird dream. like a playback of the memories i had. i tried to forget certain things, but the dream somehow bring back everything and still whirling in my head. i was like being hypnotize in that bloody dream, finding back those choose to or "STM-ly" forget. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS DREAM FOR!

this was the 2nd time i cried so hard in a dream.

i tried my best to forget you, i forced myself too, but i can't.

bitch, rip off that fake smile off your face. you look ugly with it.

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你想起我
你会想到什么

i was reading cleo and came to the QA life section which was kinda alike mine.

"my bf is somewhat possessive and places many restrictions on me. he doesn't like me to hang out with my friends past midnight and doesn't allow me to go clubbing or go abroad with my friends, even if it's a short trip. he says that he trusts me but no others and just wants to protect me from harm. he doesn't feel guily for placeing such restrictions on me and says if i want to be with him, i have to follow his rules and he'd rather lose me than see me get harmed. i'm at loss. i feel suffocated yet can' bring myself to leave him cos i really love him."

well, i guess many have experience such shity before.

and so, cleo's reply was:

"............ i can't understand how you can let a man control you like this. his excuse about not wanting you to come to any harm is rubbish. why should staying out past midnight mean you're going to be harmed? ...........by not letting you go out with your friends, he'll soon isolate you from them. as a grown up women, you should be able to make your own decisions. a healthy, mature relationship is about balance, not someone telling the other what to do. you are in a hand of a control freak.............. i personally have no idea how you can love someone who stops you from having a life."

i kinda agreed! like, VERY. like tha last part "no idea how you can love someone who stops you from having a life. i think she should just bloody broke off with that freak!

i seriously think this month cleo's topics have so much to do with me. damn.

another bloody one.

"after a series of disappointment, i became resigned to the fact that he'd never be my guy again. but just when i felt ready to throw a mini-celebration for having gotten over him, his blinking name on my mobile displace me. all the barriers i'd so carefully built up against him during the healing process crumbled. our past memories flooeded me and i went back wishing he'd call me soon."

well, know what, it was just and action to ease his feelings of guilt. that's why guys is specialized in. for god sake!

there's this dumb lecturer who wants the class to do the project with 3 people from different counties. reason being, we, singaporean, he claimed that we are better educated, have to help the other foregin students whom he said they are the weaker ones. what fuck?

want me to group with cheenehneh? NO WAY!

come on la, we don't pay to help the cheenehneh students to acheive better results. it's none of our business if the fail for their project or main papers. puhlease la, some of these kaninas even score better than us, leh! want the singaporeans to pull their marks higher? you must be drop dead mad and senile. get alive la, old man!

why should we help them when they got voice as loud as a mic? they have no sense of embarrassment yet so proud over their great achievement. shame on you. talking louder than the radio. i felt so humilating of being a species of yours.

come on la cheenehneh, you made people have the mindset of prejudging the same damn species of yours, singaporeans; chinese. because of you, cheenehneh, others used the OH-YOU-PRODUCE-UNHEALTHY-PRODUCTS-CAUSING-SO-MANY-SUFFERINGS-TO-PEOPLE-ALL-AROUND-THE-WAY and YOU-ARE-SCHEMING and YOU-SNATCHED-OTHER-PEOPLE-HUSBAND and YUCKS-YOU'RE-DIRTY looks.

you, cheenehneh just bring down the whole community of yours. disgrace your ancestors. such a big humilation which they are so proud of it. great!

SO, NO WAY. I WILL NEVER DO MY PROJECT WITH A CHEENEHNEH. F! NO WAY, FUCK! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE THEM!


if you don't even trust my dressing sense, why bother to ask for my opinion.

MY DAD, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D

i think my mum's gonna lead her way to my blog soon which i kinda resent it. it's alright if she reads my blog, but don't comment. like, "why so many vulgarities?" and she will eventually realized that i'm mostly drunk after clubbing. then, she wouldn't allow me to go anymore.

but on the other hand, i guess she will be laughing away after reading my posts like what many complain. she will, however, also finally realize what a cute daughter she has! LOL.

i can assure that i WILL NEVER have vulgarities in here even though i know my auntie and underage cousin's are exposed to my blog, and that is why i have tried to cut down on "fucks." but the "fucks" only appear when i'm damn annoyed with something and so on. you can't expect me to type something like this when i'm fed up, "I'M SO ANGRY, I'M SO ANGRY!" for god sake, the anger will never minimize if the word "angry" kept appearing. like,

that idiot, she's doesn't appreciate everything i did for her. I'M SO ANGRY ABOUT IT! i shouldn't have do so much for her. DAMN ANGRY! if it's wasn't because of blah blah blah, i wouldn't have treat this idiot so nice all this while. she is making me so ANGRY!

if it was this way,

that bitch, fuck her. everything i did wasn't apperciated! asshole! i should have do so much for her. screw her. if it's wasn't because of blah blah blah, i wouldn't have treated her so mother fucking nicely! i wish i could squezze her neh neh till it really go flatten! OI, WHORE, you think it's funny is it?(damn la, when i'm mum reads this, i'll get screwed up. but it's just AN EXAMPLE. =))

AH~ at least when there's fucks here and fucks there, at least i sweared, the anger will just minimize automatically. incredible! =D

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

as promised, the pictures at jen's place! initially, i was pretty down 'cause i din get to club today. i was kinda down and isolated myself. felt so fed up 'cause my mum lied to me! argh! i was fine after looking at these pictures! they made me laugh the hell outta my family. =D ENJOY! oh, about the boobs, i din include here to protect the image of the 3 of us. damn! that's crab la~ what images do we still have after the photos below!

alright, i know it's kinda O-V-E-R. obviously, we did it on purpose right?

OF COURSE! for this, we were awarded best in acting crazy, stupid, silly, dumb and idiotic! but, DON'T WE LOOK CUTE, UH?

this, needless to say. it's already approved. LOL! i think it was too chaotic till yi ting went missing in the picture except for her legs. =/ opps! i think i pushed her away. LOL! was i me?

we got pretty tired of doing stupid faces and inmitating people.

so, in the first picture,

me: smell my leg!
ting: eeeee!
jen: what about my butt?

second picture,

i have seriously no idea why we did that pose. duh~ prolly we just wanna show
that we are still kinda flexible?

third picture, to jen and ting,

it's always good to do some leg exercise before you sleep.

forth picture,

me: SEE! i can do the "GOOD" sign using my toe.
ting: yea, it looked like my
thumb!
jen: *cries* i can't do that!

have been staying over at jen's place since last saturday till yesterday. might be going over again tomorrow night or maybe friday morning. i just love her house alot. they got everything needed over there.

anyway, thousand of pictures of bitches camwhoring will be uploaded soon, like next week. you will get to see boobs, sexy legs, absolutely perfect poses and definitely alot of kissing scenes. I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THOSE PICTURES! wee~

well, it was suppose to be a les party at her place. we were all well dressed up waiting for mellie to arrive. LOL! but we ended up having eating party. it was a great time catching up with each other. the special thing about girls is that they will never run out of topics to talk. so, guys, you all should worship us damnit! and not always talking advantage of us like one great example, wantan, the one in my tagboard. he's a great disappoint. totally disgrace the shit outta all the guys.


i have this feeling.
you will be back.

i went back to read this little secret book of mine, AGAIN! what a clever moves. was reading the things that happened 3 years ago. first was 27th NOV 2004. next was i forgot which month in 2006. then, 1st JAN 2007. no one will know when the same thing will happen again. but i have this feeling that the same thing will happen again. whatever it is, i'm not gonna count the steps anymore. it will definitely not be me any longer after thinking how screwed up my life after. NO WAY! prolly the other way around the next time. till then, we shall see.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR 20TH SOMETHING BIRTHDAY.

please la~ stop being childish already. already 20 something still act like a kid. LOL! grow up! if not we will always quarrel/argue. cos you this haven grow up don't wanna give in to me. so, GROW UP. thanks! =)

I'M SO SO DEPRESS! AAAAAHHHH~

so i skipped clubbing just for JEN! sigh. where's my martell? I WANT MY MARTELL!

are guys really that desperate?

they view my profile in friendster and i viewed them back, that's what everyone will do, and they will add me. what more, they are just trying to increase the number of friends in their list. no intentions to be friends(of course, i wouldn't want it too).

hello? as you can see, friendster is for FRIENDS. not increasing-number-of-friend-ster. dumb! you don't get reward for having 1 million of friendster in your list.

then, there are a few idiots, they added me. i reject like mad times and they are still adding? so dumb. like, do i know you? they don't even drop a message like a friendly greeting or so, and even they did, i will never reply. LOL. only if, they are my friends. there's once, there's this pathetic idiot who add me like ton of times, i reallly touch with him willingness to add me as friend. so, i kept him in my list for 1 week and deleted him off. damn man, and a few days later, he found me missing in his list and added me back. wooo~ how the hell did he find me? i'm from his EXTENDED friend's list. which means, he went all the way back clicking back to the friend's friend's friend's just to add me back. see, so despo.

another situation, there's this guy who wants to add me in his list. so, i went to check, WOW! all his friends are all females. how pathetic, i'm really sad for him, he doesn't have any male friends.

and another stupid situation, a guy left a message saying "hi, i forgot your full name. can you tell me? and leave me your phone number." pls la~ what kind of lousy approach was that.

anyway, if you wanna see more despo guys, you can go view my sister's list. a whole lots more of desperate guys. maybe i can give you her password and e-mail add too, so you can log on to her account to see the number of despo requests. she has alot of that till she's too lazy to reject the request causing the number of friend request to increase till siao! AND people who send her messages, if you're good looking, at least she will reply an eassy to you. but if you're hell ugly, opps, sorry.

whatever, i must admit my sister is one hell of flirt. my mum and dad think so too. OMG! i think she reaching 10 ex-es at the age of 15. i hope she will have 15 ex at the age of 15. so, when they come to average, it will be 1 boyfriend a year. that sounded better. but if you see carefully, it means my sister started dating at the age of 1. cool~ and she's one hell of stupid cause she spend like more than 100 bucks on handphone bill every month. kee yong, we got the same kind of siblings! damn, how i wish she can give me 100 bucks every month rather than singtel. how dumb!

talking about my sis, she got this girlfriend, hui juan, this is her 5th attempts(her skin is 5 inch thick?) trying to add me in friendster. i seen her before. prolly talked to her a few words? maybe not. i know who is she but i'm still not gonna accept her request! MUHAHAHA! if it happened to be my classmate or maybe my friend's friend's whom we only talked once or seen each other quite a few times, i'll be willing to accept. but not to my sister's friend. HAHA! i know i'm evil. 'cause they are one hell of noisy kiddo in my house and the noisy just irritate the hell outta me. serve her right!

i was talking to whz during the weekends. OK the topic in our conversation was "BGR." it's over like SO LONG, but i'm still not over it. it's wonderful cause it makes my brain thinks.

he: u know girls like to say all the good guys in the world are dead or gay? how true do you think is it?
me: it's true.
him: then do u think all good girls in the world are dead too?
me: for girls, there are still really alot of nice girls out there. (like me! LOL.)
him: then why is it so hard for the good guys to find the good girls?

this is it! Why Is It So Hard For The Good Guys To Find The Good Girls? i know what will you all be thinking now. "WHY HUH?"

apparently, he was suggesting "maybe the good guys are just not good looking enough?"

seriously, it's not about looks now. i got this friend, he is seriously good looking, the kind that girls in club would wanna hook, he's the kind of sunshine freak that the babes in sentosa will wanna take their chances to go to him. yea, so, the girls out there thinks he's great (cause he's good looking). i thought he was one hell of nice guy, to be true, i thought he was nice because of his looks too. sad to annouce, he was actually one hell of shit that most girl wouldn't wanna go near. his characters are those that no girls will wanna go near him any longer. just 2 words "fuck shit!" and that is why, he still doesn't get into any new relationships all these years. pathetic freak. if he were to be those damn ugly guy out there, including his fuck shit characters, i swear he will never get married in his life.

see, girls always get tempted by the guy's looks. so silly. (like me) LOL. but at least, i know who's good and who's bad. not that dumb as those above. need me to list the names?

and then, i got some guy friends, they are not as good looking. remove beach boy looks. strip off the celebrity looks. no centre of attrations in clubs. not the type that girls will wanna take a look. what amazes me was everything they do, they do with sincerity. they are drop dead nice and sweet. a hell nice guys. with these good characters, it's enough to win a girl's heart.

we, girls, do not need a hell good looking guy for us. all we want is sincerity. of course, don't give us those that have looks that we will vomit when we sees them, loose appetite when talking to them, whatever it's is, just some that is proper looking and not freaks.

good looking guys are for display. nice guys are meant to be kept.


OK! then if this is so, then why is it so that the good guy and girl still can't meet each other?

maybe they met. but it's just that either one of the parties is attrached to another guy/girl. you see, the good guy will fall for a bad girl. good girls go down with the bad guys.

pretty funny huh. why the good guy still can't meet the good girl?
oh, don't ask me why. if not, i wouldn't be asking you. don't be dumb.

driving is seriously like, so easy? as easy as ABC? i admit, i do(used to) make mistakes while driving. that's because my instructor is a mumble man. well, most of the times, he's talking to the air. poor thing. i pity him. he will go:

"when using the half clutch to move you.... aefs3415hnl#acza5t$%^snf45cjkansdcjk."

so, all i have to do was to try it out myself!

and so, despite the fact about all his mumbling thoughout the XXX times of lessons, i manage to get hold of all the facts about driving! i must be one of the rare genius out there! in fact, he didn't really teach much. i figure it out all myself. see, i'm just a damn genius.

anyway, he praised me today! i really loathe it whenever he does that. 'cause the next moment, i'll make a mistake and he will start mumbling like never. it's really difficult for me to stay tranquil. what's more, he adding more spices to make me go mad stress. just like what i expected, i did something wrong later.

i don't know about other drivers. but to me, i don't know what's in me. whenever there's a person trying to cross the road, i'll just step the damn accelerator pedal hard. then, the mumbling man will go:

"how many times did i tell you, when you see a person crossing, slow down even if it isn't at a traffic light, let go the accelerator or step some of the brake. you wanna hit the lady/man/girl/old lady who is/are crossing the road? blah blah blah"

every lesson, same thing. i think he's so pissed off about it that whenever he sees a lady/man/girl/old lady who trying to cross to cross THEIR road, he will raise his voice like:

"let go the accelerator!" OR "STEP THE BRAKE!" OR "slow down, slow down, slown down."(and i'll be there, "ah fuck, just shut your damn mouth.")

BUT he's one of the best instructor if you take away all him mumbling, i swear. one of the most tolerant man who can accept my silly mistakes patiently. and those little times when i almost crash his car, he didn't even tick me off. all he does was mumble. and he always use niK to aspire or motivate me! he will go:

"YOUR COUSIN PASSED ON HIS FIRST TRY! THE ONE STAYING AT BEDOK ALSO. your cousin learn very fast. after a few lessons he can drive properly. your cousin doesn't need me to give instructions. your cousin.... your cousin."(YA LA! I KNOW LA. niK is MY COUSIN WHAT!)

i know, he's trying to tell me that imma slow learner. SO WHAT! at least less than 12 lessons i manage to drive like a man! and so, wait for my good news about passing on first try soon, like oct? =)

OH~ broke broke broke! i'm so pathetic BROKE! where did all my money went?


a party-less weekend. at least i kept that promise of not partying for a week. BUT I'M SO NOT USED TO IT AND I FEEL SO UNEASY(cause i didn't get to drink)! though i'm always hitting the same club each and every time, that pathetic st. james; dfly.

partying this weekends is a for sure thing. i don't care!

anyway, last weekend wasn't that bad too. the couz' got gathering and i got news about me having either a niece or nephew in 8 months time. wasn't a nice news actually. everyone was like, SO SOON? though i'm gonna be one's auntie soon(which i'm always waiting for the day to come), i'm not even happy.

so, at the dinner gathering.....

fuck that bitch! i'm so gonna hate you for lives yea, asshole! damn it! you didn't even bother to give a damn call. FINE! i thought we were the closest and might be one of the first to know it. shit you! i'm so not gonna forgive you. i'm not gonna miss you anymore. BITCH! all the long waiting for the day, was just trash. i misses you so much yet you didn't even call! fuckyou!

anyway, you can made it up if you do something that can really pleases me. like getting me things that i want most! fuckyou bitch! i hate you! you suck big time!





screw you.

the best damn thing about cafe cartel is that the bread is so drop dead delicious!

anyway, queky and i have so much fun cam whoring today! like, 80 PHOTOS?! yea, i know it's a little bizarre. but who cares?!

the best place in town!

aww~ we look so sweet! LOL!

i got so so tired of smiling.

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alright, i had enough!

oh, we are have just reach our sweetest 16th. i know, i know, we are drop dead cute.

eh, i look like chicken wing, meh? didn't you just had your fish&chips?

HELLO, ANYONE INTERESTED IN BUYING OUR CLOTHES? WE ONLY WORE ONCE!

we got something in similar! WHITE SHOES! wee~ we got 3 same things!

and so, that's the last!

oh my 天, my tooth gonna drop any sooner = bo gay. damn!

oh my 天, i'm gonna have fever real soon = weekends; GONE! = NO PARTY. sigh.

oh my 天, i lost my ez link card. by the way, my ez link card is another form of membership card = NO MORE DISCOUNTS! fuck!

oh my 天, my closet has no more space to put anymore clothings. = stop buying clothes OR throw some away. but it seems like i kept wearing the same damn clothings. hmmmm.

oh my 天, i have craving for cafe catel and they have 30% OFF for students!! but i lost my ez link = NO 30% OFF.


watched harry potter with queky. kinda disappointed with the movie though. seriously, it lost to POTC. some characters were left out. not action enough cause they remove a lot of plots from the actual storybook. guess, half blood prince will be another disappointment. i mean the movie not the storybook. anyway, the lastest harry potter storybook will be release soon, like 3 MORE DAYS? anyone willing to donate money to my foundation or maybe buy for me?

they were trying to tell me something
but i was hearing nothing
when they said you was just playing me
i didn't listen
i didn't want to

if you call me today
i'll say that i'm fine
but i bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
its just a lie

you knew what you were doing to me
i guess i was too blind to see
you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad

i got to put the blame on myself
they knew you was just bad news
i should've walked out
i should've seen clear

YA LA! I KNOW LA. I HARDLY POST PHOTOS IN HERE. so, i'm so gonna do it today! =)

i met up with tom tom yesterday for k. damn, he looks like a prisoner or maybe one that has just been release. just take a look at the photos. his facial expression was so fierce when he doesn't smile. it's like he has so much hatred in his eyes. but i like his tattoos. weee~ and because of him, i was so vulgar yesterday. oh, he's another freak that said the way i speak chinese and sing is weird. damn. anyway, i hope your hair grow soon. haha!

went dfly again. with the same gang again. and saw the same people again. and listened to the same live band sing again. and listened to the same song being played again. and drank the same thing again. and drank like hell again. and danced the same way again. and played the same game again. and got high again. and got drunk again. and did stupid stuffs again(it's all because of moet). i'm not gonna touch it anymore.

and then, kenneth asked me if i sing chinese songs. and when i said yes, he was smirking. what's so funny about my chinese may i ask? the first was jian ling, he said the way i speak chinese is like cartoon! argh!

saw sunny there. he treats me as if imma a small kid man! johnson too. sometimes i like it, sometimes i really hate it like mad! they kept patting my head and ask me to drink less. just like ah cai and banana man. and there this guy that i asked him for sweets. i think i know him. alright, i know him. and i think his name is kelvin or something? whatever! he thinks he's very old la. keep patting my head. like imma little girl. argh! know what, i think he's younger than me.

谢谢你的温柔

bill, dicky and tommy asked me: "are you a les or maybe used to be one?"
"NO!"

bill: "oh, i thought so."
dicky: "i thought so. cause it's difficult for me to believe that you are single." (something like that)
tommy: "cause you got no boyfriend. a little unbelievable."

seriously, you can't prejudge me like that just because i don't have a boyfriend. i don't need a boyfriend to make me straight anyway. i can't say i'm straight. but i know what i'm doing and want. yes, i fantasize and look too much at girls and i think it's superb normal. it's totally hookay! cause ting, mellie and jen do that too.

maybe it's really not the time for me to get into any relationship yet. it's so not the time yet. you see, the guy i like, doesn't fancy me. and the guys that i have totally no interest in at all, kept coming. and it's prolly because i didn't made the right decisions the last time.

so dumb.

i'm perfectly fine. i know what i want.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DLIM!


yesterday's dicky celebration was kinda fun.

i think i'm real stupid. how can one club without bringing IC? and so, bill has to send me back to get that stupid card. THANKS and SORRY. =)

on the dance floor. there's this hand that kept disturbing me. i thought it was dominic, cause he was standing right beside me and i hitted him so many times to realise that it was actually another fella. so sorry and i think i stepped on his expensive shoes.

it's good that james was there to quarrel with me. at least, i would think much less. thanks for accompanying me and hear me say all my nonsense. in fact, i was damn sad la. but you are seriously very irritating that my saddness can change to anger. =) you're sweet, actually. LOL. anyway, you are very short.

went over to look for christina and ivan. was high after that stupid MOET. and blah blah blah. the usual crazy stuffs. saw banana man there. wee~ so happy la. ah cai was so happy to see me that he gave me a hug. duh~ they were complaining that i've been partying too much and i should stop it. anyway, i intend to stop. STOP! stop means wait till jen come back then go party. which is like stop for a week? that's damn. yea, so don't bother to believe what i said.

christina said there's this guy behind me that looks like "usually." he so does not look like. i hate it whenever they mention his name. I HATE IT SO MUCH THAT I CAN KILL. only i can mention his name. cause everything will be like a movie playing in my head. it's so scary to remember what a person do to cover up all the things they did. seriously, my mood was like fuck after that including the one before.

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i saw the wedding photos. there's nothing much to comment about anymore. i hope you will have a happily marriage. you made this decision which you think is right. so, i want you to be happy and hope he really loves you as much as you do. raising a child is not a big joke. but i believe you can do it. anyway, you looked real pretty in the pictures.

tom tom, i wanna watch harry potter. I DON'T CARE! =) so, you go book the tickets alright. if i din get to watch, i kill you, botak! ahahah!

smile that does not last.

you say you turned it off hid your heart upon a shelf
scared of what it might cost to take it down for sombody else
cause loving her you lost too much of yourself
baby can’t you see that she’s not me
not me at all

and i need you to know you can fall into me
that my arms are wide open and will always be
right here waiting staying strong come and fall into me
don't compare her to me, believe in love

i’ll follow any road anywhere to get to you
i’ll open up my soul if that is what you need me to do
now baby its your move all you got to do is
believe in love just believe in us

just believe in love just believe in us

baby

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARROT!

YAY! i'm so excited about tomorrow. cos it's dicky's birthday. alright, it's not because of dicky. i know he's the main character there. but yea, i'm focusing on nik! first time ever in my life, i'll be partying with him. OMG. i have never thought of partying with a used to be very fierce guy. it's good that he changed so much till i can talk and even party with him tomorrow! HAHAHA! yea, i know, i sounded like i'm a little crazy over him. I'M SO NOT. i'm just amused, excited, honoured, surprised, shocked, astonished and so on. man, everyone was shocked when i told them i'll be partying with him. i mean EVERYONE alright, even myself. he's gonna take care of me. =) i hope he doesn't get drunk IF NOT, i'll be the one sending him home. aww~ i hope he will stay at ECP if he drunk, so that i can get excuses to my parent like "hey, he's drunk and i'm sending him home. so, allow me to stay at ECP cos i don't wanna go home alone." and then, i can sing from morning till night alone! no one snatches the mic with me. WAHAHAHA! and then, i can go swimming, tanning and gyming. anyway, it's not gonna happen. cause there will only be me and him. so, NO WAY!

i'm kinda scare about tomorrow, as in, nik will be going. and can't be ask me to call him "nik" yea? i'm so not used to it. and if i called him "blah blah kor kor" i think his friends might laugh and dicky will use it to make fun of me. AAAHHHH~

anyway, it's really good for the government to implement the no smoking campaign in clubs. it's so successfully. so good till my parents is so alright with me partying. two toes up man! all i have to do when i reach home is to remove my make-ups and sleep. no more smelly hairs. no more smelly clothings. just nice smelling body. =D they did the right thing this time round.

awww~ ting, we were too busy today with my plans till we didn't take any cute photos. =( sorry. anyway, thanks for your help. cos it was a great success, i guess. loves!

queky, you're the best sis man! for god damn sake! i could seriously kiss you at that point of time. thanks for remembering every single nonsenses i have said and helped me up. weee~ will be treating you one cha shao bao. LOL. loves!

just a little of temptation for jen and coeus. nice yea? wanna see this every morning when ya awake? YES? BE BACK AT THIS INSTANCE!




i like you.

if i fell in love with you
would you promise to be true
and help me understand
'cause i've been in love before
and i found that love was more
than just holding hands

if i give my heart to you
i must be sure
from the very start
that you would love me more than her

if i trust in you oh no please
don't run and hide
if i love you too oh please
don't hurt my pride like her
'cause i couldn't stand the pain
and i would be sad if our new love was in vain

so i hope you see love that i
would love to love you
and that she will cry
when she learns we are two
'cause i couldn't stand the pain
and i would be sad if our new love was in vain

so i hope you see that i
would love to love you
and that she will cry
when she learns we are two
if i fell in love with you yeah
no no no no no

you don't even know my name.


how should i put it?
i don't know. i don't know.

it's plain disappoint every single dumb ass gave.

it's just like when you plucked up all your courage just to tell that particular guy you like. cause he was he first person you have told in the whole wide world you liked him.

cause you thought everything was real. actually, it's fake; lies.
it’s like you got stuck between fantasy and what is real

and at that point of time, you can seriously kill.

you thought it will be different.

you thought it wasn't another "usually."

you thought you could trust another after "usually", know what, it's dumb. HELL YA! IT'S FUCKING DUMB!



just like what my mate used on me,
"you are the dumb one. followed by a little stupid and also silly."


the shadow you have casted. fuckyou.

i think i really look too much at girls rather than guys these days. till i fantasize too much about them. consistent days dreaming. like on friendster, i would be much more interested in which ladies viewed me rather than a man. at times, i can seriously leave the man out.

tell me it's really hookay.

alright, i do look at men but not to the extend of women. much more if he's a caucasian. asian men; hardly.


sifu just came! i got my string done, like finally! always waiting for the string every year. oh yeah, i like the "jing" that he always used at poon jing's uncle's place. i just wanna learn that

i hate it when they bring her into the conversation. know what, i could serious cry on the spot. i hate to see his facial expression when he talked about her. i hate to see him having the expression of missing her. i hate it! i hate to see him sad. i hate to know how hard he has been through after that incident. but seeing him move on, it's like "hey, great, you found someone whom you can spend your life with. i'm totally glad." on the other hand, "it's just 2 years and you found someone new! what about her?" it's a little contradicting in here. i just felt this way. all that comes into my mind was "IT'S JUST 2 FUCKING YEARS!" and when i thought of that, i'm like, "you moved on so soon?" hell yea, i know i'm kinda selfish. it's not about interfering his life. i know he needs a partner. it's just that I CAN'T ACCEPT IT! i know people have to move on. and everyone is moving on so smoothly. i can't be the black sheep. fine, i just feel it's not right! i'm selfish.

missing her, dearly. 2 years and still missing; still counting.

JEN, WE'LL GO PRAY HER WHEN YA BACK! IT'S OUR PROMISE. I DON'T CARE!

i know we have to move on. what's more, it's already 2 years. just 2 years. damn. i have no idea!







sometimes, i wish it was you.

oh my 天! it's counting down time! YAY! 2 couz' will be back in no time. hookay. i know. it's another 20 plus days more! kinda excited. alright, it's more than excitement. the enthusiasm. heh!

gonna stay over at ECP! all the kidos in da house. guess we'll gonna sing from morning till night and from night till morning! imaging the house filled with so many so many people! we'll gonna mess around! the girls, we will have our usual sweet talks sessions together and all the cuddlings cum rapings. then, we can go TANNING! and for the guys, usual raping among themselves and gyming. and we will rent the scariest movie in town just to scare our hearts out the night. and bring all the late nights deliveries. weet! we are gonna get so FAT FAT FAT! fat 死 us. who cares, anyway.

and then, we'll party like we never party once. and we'll gonna take zillions of photos like we have never used a camera. and then, we'll spend so much time together like we never did before. and then, and then, and then..... the list will goes on and on.gees, guess i'll should start packing my stuffs. or prolly start bring my stuffs there. (opps, i know it's too kan chiong in here. (= )

please come back real soon! and i'll be the happiest kid in town. yea, i used 'kid'. that's cause i always behave like one whenever i'm damn freaking shity happy and so on. everyone knows it. so, yea.

gonna have my last paper tml. finally, all the stress are gone. hookay. in fact, there's no stress at all. i have no stress in this exams at all. just that the driving lessons are driving me nuts! seriously, i've no idea either. F la ~ just pretty disappointed in myself. fuck! i'm damn lousy la!



lips of an angel.

the world is all about prejudging. all the prejudgements! just because something bad was experience perviously, doesn't means that the next time around, it will be the same.

like for men, it's so okay for them to go club. it's so okay for them to have so many girls around them. it's so okay for them to go hook girls. it's so okay for them to do everything.

but women, it's so not okay to go clubbing often. because the guys usually said girl who club often aren't good girls. it's so not okay for girls to have many guy friends. because it will spoilt their reputations. it's so not okay for girls to go hook guy. because she will ended up becoming a slut.

this world is so unfair!

why girls can't club? it's not like every women who club are just there to hook guys. IT'S SO NOT! why can't we just party for the fun? why can't we party?

i know, not everyone can be trusted. the ones who treats you truthfully, are the ones you can count on. it's not about seeing, it's not about listening. it's all about feeling it.



will you just believe me for once?

i'm so dumb. so stupid! damn it! aaaahhhhhhhhhh!

so sad la. what the hell man!

sigh!







你身上的味道让我神魂颠倒....

damn man! GST is 7% already. like so soon?!


i'm so so dead. so sick! shivering the whole day. damn. can't even get myself to sleep. it's like when i was about to fall asleep, something in me would wake me up. even when i increase the dosage of my cough syrup to another 5ml and my flu medicine, it should be taken once a day but i have increase it to 2. STILL, fucking shit! i can't get myself to sleep!

actually, i have something to blog about. but NO TIME! after exams. anyway, simon and his 3 wives are backed together all over again!! YAY! i'm real happy about it. cos been missing this brother of mine for real long and he always treats me real nice. can't bare to leave him alone. but now, yay! we are back together AGAIN! =) means clubbing and movies and shopping and ktving with him again! YAY! hahas.

it's always real good to hang around with d4e.

like kor. the times we meet up is really like once in a blue moon yet the bond is still there. it's not like, hey, i don't get to see you for a year and that's why i think i don't really know you now, that kind of situation you see.

worse! for xp, i really get to see him once in a real, long time, but we still manage to click so well. weee~

and zi xian, janice, real nice lady man! oh my god!

overall! d4e are filled with the world most friendly, gracious, lovely, fantastic, fabulous, marvelous, wonderful, amazing, (and other brilliant nice words you have in the dictionary) people!



and so, i love them all! =)


tell me you miss me too, will you.

Rules of the game:

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!


- i sing more often when i'm having sore throat.

- i think vincent has a real cool, sexy and unique chinese name when everyone thinks it's funny.

- when i read a magazine, i see the pictures thoughout the whole book first, before turning back to the first page to read the words.

- i have got the same sitting posture as my dad when we sit on the sofa.

- when i'm sick, i go all the way to tampines to see the doctor. even if it's just a minor cough of flu. reason being, i just wanna SEE the doctor and have a nice chat with him.

- i look/stare to much at pretty women.

- i started wearing a clothings to sleep eversince my dad found out that i didn't.

- i like man. and i like boyish man. what's the differences anyway? both are men!

- i go for math lessons just to see 2 of my handsome teachers.

- i hate to eat at coffee shops. i hate the dirty tables and there's no air con. and the smelly table cloth! I HATE DIRTY TABLES WITHOUT AIRCONS! if there's air con, i can close one eye and accept it.


wah lau eh. so fast 10. i still wanna continue leh!

1. jen. (everyone is pushing you to do this! better do it real quick!)

2. coeus.

3. queky. (when you are done with your blog)

4. justin. (when your d4e-justin is done)

5. siew mei.

6. akopo/sinmonea/kayden

only queky will understand! LOL! read it queky!


电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下

如果再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过

短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱

因为对你我连再见都
说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中

when the wrong man tells you the right things



and when the right man tells you nothing!

i miss the times when i had sore throat and honey lemon will be deliver to me.

i miss the days when i'm greeted with a morning msges that made my days.

i miss the times when i sick and i'm being brought to the clinic.

i miss the times when we quarrel everyday about nothing.

i miss that feeling when i first sat on a bike.

i miss the the times when i'm brought to the beach.

i miss the times when i'm the first being turned to.

i miss having stories.

i miss that time when i got nothing to eat and food was deliver to me.


would you be there to deliver food to me when my parents are not around?

would you buy honey lemon for me when i have sore throat?

yould you send me msges that brighten up my day?

would you bring me to the doctor when i dead sick?

would you tell me stories in the middle of the night when i can't sleep?

would you bring me around just to see the night scenery?

would you be there still make and effort to call me?

would you accompany me?

would you be there to wait for my msg each day and when i don't msg any single day, you will call?

would you give me irritating morning calls?

would you call me and just to hear me talk?


would you allow me to complete my piece?



tell me you want me.

so dead! the bodyaches and the flu is seriously killing me along with all the cold sweats. dead!

i'm so gonna fail BIS i think. one question was BLANK. while the answers for the other questions were all jumble up. i swear i was very confident in doing this exam. real confident. but the air conditional was far to cold for my body to take it. ended up, increasing my body temperature along with headaches and finally, i said "GIVE UP!" i'm just so angry with myself! damn! but shopping cures everything!

either i pray hard to pass it or i pray hard that i will not re-module this stupid subject. i know nuts about it.

alright, i know many out there know my chinese is pretty sucky. not to the max as if i can't speak a word about it. i can speak in fact. it's just that the way i speak, at times, i would seriously laugh at myself.

normally, i speak english this days. so, once, norman said this to eugene

"don't use mandarin to talk to her."
"why?"
"she need to translate into english before replying you."

in fact, i never deny that. i really have to translate it before replaying. my mandarin is so sucky that when i sing i ktv, i know how to pronounce the word but i don't understand a single thing about the whole song. all i know was, they are loves song because they got the word "爱." while for some, the words used must be very simple in order for me to understand. like speaking to ade, she very good in using simple mandarin to talk to me. i really appreciate it so much! maybe she used to the way i speak my chinese.

now, i'm really trying my best to know more chinese wordings. like listening to chinese songs(though i still can't catch what the meaning whlist reading the lyric). i watch campus superstar, trying my very best to understand what the judges are commenting, still, i don't understand a single shit. why doesn't they have english subtitle! UNFAIR! i like watching drama, at least there are subtitles for me! i don't have to translate it myself! even though i'm still stuck, i'll try my very best though i still have thai to learn.

anyway, what wake me up to learn mandarin was this friend of mine, he got this real cool chinese name which i though was representing someone from ancient who has alot of intelligence. his name is "wang he zhang." damn man! it's so chinese and sexy. (mian mian, i was just refering to the name alright. don't anyhow spread.) and when it's converted into english, even more unique and sexier. seriously, i would much perfer to call him wang he zhang than vincent. but too bad, this fella sucks in chinese too. just so cool la. to have a real very real chinese name and doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i also want leh!



to those who went zouk with me the other day, i'm sorry to disgrace myself. i'm sorry to be drunk and talked nonsense. forgive me if i said stuffs that you wouldn't wanna hear.

and javier, thanks so much for being there! at least someone knows how i feel now. for whole 2 years, i finally let it out. though i couldn't do anything now. i just have to abandon the promise i made for the time being till he changes.

i seriously don't understand why certain people made certain promises yet they can just simply treat it like nothing. whereas for me, i made a promise and i didn't fulfill it. I HAVE BEEN GUILTY FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS! just really wondering why they aren't guilty.

2 years.

i'm sorry. i think i can't keep my promise anymore.

ask me how's my life now and you will hear me screaming the hell outta me!

damn man! his photos can really melts the freaking shit outta me! it's like every picture i'll go "WOW WOW WOW!" and the wow-ing never seems to come to a halt.

oh my freaking shity 天, he must have undergo plastic surgery!

it's like when you look into his eyes, you must be wondering if you have been to heaven. LIKE SERIOUSLY, SO DAMN GOOD LOOKING! oh my 天! i just can't get my eyes off the pictures!

it's not like having illusions of going mad over luo zhi xiang or wang li hong or daniel wu or edison or wu zun. that's totally stupid cos it's totally so unrealistic, so dumb. yea, that WAS me.

no wonder all the women just can't resist to bring themselves to him.

but actually, good looking man are great disappointment also what!

anyway, i think man is much more perfered than not boys. boys like real boyish, still schooling, stuck with exams, young boys like my age and maybe a year or two older than me. and still having those real freaking childish thoughts suck in their mind. and they come everyday claiming you don't love them and all ther pestering comes and so on. i prefer man! prolly because i hang around with too many people. mature man can seriously suck your heart away. i like man like real man, mature. one the other hand, i like man, like boyish man and mature.

oh my 天! i don't mind you taking my heart away man!







it's party time! weet!

YAY! i'm gonna start work next month! see, it's always good to know more and more and MORE people. even a month of holiday, i still can look for an office job. worse, i'm without experience. there's disadvantage in here. cos i know the person who is hiring me and he said i'm still kinda naive, so i have to learn everything. he said i have to try my best to get hold of everything as soon as possible so that other will be able to bring me out and meet the client! YAY! and i'm so gonna be the youngest in the company! AAHAHAHA! the feeling is just so good!

i read the book, man are from mars and women are from venus. real good book. i spent almost 2 lessons to look through the whole book. yeah, i was listening to what the lecture was saying. i even slept in class today and i dreamt that the lecture asked the whole class to go pick litters. how dumb. reason being, before i fall asleep, nifer was complaining that jamie littered the floor till so dirty. yea, that's absolutely dumb. anyway, in the book there this things that the author said

"women can talk about potential problems, politic problems, personal problems and even problems that do not have any solutions."

"to avoid her own painful feelings, a woman may become emotionally involve in
the problems of others."

i'm totally agree this! that book really explains all the problems a woman and man will go through. it also does help in improving relationships problems. see, i'm doing free advertising for the book.


i went party world with adeline, 2 old man-gerald and alvin. nice men. party world always makes me think of mian mian. once i told mian mian: "after marina we go party world la."
and he was like: "party? that side really can party?" actually, it was his expressions that made it so funny. blah blah blah.

2 old man singing and trying their best to be cute.

你知道吗? 我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉. 发生什么样子. 我好希望再来一次 .

i deny and denied. will you hear me speak the truth?

seriously, i hate the things that have happened. yet, somehow, i think it's just another experience that someone would get through. perhaps, things are happening earlier than what i've expected. or maybe, too many happening together.

pretty funny huh. i love dramas like seriously. but please, not so many at a time can. the times when i'm totally have the whole world's time, no drama. totally silences. now, exams are around the corner and all the shity comes. ah fuck! anyway, i guess, it will come to an end soon, expect for one damn irritating one.

it's like fuck, not interested mean not right? prolly get go die.

and the.... i just hope the betraying might just stop somehow. no more nonsense please. i don't wanna hear anymore. just don't want the both of you to do the stabbing. i don't wish the 3 of us ended up with nothing. we have been great friends. so, be it, yea.




it all ended up to be just a fling thingy.

POTC is still one of the best movie ever. i love the actions and the way they betray each other throughout the whole series. johnney depp is still the reson for me catching the movie. seriously, i don't mind spending on it again.



i gotta know this guy. late 30s. he didn't mention that he's married or whether he's single. so, he started flirting around at clubs, at bars. he's rich. damn rich. so, he started going out with this lady even during weekends. this lady, she doesn't knows about his background, only his working status. i'm not sure what kind of relationship they are having but i know, he is out there looking for a partner. recently, the lady found out that he's married and maybe with 2 children.

see, rich guys, got children and wife, a family to support and love, yet, he out there looking for another partner.

i asked nifer what kind of life she wanna have in future and she replied that she wanna marry a rich man. the richer the better. i asked her what if he go look for another women. she said it's alright. as long as he give me the money, i can travel around with my kids. what he wanna do, i'll close my eyes. just give me the money.

see, women doesn't need man to live. nifer really has her points. in future, she will have her kids to accompany her and they might even give her more love than her husband does. which women doesn't love shopping? as long he gives her the money she needs, it's alright. as long as he gives her kids a good education and care for them, what's there to ask for more.

rich men are really disappointment.

i overheard this conversation between my 2 classmates. it's about relationship. and so, one of the guy said this:

"beautiful women are disappointment."

so, now, i finally realise why ugly girls got to have good looking guys.

HELLO THERE!

can someone just simply stand out and say something?!

can someone save him?



being the eldest is no funny joke but a huge task to fulfill. know what, it's sucks seriously.

life just sucked big time! damn.

anyway, thanks to him, i learn about life now. how mean this world can get. there's no such things as promises. if you want something, achieve it yourself. no one will help you. the ones helping will ended up being the ones affecting the things you wanna achieve.

thanks to him that i finally realise, care and concern are just left unfelt to ones heart. kins loves are just trash. no matter how much you care for someone, he just feel that you are just to busybody. no matter how hard you tried to save someone from taking the road that he shouldn't, he insisted that he doesn't need you to care. and when no one care, he thinks everyone doesn't care. damnit. so, he stole money from his grandfather, he requested to be disown, he lied so badly, he think friend is the whole world to him. so, i really hope he will get his retribution soon. he's helpless. if i could, if the government give me a chance, no matter how much i care and love him, i wish i could kill him with my own hands.

and thanks to her who thinks money is more important than friendship.

thanks to him, for giving me dramas.

thanks to him for making me understand that how desperate this world could be.

and thanks to you, for giving me this life which i have no choice but to accpet it! fuck!

initially, there's tons to blog about. but, i don't know. i'll get myself fix first.



sigh, they always push everything to me. "because you are young, they won't say anything." but how will i feel? always pretending and pretending. sa jiao here and there to get benefits. wtf.



adeline, christina, james, dixion, wei sheng, 1 loner, 1 tall guy, kenneth, desmond and me.



real pack at dragonfly. but with my sunny, we get to go in as soon as we arrived even if it's FULL HOUSE. and we can just shake our ass off to those waiting till even if they get in to the club, they were to tired to dance!



same songs. same live band. BORING!



i did something real bad. seriously bad. i bite james and he will so happy about if. so, i went to bite kenneth's arm. damn, that's the biggest mistake i should have ever made. the first bite was alright. i thought i heard him saying "bite harder." so, i bite harder and then, he BLEED like MAD! so, know how guilty i was la. cleaning up the wound and stuffs. worst thing is he just had an open right on the spot that i bite. the funny thing was he doesn't seems to feel any pain. BUT I'M VERY SORRY!


james is sweet, actually.