REGINA'S

so dead! the bodyaches and the flu is seriously killing me along with all the cold sweats. dead!

i'm so gonna fail BIS i think. one question was BLANK. while the answers for the other questions were all jumble up. i swear i was very confident in doing this exam. real confident. but the air conditional was far to cold for my body to take it. ended up, increasing my body temperature along with headaches and finally, i said "GIVE UP!" i'm just so angry with myself! damn! but shopping cures everything!

either i pray hard to pass it or i pray hard that i will not re-module this stupid subject. i know nuts about it.

alright, i know many out there know my chinese is pretty sucky. not to the max as if i can't speak a word about it. i can speak in fact. it's just that the way i speak, at times, i would seriously laugh at myself.

normally, i speak english this days. so, once, norman said this to eugene

"don't use mandarin to talk to her."
"why?"
"she need to translate into english before replying you."

in fact, i never deny that. i really have to translate it before replaying. my mandarin is so sucky that when i sing i ktv, i know how to pronounce the word but i don't understand a single thing about the whole song. all i know was, they are loves song because they got the word "爱." while for some, the words used must be very simple in order for me to understand. like speaking to ade, she very good in using simple mandarin to talk to me. i really appreciate it so much! maybe she used to the way i speak my chinese.

now, i'm really trying my best to know more chinese wordings. like listening to chinese songs(though i still can't catch what the meaning whlist reading the lyric). i watch campus superstar, trying my very best to understand what the judges are commenting, still, i don't understand a single shit. why doesn't they have english subtitle! UNFAIR! i like watching drama, at least there are subtitles for me! i don't have to translate it myself! even though i'm still stuck, i'll try my very best though i still have thai to learn.

anyway, what wake me up to learn mandarin was this friend of mine, he got this real cool chinese name which i though was representing someone from ancient who has alot of intelligence. his name is "wang he zhang." damn man! it's so chinese and sexy. (mian mian, i was just refering to the name alright. don't anyhow spread.) and when it's converted into english, even more unique and sexier. seriously, i would much perfer to call him wang he zhang than vincent. but too bad, this fella sucks in chinese too. just so cool la. to have a real very real chinese name and doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i also want leh!



to those who went zouk with me the other day, i'm sorry to disgrace myself. i'm sorry to be drunk and talked nonsense. forgive me if i said stuffs that you wouldn't wanna hear.

and javier, thanks so much for being there! at least someone knows how i feel now. for whole 2 years, i finally let it out. though i couldn't do anything now. i just have to abandon the promise i made for the time being till he changes.

i seriously don't understand why certain people made certain promises yet they can just simply treat it like nothing. whereas for me, i made a promise and i didn't fulfill it. I HAVE BEEN GUILTY FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS! just really wondering why they aren't guilty.