REGINA'S

i think i really look too much at girls rather than guys these days. till i fantasize too much about them. consistent days dreaming. like on friendster, i would be much more interested in which ladies viewed me rather than a man. at times, i can seriously leave the man out.

tell me it's really hookay.

alright, i do look at men but not to the extend of women. much more if he's a caucasian. asian men; hardly.


sifu just came! i got my string done, like finally! always waiting for the string every year. oh yeah, i like the "jing" that he always used at poon jing's uncle's place. i just wanna learn that

i hate it when they bring her into the conversation. know what, i could serious cry on the spot. i hate to see his facial expression when he talked about her. i hate to see him having the expression of missing her. i hate it! i hate to see him sad. i hate to know how hard he has been through after that incident. but seeing him move on, it's like "hey, great, you found someone whom you can spend your life with. i'm totally glad." on the other hand, "it's just 2 years and you found someone new! what about her?" it's a little contradicting in here. i just felt this way. all that comes into my mind was "IT'S JUST 2 FUCKING YEARS!" and when i thought of that, i'm like, "you moved on so soon?" hell yea, i know i'm kinda selfish. it's not about interfering his life. i know he needs a partner. it's just that I CAN'T ACCEPT IT! i know people have to move on. and everyone is moving on so smoothly. i can't be the black sheep. fine, i just feel it's not right! i'm selfish.

missing her, dearly. 2 years and still missing; still counting.

JEN, WE'LL GO PRAY HER WHEN YA BACK! IT'S OUR PROMISE. I DON'T CARE!

i know we have to move on. what's more, it's already 2 years. just 2 years. damn. i have no idea!







sometimes, i wish it was you.