the other day, i went to meet simon for cafe cartel. know what, that's the first time he went into a restaurant that served western food. 25 years of life, pathetic guy. cafe cartel served free flow of bread and asked me to packet some home for breakfast. the waiter served us the bread with the butter which is so damn hard to spread on the bread. so, this was how he spread the bread. it might not be funny, yet, i laughed like mad.

we went to catch the movie, the letters of dead, something like that. it's gross. it shocked me millions of times throughout the whole movie. simon was there "wah lan eh, why like that..... wah lan eh....." that's because he was kinda scared too. HAHA! and he was so afraid to go home alone cos i told him stuffs to frightened him. i know, i'm evil.


the other day, i went dragonfly again. it's getting more packed in there. even if we reserved tables, we had to wait for an hour to get in. in the past, we can just walk in without waiting. simon, christina and i went in first. finally after an hour we can get in. but jovern when to meet francis. so, that gotta wait for another hour to get in. so, the 3 of us waited for another hour for them. 2 hours! while feeling to thirsty and bored.....


just look at simon's expressions. i think he can fight with mian mian. LOL.

seriously, we got nothing better to do.

when i saw jovern and gang walking in the enterance, that's the happiest day of my day. =/ it's mean can drink can dance can get high can get close up view of slyvester and band! jovern and francis and a lil of eric really take good care of me. not to forget, simon, forever taking care of me when clubbing. so sweet of them. oh, and of cos christina. saw sunny there. my daddy. cos his the age of my dad. and this "father" of mine, take real care of me too. all of them are the same, when they see me get so high, they would say "STOP! NO!" so, i wasn't drunk. only reaction kinda slowly. i love the liveband. alex wasn't there. kinda sad. cos i just wanna see alex. i din know sly was performing. so, no alex, never mind. francis knew that i wanna take a photo with sly so, he introdunced me to him. =D i like his coolness. weee~ jovern promised me that he will bring sly along whenever we get to bowl. and i went go high. that's the good thing about going dragonfly with them!

awwww~ so cool.

the guys are really treating me like a lil girl. reason being, they are 10 years or more older than me! i really gotta thank eric for sending me home. i don't know where he stays, but i know it will be very far away from my place. THANKS!

met up with queky yesterday. it's shopping cum quick catching up session.

anyway, yesterday's plan was a kind of mistake. should have went pubbing with mianmian. =(

my hands and legs of breaking.

how i wish i really get to see you SOON.

i'm on road today. pretty scary in the begaining. but i manage to get hold of everything. it's freaking easy to drive. if you give me and auto car now, i'll be able to drive. alright, that's pretty exaggerating. but i just wanna express the very-easy-to-drive thingy. it's easy to drive but damn difficult to pass. =( kinda get hold of the gears and stuffs. just that i din bother to look into the 3 mirrors. all i did was looking at the roads and signals, that's it. and because of this, i'm kinda afraid that something bad might happen. maybe i'm over-reacting or just thinking too much. BUT I LOVE DRIVING! ALOT!

it's sucha boring holiday. simon asked me to go MOS. he said without me, i would not be fun. SEE! i create the atmosphere alright. but i guess, i'm not going. just don't have the mood to club. cos it's time to stop drinking and go on diet! anyway, there's not much to drink about. no more things to think about. people move on and I'VE MOVED ON. so, yeah, chill.

i was looking at the ktv photo that i took the other day. seriously, just by looking at those poses/faces mianmian gave, it just made me laughed. he's sucha joker! oh yea, the other day, when vincent was driving, he was asking what the maximum speed and if there's camera. and mianmian replied something like "90. actually, it's alright to drive 100. just take photo only." and cheeky was there saying "180 also never mind. still can take picture." i don't know how to phrase it. but they said it in a real funny manner. WHATEVER!

i miss the 3 of them!

and, i think i kinda like him. =)

vincent came to pick me up with cheeky and mian mian and we headed down to marina south for steamboat. vincent was so kan chiong when he was driving and like so funny. he kept asking "which exit? which exit? this?" and mian mian would said "just go." it was amber when vincent was about to stop, mian mian asked him to "JUST GO! when learning you stop when you see amber, but when you passed, just chiong." no choice, just got licenses like friday?

the guys were disturbing with the "what you said, huh?" especially the "huh." nothing much at the marina south. just eating. and got disturbing. i don't really like the seat that i'm sitting. cos the smoke irritated my eyes. so, i was real quite. =) which is GOOD!

we headed to party world. so, there were 6 of us-mian mian, cheeky, vincent, patrick, christina and me.

i started of taking photos with christina. it's always great to take pictures when you are out in a group.

then, i took with mian mian. it's just so difficult to have a nice pic with him. cos of his face! always having the joker's face. always making me laugh.

next, christina took the phone and cam whore with mian mian. actually, they took more pictures than this. just look at mian mian's face. he doesn't have to open his mouth to make me laugh or smile.

that's cheeky, me, christina and mian mian. cheeky can really sing well. his voice melts me! xD

this is our group photo. vincent, patrick, cheeky, me, christina and mian mian. all looked so crazy. especially, vincent and mian mian.

the one above was supposed to be a formal picture. becos mian mian was looking so informal, they had to take another one. and vincent, it's just a formal photo, don't have to be so serious.

and so, they guys started gaying. no choice, army guys you see.

LOOK AT MIAN MIAN'S FACE AGAIN. i can't stand it!

i was singing elva's 表白 and the guys will goes:
"好想跟你nabei cheebye"
"好想跟你nabei cheebye"
spoiled the so romantic song la. argh!


i went turf club on friday. we really dressed up. but still no chance to take photo will jian feng.

=( i bet 10 10 on jian feng ended up, i lost. only left 17. so, i tried my luck and went down to take a LOOK at the horse to see which is the best. so, i bet, sharing with adeline. and won! i won't 2 race. it's about 70 bucks that i have won. ha!

meet up with my one and only indian friend-RAYNU. its been almost a year since i last meet up with her. our friendship is still strong. HA! its always great to meet up with her. we got endless topics to talk about. its has always been this way. during secondary school's days, teachers had to shut us up or seperate us. anyway, she bought me this top that i loved so much! i look so cute in that top! anyway, she commented that i have grown alot!

and for today, its a real stupid day. i went to school and the lesson was cancelled. i should have continue dreaming of me WW4. damn mumble man. always searching for excuses wheneven he can't make it. i was kinda pissed off because of certain issues. this is the second time. i'm still having mood swings. don't step on my tail. i'm warning you, don't flare me up.

i went to get my PDL and i'll be taking up driving lessons from next tuesday onwards. hopefully, it will go smoothly. i'm pretty scared yet excited about it though i did try out driving one. boss allowed. i saw my lover, cong. still as cute as ever. we din really talked. he was rushing for time. =( but still so cute la.

currently, there's this HUGE discussion going on in our family. therefore, there's going to be this meeting tmll. i don't know what will happen. just hope that we will be able to brainwash him. i'll be there but i don't think there will be any place for me to make my comments. yea, what's the point of going? i don't know too. they just want me to be there. its a MUST! so, let's see who dies tml.

oh, my new name is wednesday.



this is...... found in my school... and it's.....

ATTITUDE PROBLEM. yea, this young lady in here is having serious attitude problem. yea, superb mood swing came along too. i'm extremely apologetic to those whom i have shown my attitude too. and to the very tiny mini minority whom i have quarreled with. allow let me slot things out myself first.

well, no one knows what had happened. i think only 2 knows. yet neither of them knows about the whole situation. =(

the business me is coming. if nothing goes wrong, i'll be helping my youngest uncle in doing some business. of cos with a tiny little help with kee yong. i'm really looking forward to helping my uncle. i'm sure the 3 of us can come out with something GREAT. ha!

like ting and mellie, i went to chop of my fringe. can said i did it on purpose. reason behind, you really don't have to care much. one thing: no point listening. FUCK!

i'm having sore throat again. this is the 2 or 3 or 4 times already!

the 3 wives of simon were out yesterday. we went vivo again. yes, AGAIN! we shopped like simon wives. wtf. (how does simon's wife shop anyway?) and that is why our husband is bankrupt now. =( that's absolutely trash. i went to my sister's place yesterday. i was helping in the shop when this lady customer came. she wanted to get JIAM BA. she requested if we could serve her first cos HER DRIVER is waiting for her. she got her thing, yet, not leaving. she kept telling me that she knows the mediacrop people real well. jeff, jonna and ou xuan is her cousins. wow! fantastic isn't it? 15 min past, can her driver wait? she show me pictures of fann and zoey. she tell me a whole loads of crap. like she had studied in france yet i can't seem to understand her english. not only english. chinese too. she was speaking so fast that i really can't catch up. so, was there "wowing and ohing." AFTERALL, they told me she's a mad lady. THANKS to my sister's grandma, the mad lady went off when i greet my sister's grandma. MAD!

i don't know what else should i type. but i jus feel like blogging. damn.

anyway, tml i'll be able to sit on a bike. weee~ that's is what i really need now. i like sitting on the bike and slot things out. i'll feel real good after that. BETTER NOT RAIN TML ALRIGHT. =D pls don't rain.

friday, saturday, sunday and holiday are coming....... alright, i really wanna drink. the mood is here.

ALRIGHT peeps, go and view this blog: http://www.akopo.blogspot.com

especially JEN and COEUS, tag something there to entertain him. x)

again, i dreamt of the person again. this is the sixth day. sigh.

its kinda creepy these days. i have been dreaming of the same person for 5 days. this is the fifth day. gosh! its a little freakout in here.

i don't know why. i'm a very crazy over clubbing these days. all the scenes are coming into my mind. ARGH!

I'M SUPPOSE TO WORK TODAY = MONEY! which caused me to get so excited that i'm going back working = money. ended up, i was told i need not go. hell!

i got my pay the other day yet, i can't find anywhere to spend my money. i don't know why i felt this way. it's not like my pay is one million bucks. it's really bothering me as i can seem to find some acceptable ways to spend my money. anyone wanna go shopping with me?

i read my past few post. its so cool. know what's the cool thing about? i stopped swearing. YEAH! anyone wanna open bottles to celebrate for me?

anyway, i'm kinda high now. for what? i don't know. i'm kinda excited now. for what? i don't know. i'm kinda bored now. why? BECAUSE I GOT NOTHING TO DO! =(

simon says i'm pretty today. ROAR! but almost everytime i see him, he will says the same thingy. that's why i like to go out with him. YEAH! ha! simon says i'm crazy today.

everyone is at fly now. envy them. =( the mood to club is still there. so, i'll just ENDURE till next week! heh.

yeah, i met up with simon again, to treat him dinner. cos he doesn't wanna take my money. but i think it's a kinda cheapo meal. it's at sushi tei though. it only cost 50 bucks, which means 25 bucks per person. and it's not even half of what i owe simon. it's kinda unfair to him. so, i guess, the plan is still on somehow yea.

whenever i'm out with simon, i learn new things. he claimed that it's his mission is to teach me new things. alright, he teaches me EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING means REALLY EVERYTHING. it's helpful for sure.

while we were walking around, there were anouncements of child lost in the mall.
me: why kids nowadays don't know how to stick close to parents?
simon: ya la. next time don't give birth. so troublesome.
* i have him my usual stupid face *
simon: if you found out that you're having a child, go abort straight. don't have to ask.
seriously, i don't know how to react with his lame stuffs!

yea, that's simon. my boss. he's a nice man. and i'm his youngest friend. and he likes to disturb me. and he always say i look like xiao lu which is totally nonsense.

i met up with the babes yesterday as you can see on the picture. for more information, you can take a look at yi ting's blog. you can explore the life of us when we shop. hell man, we had only limited 30 mins to shop at bugis street, still, i managed to buy a dress and we walked every part TWICE! cool yea.

ALRIGHT, babes, we WILL meet next week. I DON'T CARE!

too much, too little time.

see ya next weeky.

DAD, can you give me a chance to plan what i want in future? and not you?

he just gave me a brief of what he wants me to do in future. yea, i know, for now, i still have no idea of what i should do after i graduate in 2 years time. but at least give me sometime to choice and not suddenly tell me the things he has planned.

now, i can almost see a clear view of what my future is like. i think it's not that bad actually. at least after i graduate, i know what the first step would be like. and i need not worry about not having any places to go. which is a pretty good thing. i'm glad he made a plan for me. it shows he really cares.

BUT i'll grow up. my thinkings will change in the next few years. i wanna further my studies. that my main piority. i have so many things in mind, but now, i forgot what i want. or rather, even if i want, i don't think there will be THAT much of time for my dad to wait.

that's the bad thing about being the first child. if only i had a brother, my dad's plan would be his.

so, who's fault is it now? IT'S ALL ME. if only i didn't drink that much. maybe there would be some hope. sigh. if only i didn't went to club that day, i wouldn't have eyes infection today. ALL BECAUSE OF ME. sigh.

i must behave myself.

simon told me off yesterday about saturday's clubbing. really regretted la. shouldn't have drink that much. it's dixion's fault la. after his drink i started to go wacky and did so many stupid things. now, i scare people away. =/ so many were saying that i wasn't myself that day. i was so not myself. from those vivid memories, i ought to agree and not deny.

therefore, to remind myself to have limt while drinking and clubbing, i wrote in my notebook and textbook:

I MUST BEHAVE MYSELF, IF NOT, NO MORE CLUBBINGS.
I MUST BEHAVE MYSELF, IF NOT, SIMON WILL SCOLD ME.
I MUST BEHAVE MYSELF, IF NOT, I'LL SCARE PEOPLE AWAY.
I MUST BEHAVE MYSELF, I MUST NOT DRINK TOO MUCH.
I MUST BEHAVE MYSELF, IF NOT, I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE......


it has been a few days, i don't think he will made his moves. =( ALL BECAUSE OF ELECTRICAL APPLIANCES LA! if he hasn't been making me hesitating, i might have my dreams coming true. *argh* damn you.



so, now, i'll just have to wait for the next clubbing session. i'll prove to him and them!

"WHAT YOU SAY, HUH?"

where should i started. i don't know how to start! so, i'll just jump here and there.

no more martell. we changed to MOET. which is cheaper and easier to get high. =) i drank 4 glass of MOET and the mood came. it was damn fast. it was as if i was floating and swaying. i forgot how i ended up with mian mian's group when i'm suppose to stick with simon's. i did alot of stupid stupid before i went to the dance floor i guess. i can't really remember. i only know simon asked me not to drink anymore. and one more thingy, i kept asking mian mian "what you say, huh?" then, i went around asking them what were they talking about. mian mian really made my laughed that caused me to get so high. especially with his please-make-all-the-smoke-away action. it's was hell. i couldn't stop laughing.

it wasn't planned to be in this manner.

i felt much better after going to the dance floor. but was still floating. that was when some dramas started to happened. i forgot what chee kok told me and he burnt his ciger on my hand. EVDIENCE:

it's was PAIN!

the second drama came. i was having so much fun and suddenly the 'electrical appliances' came across my mind. all the flashbacks. chee kok and gang was too noisy and my reactions were kinda slow so, i went to simon. and hell simon, talked so much about the 'electrical appliances.' so, my first drama came, free flow of tears. simon was kinda shock. but he was sweet to wipe of them for me. he consoled me which made me felt much better. i think chee kok thought he burnt my hand and that is why i cried. LOL.

yea, i saw dixion at powerhouse. i told myself, i should stop drinking already. cos i have totally lost my impression. CONTROL. but that dixion brought a glass of martell to me and asked me to drink HALF! (i'm dying) no choice, i drank. talked to dixion about some stuffs. to be true, i was very SHOCKED.

after that half glass of martell, i can't stand firm. i was thinking "damn. don't tell me i'll be drunk again!" the next moment, i turned, simon was worse! totally and super drunk. he kissed me twice on my cheek. for a few seconds later, i realised simon kissed me and i pushed him away. DAMN SLOW, uh. but i can understand why he did that la. he will goes around kissing when he's drunk.

among all, i think i bulied vincent the most. he's damn quiet la. all the did was just drinking and surprisingly, he didn't get himself drunk. so, i went around knocking the 3 guys heads. wondering why all of them aren't drank yet.


to be true, i forgot what happened after that. i know vincent accompanied me to the toliet twice and mian mian shaked my shoulder twice that caused me to almost fall twice. NICE. i really forgot what happened. i know i ended up in dragonfly and later kitchen. i felt much better at kitchen or rather real fine.

the third drama. no one sending christina and me home. so, she called banana man to send ask home. she told him at simon and i was VERY drunk. and she was feeling high. banana man is very caring. he came down to pick us up. when i saw his banana car, i turned to chee kok and said "if you see christina coming in with a guy, please tell me."(i was still drinking soup) "COME ALREADY!" *the time for acting start.* i laid my head on the table straight and banana came in and said. "don't know how to drink than don't drink so much. let's go." so, i walked as if a snake was walking. before i left, simon asked "channel 5 or channel 8?" LOL. banana was helping me to get into the car while i was winking at christina. =D so, free ride home! peace!


i have totally changed my impression for banana man!

i know i have left a damn bad impression in front of mian mian, chee kok and vincent. =( i didn't want it. i just control myself from getting so high and started doing stupid stuffs to the 3 of them. but vincent said it's was ENTERTAINING!

i still think mian mian and chee kok deserved the bites! =D


WOAH! i didn't know that jump here and there still can write so long. COOL MAN!

NO MORE SHOPPING SESSION FOR ME.
NO MORE SPENDING UNWANTED MONEY.
NO MORE EATING EXPENSIVE FOOD.
NO MORE TAKING CABS.

sigh..... this is all because....

I OWE SIMON MONEY!
I OWE SIMON MONEY!
I OWE SIMON MONEY!


shouldn't have went party world with them. sigh. christina bluff me go la. now, i owe simon another 40 bucks. which total up to 80 bucks. damn! the problem is, he doesn't wanna take my money. yes, i don't have the money now, but when i get my pay, i can pay back what. but he insisted a NO which made me so guilty. cos he's always paying for me. so, i have came up with some plans. =) no matter what i will return him the money. it's time to pay someone kindness. I HAVE PLANS! hehe!

have you ever wanted to be alone? alone seems to be a better way off. when was the last time i felt this way? you just keep thinking and thinking till you really couldn't control. you wanna break down yet, it doesn't seems right to do it.

and when i was on the urge of breaking down, i went to the student service to take my cert. damn, the fucking guy there doesn't seems to understand what i have said and he kept asking me to wait. what the fucking is waiting for when he doesn't seems to understand a single shitty i was saying?! and so, that makes me break down!

it's just like when i'm packing my closet, i dump everything on my bed, seeing the mess, i got so stressed up! where the fuck should i start? what should i do first? just seemed so lost and break down. damn. and when my sister somehow messed the messy clothings, i really can kill her. i don't know why i'm feeling this way. till now, i can control. but who knows in future, i'll be out there killing someone out of depression. wtf!

yesterday, christina came up with "When you lost your way in SG, crying helplessly, who will you look for?" actually, if it was last time, i would call that person. i was in deep thoughts of who i should called when it really happens. but simon interupted me. he said i will look for him. though it never came to my mind of asking him to pick me up in the lost place, since he already said he that, i'll be looking for him.

back to today, i was having serious mood swing. just so serious that i thought i was going crazy. i seriously feel like killing someone today. especially that guy in the office. my hands was right at his face when i was explaining to him. fuck him.

i felt much better when 10 cent came to entertain me. really made me laughed. THANKS SO MUCH, 10 CENT! i don't know if you read my blog, but still THANKS ALOT. i'm unhappy isn't because of the "hehe" stuff that you were laughing about.

you are the dumb one. followed by a little stupid. and also silly.



quoted by: DLIM.

is everything written on my face? if it's isn't, why is everyone asking "WHY HAPPENED?" when they see me?

this is interesting...

i'm dumb!

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子


so, what is going on now? what is actually happening now? i just want a feasible explanations for all this. what is all this about? i feel like a dumb. i should have listened to simon. and so, all the promises are all GONE. thanks, for making me believe you. i'm like always getting excited for NOTHING.

i thought i was well prepared. yea, i guess so. i pushed away everything. i do my best to fulfil what is required. how dumb.

illusions, good-bye. see ya when you have made up your mind to return.