REGINA'S

and suddenly, the depress feeling came.

i'm sure part of it was about the both of them. it hurts me to see them behaving in this manner.

it's like seeing a building built by me which lasted for only 4 years and 'cause the government needs the land to build something else, i have to see it being demolished right in front of my eyes. buildings wear off and tear after a year and i mend it, putting every parts together. there are lots of obstacle when building it, yet, i tried to put them back and made them perfect, showing everyone that their initial views of the building wasn't the outcome. people started to accept it, they see the beauty of it and they love it, they love the structure, the design, colours. just when i decide to give my audience another surprise by bulding another building, there came a letter from the government that they need the land badly to boast the economy, i have no choice but to give up the land.

people do change, i know. but it's a waste, just because of a change, things changes completely and even letting go the man whom most girls wished for.

and even slotting out the problems for them, i'm still so fucking depress. IT MUST BE PMS.

i hate my friends to have problems. 'cause they will really really affects me ALOT. yet, i can't seem to do anything to make things right or prolly make them happier. i'm so afriad to call them and ask them 'how's life' or rather 'WHAT HAPPENED?!' these are what most people will ask. but for a person who's having breaking down sessions, it will make it worse. but, the more i'm not asking, the more i'm worried. all i can do is, sit and wait and wait, wait WAIT WAIT, till one fine day, when they are so so much better, that's the time to ask. or prolly some heart to heart talks when meet up in last nights.

I DON'T KNOW LA!

i wanna go shopping! the fuck is i have no idea where should i start from! SG seems so lifeless except for my saturday nights. but that's still not shopping! TMD!

and thinking of having that fatty bitch lesson tml, i seriously feel like skipping it despite the facts that she's gonna give a fat tips. damn! I HATE SCHOOL, for whatever fuck reasons. no idea why either. i know it's very kindergarten-ish, I DON'T KNOW WHY LA!

now, looking at this piece of shit, i don't even know how to carry on. if i continue to whine and swear, it gonna be a 2,500 words essay, the length of my assignment! damn! i just feel that i have no time. no time to meet this, meet that, when i have a lot of time. AIYA!

whadaver.