hi there,

INTRODUCING MY NEW CLASSMATE FOR MY DEGREE:

i knew it! i knew all of you will be so shocked! muahahaha! yea, NIK is so gonna be my classmate for 16 months starting from MAY 2008. he will be my study mate, the one who bare all my nonsense, shopping mate of possible, project mate, my friend, MY COUSIN, and so on! wee~ it's gonna be so interesting. and then, at least when i'm late for school due to oversleeping, dressing up and making-up, he will be there to take notes for me. =/

and then, i can go over ECP everyday to gym, swim and so on. can stay there too! LOL. JEN, your room might be mine if we are rushing through projects and exams.

awww~ so excited about it!

BUT, i'm still not sure if i'll be taking up the course. but the possibility is EXTREMELY HIGH. no worries nik. work come first before school~

=)

i'm not trying to play hard to get.

it's just that you didn't get to know what i have been through previously. it's had became a phobia for me to believe what is being said even if you meant it.

i know it might be unfair to you, you and maybe you. i just need some time to for me to slot things out which i seriously have no idea when will that be. so, if i'm really mean all these while, i din really mean it. it's just that i don't want you to cling too much hope. i don't mind another you run away. 'cause the problem lies in me.

maybe someday, there's this someone, who can really make me feel so happy with him around and everyday is still laughters despite all the arguements and thunderous quarrels and i still don't hate him. maybe just by seeing him it just brighten up my day with a single word said. and he might be someone who isn't controlling. allows me to hangout with my friends anytime as long as at the end of the day, he comes and pick me up. he doesn't complains if i had spent too less time with him. maybe he will also be the one who is so generous to allow me to meet my guy friends. 'cause i hate more male friends than females and he must understand this fact. he will gives in to me despite all my stubborn attitude, sudden super mood swings and even when i'm in the wrong, he doesn't make a huge fuss about it. whatever it is, HE GIVES IN ALL TO ME no matter how bad i made the mistake. he has to be the one listening to me but he must be 大男人. like when to eat, where to go and stuffs, he's the one to plan. and when i got my plans, we will just act according to MINE. maybe a just buy giving me the irritated-look, i'll be so happy about it. perhaps, the way he sit can melt my heart. he will be the one who always irritate me when i really want someone to. maybe he will fly all the way into JB just to buy me my watermelon bubblegum and he's the one who go around all the stores just to look for my watermelon lollipop. he will scold me all of a sudden, just to allow me to scold him back. he tries to come up with stories on the dot when i want it. he must be violent in a nice way. he will give me surprises 4 times a month! he will give the funny look when i'm super duper irritating. he knows how to protect me. he will be the one when even a just a dot in the msg sent to me, i will laugh. i meant laugh not smile alright. he will allows me to just nag at him whenever he is late and without a single black face. but smiles and nonsense he used to cover up.

damn it, i think i better stop it. it seems so unrealistic now. like using the clay or mud in the science lab to make a best boyfriend for myself now.

anyway, if there's really really such person out there, please please tell me okay. and if you're not, please, don't try hard to change for the sake of.

and once again, i have to emphasize on this again. I'M NOT A LESBIAN. being close to my girlfriends doesn't make me one as well. girls tend to be closer to each other when they can really click alright. not having a bf doesn't make me a lesbian too. it's a matter of finding the correct one. if it's not, why bother to try?

and guys, if you really have a gf, please stop going around and flirt with another girl. it really hurts to know that she was actually a third party. it would be worse if she had her heart with you.


till then, i hope technology change fast so i can create my own BF!
muahahaha!

JUSTIN CHAN! best of luck to you tomorrow~ i'll be there to give you all my support.

ge~ you better pass alright. 'cause you are my motivation!

can't wait to hear your good news! see ya in the circuit! wee~ loveloves.

hopefully, i drives as fast as possible to reach ubi so i can see ah kor having his test! muahaha! imma so excited about it while he is so nervous about it. LOL!

ROAR~
he actually memorized my number by heart, he claimed. and texted me when he is in NZ now. so sweet~ i thought that we might have just go our way since chances of him to be back is at the disadvantge. and he didn't even say "good-bye" to me when he left sg and that really annoyed me.

so, i received this damn long number and it didn't even state that who he was till the end of the message. so, i was filled with question marks while reading. only till the end, i jumped up. i was in a pretty good mood.

anyway, he did explain that he flew off from malaysia and not sg. along with stuffs that why we didn't get to bade good-bye.

and again, though part of it wasn't meant to be believed, i thought it was really sweet of him to fulfill one of the promises he made to me. sweets~

last night, my 2nd sister was asking me how am i going to contact ryan when he doesn't even have a pathetic e-mail. all i could reply was "WAIT for him to return. no choice."

MY BUTT HURTS ALOT, STILL~

anyway, yesterday's grandpa's celebration was kinda pathetic. 5 kids, one big table. so much spaces. it used to but full house a year back. used to be 11. 2 huge tables, thunderous laughers, many stupid acts.

now, i'm the only one doing stupid stuffs!
sigh. no one sings birthday songs. no more huge family pictures.
ROAR~

oh yeah, i don't know who ordered the birthday noodles for my grandpa. so, 2 big plates of this:





the adults, they got 10 over people sharing this and we only had 5! when the waitress brought this over, i was "where got the word shou? i can't see." and the waitress was telling the other one "they probably only reads english." what the hell. i was just trying to figure of if there's really a chinese character right?! though i really don't know how to write this word. stop insulting my chinese. i'm really trying my best. argh!

oh, we only had a mouth of the noodles and we decided to forget about have another taste of it. it simply sucked like shit. and we throw it over to the adults. muahahaha!

tommy really makes me take my hat off. he craps is so duper OH-MY-GOD type. the type that you might wanna smash his face after hearing it.

example:
me: you never let you cat go out one ah? (i meant if he did allow his cat out of his house)
him: my cat no money leh, cannot go shopping. once i brought him to zouk, too bad he's underage. maybe 2 years later.

another one,
REGGINA ; says: ur cat really so so cute
Tommy says: model to be
Tommy says: signing contract
Tommy says: so got money to go out

and what worse was, 'cause he told me he's going malaysia later,
REGGINA ; says: i wan bubble gums
Tommy says: wah. i dun wan to get fine
REGGINA ; says: where will get fine?
Tommy says: will lor
Tommy says: if bring chewing gum in and get caught, go jail sit for 20 yrs
REGGINA ; says: 20 years my ass!
REGGINA ; says: i wan bubble gum!
Tommy says: bubble gum worse, hang
Tommy says: straight immediately, nv go court
REGGINA ; says: den drug?
Tommy says: drug ok
Tommy says: the most they ask u finish it on the spot only

what the hell~

thinking back now, i regreted! argh~

I SHOULD HAVE TOOK SOME PHOTOS OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!
sigh~ it would be have been so interesting. imagine them trying to fix it and i was there jumping around, skipping and hopping, irritating everyone and doing stupid stuffs. aww~ that's so cute of me!

super duper excited about the break down you see.

anyway, the weather is so duper hot now! i can't stand it. SO HOT! almost melted while walking to the train station. i was even sweating when i'm shopping in vivo. can't even imagine it. prolly i was having cold sweat 'cause i haven recover from my sickness. it's been more than a week. =/

whatdaver~
couldn't resist good food anymore. so, i had the worse choice ever, samba sting ray. and now, i feel like i'm dying.

throat hurts, back aches, butt hurts, neck super duper tight and headache. and my body still feel so warm even though the air con is switched on to its lowest temperature. IT'S MUST BE THE STING RAY! or maybe not. IT'S THE STRESS THAT THE FAT ECON BITCH GAVE.


and and and.....

my legs are like jelly, wobby wobby~ it's was just like the first time i said on norman's. oh, this was much much better.

THE WEATHER IS SO HOT TODAY! I CAN DIE!
so hot so hot so so hot!

just when i finally know how to sit on it, argh, it broke down. actually, i knew somehow it wasn't in a good condition.

initially, it was like so powerful and the sound was my super duper favourite. =) half a distance away and i realised that "hey, how come the sound so funny already, huh?" i was so right! i was pretty disappoint 'cause i just got hold of how to sit on it and it broke down the next moment.

oh yeah, it was pretty scary, i almost flew off 'cause i din hold. BUT IT WAS SO EXCITING~ wee~

i admit i was super irritating when tomtom was so depressed. 'cause i was so afraid that he will vent his anger on me. but i still manage to make him laugh with my irritating-ness. it's so true that no one can resist my irritating-ness.

last flying was real cool! WOW!

but it was still super duper FUN! OK, you may sell the black one away. =/

MUAHAHAHA! i know it's pretty annoying to have songs being played in a webby. especially when you are listening to you playlist. what worse is those that you couldn't even pause or stop it.

JUST LIKE MINE!

well, i was trying to be irritating. oh well oh well, i just wanted to share the song and i purposely don't wanna put the stop or pause icon. MUAHAHAHA!


oh well oh well, people actually fall for me because i'm irritating. these people are actually sick in their mind.

2 more days.

it didn't work out for us anyway. it's pretty wasted(that was what he told me). he also told me something that wasn't meant to be believe. "i'll called you when i'm back in sg. i promise. we will work things out then. i really do hope to get to know more about you. but i doubt you will be single by then."

in fact, i was pretty angry with the fact he has this so called "girlfriend" and i actually saw her the day he got the little spark on me.

*if she knows this, i'll be so dead*
intially, i know we should have started. or maybe we have not even started. it's just a little fling thing going on, AIYA! i also don't know what kind stuffs we are going on. this angmoh freak is making me go bonker! alight, not that serious to go bonker. whatdaver, just take it as a fling la!

anyway, blame us both for not seeing it coming. or maybe blame him only. causing so much mess that he doesn't even knows how to clean up. he has clean up on, and so, i'll be next.

i don't hate him neither do i like him. it's just like seeing a friend leaving like so soon, and right on the day that you gotta know him for a month and not getting to send him off. what's more, he might not be coming back again. though he promised within the 6 months he will be back and he kinda expect me to wait for him to get back.

i swear, i don't have feelings for him. or maybe i do. just a tiny mini bits that can be considered as nothing. i used to have a thing for him. however, i don't know what went wrong with me or maybe i have suddenly grown up on that particular day, i realised that if we were to be together, it will be so unrealistic.

yes, though his assets are like millions times more than the ones in my account, which i can spend that everyday at LV, gucci and so on and it will never seem to reduce a single cent, though all he does everyday is loose weight, which means a whole lot of time, though he is super duper sweet, it's not him. i know. it seems like an illusion to me to be with such person. i can't possible be with a person who says: "no, i can't eat this, i gotta loose weight. i gotta loose some weight today."

he likes me he said. and even if it's real, i just couldn't bring myself to believe it. maybe he loves me just on the particular day when he sees me. whatdaver~

maybe i might give it a try whatdaver months later. maybe even if he's back, he wouldn't even bother to call me. maybe i'll be in love with someone else(that person must be god then). maybe i'll be the one who go look for him and realised that he have become an ugly freak?

he says... he says... he says...
he promised and promised
yet, all doesn't seems to be convincing enough.


2 days later, good-bye.
i be missing you, my friend.

PEOPLE, KNOW WHAT. YOU REEALLLY HAVE TO WATCH AND LISTEN TO THIS SONG. it's fabulous for god sake. so sexy. HAVE FUN AND ENJOY~

hey, whore. stop you nonsense. we have seen your loopholes. no point trying anymore. get a life man, slut!

3 days ago,
"i like you."

2 days ago,
"i like you. you are such a nice girl."

1 day ago,
"i really do like you."

3 fucking hours ago,
"i going to be honest. i got a girlfriend. but i'm going to meet her tonight for a breakup."

犯溅! men. is this their interests or something? going around lying so badly? giving all sort of excuses and more lies to cover up a lie which they should never had done. why can't they be honest from the start? it is really that difficult?

if he had been honest with me, i will never even stepped in his life. or maybe i will, still. WHATEVER! damnit!

TMD!

who the next to join in the fun of lying?

ANS: A.C

hong seng's

i still have no idea why did the bouncer told ryan and andrew not to talk to me! argh!

and there's this guy who came to bang me from my back when i was talking to andrew. he did it on purpose for sure and andrew almost wracked him. andrew was like:

"fuck bitch, she's just a girl"

of course, i pulled him away. but that was sweet. LOL!

i don't know if i am doing the right thing.

she said she doesn't want me to walk her footsteps.

she regreted.

yet, i have walked half of them.

she said i could turn back, it's a matter of whether i wanna let go everything.

i hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
i hope when you're in bed with her you think of me
i would never wish bad things but I don't wish you well
could you tell by the flames that burned your words
i never read your letter cause I knew what you'd say
give me that sunday school answer try make it all okay

does it hurt to know i'll never be there
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
it was you who chose to end it like you did
i was the last to know
you knew exactly what you would do
don't say you simply lost your way

she may believe you but I never will
never again

if she really knows the truth she deserves you
a trophy wife, oh, how cute
ignorance is bliss but when your day comes
and he's through with you
and he'll be through with you you'll die together, but alone
you wrote me in a letter
you couldn't say it right to my face
well, give me that Sunday school answer
repent yourself away

NEVER AGAIN~

YAY! it's another dance movie, finally!

and Jennifer Lopez is the producer. wee~

it's used to be a norm to have you in my life. but not now. i knew you will be back. i know and it's kinda expected.

but i never expect ALL to be back! damn! why is it always like that?

whatever. dramas back. AND MORE.


do guys from the same group fall for girls who have similar charaters, attitudes and behaviours?

tomorrow is gonna be hell. i really hate rejecting people. and i know people hate being rejected. the feeling sucks. it always happened that when you reject someone, another will reject you. it's karma and i totally believe it.

A asked me out for dinner before ryan did. even if it's like that, i'll definitely choose to go with ryan. it's for sure. even if ryan isn't meeting me 'cause of the farewell party for joe, i will never meet A. oh yeah, ryan is damn damn sweet. i told him i might be going for race this friday and he said he will try and ride a winner for me. which means he's doing it for me but the winning money doesn't goes to me. sad case.

saturday is gonna be hell too. god bless me. maybe i should not go fly this saturday. should consider going mos with ryan. wee~ and then, i can escape with all the problems that i'm gonna face at fly. sigh.


this is my life.

and so, we went fly. then, to rumous(i think it's spelt like that). and then, to mos. everything was going fine before going mos. AND only when we left, just like what i expected.

and so, we waited from the sky that was this dark,

you can actually still see the moon, you know.

till it when this bright. lights out! i thought we can leave soon somehow, but hell NO!

and so, we waited till you can actually see the cloud so clearly.

and when the police were still investigating on our case, all this people are having sucha fun time! we had fun crapping around. especially with hong seng around. he's one hell of shit and he believes i'm married. OH MY FREAKING GOD! and he said in hokkien, in a pretty fast manner: "like that jialet already. if ah heng knows about it when he's driving, i ask him to turn left, he go right, when i ask him to go left he go right. when i ask him to go straight, he go up the curb. ask him drives, he go make a big u-turn." it's pretty funny la. should have recorded it.

i knew it! i swear i knew it! i knew he's gonna win 2 races! i knew it! AND DICKY DOESN'T BELIEVES ME! if not, we have made some money! wee~

which means getting extention! =)

anyway, i had this call during my lecture today. as usual, i took out my cellphone outta my bag, SLOWLY. i hate picking up calls during lecture 'cause i had to leave the class room just to pick up pathetic calls. and the class has this damn heavy door whereby when you close this damn door, the WHOLE class knows someone went/out of the class, like being a limelight or something. for today, it was absolutely different. i pulled out my cellphone outta my pouch and i saw a name in capitalize, i jumped up and flew out of the class. all i had in mind was getting out of the classroom as soon as possible just to pick up the call.

and i was smiling all along after that call, which i simply couldn't understand what he was talking about. it was way too FAST! yet, i'm smart to capture all the main points. woohoo~

oh yeah~ i went to watch dead silence with that tommy guy. shit him. he was laughing throughout the whole movie. i have no idea why.