why not got kill someone instead of doing all those toddler stuffs? why not bring a chopper?

yes, it's my birthday. so, happy 19th birthday to me.

recieved alot of wishings from unexpected people.

thanks daren for always being the first to wish me each and every year.

thanks queky!

thanks to my mdis gang except KG.

thanks momo and ting for not forgeting me. always so busy yet i'm always in their heart. LOL!

thanks adi (unexpected person).

thanks beng for staying up till 12am just to wish me. kinda guilty cos he still gotta wake up early the next day.

thanks dixion for giving me sucha surprise call during lesson time. i din realize that he wasn't in school today. i felt so stupid to keep turning my head behind to check "WHY THE HELL DOES HE HAVE TO CALL ME WHEN HE IS IN CLASS!" yea, but thanks.

thanks jun hao! you didn't forget me!

thanks to siew mei. glad that you remember. =)

thanks to my precious AH KOR! never forgetting me always. love ya so much! but stay happy please.

thanks my lovely JEN! lucky she didn't call me to wish me today. if not, i won't be having a nice day out cos i'll be thinking "DAMN! HOW MUCH DO I HAVE TO SAVE FOR MY HP BILL!" kisses!

thanks norman for giving me a call that i thought he is going to wish me through a phone call. but never mind. msg also can la. i'm still waiting for my present and my birthday wish. i accept all belated!

thanks to my best best bestest friend MICHELLE LIM. this girl really mean the whole world to me. i have been pestering her that i wanna have a surprise for my birthday and so, she really gave me a surprise that touched me. i wanted to cry when i saw her! i saw the card that she gave me and i cried. my gang was kinda shocked. d asked me to keep my tears till wednesday cos got free flow. (never mind if you don't understand) who cares! her letter really meant a lot to me. 15 years of friendship and it will still be going on. i love her so much! can't wait to meet her up real soon. wanna treat her to something nice. cos i felt that i haven't been treating her good. i promised her alot of stuffs but i din fulfill it. so sorry. but i'm making it up. i'm sure she can feel it. HAHA. i promise i'll always meet her often. stay over or whatever, i just wanna be with her. LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY 15 YEARS FRIEND!


i realised something. every year, one my birthday, i will cry. this year it's because of michelle. last year was because AX. the previous year was because of jen, dan, ting, coeus, ting, momo, raine they all. the rest i forgot.

no forgeting my parents. always giving in to me. =) giving me most of the things i want. but no thanks to my sister. she hasn't bought anything for me yet. so, i'll wait till she buys something from me.

basically, thanks to those who wish me. those who haven't, i accept everything belated too!

my back is having muscle cramps. culprit either nifer, KG or d.

just came back from MICHELLE'S place! great to see her family. somehow, it helped us to get back the bonding that has been missing for 10 years. ALL OF THEM MISS ME! =) basically, i can remember everything in her house. it's all so vivid. especailly her dining table, the wall that we used to measure our height, the big walk way that allow all the neighbours for gatherings in the evening. oh! not forgetting the staircase that i had fallen down from. i wish i could stay over at her place soon. wanna have a girls' chat with all of them. we didn't have much time catching up with each other except for michelle. i will be a so so girly thingy if i really stay at her place. 5 girls altogether. maybe including my sister. can wait to meet her up for shopping so that we can laugh madly. =D

i'm gonna save more money to get the shoes and the havainana(i'm not sure about the spelling) flip flop. i'm getting another shoes. maybe another short skirt and shorts. jeans. cut and dye hair. i'm still considering if i should highlight or dye. i'm so not going to dye my hair DIY. no way and never anymore!

dad just told me that the ipod is my birthday present! which means i can get back my money! i'll be a lil rich again.

i'm kinda troubled and stressed. sigh! which restaurant should i celebrate my birthday at? sigh....

friday, saturday, sunday, monday and tuesday. which one?









after so long, cong is still flirting with me. let me see, even since AX days. saddening!

i hope everything goes the way i want.

skipped school today! i was very tired and having headache. why? cos i was very tired last night yet i still stayed up till late. WHY?

BECAUSE.....

i woke up at 7.30 for school yesterday. left school at 12 and walked to the mrt station. headed to orchard with d. went to buy his lacoste polo tee. intially, he wanted to get the orange one, but i felt that the orange was kinda old for him. so he took the red and green to try and i was standing outside waiting for him to try out for me to see. the size wasn't right so i walked to ask the sales lady for the right one. and walked back to pass him. standing and waiting with one heavy bag and d's file = 10kg! finally, he decided to get the green one. so, we walked back to the cashier. next, we walked all the way to taka. walked a big huge round in taka and decided to go paragon. and so we walked and walked at paragon. HAVEN'T REST YET. since we are meeeting our friends at heeren, we headed there. shopped the whole heeren and we FINALLY sat down for wanton mee. jena called me and we changed to meet at far east. so, i walked from heeren to far east all alone. cos ben met d at heeren. it was 4 when i reached far east. we shopped till 6. no resting in between. then, we headed to bugis. no rest still. walked and walked at bugis till 9.30. went back home. no seats in the train. when i reached home, i was so hungry that ate my dinner standing up. haven have a chance to sit yet. bathed after eating. haven sit yet. went to change my wound. brush my teeth. and FINALLY, i manage to sit down. right in front of my computer. NONO. i'm not going online to chat and stuffs. i'm online to do my REPORT that should be handed up today. i can't even think. kept typing wrong words. especially when dixion asked me about the project. i don't know what nonsense i have replied him. can't even read his msg properly. whatever it is, i gave up. i just copied and pasted everything from the web and asked d to print for me. DONE! i finally get to rest.?


that was how tired i was yesterday. you can don't read it.

HEART ATTACK!

i'm so gonna hate IT lessons. BORING TO THE MAX. all we do is to copy whatever that are given on the paper and copy the whole thingy into the computer. easy as ABC isn't it? you think so. the whole class had such a hard time typing everything and we were all so STRESSED UP! PULLING OUR HAIRS! everyone are going crazy.

oh yeah! apart from that, my gang really had loads of laughters today. photos as evidence later.

can't wait to book the chalet soon. so that we can play HEART ATTACK with some eggs(yu dan). i think his name is spelled in this way. he's the girls' best heart attack friend. first thing first, while playing heart attack, his reaction is very slow. so, he always get beaten. HAHAHA! oh yeah. we got to know him at KG's bbq.

PRATAS; gone!

sigh! i should have just said i have not eaten the whole day. if i had said that, i would be on my way to jalan kayu/tamp for PRATAS! i wan pratas! fake me again! forever faking me! or am i faking him? cos my mum is on her way back with not pratas home. AAAAHHHHH! so sad. i can smell prata.



TODAY, i'm sad BECAUSE i got NO PRATAS to eat!

there certain issues going around again. i won't be blogging about it cos i know the person involve will be viewing my blog, and to prevent people making a huge fuss about small thingy.

i felt kinda betrayed. always buying stories no matter what. i think i'm stupid. kinda regret. NONO. i'm very regretful in fact. i don't know what had gone wrong with me that i can actually believe every single shit. i never doubt those stories once. blame me for being a fool. i don't even know i how i been through the whole situation. i'm feeling so dumb! fuck! i finally believe when someone tells me "hey! he/she is a fucking shit. i don't know why you still wanna be with them." i finally understand. certain stuffs, i can see through but outsiders can.

now, i realise, i have mixed with the wrong.



just when i was feeling so terrible, norman tan asked me if i wanna go momo. WOAH! OF COS I WANT LA! i thought, just go numb myself there, dance all i can and drink all i can. BUT, he fake me again. i wanna go club with norman tan, cos he planned something interesting. furthermore, he can sign me in mos and momo. *grins. and heard that whenever he go club, they will open bottles. *grins grins. and also heard that he dance hip hop. *grins grins grins. after all this, because we stayed at the north-east side, i will either get a free ride home or free cabby home. *grins x 10. free ride means a ride on his bike that means, i'll be sitting on his bike. *grins x 100. okays. all i wanna say is that i'll be having a free clubbing day. *grins x 1000. *opps.

after blogging, i feel much better.
alright VIEWER! my bithday is just a week and 1 day away. which mean 8 days away. i got new wish.

clubbing with norman tan.

i wanna club with ah girl + bf.

i wanna club with sm and 4 jie they all.

i wanna club with the 5n1 gang.

i wanna club with ah gu, jay, coeus, jen, rong, 2 guys, suki and bf, kor, dyan, kel. i know it will never happen. but just wanna get the DXO feeling back. cos that day was the best clubbing session with them.

on the actual day, i wanna go out with.....

give me some surprise presents. LOL.

SIGH!

I AM SO SAD. SO SAD AND SO SO SO SAD. TILL I'M SO DAMN SAD NOW!

i'm giving up

sometimes, you really get so fucked up cos no one listens. you get so pissed off when your advises are turned to deaf.

somehow, at this very point of time, i really feel like smacking this cousin of mine. he has no been going home for like how many times. reason: he doesn't wanna see my 2nd uncle's facial expressions(black faces). nice excuses. the reason for give this cousin black face is he still doesn't understand the wrongdoings he had done. so, he came home, took money from my granny and i don't which drain he when to sleep. all he does is take money, go out. fucking cool right.

and so, recently, i saw him. he asked me if i know about his problems. i denied. but his brother said something like 'he got caught by police." so, this cousin of mine blamed his brother for having such big mouth for reporting to me. all the @#W$%^#@! came out of his mouth. somehow, i felt like slapping him. but do i have the rights to slap him? if i have, i will and a damn hard one to wake him up(i don't think he will be awake). if his father gives me the rights to do that, that cousin of mine will be totally fucked up. if it happens, i don't think he will be attending any family gatherings.

later on, he started talking to me. alright, i pretended to be listening. he told me something like he was unlucking these days, got caught by police and have to go court. he told me that the police station that he went was the one nik was working and he saw nik but nik doen't wanna handle his case. he thinks it's damn cool about getting caught and going to caught la. FUCK! if i were nik, when i saw him at the station, i would grab him and slap him. he still has the cheek to say nik doesn't wanna handle his case. damn.

he told my sis that he's friends wanna know her. and so, his cousin of mine gave my sister's number to his friend and they started calling and msg. tell me, which cousin will do that? or rather tell me which friend will do that!

to be true, i really dislike seeing this cousin of mine. initially, i thought only him brother will come and meet me. but he came too. fuck! i hate it whenever he talk big cocks. he thinks it damn cool about all his todders stuffs. i really don't know what i should do. i think i have gave him up. i never expect me to treat him this way. cos, i have only treated one person this way during my secondary school life. it's a HER. at least that HER, i manage to talk to her at times and not pretend. whereas, this cousin of mine, all my replies were short and ugly. yes, he is my cousin. he is part of my family, but how... how should i handle him? what should i do. i really don't know. just hope that someday, miracles will happen. i don't wish to care.....


but, can i?

i wanna club today. but if i go clubbing now, i can't go tml. the problem is, what if tml none of the girls wanna go, that mean, i won't be clubbing this week! sigh! I WANNA CLUB!

AHAHAHA!

AHAHAHA! i finally got my ipod. the 30GB one that cost my 377bucks! broke! totally broke like hell. argh! daddy said he's gonna sponsor me half but... sigh! he haven't talked about it yet. i have not figure out how to but movies into the ipod. i'm still an alien to ipod. hopefully, i can somehow figure it soon. if i did, woah! movies for travelling time.

IT lessons are totally boring. doing stuffs like copy and paste. learning how to use the Microsoft Word and Excel. BORING! haven't been listening to lessons for this module. OH! nono, i haven't been listening to lessons for almost all modules. cool. school is just extremly boring. BORING!

and so, this post will be boring too!

the 2 Js and i went bugis to shop. and we ate this!

GO WATCH THIS! IT'S VERY NICE!

argh!

just changed the dressing on my wound. know what, it sucks! i'm not going to change it myself anymore.



i was suppose to go see a soccer match today. din really watch a soccer match before. ended up, the weather doesn't allow me to go. it has been raining and raining these days. i hate it though it's very good to sleep.



daddy asked me to get ipod. u know the 30GB one. the one that can watch movies and stuffs. yea. that's the one. but daddy hasn't decide where should i get it. he wanted to look for the best price. we went sim lim square yesterday. initially, we were there to look for my ipod nano(HOT PINK). oh yeah, i went in to the shop and i asked the guy there....

me: how much is ipod nano 4GB?

he: which colour?

me: erm, the pink one.

he: huh! you really want the pink one?

me: ya. how much is it?

he: no. you really wanna get the pink one?

*fuck!* blood is boiling.

me: how much is it?

he: how much you want me to sell you?

me: HOW MUCH IS IT?

he: you tell me your price and i sell you $10 cheaper.

me: can you just (fucking) tell me how much is it?!

he: 290.

my mum was like pulling me away from that lunatic guy. simple language, still he can't understand. can't he just said it's 290 in the first place? stupid right?

know what! i can't have a proper bath! or rather i can't bath!

the wound is still PAIN PAIN PAIN! i had to walk very slow to prevent my clothings from having frictions with my wound. i had to protect my wound from passing by people in case they got this huge bag and they happen to bang me damn hard. i had a hard time sitting down. ARGH! just very inconvenient for me. the pain is bugging me now!

STORIES!

i have been craving for stories therefore, a friend of mine told me this story which made me at least smile before i went to sleep.



so, the story goes.....



in e land of Alpe, there live an evil king. scorching and burning the land of the munchkins! terrorizing them. Until a brave elf stepped forward to challenge the king in a game of wits for the king's riches. the elf took two eggs to the king, one with hair and the other one without hair. he asked the king:



"why there is hair on an egg?"



the king could not figure out why. therefore, he lost his riches to the munchkins, giving them enough to revive their lands. the munchkins live happily ever after with elf as their "king."

alright. the answer to why an egg has hair it's because it was not an egg. it was a KIWI!

isn't this story nice story?

thanks for making the effort to crack your brain for a story for me!

love them loads

i forgot to say something in my previous post.

I YLOVE MY MDIS GANG ALOT!

so caring la. they called and ask me how am i and stuffs. *squeeze their cheeks*

just watched stay alive. nice movie.

oh yea, i think i'm gonna go buy that HOT PINK thingy tml. can't wait to get it. but i'm kinda worry that i can't walk for long tml. cos it's still very pain. the doctor gave me painkiller but he never give me the gastric medicine! how to eat painkiller like that?! i'm allergic to painkiller you see. i'm so sleppy after everything! i wanna sleep! hopefully, i'll be able to go shopping tml. cos it's so bored staying at home doing nothing for 2 days.

i wanna recover so that i can eat egg and so that i can go club next weeky. I WANNA CLUB!

unlucky day

alright, a have a terrible morning waiting for a cab. i waited for an hour yet, there was still no sign of avaliable cabs. no choice, i took the bus instead. waste my time. after the operation i walk here and there, in the rain to get a cabby, still not! this time i waited for one and a half hour! i kept walking here and there cos i saw lots of cabs coming from a location and i headed there, when i'm there, all the cabs are GONE! so, i went to another and the same thing happened! fuck! so pissed off la.



in fact there are a loads of cabby in sinagpore, i just find it funny that many still have to wait that long. AND I HATE PEOPLE WHO SNATCH MY CABBY!



yea, the minor operation is done. duration was around an hour or so. definetly pain. this time the doc gave me to ject and i totally freak out. I'M SCARED OF INJECTIONS! you just feel that there something sharp in your skin. YUCKS! my doctor who is my best friend is very nice today. he allows me to grab his hands when i'm feeling the pain. but i PINCH!



basically, i'm in great pain now. due to all the procedures. i have to get back to the doctor in the night to change my dressings. cos it still bleeding ALOT now.

getting outta hands

tml is the day. kinda scared somehow. cos i'll be going in the room myself. ALONE! and after the minor operation, i'll be going back to school. should i go or should i go out with ade or should i head home and rest? if the pain is unbearable, i'll just rush home to rest.





certain issues going around the families. in fact, all of us really don't know what we should do to change you into a better person. totally disappointed. advise were given and given. scoldings and shoutings but still, no changes done. we ignore, we pretended nothing had happened. it's not that we don't care whatever fucking shit you have done, it's just that we have fucking sick and tired of caring about you. we don't know how to teach you, we don't know what we should do. can you wake up your mind? why not, tell us what we should do to make you change and leave all mother-fucker friends.


have you ever thought of why everyone is treating your brother better than you? why everyone can joke and share secrets with him but not you? why everyone can laugh and have so much fun with him but not you? why i bring him out and not you? have you ever crack some of your fucking brains? well, have you ever do some reflection?


we don't hate you. we treated you as one. but what have you done? you made us loose trust of you each day. everyday, different shits you create. i wanna bring you out. i wanna talk to you like how i did to your brother. i wanna have fun with you. i really want. tell me, after i have put so much hope in you that you will change(you promised), did you ever fulfill a shity out of it? FUCKING NO!


what friends are yours? you called those fuckers "friends." bringing you into troubles. teaching you all those toddlers stuffs. bringing you to boy's home. you call that friends? screw you! go check the fucking dictionary if you don't know what's the definition of a friend!

FRIEND

–noun

• a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

• a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter
  
• a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile.
  

understand now?

to be true, i will be very happy if you get charges with whatever shit you have done. i'll be laughing my ass off. you deserve it. you want it to be this way, you gotta pay the price. if after going into boy's home, you still don't know what the right thing to do, PLEASE, just let yourself rot to death.

can you just look back. think what everyone has done for you. yes, everyone, including your dad and brother. please appreciate everything they have done for you.

eg, you brother bought the doramon piggy bank thingy for you, what kind of fucking face did you showed him? can you just appeciate that at least he made the effort to save some money to at least buy a present to make you feel that he did remember your birthday, you are not left behind. but what did you do when you saw the present? you were pissed off, you return the present back to him. can you at least look at the brighter side of every situations?

your dad, though he express himself as he doesn't give a damn to whatever shity you have done, but deep in his heart, he's worried, he afraid that something will happen to you. whose parents would not worried for their kids? yes, your dad ignore you. why? because you dissappoint him. he told you not to go out, yet, when he left the house, you went out. tell me, how you want people to trust you and respect you?

yes, you feel great with your friends. out disturbing people and having fun. but when you are really in deep trouble in future, when you are in need of help, which shity will turn up to help you? NONE. but we will.

you have already dissppointed your mum, please, wake up. stop all your wrongdoings and spare a thought of everyone.

if the my favourite doctor is there in the morning, i'll be having another scar. if the doctor is not there, i'll suffer again. sigh! i just hope i'll be fine.



i hope norman will be fine too. cos he flew off his bike and he din wanna go hospital. sigh! the wound is disgusting.



i hope jaydan will be fine too. cos he's hospitalize now. sigh! i really hope he will be fine. pls, nothing happen alright.







just let us be fine.

weet! i'm really gonna have a relaxing term this time around. chicken toes modules.



i think i'm smart. one of my watch was broken cos d kept bullying me today and i use it to hit him and in the end, i was upset. BUT i'm damn smart to fix it.



went singing for 5 hours today. it's the girls' outing again. nifer and yan ping asked me to stop singing cos they said i sang till very sad. kinda emo at that point of time. was worry about some stuffs.



i need a doctor urgently.



i think i'll start loving mornings.



i'm getting the HOT PINK IPOD NANO soon! gees. i can't wait to have the hot pink thingy in my baggy.





and i wanna thank you for making me smile.

it look likes it was nifer and mine birthday.

but it's was actually, KG's

I HATE IT WHEN MY FEELINGS CONTRADICT! fucks!

i just wanna know if you are back offically or just temporary.

you see, i was looking through friendster and i saw THIS!

alright, he is my cousin. what is wrong with guys nowadays?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG KIM GUAN!

FINALLY everything is over. a few days to relax before another tough stage comes. my exams will be on the 4th day of chinese new year. and after chinese new year, i will be totally graduated. so, i'll just have to bear with it. i would like to try out working before getting my degree. at least earn some money for myself so that if nifer and jamie are going to take the degree along with me, i will have the money to celebrate after every exams. and then, i will have the money to go club club club. i'm now left with 5 bucks. PATHETIC 5 BUCKS! so, don't ask me to go clubbing but if it's lady's night i don't mind. or maybe someone can sign me in, i totally don't mind. give me 10 days and the shopping queen will be back! actually, there nothing to buy recently. i kinda wanna buy this shoe. i saw the design but i don't know which brand it is. but i really need shoes now and not heels and not those pointed shoes. AAAAHHHHH! whatever, i don't know how to decribe is. but if i happened to have the money to get it, i'll show off in here alright.

today was really, i mean REALLY a shopping day for we girls. we ended school before 1 and we have been shopping all the way till 10 plus. we have so much fun out. so much stuffs to laugh about. that's what the advantage of girls' day out. yea, my legs are breaking and very sadly to say, i din get a free ride back home.

speaking about exams, you know, i woke up at 4 to study BL's agency. my lecturer siad that it's a comfirm question that will be coming out in the papers so, i crawl myself up to study at 4. well, it din came out for the exam. fine! and today, i woke up at 6 to finish off 2 more topics of memorizing and it din came out for my exam! FINE! i wasted my sleep and i look like a zombie now and all my hard work doesn't pay off. i mean, at least come out something that i have put so much effort in la. at least i can be proud of myself that i can write a millions of words for my questions. sigh! all gone down the drain.



i like raine yang chen ling's zhi xiang ai ni. cos it represent everything. can you convery the message i'm giving you?

i gave up clubbings, i gave up my sleeps. i gave up count downs. i gave up fun. i gave up almost everything and i still can can't score for law. i even had nightmares of the law notes. still i'm putting a lot of stress on god for passing my law. i don't have the time to retake, i don't have the time to re-module. i don't wanna waste money on stupid stuff.

now, it's marketing again. praying hard that set B will be out instead of set A if not, i'll say bye to my birthday, bye to valentine's day and chinese new year.




i got a birthday wish. it's not too early to make a wish.

I WANNA RIDE ON A BIKE AND I WANNA USE THE BLACK HELMET.

please fulfill this tiny mini little wish on mine.

and this, was done by niffer. just focus on the ONLY BOY. LOL!

you made me smile. thanks.

for the first day of 2007, i feel like shit.
for the first day of 2007, i cried.
for the first day of 2007, someone turn to me.
for the first day of 2007, i heard someone cried.
for the first day of 2007, i lied.
for the first day of 2007, i fucking guilty.
for the first day of 2007, i'm stressed up.
for the first day of 2007, you finally made your move. (after so long) thank ah.
for the first day of 2007, i'm sick.

i got no more time to waste. studying time.