when things starts to go my way, i start to wonder, why are things so perfect now.
when things are fucked up and got me stressed up, i start to wonder, why my life ain't perfect.
i always complain when i first got together with big bully. he didn't have time to accompany. he doesn't give a hack about anything. all he does is to stare at his computer the whole day. i got attached to him was because he didn't care much about me at that time.
yes, i meant i fell for him because he didn't give a shit about me. that time, i wasn't ready for a relationship and i was a total workaholic, like working 14 hours a day. in fact, we didn't give a god damn shit about each other. we could do whatever we wanted, do wherever we wanted. we don't have to meet everyday. like once in a week.
and he WAS chauvinistic.
i thought its pretty cool that even in a relationship. we can have so much of our personal time.
then, i changed company. had more time. 8 hours of work a day only. i stated to complain that he didn't accompany me. hence, we tried to meet up more often, like days before he go for his duty.
things started to change soon, when he ORD-ed. we met up everyday since then. there wasn't a day that you will ever see him not beside me. i have gotten used to it. we had quarrels that came to an end but eventually, cooling down helped the stubborns.
everyday is the same routine. routine is good. its safe.
like what i have said many times. i fell for him because he is chauvinistic. for whatever god damn reason, he is not now.
this made me sad. really sad.
but we are really very happy together now. (???????????????)
maybe it was cause i fell for him because he was chauvinistic, and when he is not now, it leads me to a suitation whereby i starts to wonder now, what i love about him now. then again, when you love someone, there no reason. you just fall for him, for his bad habits, for his attitude, for his fucked up characters and for everything a girls hate her boyfriend to have.
damn, i don't know what i'm thinking.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I LOVE LIVERPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!
went home team today and it was so disappointing. and that's why, i always strong protest that american's policeman are the best, they are the real policeman. and then again, how could we be compared to the americans?
it's good that my bosses were on holidays. i could really have two days of break after the one month of battle. hopefully, i get my off day again on thursday, they won't eat it, won't they?
like what they said, "relationship is about how you manage and maintain it, it's not about taking it as a test or game."
i always wonder, how can one be with or love someone elses for the rest of their life. won't the get bored, sick and tired of seeing each other everyday, quarreling over the same old thing time and time again. accepting the bad habits of each other the entire life and there shouldn't be any complains.
relationship is like marketing. promote yourself, improve yourself, maintain reputations and introduce new ideas to enhance the relationship. it's so difficult to market a product when people are bored of it. it stood at there for many months, yet no one touches it, and soon, it expires. just like relationship, in time to come, we get bored and we eventually see each other flaws, if we don't accept it, it's gone for sure.
the cycle of a relationship is the same as the product life cycle. first, honeymoon period, then drama, lastly, break-ups. eventually, you found a new love and continue the whole life cycle again till the day death arrive.
adding spice into relationship is a must-must for my views. i wouldn't wanna see my boyfriend of husband getting bored of me like the channel 8, 9pm series. it's an unseen pain. its a good series of big bully and me. for us to change, for each other.
women, the most particular thing we are afraid of is being fat. be it after pregnancy or sudden fat-ness(?). it's a big taboo for us, mind you. if it is because of us being fatter than what we used to be and the men get digusted, it really hurts(for pregnancy). but if it's cause you ate too much and you can't control it, too bad, serve you right, it time to get slim and turn them on.
men. it's actually easy to handle them, prolly for me. maybe i'm a pro. ha! big bully used to be damn "da nan ren", so i used my tactic and he becomes a "xiao nan ren" now. then, come to think of it, i perfer him to be "da nan ren" than "xiao nan ren." so, i pleade him to be more "man", sad to say, he is stucked at this point. so sad.
and lastly, i know it's out of point. BUT i have to say this,
it's good that my bosses were on holidays. i could really have two days of break after the one month of battle. hopefully, i get my off day again on thursday, they won't eat it, won't they?
like what they said, "relationship is about how you manage and maintain it, it's not about taking it as a test or game."
i always wonder, how can one be with or love someone elses for the rest of their life. won't the get bored, sick and tired of seeing each other everyday, quarreling over the same old thing time and time again. accepting the bad habits of each other the entire life and there shouldn't be any complains.
relationship is like marketing. promote yourself, improve yourself, maintain reputations and introduce new ideas to enhance the relationship. it's so difficult to market a product when people are bored of it. it stood at there for many months, yet no one touches it, and soon, it expires. just like relationship, in time to come, we get bored and we eventually see each other flaws, if we don't accept it, it's gone for sure.
the cycle of a relationship is the same as the product life cycle. first, honeymoon period, then drama, lastly, break-ups. eventually, you found a new love and continue the whole life cycle again till the day death arrive.
adding spice into relationship is a must-must for my views. i wouldn't wanna see my boyfriend of husband getting bored of me like the channel 8, 9pm series. it's an unseen pain. its a good series of big bully and me. for us to change, for each other.
women, the most particular thing we are afraid of is being fat. be it after pregnancy or sudden fat-ness(?). it's a big taboo for us, mind you. if it is because of us being fatter than what we used to be and the men get digusted, it really hurts(for pregnancy). but if it's cause you ate too much and you can't control it, too bad, serve you right, it time to get slim and turn them on.
men. it's actually easy to handle them, prolly for me. maybe i'm a pro. ha! big bully used to be damn "da nan ren", so i used my tactic and he becomes a "xiao nan ren" now. then, come to think of it, i perfer him to be "da nan ren" than "xiao nan ren." so, i pleade him to be more "man", sad to say, he is stucked at this point. so sad.
and lastly, i know it's out of point. BUT i have to say this,
I'M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH LIVERPOOL!
so pro. so cute. so handsome.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
tears aint an option simply because i have long forgotten how to cry - tomtom
maybe i should stop worrying on the wrong decisions you will make. maybe its time for you to learn what is wrong and right. maybe its time you make a decision yourself and never regret it. i'm tried, tried of making decisions for you. tired of you not doing what you should.
maybe i do seem that i want to take over you, letting me decide on the path of your life. but if i had not stopped you, what have you become now? moreover, you were the one who ask me decide it for you.
i know, you don't have a mind like mine. i understand this. times, you couldn't understand how i felt, i don't mind. yes, i do whine, but its for you to lay your attention on me. i'm a girl, like any other girls, who need attentions, care and concern. you see me strong, yes, i am. but towards you, how could i be one? prolly i asked too much from you, but i gave too much too. more than anyone could ask from me.
its hitting me hard this time round. but i understand that tears aint an option simply because i have long forgotten how to cry. thought i'm not even ready to accept the fact that i made this decision, i knew i have to. prolly a rough path ahead but i'm gonna make it through.
i told myself, i have done enough. i put in all my effort for the past one year, i did whatever i could to save it, to maintain it and to manage it. i didn't take it as a test or a game, i grew with you, through the right and wrongs.
i have never look down on you being poor. i just want you to know how difficult is it to earn.
i will always dig out time no matter how busy i was. i skipped school and work. you said you did alot too, more than what you used to do. maybe?
the timeless of chances i gave you, was to hope that you will realise your mistake, and to cherish and prolly change for each i gave. but, did you?
you may think i'm joking and call me the next morning or later, to shout at me, making me think that it was my mistake and i have to forgive you and go back. or you will be whining with me through the phone, with uncountable of sorries.
but pal, don't take me as a kid. its true this time.
maybe i do seem that i want to take over you, letting me decide on the path of your life. but if i had not stopped you, what have you become now? moreover, you were the one who ask me decide it for you.
i know, you don't have a mind like mine. i understand this. times, you couldn't understand how i felt, i don't mind. yes, i do whine, but its for you to lay your attention on me. i'm a girl, like any other girls, who need attentions, care and concern. you see me strong, yes, i am. but towards you, how could i be one? prolly i asked too much from you, but i gave too much too. more than anyone could ask from me.
its hitting me hard this time round. but i understand that tears aint an option simply because i have long forgotten how to cry. thought i'm not even ready to accept the fact that i made this decision, i knew i have to. prolly a rough path ahead but i'm gonna make it through.
i told myself, i have done enough. i put in all my effort for the past one year, i did whatever i could to save it, to maintain it and to manage it. i didn't take it as a test or a game, i grew with you, through the right and wrongs.
i have never look down on you being poor. i just want you to know how difficult is it to earn.
i will always dig out time no matter how busy i was. i skipped school and work. you said you did alot too, more than what you used to do. maybe?
the timeless of chances i gave you, was to hope that you will realise your mistake, and to cherish and prolly change for each i gave. but, did you?
you may think i'm joking and call me the next morning or later, to shout at me, making me think that it was my mistake and i have to forgive you and go back. or you will be whining with me through the phone, with uncountable of sorries.
but pal, don't take me as a kid. its true this time.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
the little spice that keep us alive.
went big bully's place to catch the finals of "the perfect cut" and "housewives' hoildays" in fact, these two tv series that somehow, taught big bully and i a lot. a lot of stuffs about our relationships. in the mist of watching, we were always have topics of our own when certain scenarios happened. and eversince the "housewives' holidays" big bully kept insisting that i'm similiar to Alice. yes, maybe the dressing style, that's what i have always been dressing. but if you say character wise, yes to part of the demanding part and no, to the show-off part.
and whenever Alice tried to show-off, big bully would use his leg to kick Alice(his precious tv).
and he kept using his digusting high pitch tone to sing the main theme song of "the perfect cut." yucks.
and whenever Alice tried to show-off, big bully would use his leg to kick Alice(his precious tv).
and he kept using his digusting high pitch tone to sing the main theme song of "the perfect cut." yucks.
Friday, March 20, 2009
IT'S OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVER!
it's over finally! one month of stress is finally over for the time being.
and like what kang said, what is done is done. no point on harbouring if i could pass this module. damn edmund. i even receive an e-mail from school saying that we could write feedbacks on the exam we had this morning. seriously, i had the got "cheated" feeling.
i wanted to leave the exam room straight after i flipped over the questions. but i thought, since 30/100 is a pass, why not just give it a shot. no harm. oh great! there's harm. the more i write, the more i think, the more i get pek cek. it's used to be that 1 question occupied 2 pages for all my exams. and 2 pages for 25marks. yet, for this damn one, i wrote 4 page for 1 question, that comes in 2 parts and one is 15 marks and the other is 10.
fuckermania.
okay, what done is done. i can't go back. just wanna rant over here. you know la, girlsssssssssssss.
it's over finally! one month of stress is finally over for the time being.
and like what kang said, what is done is done. no point on harbouring if i could pass this module. damn edmund. i even receive an e-mail from school saying that we could write feedbacks on the exam we had this morning. seriously, i had the got "cheated" feeling.
i wanted to leave the exam room straight after i flipped over the questions. but i thought, since 30/100 is a pass, why not just give it a shot. no harm. oh great! there's harm. the more i write, the more i think, the more i get pek cek. it's used to be that 1 question occupied 2 pages for all my exams. and 2 pages for 25marks. yet, for this damn one, i wrote 4 page for 1 question, that comes in 2 parts and one is 15 marks and the other is 10.
fuckermania.
okay, what done is done. i can't go back. just wanna rant over here. you know la, girlsssssssssssss.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
no one is perfect
and at this point of time, i made up my mind.
instead of spending all my hard earn money on eating, i'm not gonna do that anymore. i gonna stop going to better air conditioned places, i should go places that sell tastier food and much more cheaper. moreover, we eat and shit, what's the point of having something that won't last.
spend those money on higher end stuffs instead. clothings, wallets, bags, facial products and so on. of course, i have to stay healthy if not i'll be spending 200 a month on doctors.
why not save that 200 that will eventually, add to a thousand in 5 months to get my gucci bag?
saving money is a must too. with money endlessly flowing in, i guess, it shouldn't ba any problem.
uh huh, sounded like a good plan, ya.
of course, moving on to my plan of getting a car by the age of 23.
i'll be saving money on clothes too! BECAUSE, bosses gonna set up online store. i'm manging it. obviously. this isn't gonna be part of my job. i'll gonna do some exhange of terms and conditions with them. prolly an increasement in my pay for managing the store and also free clothings from each collections.
oh man, that's got me so high.
instead of spending all my hard earn money on eating, i'm not gonna do that anymore. i gonna stop going to better air conditioned places, i should go places that sell tastier food and much more cheaper. moreover, we eat and shit, what's the point of having something that won't last.
spend those money on higher end stuffs instead. clothings, wallets, bags, facial products and so on. of course, i have to stay healthy if not i'll be spending 200 a month on doctors.
why not save that 200 that will eventually, add to a thousand in 5 months to get my gucci bag?
saving money is a must too. with money endlessly flowing in, i guess, it shouldn't ba any problem.
uh huh, sounded like a good plan, ya.
of course, moving on to my plan of getting a car by the age of 23.
i'll be saving money on clothes too! BECAUSE, bosses gonna set up online store. i'm manging it. obviously. this isn't gonna be part of my job. i'll gonna do some exhange of terms and conditions with them. prolly an increasement in my pay for managing the store and also free clothings from each collections.
oh man, that's got me so high.
Monday, March 16, 2009
it is getting wordy here.
watched coming soon with big bully. i was so scared throughout the whole movie. at the end of it, i was filled with question marks. firstly, it's lousy. next, it's not scary. it's just the ghost looked like a freak, so, i was freaked out. lastly, don't watch.
sweeee.
yesterday was man u and liverpool with big bully. almost got scolded for screaming, cheering and shouting when liverpool scored. it was totally adrenaline rush for the both of us who were die hard core fan of liverpool. we were cursing and swearing man u.
i made a joke that man u always win liverpool 'cause whenever they will be having a match with liverpool, they go to church to pray. and liverpool will be winning in this case 'cause it's a saturday and they are busy practicing, so, no church for them. big bully was totally obsessed with my joke. siao.
oh well, man u trashed liverpool anyway. wooohoooo.
now, beng, big bully and me, we are talking about r/s in msn. and big bully i trying to complain how i treated him and of 'cause, as a girl, i must defend we girls, on why at times, we react to certain stuffs in such ways and why were have so many mood swings.
damn guys. just don't understand us. now, i'm gonna brain wash the both of them to love us more than themseleves. 'cause without us, there wouldn't be colours, men will have menses, get all the period pains and giving birth, there wouldn't be love in this world without us. SO, LOVE US, damn you man. time to stop complaining. time to give us more love. pamper us. stop making us angry.
the advertisment says so, isn't it.
they just don't understand that some things that we dislike seeing them do, we will always dislike it. no matter what, you will still dislike it.
they just don't understand stand that when we are angry regardless of whatever nonsenses or reasons, they SHOULD always talk to us nicely and never to throw temper to us when they get sick of asking "why? what happened? what i do? why you like that?" when we kept mum at all times.
they must understand that we need assurance, care and concern.
they must understand that some times, when we are angry, it's better for them to shut up. they must also understand that when we are angry, they cannot ignore us. (aiyo, i pity those boys)
SO BOYS, love us. we are unique and rare gems.
sweeee.
yesterday was man u and liverpool with big bully. almost got scolded for screaming, cheering and shouting when liverpool scored. it was totally adrenaline rush for the both of us who were die hard core fan of liverpool. we were cursing and swearing man u.
i made a joke that man u always win liverpool 'cause whenever they will be having a match with liverpool, they go to church to pray. and liverpool will be winning in this case 'cause it's a saturday and they are busy practicing, so, no church for them. big bully was totally obsessed with my joke. siao.
oh well, man u trashed liverpool anyway. wooohoooo.
now, beng, big bully and me, we are talking about r/s in msn. and big bully i trying to complain how i treated him and of 'cause, as a girl, i must defend we girls, on why at times, we react to certain stuffs in such ways and why were have so many mood swings.
damn guys. just don't understand us. now, i'm gonna brain wash the both of them to love us more than themseleves. 'cause without us, there wouldn't be colours, men will have menses, get all the period pains and giving birth, there wouldn't be love in this world without us. SO, LOVE US, damn you man. time to stop complaining. time to give us more love. pamper us. stop making us angry.
the advertisment says so, isn't it.
they just don't understand that some things that we dislike seeing them do, we will always dislike it. no matter what, you will still dislike it.
they just don't understand stand that when we are angry regardless of whatever nonsenses or reasons, they SHOULD always talk to us nicely and never to throw temper to us when they get sick of asking "why? what happened? what i do? why you like that?" when we kept mum at all times.
they must understand that we need assurance, care and concern.
they must understand that some times, when we are angry, it's better for them to shut up. they must also understand that when we are angry, they cannot ignore us. (aiyo, i pity those boys)
SO BOYS, love us. we are unique and rare gems.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
i see myself doing things i will never do. i see myself jumping out of my window one night. i see myself cutting. i see myself crying. i see myself begging.
i even googled how to die easily.
i was shivering. the whole body was and hands were back to those electrical chairs days.
i told myself it's enough. i told myself i need a break.
i wanna get a doctor. someone whom i can talk to. someone who has the rights to give me a letter to defer my studies.
i don't wanna continue a single shit anymore.
once, i watched a documentary. the host asked the priest why people wants to go to heaven. the priest reply was because heaven is a wonderful and beautiful place. hence, the host asked back, since it's so nice, why not kill yourself now.
as for now, i don't mind if heaven was actually hell in fact or my soul just disappear in the air.
i just hate to see this world any longer. it's a torture.
i can't even recognize myself now. i'm such a pathetic bitch.
i did what i could. no one appreciate.
dying inside cause i can't stand it. can't take this madness.
it should be time.
i even googled how to die easily.
i was shivering. the whole body was and hands were back to those electrical chairs days.
i told myself it's enough. i told myself i need a break.
i wanna get a doctor. someone whom i can talk to. someone who has the rights to give me a letter to defer my studies.
i don't wanna continue a single shit anymore.
once, i watched a documentary. the host asked the priest why people wants to go to heaven. the priest reply was because heaven is a wonderful and beautiful place. hence, the host asked back, since it's so nice, why not kill yourself now.
as for now, i don't mind if heaven was actually hell in fact or my soul just disappear in the air.
i just hate to see this world any longer. it's a torture.
i can't even recognize myself now. i'm such a pathetic bitch.
i did what i could. no one appreciate.
dying inside cause i can't stand it. can't take this madness.
it should be time.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
really busy these days. with health, with projects, with work and with boyfriend. but finally, i can relax for tomorrow. then, i'll be busy with exams for two damn weeks. hectic week ffastor this whole month.
well, i was very prepared to have my exams very well prepare for this modules, that's 'cause boyfriend is supposed to book in on tuesday. but well, they called and said it's still processing. how dumb, when he had already recieved the position and it's still processing?
never mind, anyway, i planned my this month since i know he is gonns book in on tuesday. but now, neh neh, gotta re-plan again.
i really hope he can faster book in and give me 2 weeks of boyfriend-less days and getting to see him for friday till sunday after that 2 weeks for 3 months. it's gonna be so good to be single from monday to thursday of each week.
anyhow, blog tomorrow. mj now.
well, i was very prepared to have my exams very well prepare for this modules, that's 'cause boyfriend is supposed to book in on tuesday. but well, they called and said it's still processing. how dumb, when he had already recieved the position and it's still processing?
never mind, anyway, i planned my this month since i know he is gonns book in on tuesday. but now, neh neh, gotta re-plan again.
i really hope he can faster book in and give me 2 weeks of boyfriend-less days and getting to see him for friday till sunday after that 2 weeks for 3 months. it's gonna be so good to be single from monday to thursday of each week.
anyhow, blog tomorrow. mj now.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
So this is goodbye
Goddamn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you’re going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you talk about how you're feeling
But I don’t believe it’s true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
So this is goodbye
Goddamn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you’re going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you talk about how you're feeling
But I don’t believe it’s true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye
I’ve been here before
One day a week
And it won’t hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you talk about how you're feeling
But I don’t believe it’s true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye
I’ve been here before
One day a week
And it won’t hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause
I still don’t have the reason
And you don’t have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don’t believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you talk about how you're feeling
But I don’t believe it’s true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye
Monday, March 02, 2009
Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
Sometimes we find out we forget
Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it all
Sometimes a man
Is gon' be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do
Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry
Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when it's through
Well, sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it all
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
Sometimes we find out we forget
Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it all
Sometimes a man
Is gon' be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do
Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry
Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when it's through
Well, sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it all
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
i wanted to go somewhere for a short getaway. many in office knows i always wanted to go either bangkok, batam, bintam, phuket and bali, but my bosses will hardly allow me to go away for more than 3 days. =(
lady boss was so excited to see me today and she rushed up to me and told me she saw really cheap tickets to bangkok and bali, which also makes me so excited to ask the pimps and bitches.
i thought i would be the right time now to go somewhere to relax before the market get back to a better ones. and also i'll be getting my 13.5month soon including my pay and commission, i'll be so rich, so, why not!
these days, market has been really really bad. buyers realise that it isn't time to buy and sellers are all desperate to sell, 'causing supply over demand. advertisment fee reduced. everyone knows there's no point in advertising so many times a week. cutting cost. so, i thought this would be the right period of time i should book my tickets.
BUT, here's the big hold back.
firstly, boyfriend will be having training for 6 months, hence, no leave should be taken for performance matters. secondly, the cheap tickets booked now can only travel during june period or october. lastly, what if buyers suddenly gone crazy and decide that june or october will be the best or right period to buy a house.
so, what's the point of having so much money and you can't even travel to somewhere to relax. like what people has been saving, market is bad, save more money. since i have not been saving at all, i guess, 13month plus commission is everything that i should save.
well, management of company has changed too, to cut cost. si bei sian la. no air con after 6pm, course fee increased from $288 to $388 and now, $588. siao. should have taken the course last year when it was $288. then, jeans is only allowed on fridays and saturdays, only formal. so, this whole week, i have been waiting for thursday, friday and saturday 'cause i get to wear damn relax.
i used to wear shorts to work. then bigger boss nagged a bit, C "suan" abit, admin say a bit but CEO never say anything. so, i began to wear shorts with sockings and heels like those HSR days when i wear them to club. i thought people might see me as wearing a black pants instead. then, after wear it for months, uncle ken realised that i was wear sockings, and he shouted "WOW, SEXY HUH, XIAO MEI!" oh well, that was the time when everyone eventually notice that i was wearing black shorts and socklings. soon, i stopped wearing heels to work when i wear the shorts with sockings, i wore shoes instead. SO DAMN INFORMAL. boyfriend said it's nice, new style and it's was way damn relax for me. no one in office realise i was wearing so damn relax for the pass few months when eventually, on monday, alferd ran up to me that told me that new e-mail had been sent to everyone, only formal wear from monday to thursday.
SIAO LIAO LOR! whole day don't even dare to walk around 'cause new boss of company is walking around. then on tuesday, i wore damn formal sweet la!
then today, when i reached office, SIAO LIAO LOR again, no lance yard. everyone was wearing except me. and again, boss of company was walking around. sian. need to go take photo on friday to make my lance yard.
then, so many people came over to join us. SIAO LIAO LOR. no space to sit anymore. i was so afraid that in future, the one sitting beside me is someone from another Co. that hopped over to my Co. being smart, i told lynn to take the workstation beside me, on the other hand, i got people to gossip with me though my boring hours at work.
SIAO LIAO LOR. now, we pay $140 a month which was suppose to be the price of 2 workstations. but my bosses bussinesses are really big, so, we occupied 6 workstations. for the pass one year, we were super happy that we paid $140 for 6 tables. now, have to clear tables soon. it's gonna be so cramp at my area.
somehow, i hope bosses really get a room, which will never become their room. they are hardly in office, hence, it's only for them to store their documents. whereas for me, i'm whole day in office, so, i'm sure i'll put all my photos, my stuffs on the wall. BUT, they said getting a room is equalvalent to paying the monthly installment of a car. SIAN!
i guess, i'm pretty bored at this moment. what a looooooooong post.
lady boss was so excited to see me today and she rushed up to me and told me she saw really cheap tickets to bangkok and bali, which also makes me so excited to ask the pimps and bitches.
i thought i would be the right time now to go somewhere to relax before the market get back to a better ones. and also i'll be getting my 13.5month soon including my pay and commission, i'll be so rich, so, why not!
these days, market has been really really bad. buyers realise that it isn't time to buy and sellers are all desperate to sell, 'causing supply over demand. advertisment fee reduced. everyone knows there's no point in advertising so many times a week. cutting cost. so, i thought this would be the right period of time i should book my tickets.
BUT, here's the big hold back.
firstly, boyfriend will be having training for 6 months, hence, no leave should be taken for performance matters. secondly, the cheap tickets booked now can only travel during june period or october. lastly, what if buyers suddenly gone crazy and decide that june or october will be the best or right period to buy a house.
so, what's the point of having so much money and you can't even travel to somewhere to relax. like what people has been saving, market is bad, save more money. since i have not been saving at all, i guess, 13month plus commission is everything that i should save.
well, management of company has changed too, to cut cost. si bei sian la. no air con after 6pm, course fee increased from $288 to $388 and now, $588. siao. should have taken the course last year when it was $288. then, jeans is only allowed on fridays and saturdays, only formal. so, this whole week, i have been waiting for thursday, friday and saturday 'cause i get to wear damn relax.
i used to wear shorts to work. then bigger boss nagged a bit, C "suan" abit, admin say a bit but CEO never say anything. so, i began to wear shorts with sockings and heels like those HSR days when i wear them to club. i thought people might see me as wearing a black pants instead. then, after wear it for months, uncle ken realised that i was wear sockings, and he shouted "WOW, SEXY HUH, XIAO MEI!" oh well, that was the time when everyone eventually notice that i was wearing black shorts and socklings. soon, i stopped wearing heels to work when i wear the shorts with sockings, i wore shoes instead. SO DAMN INFORMAL. boyfriend said it's nice, new style and it's was way damn relax for me. no one in office realise i was wearing so damn relax for the pass few months when eventually, on monday, alferd ran up to me that told me that new e-mail had been sent to everyone, only formal wear from monday to thursday.
SIAO LIAO LOR! whole day don't even dare to walk around 'cause new boss of company is walking around. then on tuesday, i wore damn formal sweet la!
then today, when i reached office, SIAO LIAO LOR again, no lance yard. everyone was wearing except me. and again, boss of company was walking around. sian. need to go take photo on friday to make my lance yard.
then, so many people came over to join us. SIAO LIAO LOR. no space to sit anymore. i was so afraid that in future, the one sitting beside me is someone from another Co. that hopped over to my Co. being smart, i told lynn to take the workstation beside me, on the other hand, i got people to gossip with me though my boring hours at work.
SIAO LIAO LOR. now, we pay $140 a month which was suppose to be the price of 2 workstations. but my bosses bussinesses are really big, so, we occupied 6 workstations. for the pass one year, we were super happy that we paid $140 for 6 tables. now, have to clear tables soon. it's gonna be so cramp at my area.
somehow, i hope bosses really get a room, which will never become their room. they are hardly in office, hence, it's only for them to store their documents. whereas for me, i'm whole day in office, so, i'm sure i'll put all my photos, my stuffs on the wall. BUT, they said getting a room is equalvalent to paying the monthly installment of a car. SIAN!
i guess, i'm pretty bored at this moment. what a looooooooong post.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
woo-la-la
last friday was my elder sister's wedding.
i dragged boyfriend to go R.O.M with me to give them my blessing though the man beside her wasn't the one i expected to be her man. what to do. she choose her man and she should receive everyone blessings.
cousins were there disturbing me and boyfriend. saying that we are there to practice for our future. seriously, i have no idea how to react to their nonsense.
i always have this thought that when they enter the room, "foo foo" will dash into it and stop them from signing the legal documents.
it was quite tense in the room. the pressure of commitment once the paper was signed. when she was about to sign the paper, i grab onto second sister's arm, greatly hoping that someone, like "foo foo" would said the word, "objection!"
i'm not being bias here. it's just that i brought my elder sister and "foo foo" together. i don't wish to see something that used to be so perfect, had no ending.
this marriage was a really quick one. i have never expected it. i thought she was trying to forget about "foo foo" so she choosed him.
"i now pronounce you, man and wife."
i was upset upon hearing this. i was pretty confused. the word "marriage" is an easy word. anyone can say "will you marry me?" it is as easy as A-B-C. yet, when i stepped into the room, i changed my impression of marriage. it is scary. you will never know the man beside you, how much you can rely on in your future years.
it was worse when they said this was boyfriend and my rehearsals.
maybe it was cause everyone isn't expecting this. and therefore, i reacted this way.
anyhow, after that we headed to long beach @ demsey. boyfriend never regret having his interview postponed for this temptatious meal.
shark fin, lobster salad, oyster, la-la, fried fish, curry crab, and so on.
second sister asked for the oyster and lobster salad. 'cause she asked me to chop chop chop. so, i do my best to chop a bit. ended up the next day, they told me that he was retrenched. which also means he got NO MORE MONEY!
this time, i was way too guilty for chopping. 'cause i didn't realise his situation. i thought he was still as rich. damn. if it was 2 years back, doing this to any jerks is nothing to me, even if they have nothing. i admit trying to chop boyfriend back then, 'cause i saw his account balance in his bank. geees.
anyway, i'm glad he came into my life, showing me that there are guys who are not as jerked as those i met and stopped me from all my nonsensical doings. if it wasn't for him, i would have become like .................... and for now, i actually feel very guilty.
oh well, lastly, a huge smile on our faces when we left demsey.
i dragged boyfriend to go R.O.M with me to give them my blessing though the man beside her wasn't the one i expected to be her man. what to do. she choose her man and she should receive everyone blessings.
cousins were there disturbing me and boyfriend. saying that we are there to practice for our future. seriously, i have no idea how to react to their nonsense.
i always have this thought that when they enter the room, "foo foo" will dash into it and stop them from signing the legal documents.
it was quite tense in the room. the pressure of commitment once the paper was signed. when she was about to sign the paper, i grab onto second sister's arm, greatly hoping that someone, like "foo foo" would said the word, "objection!"
i'm not being bias here. it's just that i brought my elder sister and "foo foo" together. i don't wish to see something that used to be so perfect, had no ending.
this marriage was a really quick one. i have never expected it. i thought she was trying to forget about "foo foo" so she choosed him.
"i now pronounce you, man and wife."
i was upset upon hearing this. i was pretty confused. the word "marriage" is an easy word. anyone can say "will you marry me?" it is as easy as A-B-C. yet, when i stepped into the room, i changed my impression of marriage. it is scary. you will never know the man beside you, how much you can rely on in your future years.
it was worse when they said this was boyfriend and my rehearsals.
maybe it was cause everyone isn't expecting this. and therefore, i reacted this way.
anyhow, after that we headed to long beach @ demsey. boyfriend never regret having his interview postponed for this temptatious meal.
shark fin, lobster salad, oyster, la-la, fried fish, curry crab, and so on.
second sister asked for the oyster and lobster salad. 'cause she asked me to chop chop chop. so, i do my best to chop a bit. ended up the next day, they told me that he was retrenched. which also means he got NO MORE MONEY!
this time, i was way too guilty for chopping. 'cause i didn't realise his situation. i thought he was still as rich. damn. if it was 2 years back, doing this to any jerks is nothing to me, even if they have nothing. i admit trying to chop boyfriend back then, 'cause i saw his account balance in his bank. geees.
anyway, i'm glad he came into my life, showing me that there are guys who are not as jerked as those i met and stopped me from all my nonsensical doings. if it wasn't for him, i would have become like .................... and for now, i actually feel very guilty.
oh well, lastly, a huge smile on our faces when we left demsey.
Sunday, February 08, 2009
4th feb
another year of bf's bday i spent with him.
i tried giving him surprises last year, but again, due to the guy who wanted me to be with him 24/7, i didn't made it last year. it was a really super duper plain birthday, last year.
WELL, THIS YEAR....
i planned to give him surprise BUT that idiot never go work. reason being, he said it was his birthday. obviously, kan ni niang, i was fuck-ed up piss off lah! wanted to give him a punch on his face as a birthday present so much!
thanks to his friends who were conferencing on msn with bf, who was sleeping, i grab the chance to coordinate with them and give him a surprise. we decided on fish&co. 'cause ah pek said there was live band over there. there was suppose to be 2 surprises given but.....
anyhow, there was like 4 groups having their birthday celebrations there too and the fish&co. crew really shout to announce to everyone in the entire house that someone is celebrating their birthday there. so, it was really a bit awkward 'cause the made you stand on the chair, holding a lighted light stick.
this was how it went when it was boyfriend's turn.
another year of bf's bday i spent with him.
i tried giving him surprises last year, but again, due to the guy who wanted me to be with him 24/7, i didn't made it last year. it was a really super duper plain birthday, last year.
WELL, THIS YEAR....
i planned to give him surprise BUT that idiot never go work. reason being, he said it was his birthday. obviously, kan ni niang, i was fuck-ed up piss off lah! wanted to give him a punch on his face as a birthday present so much!
thanks to his friends who were conferencing on msn with bf, who was sleeping, i grab the chance to coordinate with them and give him a surprise. we decided on fish&co. 'cause ah pek said there was live band over there. there was suppose to be 2 surprises given but.....
anyhow, there was like 4 groups having their birthday celebrations there too and the fish&co. crew really shout to announce to everyone in the entire house that someone is celebrating their birthday there. so, it was really a bit awkward 'cause the made you stand on the chair, holding a lighted light stick.
this was how it went when it was boyfriend's turn.
i'll be back with more temptations.
right now, i have to concentrate on liverpool vs portsmouth. 'cause that neh neh pok portsmouth just scored one goal. cheebeh!
tadah!
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
a quickie.
days spent together was great with bf.
guess what, yesterday was the first time i spent talking on the phone with him from 3am to 6am. gosh! and we really enjoy it so much till today, we were partically still 'making money in the air.'
last week, we decided veinna for our buffet dinner as a celebration for our birthday days. in fact, we wanted to go sentosa so much to have their buffet dinner 'cause my bosses said the buffet there was totally, heaven.
the buffet was fab and resonable. romantic in fact if the other people doesn't walk around.
buddha jump over the wall tasted like trash. for god sake. how can someone ever drink it.
anyhow, he said we will be going sentosa on the lovely 'v.irgin' day. wee o wee.
then,
it's time to get back to the second day of my sweet eighteen.
everyone left in the morning, so, i decided to bring home some of my clothes and on the other hand, bring more bbq food back to the chalet.
oh! i have to say this. apparently, i ate nothing during my celebration. just the buffet and nothing from the bbq corner. this proves i was way too busy entertaining.
evening arrived and i was so so afraid that bf could not set up the fire. to my horror after 15 minutes or so, i saw fire in the bbq pit.
days spent together was great with bf.
guess what, yesterday was the first time i spent talking on the phone with him from 3am to 6am. gosh! and we really enjoy it so much till today, we were partically still 'making money in the air.'
last week, we decided veinna for our buffet dinner as a celebration for our birthday days. in fact, we wanted to go sentosa so much to have their buffet dinner 'cause my bosses said the buffet there was totally, heaven.
the buffet was fab and resonable. romantic in fact if the other people doesn't walk around.
buddha jump over the wall tasted like trash. for god sake. how can someone ever drink it.
anyhow, he said we will be going sentosa on the lovely 'v.irgin' day. wee o wee.
then,
it's time to get back to the second day of my sweet eighteen.
everyone left in the morning, so, i decided to bring home some of my clothes and on the other hand, bring more bbq food back to the chalet.
oh! i have to say this. apparently, i ate nothing during my celebration. just the buffet and nothing from the bbq corner. this proves i was way too busy entertaining.
evening arrived and i was so so afraid that bf could not set up the fire. to my horror after 15 minutes or so, i saw fire in the bbq pit.
look, how skinny he is till he fit on mine white t-shit.
and for me, i wear his clothes like dresses.
and, he looked so much alike an experienced bbq-ing otah man.
we watched the soccer matched that he said comfirm chop will win. so, finally, some time after half time, the team that we betted a scored a goal. insanely, bf didn't shout "goal!!!" he shouted, "NEW SHOES!" 'cause the winning money was suppose to buy his cyn shoes.
we were drop dead happy. so since it was about full time, we switched channels thinking that the match would be 1-0. when we switch back, it was 1-1.
nabei!
anyway, i planned something for his 22nd. BUT, queky, i need your help somehow. hehe. hopefully, this would be the best he ever had. 'cause he complained that all his bdays sucked.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Greatest thanks to bff, Michelle Lim.
always giving me surprises. she designed the cake all by herself. i couldn't bear to eat the cake.
i felt really bad not doing all things for her all these years. but i'm glad, the bond we had is still strong.
girl, one thing you never know, the years that we lost contact, i missed you dearly, wanting to get back to you. now, even though we hardly meet up, you're still always in my heart. at times, i still tell my mum that i miss you alot. =) one thing special about us, is that, we never heart a heart to heart talk about our problems we faced, but we seem to understand each other so much.
after all, you're still my bff. now and forever. and if we ever part, i will search for you back. i wouldn't wanna lose a friend like you ever again.
thank you babe, for everything you did. love you big time.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
last year, i wished to have a rich man who had a private jet that i bring me over to LA to shop at Victoria Secret only.
but this year, it's better to make better and worthful wishes. all i want is a better health. sexier figure. close more cases than previous.
last year, i wished to have a rich man who had a private jet that i bring me over to LA to shop at Victoria Secret only.
but this year, it's better to make better and worthful wishes. all i want is a better health. sexier figure. close more cases than previous.
lastly, thanks everyone for the presents and ang baos.