boss is always a boss. someone a level above me whom i should really respect and never offend him. no matter what, he's still the one who pays you every month. so, i really really respect my boss before the first day of work.

oh well oh well, have a seen a subordinate warning her boss not to be late? have a seen one smacking her boss right one the first day of work? have you seen one who treaten he boss almost everyday?

well well well, that me, REGINA! so, enjoy the following details.

until the first day of work,
he gave me 10 bucks for my lunch as a welcoming gesture for me joining the Co. HOW NICE! then, i smacked him real hard on him arm 'cause he sort of insult adeline. i was schocked when my action in fact. next, i treatened him to be early for work the next day if not i will not open his locker for him to take his coat at 9am sharp.


how nice for a subordinate to behave in this manner right on the very first day of her job.


second day,
lunch and dinner was on boss. and i was there suan-ing him 'cause he is really behaving so dumb and adeline and i really couldn't stand his stupidness. and asking him to fork out 50 pathetic cents for a cheese sauce can really kill him. next, he was having a course and it ends later than my working hour. so, he asked me to wait for him 'cause he wanted to teach me some new stuffs and since he's going punggol for viewing, he will be sending me home. so, i ended work at 7pm. which means an hour of OT pay. he didn't wanna write 7pm and gave all sorts of excuses that i was the one who wanted to wait for him. damn! was having dinner with 2 bosses and ade's boss kept taking food for me. so i said "i really don't know who is my boss." as in, my boss should be "looking after me" and not someone elses. so, he took 2 char siew and put on my plate. argh! then, he bought me for viewing instead of home to allow me experience what i will be experiencing in 2 weeks time. and in order to save money, he asked me to do something that is so out of a PA's job-giving out leaflets. what the hell!

boss: you know how to write letters?
me: of course la!
boss: really? tomorrow help me write a few.
me: ok! but one alphabet 10cent.
boss: YOU NEED ME TO WRITE OUT YOU JOB SPECIFICATION?


stingy but nice~


the third day,
both bosses treated us to swensen. and all the nonsense came out from my boss. =/ i really couldn't believe he's my boss. i told them i like the long ice cream spoon from swensen and boss wanted to steal it for me. next, he cheated my OT again. why? you see....

him: after sending the e-mail, you can go home already. no need to wait for me. anyway, see you tomorrow at 9.
me: OK! but which e-mail should i use to send it out?
him: use yours. but no charges ok.
me: ya la ya la. but who's gonna help me sign-out?
him: if you want, you can wait for me to sign. BUT PLEASE WRITE THE TIME: 6PM (stingy boss!)
*i was thinking, he can sign for me tomorrow, so, i'll leave now*
me: then, do you need the keys?
him: not sure.

what an answer again. obviously he wanted me to wait for him to end his course but he doesn't want to pay me OT. how nice! then, he gave me my spare cellphone but not the sim card. duh~

AND! just a moment ago, my boss send me this through e-mail.

MONEY FACE!

how am i suppose to respect him as a boss? so much more like working with a friend of my kind!

can wait for tomorrow to come! can't wait to learn new things and go orentation, viewing, can't wait to REALLY co-broke with agents ('cause i have been faking for 3 days). wee~ and now, boss really give me a buyer!

i really thought i would never step into the toliet again. this was the first freaking time i have phobia for toliets. damn it. least, i was so much better now.

it was one of the first few quarrels but why does it seems so come to an end? i hate quarrels. who doesn't. but i have phobia for them. for so long, i haven't been puting myself so down to humor someone yet, it doesn't seems to be appreciated. and always, when i know i wasn't at any faults, damn the assholes, will make it seems like i was the one who wanted to start the fights. bastard!

what i need is someone who could give me the attention i need.

i think i have had enough of experiencing what kind of relationship i'll be getting into. everyone, the same kind of shit. always meeting the wrong person.

called me superstitious or whatever shit, i knew aquarius will clash 'cause of their personality. my six senses was prolly strong enough that it actually predicted that some day, we will clash 'cause of our stubborn behavior. well predicted.

i did everything i could and things that i have not done, i did. if these still couldn't help it out, well, fuck you then.

and if the fucking next shit does quarrel with me for once because of dumb stuff, fucking rot in hell man. LOSERS!

time tells everything. it's a matter of fact that how long it takes.

so many interviews yet i'm so lazy to attend. so desperate for a job yet so lazy to attend. damn! money money money~

i loveeeee weekends; a lot. i have been waiting for weekends like all my life for this week! yet, i don't seem to be very enthusiastic about it. a part of me is really excited about it 'cause of certain things. whereas, the other is kinda freaked out with the thoughts that they will be pulling me to his celebration which i have no intention in attending it. and the last thing i could ever think of will be him, calling/pestering me to attend it.

it's like going down there, seeing the both of them behaving so intimately. WHAT? free show is it? and i have to bring myself down, behaving like a younger sister, pretending nothing happened. fuck! i'm never gonna do that. imagine how do i have to react seeing them? just a bloody simple call from him can actually blow my mind off.

you are such a horrible asshole. i hope you made the wrong decision. damnit!

sometimes, i really have difficulties believing his words.

i really can't imagine how i survived my day whlist missing him yet not contacting him.

it's like "ya, i miss you damn much but if you don't contact, it's okay. let me continue missing you."

this is not silly. it's just probably 'cause i have yet long to miss someone this much and the feeling is damn good! it's like falling in love all over again for the first time. aww~ so sweet.

actually, having likings isn't that bad at all. you know, those secondary or primary school days, you don't even dare to pluck out the courage to tell the boy or girl you liked her all the while. miss those feelings. it's so sweet despite the fact that everyone knows that it will be going nowhere. but at least you get the chance to role play as a fortune teller or rather play mind games to think if this guy or that guy has a feeling for you.

yes, presume and presume makes one gets terrible especially when it is a one sided love.

BUT, awww~ it's still so sweet even when thinking back, how much i suffered while trying to solves all the games.

unlike now, not even a chance of guessing. people just tell me straight into my face that they have feelings for me or asking me to be their gf. you see, it's lack of those sweet sweet stuffs(stated above). somethings without a process is boring!



and so, it's like falling in love for the first time all over again.

everyone in the group knows. but none said a shit about it. and when someone told me, i know it's too late.

him: hey i buy something 4 u
me: really? wad thing?
him: my one n only true heart for u. specially for u
me: chey!
him: y u chey? it fm the bottom of my heart

moment later,
him: then u bcome my gf
me: haha!
him: can?
me: siao ah?
him i'm serious
me: wah lau! dun play leh
me: i'm very tired already
me: can't play with u
him: true fm my bottom of my heart
me: LOL!
me: i really gotta go sleep already! nights


i have been trying my best to avoid the topic of him asking me to be him gf even since boss leak this secret of his friend to me. i know i'm at fault for him to fall for me. 'cause i have been flirting around with him lately. i thought the flirting was nothing 'cause we have always been great friends like brother and sister.

avoiding seems to be a better way off.

i know my blog is lack of pictures. I REALLY KNOW. but i'll put them up real soon. in the meantime, allow this cutie little boy entertain you with his picture.

he is super 自恋 okay. he never fails to take photos with people.

anyway, i really put into deep consideration of what degree should i get. i like logistic. i like to work in the import and export trade 'cause it will never dies. but come to think again, i only LIKE logistic. however, marketing is my LOVE. and after asking around, many agreed that i should pursuit for marketing 'cause of my talkativeness and hyperactiveness.

and then again, i have to consider~

the moment i ended my exam when the last question on that bloody frederick winslow taylor with a FULL STOP, i can jump up from my chair man! i swear my entire life (though i know it doesn't worth much).

HELLO, MR. LOGISTIC, i'm on my way there soon. wait for me~

but despite all this excitment, there's this plain part of me that isn't really happy with my performace for my last 3 papers. might possibly have to resit for 2 papers. whatever~ it's time for playing before i get a job and my new school starts.

i'm excited for my new school and the new environment and of course knowing more cute and fugging cute people around. and then again, i'm excited to job in a brand new environment. and also again, i can't wait to party till siao. wee~

i can't wait for challenges to approach!

anyhow. what's the differences between like and love? you know. it can be pretty funny when you can't even differentiate if you like a person or you love a person.

at times, you can really really like a person till you really misses him to the extend that every moment you are thinking of him. alright, some might say that this isn't likings anymore, it's love. but there's something inside you that tells you that you really like this person alot but it is not to the extend of love.

and there are times when you think you love a person dearly but inside you, it just tell you that it's not love, it was just likings.

then, what about the times when you know that you have likings for this particular person cause you both have been meeting very often. however, when you both did not meet, you felt nothing and maybe those "just friends" feeing. yet when you both met up again, you see to fall in love with him again.

so, what's this? like or love?

so, what about you keep meeting a particular person and you started to have feelings for him? is this like or love or reliant?

people tend to mistook love, like and reliant.
and that was way, some people are unable to face his/her feeling at times. they might be stuck to the question of whether am i too over-reliance? or do i really love you? or was it just some likings?

and so, people say, ask you heart and not you're mind. cause you heart understands you the most and will tell you what you want most. it will never lie.

and if using you're heart, no answer is given. for god's sake, you really totally no even prepared for commitment.

some might be afraid of facing his/her feeling 'cause of the fear of commitment.

while some might have phobia left behind from the past relationship. they sterotype them thinking that everyone of them will be as bad as the previous. it's unfair, seriously. but if you kept meeting the wrong guy, count yourself lucky and pray with true soul to god that the next one will be different.


P.S: more watermelon bubble gums PLEASE~ tom and dick, if you don't mind. =D

WATCH THIS!

i'll be back when BM licks my toes this friday.

me: i'm hungry already. go and buy food leh.
zs: what you wanna eat?
me: sweet and sour fish rice!
zs: okay.
me: i think don't want la. i think i eat hor fan. but tell the uncle don't put seafood. i only want fish.
zs: *troublesome*
me: eh eh, i think don't want la. i wanna eat something like hor fan but it's the sauce is black.
zs: *scratching him head* huh? what?
me: aiya! something like hor fan la. but it's in noodles form and the sauce is black.
zs: then how am i gonna tell the uncle?
me: tell the uncle say you wanna order hor fan's friend la.


i didn't know where the hell did i came out with the hor fan's friend. aww~ i think it's so cute. LOL! and so, in the end hor fan's friend was actually, hokkien mee.

i think zs couldn't stand my cuteness~

i think this song is pretty CUTE~ dicky sent me like months back and i just started to listen to it. 'cause i kind dislike chinese songs somehow. anyhow. this is cool~


很多时候我因为怕受伤，所以就选择先放弃。我更因为我太爱自由，所以明明渴望爱情，却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界。

难道，我不能给你百分百的信心吗？你知道，我一直有多在乎你。

我珍惜这份安全感，却担心他的牺牲。所以每天的感觉还是孤独的。我还是需要一个人，一个人想一想。

冰箱结霜 咖啡滚烫 煮不好 最简单的早餐
我的生活 是一团混乱 维持单身 感觉茫然
喜不喜欢 习不习惯 我总是 说不出个答案
一个人来 又一个人往 怎么让他 流连忘返

我不想当笨蛋 我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场 房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强 该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光 也是温暖

这段日子你真的过的好吗？

没有你的早晨，加了糖的咖啡，也是苦的。

当时我尊重你的要求，所以我离开。但，这段日子你不开心，所以我就回来了。

也许，我连自己要什么我也不知道。我一个人，游游荡荡。自由久了，也没有了目标。梦里醒来，发现墙上已经不自觉写满了你的名字。

单身，是茫然。恋爱，也彷徨。我明白，所以我用时间去证明了这颗心。不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变。

每个早上 都想赖床 没有梦 是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛 盯着天花板 也跑不出 任何对象

难道我真的是个笨蛋？一直错过已经在身边的幸福。

我想我用时间找到了我需要什么。

因为你，让我知道真正的幸福是什么。

guys, they can be fucking chee-bye at times. was it 'cause they have a pea brain or they don't have a brain to think of what should be said and what they should give a damn shit to comment about?

what's worse, they don't even know we are so pissed off with what they had said despite us giving super cold shoulder.

assholes!

i hate possesive bastard. remember that.

kanniniang~

and now, when i need you, where are you?
and i know, if it were you, you will never say such stuffs to me.


TMD. how i wish exams are over today so i can kiss my ass off business management. and HELLO to logistic. how i wish it's indian day today so i can see fly~ how i wish it's friday so, i can drink till die. AND how i wish it's saturday 'cause i get to fly fuck again~ no, i'm not refering to dragonfly. i meant fly as in FLYING.






* PS: photos will be up soon when i get my lappy back. okay, some sneak preview. there's tomtom and the usual gang; lunar and JAYDEN! wee~