REGINA'S

the fact that i'm always living in my own world is really pissing off everyone around me. living in my own world here only happens when i'm tired-cum-sleepy. this means that when i'm out with my friends/bosses/colleagues, everyone is talking around while me, having a tiny world of mine revolving right in my mind. thinking of what? i have no idea seriously.

actually, i didn't pay much attention to this huge problem of mine. once, mellie told me that i'm always in a world of my own when ting and her were there bitching about life. till this very day, eventually, i realise this huge behavior of mine, is a mistake. it's pissing my guy off. it's irritating ade. it put michelle with loads of question marks. it gave a boss a chance to laugh. it's pissing my parents off.

well, it might be cute sometimes when i reply an answer that has totally no link to the question being asked. or popping out a question which has totally no relation to the topic my crowd is discussing/bitching/cursing/gossiping about. it's can be cute too when i give a wrong reaction to certain things.

you know, when i'm real tired and begining to move to into my own world, i hate people around to tell me nonsense and totally lame stuffs. it might be funny but it's totally stupid to tell me such stuffs when i'm half dead and you're there trying to make me laugh hard? it will only get me pissed off, vice versa.

so, i dislike meeting my guy when i did not have enough sleep the previous night. 'cause what he will be telling me turn deaf to me. the worse was if he thinks i'm mad at him and keep trying to tell me lame stuffs to make me smile, well, at times, he succeed. but i swear i hate it, the rest of the time. it's like i'm not listening and you are tring hard to make me happy? yes, it's so wrong to be like this. YES, I KNOW. i just can't help it. behaving like this is really making him go crazy. he thinks i didn't wanna talk to him. how could that be?

i can actually be in my own world when i'm on the line with my clients or agents.

what's here is, what i'm i actually thinking when i'm in my own world?

prolly these days, i have been thinking.......

...... of everlasting love. you know, when they said they wanted to get married, that's the moment when i see it with my eyes that true love actually exists. the question: "how to be with a person for so many years when seeing him everyday can actually get you turned off?" finally had a beautiful answer for me. NOW, this beliefs in me is being tarnish. i met her the other day, i tried to make her feel better, yet deep in me, crying for her. i could feel the pain in her. well, i actually cried for her or rather, them. what i have been through last year was really a painful experience for me, so, for hers, it's been 5 years, i think it could be double or triple of the pain i experienced.
...... how to be a girlfriend. not girlfriend actually, but a perfect one. i know i can't be a perfect one but at least close to perfect? i'm trying. can't you see i'm finally trying my best to be a girlfriend's of someone else? i really put in alot of effort in this la! wah lau! i have never been like this for life man. you know, i used to be the guy in the r/s yet now, i'm a girl in it. that's why, getting a 大男人 as your boyfriend is a good thing. they make you a girl.
...... why no more buyers? when never close? no more money! die die die. LKK gonna scold me if no sales. why are houses so expensive now?
...... school starts how to work? where sam go? i need to ask him about my timetable. if afternonn how? like that cannot earn alot leh! roooooaaaaaaaarrrrrrr!
..... of auntie susan cute actions. i'm super hyperactive when i see her in office everyday at 530pm! that's the time when the office get livelier. well, with me around it's already damn lively. don't you think so? the one pathetic week when i'm not in office, i bet uncle victor was so drop dead bored 'cause he got no one to bully. and my boss got no one to make him smile. michelle got no one to gossip to especially about DUA NEH. see, don't you get it? they need me.
..... sigh, it's saturday tomorrow, need to wake up early. IT'S WAR TIME. it's good to have saturdays. 'cause it means money. and it also means most of the time i will be in my own world.
..... michelle lim, the childhood days we had. i don't know why, but i have been missing her like everyday recently. i have not been talking to her for about 2 weeks and not meeting her for months!
..... why sg got no more nice clothings? i got the money you know, but why i don't see anything i like to buy? it's really pissing me off when i couldn't get anything everytime i'm out!

maybe there's more. like thinking of my cousins, my aunt, my grandma, my hamsters, him, her, they, it, we, so on and so on.

anyway, i have always been wanting to put a picture of him and me, BUT we doesn't seem to be taking or rather, he has been taking for me, just that we haven took together, yet. and so, i made up my mind which means i have a mindset of taking photos with him tomorrow IF he meets me. oh well, if he doesn't meet me tomorrow, he will be dead!