Sunday, July 11, 2010

She yells because she cares; she cries because she’s frustrated. She randomly smiles because she’s thinking of you, even if you’re already there. She scrunches her face because she’s about to explode, not because she’s constipated. She hits you because she wants to touch you. She stares at you because she’s infatuated. She calls every half hour because she misses you. She lectures you because she’s boss, not mom. She kisses you because she just wants to. She asks you questions because she’s curious, not to be annoying. She wants to know where you are to be with you. She calls just to hear your voice. She walks beside you to hold your hand. She sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. She stands in front of you because she wants a hug. Just face it boy; she’s in love with you.

Monday, May 10, 2010

The truth about girls; we act like we're cold so you'll hold us. Gossip isn't a sin, it's an art. The word "bitch" doesn't mean much to us. When we say we're fine, we're usually not. Most of us fall in love way too easily. We're never too old for sleepovers. All of us have a mean side, some of us just don't show it. We're confusing, and you'll never have us completely figured out. Most of us like attention. We all like to hear we're beautiful. No matter how many times we say we don't care, we usually do. We'll mess with your head. If we say that nothing's wrong, something usually is. And just when you think you have us figured out, something will change and you'll be all wrong.

Monday, April 26, 2010

"There's no doubt about it-breakups suck. But in the first few hours or days or weeks that follow, there's one important truth you need to recognize: Some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It's over for a reason, and deep down inside you probably know what that reason is.

At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved

Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.

Anyone who assesses you or your relationship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.

Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelevant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this relationship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.

A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.

The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven

"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me because I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.

Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.

Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a position to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.

He is the past. You are the future.

Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.

One of the sulkiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes relationships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.

Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.

As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE yourself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.

You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.

So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.

Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.

His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.

Every time you see him, you only make yourself vulnerable to further heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?

The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the relationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.

He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down

You weren't in the same relationship. That should answer ALL your questions.

You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting relationship that you've been looking for."

- It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No… don’t blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn’t sound very exciting, does it? But it is

Friday, April 16, 2010

Who's gonna read this? Cause i got a little secret in it. geehee.

I wanna blog! so so much. but i don't have the time. i wanna blog about everything that has been happening, all the funny, sad, angry, dramatic and those dead drunk stories. i really wanna blog, if only i have 36 hours a day. i wanna blog about how much the entire co hate jackpot eye. i wanna blog how much she pissed me off. but sad, this blog is opened to public and also jackpot eye is damn busy body about my life and she worship me, don't you forget about that. i wanna blog about how good work has been and how much i don't wanna leave that place. i wanna blog about my company's d&d, how the MC made me dig a hole to hide myself. i wanna blog about how the MC disgrace the indian how thought she won the lucky draw. i wanna blog about how drunk we were for 2 nights at shanghai dolly that i'm greatful that ho sold his handphone away to avoid anyone in future to ever look at the drunkard me. i wanna blog about how much i love eating mee goreng. i wanna blog about the treatment i went with 2nd sister and how i ended up going back to my old way - conning man's money. nevertheless, i'm greatful that twitter invented twitter to allow me update on my daily stuffs, which looked much alike i'm talking to myself most of the time, making me look so stupid in twitter because they don't search hotmail. so i can't find my friend. maybe i'm still a twit noob, but seriously, who cares? at least i update my twit when i feel like. but i'm thinking of something that i think noelle and queky would agree with me and the thing is: NOELLE CHUA SERIOUSLY FLOOD MY TWITTER EVERYDAY, ESPECIALLY IN THE MORNING. WAHAHAHA! and adeline is busy with her stupid dumb ass korean show that she doesn't reply to any of my twit. hmmm, maybe she's angry with me for ytd but she did 'like' my facebook status when i post about jackpot eye what. anyway, i know jackpot eye has always been following me invisibly on twiiter, i really see no point in locking the whole page. seriously for what? so what if she knows about my daily life and i bitch here and there about people i dislike? so what? if i lock it, what's the point to even have a twitter account? TWIITER IS FOR UPDATING OF YOUR STATUS TO LET PEOPLE SEE! hellya. so what now? this post is really getting outta hands and i have no idea what the hell am i talking about, just like the interview i did yesterday. i was literally taking with thinking. whatever it is, i hate that job, the pay is lowwwwww. oh shag, now, hotmail and google are having god knows what problem they are have now, i can't send any resume out! in the meantime, gossip girl is getting real bored after 3 seasons and jenny is getting bitchier which makes me wanna bitchslap her. but i love vampire diaries, climax to the max man! oh ya, ho and i spend money like water seriously because he got an increment. okay okay, better save from next month. the only thing i hate about ho is that he followed my real bad footsteps. the goods he don't even bother. for the holy 2 years, he has become a person who dislike eating at foodcourt or kopitiam! of everything he can learn from me, he purposely wanna learn this. the other day i was saying "we go foodcourt eat, have a fast one then go shop." when he reach the foodcourt he said, "go find restaurant eat lah!"steady pom pi pi man! and now, tell me you didn't read this because if you do, i gotta thank you for taking my nonsense for this few mins of your precious time. oh great! TGIF TGIF TGIF!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I don’t expect you to text me 24/7. I don’t expect you to call me everyday. I don’t expect you to put me in front of your boys. I don’t expect you to ditch all your girl best friends for me. I don’t expect you to surprise me with roses. I don’t expect you to buy me the world on my birthday. I don’t expect you to always agree with what I say. I don’t expect you to pay for everything. I don’t expect you to go out of your way and buy all the things that I mention I wanted. I don’t expect you to put me over your family. I don’t expect you to brag about me to all your friends. I don’t expect you to keep all your promises. I don’t expect you to believe I’m the best girlfriend in the whole world. I don’t expect you to stop checking out other girls. I don’t expect you to never mention a hot girl in front of me. I don’t expect you to already know what I want. I don’t expect you to never be mad at me. I just expect you to be trustworthy, to trust me, to never take me for granted like I won’t take you for granted, to always be real with me, to keep equality between us, and to love me. That’s all.

Monday, March 08, 2010

I hope i can blog. I want to blog so much. But facebook and twitter aren't allowing me to blog properly!
When I say, “I love you,” it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.

— Joss Whedon

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

the world is really very tiny. bi, wei quan and i decided to go bowling with jiejie. i was scared that wei quan might feel kinda weird with the whole bowling group 'cause he knows none of them. ended up, wei quan was jiejie gambling friend and his bro was jie's schoolmate. And, my friend and also jie's friend was ho's sir.

what a tiny mini world.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

boss: hello
me: helloooo
boss: xiao mei, you call me ah?
me: ya.
boss: what is it about?
me: who are you?
boss: melvin la!
me: ohhhhh. ..........

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Photobucket


3 more days to see my little miss hambuger. =)
insurance agt: this sheme is from maybank, standard charted and uob.
me: maybank? can't be trusted.
insurance agt: why? you know, maybank is one of top malaysia banks? and stand chart is from aus and of course, uob, for every 2 sporeans, 1 has uob.
me: maybank is inefficient and ineffective. stand chart is slow.
insurance agt: aiya, of course la. singapore one what.
me: -_____________-"
insuance agt: i tell you, this sheme if you save this amount you can get this amount back when you're 45 years old. can upgrade you rcar by then and can take the money to shop.
me: what if something happened? will i stil get my money back?
insurance agt: MAS has control of it. it will never let this fall.
me: oh really? but DBS's share is dropping.
insurance agt: aiya, you know DBS from where not? its so big, they won't let is fall. it will only affect you if you play shares.
me: -_________-"

these two agts thinking that i'm stupid or what? anything can happen. eg, the lehman brothers. they are really so so contradicting.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Karma.

We will end up killing each other.

will you be with someone whom you can built a future with or will you choose someone who can give you can future?

months back, a guy asked me to be with him. well, i have to make things clear here. i have no idea why he asked me to. i have never flirted with him or gave him any other intentions. he was someone who saw me grew. he told me that he could give me a future. he said i don't even have to go to work. he told me i can do whatever i like as long as i like it. he told me a will never have to worry about anything because we will have no worries about our future.

its nice to have someone telling me such stuff. giving me security and assurance.

but......

whatever it is, a feel second ago, i just patched things out with my cousin. hope we are good now. i saw couz J today and she showed me a video of little superstar sweeping the floor after getting scolded by her dad. real adorable.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

this year, its gonna be a bad bad year. everyone is seeing all the advantage of IR but none is looking at the other side of these 2 perfect pictured projects. how many thinks that IR will make sg market a better one? how many thinks IR can create more job opportunities? how many thinks that IR can helps in an increment? how many?

how you ever looked at the disadvantage side? it may helps sg to generate more revenue. because all the gamblers from genting and las vegas will be flying their ass here to try out the WOW-SG-FINALLY-HAS-A-CASINO view. BUT what if these rich gamblers bring along their guns, drugs and social escort? ain't the image of "low crime" country gonna be tranish.

i'm very angry about this because my bf is gonna work so so so many ot from then on!

okay, next, what if singaporeans don't mind paying 100 for the entry and many will staying in the casino like how they do in the turf club? fuck will those quit gambling advertisement. it doesn't help to leave an impact on any gamblers despite how many piggy banks you smash and how many little girls cry.

then, how many family will be tore apart? how many die because of money? how many being killed? how many being jailed? how many girls become materialistic? how many don't mind being social escorts?

like what i have blogged previously, i predicted that this 2010, there will be something happening which has the same impact left as what SARS did to us - came without warning. h1n1 isn't that of a huge impact as we have already experienced SARS. so, this year, what can happen? of course, i hope that this impact leave will be a positive one and not a bad one, though we all know that it gonna be damn bad.

i hate IR.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

i s-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y don't understand why people is going so gaga over 海派甜心. fuck yeah. gossip girl, vampires diaries can simply rule over them in no time. thoughout the whole drama, the leads are just partically shouting and fighting for the whole 13 episodes.

so, tell me now again, why is everyone so gaga over 海派甜心? its just another stupid taiwan drama.

and, friday is my birthday and i'm not even excited over it at all because bf had already surprised me with my present when i cam back from hk. right now, i'm waiting for my bosses to give me my presents. heh! i'm gonna kick their ass if they tell me that the photoshoot on friday is my present.

i'm looking more forward to my photoshoot than my birthday. i'm kinda scared if i looked damn unpro in it. i'm excited that flyers will be out soon and i will not be going cp and pp to eat anymore. actually, i'm kinda reluctant to use my photos for the flyers. no whys. worst if they wanna use it to put on the banner!

anyhow anyhow, they are using my photos because the male sellers are all itchy.

and and, i kinda miss hk very much. dream of there every night. i envy dandan man. can live his life like a slut over at hk for the rest of his months. might be going over to taiwan or bkk for another getaway trip again this year. OR MAYBE HK AGAIN THIS MAY!

and and and, i hate girls to wear short jeans skirt with the ultra black ankled leggings. i hate girls who wear dress that is long/short enough to not see their cb to wear the ultra black ankled leggings. why? because it is so ugly. if you telling me black sockings, it is still acceptable. ankled leggings? pleeeeease. hell no! no fashion sense at all. okay, if you have slim slim and long legs, i'll shut my mouth totally.

meanwhile, couz just uploaded little superstar photos agggggggain!!! HURRAYYYYYYYYYY! many of those are cute to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Photobucket

there are still new ones but i have always been wanting to post this. she looked like an ET here.


/i'm a happy girl this week and fb shows it all!

/i'm dying to go hk again! maybe bkk for replacement!!!!

Monday, January 25, 2010

To couples:

You're not gonna promise to each other that you will not disappoint one another because at some point you will. What is important is you don't go away, you don't escape, you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed.

That's the meaning of fidelity.
Photobucket


unable to resist. i'm dying for CNY now! i wanna see my superstar!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

frankly speaking, bf and i have no been talking for quite awhile since i-have-no-idea-which-day. i think after i came back from hk. what i meant by talking is a real talk. our weekdays procedure is, he fetch me home work, have our dinner, back home and sleep. basically, the both of us are too tired for any topic and most of the time, we were talking nonsense. another reason was that i have been very sick since i came back from hk which made me had a hell of life since 13 jan till date.

so, we went out today after work and i had my first meal for the past 4 days. while waiting for the food to be served, bf talked to me. as usual, i thought he will be telling me all his crap again hence i barely listen. as he went on, i was kinda surprised. his way of thinking has change and he even used the word 'fundamental' and 'discrete.' for his standard of english, i opened my eyes wide.

he changed. for the better. the 2 years plus of speaking english to him and all my effort did not go to the drain. heh. =D

Friday, January 22, 2010

Ten Things That A Girl Must Posess

These are the ten things that must be in every girl’s closet!

1) Plain white tank- great for layering or wearing under a jacket or vest. A loose fit is the most flattering. Also, sheer ones are nice because you can wear cute bandeaus underneath! Pockets are also always cute!

2) Classic bag- ladies, invest in a well made designer bag, the thing will last you a life time! I plan on keeping my Chanel 2.55 and Louis Vuitton Classic Monogram Speedy 30 forever! Other great classic bags are the Birkin Hermes bag (if you have the 9,000 for it tehe), Gucci Joy bag, and a Balenciaga City bag.

3) Plain black flats- you can wear these with EVERYTHING!

4) Black skinny pants- great to wear with heels, flats, and boots. Leggings are my faves! Forever 21 has the best ones for FIVE dollars! Also, Hudson Jeans make the best black jeans.

5) Black blazer- YOU NEED ONE. End of story:)

6) Pink nail polish- a flattering color on every one. Shorts Story is my signature color.

7) Fur Jacket- real or fake, these things come in and out of style as often as Heidi Montag gets plastic surgery; a lot!

8) Little black dress- choose a classic one like this. Just because a dress is short and black does not mean it’s an LBD. LBS’s are elegant, chic, and timeless. Think of my idol Miss Holly Golightly:)

9) Black tee- wear with jeans, a pair of heels, kick ass bag, and stunning necklace for the total effortless chic look.

10) Black sunglasses- aviators look good on almost everyone!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

4 Reasons We Judge Others

We are insecure. This is the main reason we judge. When we are insecure and/or unhappy with who we are, we try to put other people down. Though it doesn’t usually build us up when we put others down, we do it anyway. We want to feel good by making others feel bad.

We are scared. Often, when we’re scared or intimated by other people, we’ll put them down. Coworkers band together and make fun of their boss (see The Office). Two women see a prettier woman as a threat and they make fun of her outfit. When people are scared, they try to feel better by putting others down. We also may fear those who are different from us and may judge them just because they are unlike us.

We are lonely. As I mentioned before, there is a bonding element that goes along with judging others. When you are lonely, you might use judgments to bond with other people, but these bonds are based on negativity. The bonds you have based on judging others are superficial and are not likely to contain true substance.

We are seeking change. When we want our own lives to be different, we are quick to judge the lives of others. For example, if someone wants to be in a committed relationship and his friend gets engaged, he might whisper, “Oh, that girl is so not right for him. I don’t know why they’re getting married.” If we are jealous of others’ changing lives we are likely to make quick judgments.

BAD HABITS

Biting your nails
Picking nail polish
Sweating
Fidgeting
Procrastinating
Talking without thinking first
Doing things at the last possible moment
Slacking off
Not giving 100% in what you do
Swearing!!
Calling people bad names
Making fun of people behind their backs
Talking too loud
Not listening
Daydreaming
Smoking occasionally
Drinking
Doing other drugs
Falling for bad boys
Talking to strangers
Spitting
Spilling secrets
Gossiping
Telling people too much information
Lying
Faking sick
Watching stupid TV shows
Just doing stupid things
Acting like a moron
Ruining friendships/relationships
Being shallow
Interrupting
Falling asleep
Not doing what you’re supposed to
Watching too much TV/being on the computer too often
Not doing any chores/helping around the house
Sitting around in your pajama’s ALL day
Eating junk food too often
Not sharing
Fighting
Getting in the middle of things
Causing trouble
Breaking the law
Not studying for tests/exams
Becoming obsessed over things
Worrying about things
Stressing about your appearance
Wasting time
Staying up too late
Waking up too late
Just being late
Stealing/shoplifting
Trespassing
Telling off authority figures (teachers, parents, police)
Having too much sex
Having unprotected sex
Doing sexual things with people you barely know
Being a hypocrite
Cheating in general
Cheating in relationships
Having no life
Letting surveys take over your life!

the week before i left for hk , i was way toooooooooo busy. basically, i was partically doing 2 weeks of job in a week. this was how my table looked alike before i left for hk,

Photobucket

please ignore bejeweled. no matter how busy i am, i still have to relax a bit and do facebook. mind you, this picture was taken after i have cleared a part of it.

anyhow, hk wasn't that pleasing. didn't get much of cheap stuffs except stockings and some branded goods. the first day, we have partically walked the whole shopping place in HK. ShenZhen is good if it wasn't selling winter wear. =( but i bought bra as thought its FOC.

the most expensive meal i had in HK was with David. it costed nearly SGD 200 for dining at the peak. worst, we barely ate much. its a good experience though to dine at such places.

one thing that i love about HK, its freaking tax freeeeeeeeeeeeee and the weather is fantabulous!
I HATE THE PEOPLE. FUCKING R-U-D-E!

the saddest thing of all, i was sick on the 3rd day till date. fucking sexy voice.

Photobucket

till then,
xoxo

i need to sleep.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Friday, January 15, 2010

you know what, the best thing about this week wasn't my HK trip. it wasn't about the drop dead hell like shopping. it was about this:

Photobucket

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Dj kzee rocks shit. and till today, i'm still rocking over saturday's powerhouse! this saturday powerhouse again for dj kzeeeeeeeeeeee!