Sunday, July 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved
Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.
Anyone who assesses you or your relationship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.
Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelevant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this relationship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.
A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.
The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven
"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me because I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.
Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.
Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a position to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.
He is the past. You are the future.
Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.
One of the sulkiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes relationships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.
Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.
As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE yourself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.
You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.
So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.
Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.
His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.
Every time you see him, you only make yourself vulnerable to further heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?
The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the relationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.
He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down
You weren't in the same relationship. That should answer ALL your questions.
You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting relationship that you've been looking for."
- It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
Friday, April 16, 2010
Who's gonna read this? Cause i got a little secret in it. geehee.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Monday, March 08, 2010
— Joss Whedon
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
what a tiny mini world.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
me: maybank? can't be trusted.
insurance agt: why? you know, maybank is one of top malaysia banks? and stand chart is from aus and of course, uob, for every 2 sporeans, 1 has uob.
me: maybank is inefficient and ineffective. stand chart is slow.
insurance agt: aiya, of course la. singapore one what.
me: -_____________-"
insuance agt: i tell you, this sheme if you save this amount you can get this amount back when you're 45 years old. can upgrade you rcar by then and can take the money to shop.
me: what if something happened? will i stil get my money back?
insurance agt: MAS has control of it. it will never let this fall.
me: oh really? but DBS's share is dropping.
insurance agt: aiya, you know DBS from where not? its so big, they won't let is fall. it will only affect you if you play shares.
me: -_________-"
these two agts thinking that i'm stupid or what? anything can happen. eg, the lehman brothers. they are really so so contradicting.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
We will end up killing each other.
months back, a guy asked me to be with him. well, i have to make things clear here. i have no idea why he asked me to. i have never flirted with him or gave him any other intentions. he was someone who saw me grew. he told me that he could give me a future. he said i don't even have to go to work. he told me i can do whatever i like as long as i like it. he told me a will never have to worry about anything because we will have no worries about our future.
its nice to have someone telling me such stuff. giving me security and assurance.
but......
whatever it is, a feel second ago, i just patched things out with my cousin. hope we are good now. i saw couz J today and she showed me a video of little superstar sweeping the floor after getting scolded by her dad. real adorable.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
how you ever looked at the disadvantage side? it may helps sg to generate more revenue. because all the gamblers from genting and las vegas will be flying their ass here to try out the WOW-SG-FINALLY-HAS-A-CASINO view. BUT what if these rich gamblers bring along their guns, drugs and social escort? ain't the image of "low crime" country gonna be tranish.
i'm very angry about this because my bf is gonna work so so so many ot from then on!
okay, next, what if singaporeans don't mind paying 100 for the entry and many will staying in the casino like how they do in the turf club? fuck will those quit gambling advertisement. it doesn't help to leave an impact on any gamblers despite how many piggy banks you smash and how many little girls cry.
then, how many family will be tore apart? how many die because of money? how many being killed? how many being jailed? how many girls become materialistic? how many don't mind being social escorts?
like what i have blogged previously, i predicted that this 2010, there will be something happening which has the same impact left as what SARS did to us - came without warning. h1n1 isn't that of a huge impact as we have already experienced SARS. so, this year, what can happen? of course, i hope that this impact leave will be a positive one and not a bad one, though we all know that it gonna be damn bad.
i hate IR.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
so, tell me now again, why is everyone so gaga over 海派甜心? its just another stupid taiwan drama.
and, friday is my birthday and i'm not even excited over it at all because bf had already surprised me with my present when i cam back from hk. right now, i'm waiting for my bosses to give me my presents. heh! i'm gonna kick their ass if they tell me that the photoshoot on friday is my present.
i'm looking more forward to my photoshoot than my birthday. i'm kinda scared if i looked damn unpro in it. i'm excited that flyers will be out soon and i will not be going cp and pp to eat anymore. actually, i'm kinda reluctant to use my photos for the flyers. no whys. worst if they wanna use it to put on the banner!
anyhow anyhow, they are using my photos because the male sellers are all itchy.
and and, i kinda miss hk very much. dream of there every night. i envy dandan man. can live his life like a slut over at hk for the rest of his months. might be going over to taiwan or bkk for another getaway trip again this year. OR MAYBE HK AGAIN THIS MAY!
and and and, i hate girls to wear short jeans skirt with the ultra black ankled leggings. i hate girls who wear dress that is long/short enough to not see their cb to wear the ultra black ankled leggings. why? because it is so ugly. if you telling me black sockings, it is still acceptable. ankled leggings? pleeeeease. hell no! no fashion sense at all. okay, if you have slim slim and long legs, i'll shut my mouth totally.
meanwhile, couz just uploaded little superstar photos agggggggain!!! HURRAYYYYYYYYYY! many of those are cute to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
there are still new ones but i have always been wanting to post this. she looked like an ET here.
/i'm a happy girl this week and fb shows it all!
/i'm dying to go hk again! maybe bkk for replacement!!!!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
so, we went out today after work and i had my first meal for the past 4 days. while waiting for the food to be served, bf talked to me. as usual, i thought he will be telling me all his crap again hence i barely listen. as he went on, i was kinda surprised. his way of thinking has change and he even used the word 'fundamental' and 'discrete.' for his standard of english, i opened my eyes wide.
he changed. for the better. the 2 years plus of speaking english to him and all my effort did not go to the drain. heh. =D
Friday, January 22, 2010
Ten Things That A Girl Must Posess
1) Plain white tank- great for layering or wearing under a jacket or vest. A loose fit is the most flattering. Also, sheer ones are nice because you can wear cute bandeaus underneath! Pockets are also always cute!
2) Classic bag- ladies, invest in a well made designer bag, the thing will last you a life time! I plan on keeping my Chanel 2.55 and Louis Vuitton Classic Monogram Speedy 30 forever! Other great classic bags are the Birkin Hermes bag (if you have the 9,000 for it tehe), Gucci Joy bag, and a Balenciaga City bag.
3) Plain black flats- you can wear these with EVERYTHING!
4) Black skinny pants- great to wear with heels, flats, and boots. Leggings are my faves! Forever 21 has the best ones for FIVE dollars! Also, Hudson Jeans make the best black jeans.
5) Black blazer- YOU NEED ONE. End of story:)
6) Pink nail polish- a flattering color on every one. Shorts Story is my signature color.
7) Fur Jacket- real or fake, these things come in and out of style as often as Heidi Montag gets plastic surgery; a lot!
8) Little black dress- choose a classic one like this. Just because a dress is short and black does not mean it’s an LBD. LBS’s are elegant, chic, and timeless. Think of my idol Miss Holly Golightly:)
9) Black tee- wear with jeans, a pair of heels, kick ass bag, and stunning necklace for the total effortless chic look.
10) Black sunglasses- aviators look good on almost everyone!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
We are insecure. This is the main reason we judge. When we are insecure and/or unhappy with who we are, we try to put other people down. Though it doesn’t usually build us up when we put others down, we do it anyway. We want to feel good by making others feel bad.
We are scared. Often, when we’re scared or intimated by other people, we’ll put them down. Coworkers band together and make fun of their boss (see The Office). Two women see a prettier woman as a threat and they make fun of her outfit. When people are scared, they try to feel better by putting others down. We also may fear those who are different from us and may judge them just because they are unlike us.
We are lonely. As I mentioned before, there is a bonding element that goes along with judging others. When you are lonely, you might use judgments to bond with other people, but these bonds are based on negativity. The bonds you have based on judging others are superficial and are not likely to contain true substance.
We are seeking change. When we want our own lives to be different, we are quick to judge the lives of others. For example, if someone wants to be in a committed relationship and his friend gets engaged, he might whisper, “Oh, that girl is so not right for him. I don’t know why they’re getting married.” If we are jealous of others’ changing lives we are likely to make quick judgments.
BAD HABITS
Biting your nails
Picking nail polish
Sweating
Fidgeting
Procrastinating
Talking without thinking first
Doing things at the last possible moment
Slacking off
Not giving 100% in what you do
Swearing!!
Calling people bad names
Making fun of people behind their backs
Talking too loud
Not listening
Daydreaming
Smoking occasionally
Drinking
Doing other drugs
Falling for bad boys
Talking to strangers
Spitting
Spilling secrets
Gossiping
Telling people too much information
Lying
Faking sick
Watching stupid TV shows
Just doing stupid things
Acting like a moron
Ruining friendships/relationships
Being shallow
Interrupting
Falling asleep
Not doing what you’re supposed to
Watching too much TV/being on the computer too often
Not doing any chores/helping around the house
Sitting around in your pajama’s ALL day
Eating junk food too often
Not sharing
Fighting
Getting in the middle of things
Causing trouble
Breaking the law
Not studying for tests/exams
Becoming obsessed over things
Worrying about things
Stressing about your appearance
Wasting time
Staying up too late
Waking up too late
Just being late
Stealing/shoplifting
Trespassing
Telling off authority figures (teachers, parents, police)
Having too much sex
Having unprotected sex
Doing sexual things with people you barely know
Being a hypocrite
Cheating in general
Cheating in relationships
Having no life
Letting surveys take over your life!
please ignore bejeweled. no matter how busy i am, i still have to relax a bit and do facebook. mind you, this picture was taken after i have cleared a part of it.
anyhow, hk wasn't that pleasing. didn't get much of cheap stuffs except stockings and some branded goods. the first day, we have partically walked the whole shopping place in HK. ShenZhen is good if it wasn't selling winter wear. =( but i bought bra as thought its FOC.
the most expensive meal i had in HK was with David. it costed nearly SGD 200 for dining at the peak. worst, we barely ate much. its a good experience though to dine at such places.
one thing that i love about HK, its freaking tax freeeeeeeeeeeeee and the weather is fantabulous!
I HATE THE PEOPLE. FUCKING R-U-D-E!
the saddest thing of all, i was sick on the 3rd day till date. fucking sexy voice.