REGINA'S

i have to admit that as a girl, i'm very rough. i'm not those type who is those typical dumb girls. acting sweet and cute and stuffs. i'm rough and this is me. there are times which ho couldn't take it with the words i used. i behave like a guy in front of him openly.

like i said, if i'm in a relationship with someone, i wouldn't wanna be a fake. a fake is being a sweet girl. patient one. dumb one. AND THE VERY GOOD TEMPER AND ATTITUDE ONE. NO! not me. why have to pretend when eventually both will see the true colours of each other. wouldn't that be wasting of time.

on the first few dates i have with ho, i have already showed him the true side of me. in fact i'm very open and comfortable with him because to me, he is any other guy in the club who dates me out the next day after knowing me. which of all, i don't give a damn. i don't have to pay a single shit on a date. hence, since ho doesn't mind me being so rough and still insisting that he loves me, a took half a year to figure that since he still cling onto me despite me being the "18-19 year old" me, so why not i give it a try.

being with ho makes me realise how much i changed after meeting him. but sadly, it took me to realise that the 18-19 year old me was such a slut whom i don't even wanna think of it anymore. my life was never a good one to be frank. meeting ho was the best thing i can ever have in my life. when i was young, primary school sucked for me. then, secondary pretty sucked too. well, mdis was a fab one to be true. i meant school days. weekends i'm a different one. if i haven't been hitting the clubs every fri and sat, 18-19 year old would have make a great one with the cliques around me.

some people might see me as the "ah-lian" while some see the innocent part of me. it was when many people told me about myself, i realise that i have different faces. like a split personality. i can role play different roles. which scares me when i think about it. i don't know who am i now. among all the different personality i have, i still prefer the regina who is with ho.