should i say i'm happy or should i say i'm kinda sad? or maybe not sad. it's LOST?

left a note to prepare and my notes will be all done. and i can do all the memorizing stuffs. i should say exam will be a lil relax. cos PBM is almost alike the previous PBM. i mean the questions. apart from the relaxing stuffs, i still gotta put in efforts. i wanna get BB or if i'm real lucky, both As please. i must be motivated. today, enough of writing notes and going through those questions that i have learnt. tml, i'll get down to serious work.

pucked up all my courage to get back my 10bucks from that someone who owe me. thanks to my friends. we were on this topic of money and all the money comes in. people owing money and owing people money.



i felt helpless at times. yet, i have people to brighten me up and so on. i'm really glad and thankful. i have loads of things to express. but i just don't know how to use my words to express. i wish to be alone, but i don't. i wanna sleep but i afraid of nightmares. i wanna talk to someone, but i'm afraid i might be conquring their time. i wanna meet up with people but i just can't seem to find a right time. i wanna watch movies, but i have NO time. i wanna go on dates. i love dating but no one's dating me. everyone is busy and busy and SO DAMN busy. i want more time so that i can go on dates. lols. i just want someone to talk to me. that's all.

i did something worng. i'm glad i'm forgiven. but i still have not forgive myself.

PARTY WORLD! yeah! manage to get the LIM family to go K with us. so damn elated that they would tag along. 5 of us! kinda tired though. but i had lots of fun SINGING.

had two lessons today though i turned up for both, i was late for the first session and went off early of K the next session. it's kinda bad i know. not studying and going PARTY WORLD to sing. but if you were me, would you carry on listening to something that you have listened for almost 3 modules or would you save your time and go enjoy? OF COS, i know your answer will be..... ENJOY! hahas.

i guess gym's toilet is really my 3rd home. i actually slept in the GYM'S TOILET. mind you, it's a TOILET. the rest were playing around with their hair. making all sort of patterns out of their hairs. can't blame them, they have long hair while i do not. so, SLEEP. i lie flat on the toilet bench and nifer kept disturing me. however, she's very sweet. she knew i was feeling cold though i was wearing my jacket, she lent me hers to cover my body. SOOO SWEET OF HER! love her man!

oh yeah! MASTER'S birthday is coming. alright. master is norman. he is not in any category of gentleman! he owes me SAKAE SUSHI, 3 BEN & JERRY ICE and what's more? hmmm. i don't think there's any. and now, he wants me to call him master! how nice! so, i have planned. no matter what shit happens, he is going to get a handmade birthday card from me for his birthday! just a plain piece of paper and "happy birthday" writen with... erm... black ink? he's very evil too. he told ah girl jie jie that he might be celebrating in a chalet AND ah girl jie jie and i can't go. extremly sweet. WHY? it's becos one is fat and one is just 18(too young). cool man! if there's no chalet, he will be celebrating at...some place that clubbing takes place. AND I GET TO GO!! HE HE! first ever clubbing for me will be on 23 NOV 2006 or earlier a tiny lil bit. but hopefully, i'll get to go come club before going to N's birthday. =)


enough of happy stuffs. now, it's emo time. what the fuck!

i kept telling my friends that i have recovered! fully and totally healed. no more worries. BUT, i'm so not, yet! seemed like he really moved on with his life. but i'm still stucked! i know i no longer love him and he's been giving me loads and tons of nightmares, yet, i still feel this way. i thought i really moved on, but i'm still fucking stucked! the reason why i broke off with him isn't that i don't love him any longer. it's becos i need some time to breathe some fresh air. yet, he still pester me with this and that till i can't cope it. i gave him a chance. i told him i'll reconsider. i told him i have planned where to celebrate his birthday with him. isn't it a clue to him that he still stand some chance? WOLS sia. whatever. it's just that i couldn't take his pestering and stuffs, i made the decision. i tried to make the break-up a happy one instead it ended up like fucking shit cos he insulted me, do stupid stuffs. damn nice man! who to blame?

fuck it fuck it fuck it bitch! ARGH!!! i need somewhere to vent everything out. i need someone. but no one will understand. tried so hard to make myself laugh and smile. in the end, it's fuck! i don't know who to turn to, the one that i will often turn to, she is now fucking at canada! tell me what should i do now? damn it! tell me what fucking shit should i do now?!

why am i feeling this way?

after a year, i finally got all the pictures i took last year. those sec school pictures you see. so excited when i got to receive all the pictures. hehes. actually the most awaiting was those that i took with MR FOO. =)

i think i only change a little after secondary school days. a lil slimer on my face. look so cute when i used to have those extra fats on my face. LOL! but never mind. as long as i get to slim down, i'm contented.

indulge myself! this is what everyone should be! as long as one is happy with what he or she is doing, why should he or she stop? so what if i kept spending money? so what if i'm materialistic? so what so what. ask long i can pamper myself, why should i stop. i used to got stopped from going shopping and buying things. that's what i hated about. so what if i kept whining that i'm broke. so what if you don't have money to buy for me? i never asked you to buy. i was just whining. can't i whine? so what so what?

HELLO! i'm helping the economy doncha know. if we don't spend, you think you still can spend? though my econ lecturer starts late and end early, i still LOVE econ LOADS. it's interesting it's about spending, taxation, price and so on. just like shopping. LOL! i know i hardly listen to his lessons, I STILL LIKE ECONOMIC. the only that it's boring cos he kept giving the same examples; coffee and tea. at times, he would make some nuisance out of his examples. how nice.

another 4 months, there will only be Jamie, Nifer, KG and me left. those going army, will be gone for army. those stopping, will be working. sigh! only 4 months left. where got enough time to play?

aiya! i don't know what to blog about already. just bored. so, anyhow type something to pass my time!



yeah yeah! i'm darker already! SENTOSA SOON PLS!

HEY YO! the first thing i did when i reach home was definitely bathing. needless to say. next, lappy out, and it's MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE TIME! feeling high now. hehes. love them so so much. *very wide smile with loads of love in my eyes*

went out with bud bud. shared so much laughters and joys together. yes, i laughed till drunk again. love to go out with him so so much. so FUN FUN FUN! today bud bud sent me home. that means we had more time to update each other. and YES! took loads of stupid photos of ourselves. oh yeah! i played his PSP and made a fool of myself cos it was a car racing again and i was in the train "OH MY GOD! OH SHIT! OH NO!! NONONO! DAMN IT! FUCK MAN!" gosh! too engrossed into the game already. i don't know if the people was looking cos it's too exciting and i kept crashing. bud said i shouldn't take up driving cos i will increase the number car accidents in singapore. =) i love the dog joke that he told me. i was like laughing till i was about to sit flat on the floor? hehes. liffy said i'm HOT! hehes. change alot eversince secondary school but my crazyness STILL remains. LOLs.

i told liffy this:
ME: i like HOT PINK now!
LIFFY: *smiles*
ME: ask me how hot is it.
LIFFY: how hot?
ME: about 100 degree celsius?

cold sia. never mind. hahas. cos we laughed do much today. EVERYTHING! liffy said i'm more and more like adi already. what the hell man. told him that mr foo wants to meet us after his back from AUS. i asked him to spread the news excluding ching hoon. LOLs. cos i scared she snatch my FOO FOO away. anyway, mr foo is gonna be back soon and i only spread it to like 2 person? how nice! gees. THE LESSER PEOPLE, THE MERRIER IT WILL BE. cos i get to talk more to FOO FOO and i can take more pictures with him you see. and i can conqure him! what the fuck! another advantage will be that the lesser the people, the cheaper the bill will be and maybe FOO FOO might be paying for us? HAHAS. i'm not evil. i was just being kind helping mr foo not to waste too much money. =D

hopefully, my gang-adi, liffy, fidaus, raynu and me will be free someday so that we can hang out together. it's will be so great! cos memories will be back! love it so much during the school days. when i alone in class, the guys will accompany me to the toilet. lessons were never boring with them around! argh! i wanna MEET THEM, soon soON SOON! gonna check them out now!

another thing. i just remembered as i was listening to MCR. i haven't thank d for helping me. i always forgot about it! how could i?



and now, i'm addicted to HOT PINK and PINK! and i LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

when down to the company that roy introduced. argh! i'm so angry with the guy giving us the briefting!!! it's all d's fault la. give me see what msg. make me laughed. then the guy ask me why am i laughing and stuffs. asked me to share. what fuck man! but i ignore him la. cos the so called survery was actually a whole lot of papers that should be called interview. liew! they want ask to go house by house to interview people who use blah blah blah brand washing powder. totally LAME. waste my time telling us about nonsense? cool sia. then, i was so bored hence, i wrote on the paper "CAN WE LIKE JUST GO NOT?" to d. damn! the guy then asked d and i to be seperated. fuck man! argh! ended uo, we din take up the damn job. party i was pissed off with that bloody guy and also i don't wanna waste my time on this stupid company! STUPID FREAK!

yeah yeah! i have improved! i mean my skill for pool. doncha agree KG? thanks to ah girl jie jie and norman for teaching me how to aim. =D

anyway, i'm still very very angry with that guy! argh! i did something stupid too. i left the paper with the: CAN WE LIKE LEAVE NOT back to the company. damn!

economic's test was CHICKEN TOES today! BINGO! guess everyone will score extremly well.

went to PS for PIZZA. delicious definitely. paid about $5 per person and there was 4 of us - d, lynn, nifer and ME! it was early hence, we headed for the movie "DEATH NOTE." manage to psycho nifer to watch. hehes. while waiting for the movie, we went to carrefour for a long shopping there. though we only spend like 5 bucks there, we spend an hour or so in there. it's fun though cos nifer was there to entertain us. i love having nifer around me. brought jelly into the cinema and make a mess about it. but d manage to help nifer me with the jellies. sweet right?

alright! yeah yeah. the movie. it's FAIR though. cos the lead actor kept writing on that stupid notebook. write and write. it's in japaness. i was kinda bored in there cos it's in jap! I WANT ENGLISH! =D never mind about the movie, i do enjoy myself today!


oh ya! i gotta thank nifer and d for helping me to grab a whole lot of materials girls avdertisment paper!


OH YEAH! is it our, girls fault to have our period? must you guys despise us? huh huh huh? and making fun about over period? huh huh huh? LOLs.


i was thinking and thinking. your msges really made me crack my brain! it's gonna spilt soon if you still beat around the bushes!

conflicted.


at times, i tried asking myself: "hey! what if i'm not 18? what if i'm like 20 now, how will i live? will i still get to know the people around me? is 18 really still VERY young? do i really behave like a kid at times?"

sigh! if only i grab hold of it in the begining, everything wouldn't have ended up so contradicting. how obtuse can i get? the answers are right at my sight yet, i turn to look the other way. can't i just look straight for ONCE? argh! i'm angry with myself. i kept thinking. kept conflicting myself. when thing get over a long period of time, hardly there would be an easy U-TURN. once passed, it's passed. much work should be put in if one choose to make the u-turn. but who will be putting in such effort when you know no matter how hard, it will still be futile. will you still continue doing it when you know the truth of everything? i missed it once. now, do i still have to miss it AGAIN?

i was thinking. should i just put everything behind? cos someone will be there for me too. will it still be the same? will it still be the same feeling? the feeling of someone trying to protect you in the dark, standing up for you. the feeling when someone tried every effort to make you smile and laugh everyday. the feeling when you're so sick that there's someone there to care and take care of you. the times when someone acted like a clown for you. and of cos, that special feeling when you're with that someone. i miss those feelings.


if only i can read people's mind......

WOAH! it's another day at SENTOSA! envy me people. hahas. today we have roy and ce, jamie, d, kg and me! there's sand war session between the gang and ONLY me. sigh! they bluffed me that they wanna built sandcastle and so on. the fun me got so interested and you know what! they threw the sand at me! i hate sand! but i think they love me cos they get stuck in my ears! argh! well... i'm turning REDDISH-BLACK. know what i'm talking about? never mind if you don't. i'm tanned! LOLs.

how i wish there a way to use letters to make *2 heart shapes eyes* to show you how i felt when i saw this alike jesse mcCartney guy. maybe *watering mouth* ? hahas. so so damn HANDSOME! can't take my eyes off him man! =D

oh yeah! KG broght SUSHI from MARKETPLACE. nono. not paragon marketplace. it's vivo city's marketplace. the important thing is it still taste the same. =) mmmm... SALMON. my forever favourite. noT forgeting, davidson. HE BROUGHT HOMEMADE SANDWICHES FOR EVERYONE. sweet and cool for a guy to do such stuffs. kinda surprise. he's clever to do egg sandwiches. cos if no one's gonna eat, i can finish everything up cos i'm EGG QUEEN! anyway, it taste as good as sushi, the lemon biscults too. alright! everything taste good cos i'm HUNGRY can?

took only a few photos today. cos no camera. sigh! so, all the pictures were after bathing and tanning. manage to take photos with jamie, KG and d. first every photo! i mean a proper photo. SO, there will be updates of photos soon! coming very soon alright!



actually, i've been thinking alot recently. tried not to think much. it's just contradicting if i say i don't give a damn about it or i won't think about it any longer. it will affect me somehow. when i turned right. there! the scene.

ROY'S BIRTHDAY!!! shan't give you guys any details. it will be boring to you, but interesting to me. but never mind. as long i remember everything that happened each days; those happy moments, i'll be glad.

conclusion of the day: kids are really kids. talk without thinking. BUT they are harmless.

oh ya! i made a fool of myself during the majiong session. NEVER MIND. at least i made everyone laughed, including myself laughing at my silly acts.


i love the way you care, i love the way you protect.

you, i finally understand!

should i be elated or should i be sad?

ORCHARD again. i was fun though i just went there yesterday. went party world for k session till i almost loose my voice. i did something BAD. after k session i called norman and lied that ah girl jie jie left me alone at orchard to meet xin xiong and i can't even contact. i know i'm bad. but the mastermind was ah girl jie jie. she didn't want norman to work ot therefore, she asked me to lied. so, the issue turned up kinda serious. he kept calling ah girl jie jie and scold xin xiong for lying that he wasn't with ah girl jie jie(xin xiong wasn't with us). on the other hand, i kept msging him asking him to meet me cos i was alone and lonely plus i got no keys to go home. think he was kinda panic and stuffs cos he msged ah girl jie jie "CALL ME" a few times and kept miss calling her. lols. i felt kinda bad hence, asked ah girl jie jie to call norman. opps! he was kinda pissed off. but we manage to make him meet us at marina square. gees.

he moment he saw me, he stretched out his hand. i acted blur. headed to BK. he showed me his hand. WOAH! the injuries was kinda bad. i can see the bone stucking out. YUCKS! joked alot. he kept bullying ah girl jie jie. asked her to buy food for him. wad a GREAT gentleman. so, i stole lot of fries from him. went to play pool. yeah yeah! both of them taught me how to aim and stuffs. manage to cheat quite a few time. =D xin xiong came. oh man! he's a great joker. but i think xin xiong and norman cannot be together as they join forces to bully ah girl jie jie. nevertheless, i had a great day out though i felt kinda sick.

actually, i talked alot things ah girl jie jie today. almost everything but not that lil secret of mine. but at least, now, i feel better.




though i was just a simple gesture, i felt it. i love it when someone care for me.

having loads of thoughts in my mind. alot of what ifs.
what if i'm not her....
what if i'm not 18.....
what if you have told me....
what if these more....
what if they....
what if what if what if....

actually, i'm kinda happy you remembered the way to......

i'm so so gonna hate orchard! went orchard with JENA today and going orchard AGAIN tml with ah girl jie jie for k session and including SHOPPING. how nice! i'm only interested in the k session not the shopping. it's the first time i'm not interested in shopping for my whole life! anyway, JENA is another shopping queen. she beats me man! HA! went to pull and bear, a newly luanched outlet in sg. price kinda reasonable too. check it out man!


i'm sorry JENA. i was like msging the whole day? sorry babe. i was kinda happy that N called me and chat a lil tiny mini while before going back for OT. at least someone care for me. oh ya! for my whole life, i love the msges sent by N today. cos we were like playing around and acting and stuffs. hopefully, he will be meeting us tml so that i can go RIDING AGAIN! ta-dah!


actually, i felt kinda blessed with the people around me. one thing in similar, they CARE for me. gees.

i know, i really know ALREADY! actually, i knew it long ago. your actions talk it all.

gym gym gym!!! so motivated to go gym today. however, one should feel slimer after going gym but i feel i'm fatter! argh! so fat!



uploads for photos! gees. as promised.





SENTOSA! nifer, jamie, d, kg and me in da house!





VIVO CITY! my 2nd home. =D




have you spotted someone looking alike the cartoon "ONE PIECE"?





having craving for this? TCC.





this is my 3rd home. mdis gym toilet. i can skip lessons and slack in the toilet. cool. cos it go all the facilities in there. hair dryer, toilet paper, soaps, chairs and so on. =D





one got caught sleeping.....







ANOTHER, caught acting stupid.

guess what? i was dreamt about MR. foo last night. how sweet. hehes. sigh. i didn't get my sushi the other day cos he was busy. there goes my sushi. hence, to achieve something that i have been craving for months, i kept irritating him(pay back time) and asking he and said if tml he's not tired after work, I'LL GET TO GO SAKAE SUSHI. i'm mentally prepared for the worse. cos i know he would be tired and sleepy no matter how many hours he slept.

as for the pay back thingy, it's because i was stuck outside my house. NO ONE was at home on friday when i went home. norman called. i thought he might be my saviour to meet me for dinner. after much "sa jiao-ing",
N: where are you? i fetch you go meet your parents now.
so sweet right. BUT.....
ME: sigh! i'm wearing skirt leh.
N: OH! too bad. my friend come already. byebye!

you see you see. how evil can he get. argh! but i another saviour appeared. really made me felt better. as in not afraid that something might happen and stuffs. at least someone knows my whereabouts. =) THANKS SO MUCH, AGAIN.

oh yeah! talking about friday. we girls had loads of fun outta! gees! laughter at every single spot of bugis and orchard. yeah yeah! i did something stupid or rather ALOT of stupid stuffs. shan't tell ay further. =)

went to AX to look for all the crazy fella. miss them so damn much. all the memories came back the moment i stepped in AX. the times when there was yusoff, ting, boney, cong, haiqal, jen, jamie, sherman, wei liang, ting ting, freddy, johan, yen, lynn, raymond, lily and lily's bf. the morning routine of rushing to breaktalk or marketplace for our breakfast. the times went there wasn't a key to open the doors. the times when the clock present 9 or 930, i would rush to hang the "CLOSED" door sign on the door. the times when counting the tags after closing. the times when i have lunch with cong(nasi lemak). the times when haiqal apporach me to ask me help him serve the CHINESE. the times when times when ting behave so cutely. that time when there's is huge man and jen asked me to stand behind him to see if she can see me. the times when jen and i laugh till mad and sherman didn't scold us. no choice. sherman dote on us too much already. the times when i get scolded by yen cos he's having mood swings. the days when jamie hate me. =) the times when jamie and i got closer. the times when boney tell me about his gf. the time when i packet food to work. the times when cong face turned red. the time when brandon said i'm pretty. =D the times when taka yen came over to look for us. the times when johan point middle figure and scold "ccb, knn" while counting the money. the times when c,j,h,r and me slack in the pantry. the times when wei liang and fed came in and brought jamie closer to jen and me. the times when i received hong bao and x'mas present from sherman. the times when i grew fat cos of eating too much. especially chocolate and cookies cos it's the new year and x'mas period. the times when cong helped me to "suan" a customer. the times when we critisie the chi nas and their arm pit hairssss. the times when i forgot to take the sensor tag out. the times when i'm late. the times when i re-acted what the customer did to Jen in a funny manner. OH YA! the times when every part timer were addicted to answering the phone. LOLs. "good morning/afternoon/evening, armani exchange. may i help you?" but mostly it's IOT. no need so friendly actually. gees. the times when i bring the clothes for alteration. the times when haiqal do stupid stuffs with cong. the mornings when lily and yusoff started to sing. the morning when there was briefing. the days when the full time staff had appraise cos jen and i will be very kpo at that time. LOLs.

it's like a family. i felt belonged. hopefully, they won't transfer any of the full time staffs. if not, i gotta go so many places to look for them. like harbour front, taka and paragon. so, let them stay put.


yeah yeah! there's gonna be dophine in sentosa sea!!


i understand. i really understand.

the following will allow my fellow secondary girlmates to get jealous! WAHAHAHA

count me lucky to wish MR FOO good-bye! la la la! i happened to msg him in friendster and.....

ME: hope you haven forgot me. =) gees. how have you been? you changed a lot man. you hairstyle now is much much better then before. so cool. so, remain this way alright. hahas. i'm curious why have you stopped teaching. is it because we left and you no longer have fun? hahas. so, no longer teaching? change ur display picture please. it's been a year already. don't be lazy. oh ya! how u gotta know all those actor and actress in your picture? i miss those days when i'm having lessons with you. so fun.

hope to see ya around. keep in touch! =)


MR. FOO: Hi Regina,
How would I forgot a student that eat prata in durin my class..... ???
I have been really good since leaving school.... doing something i enjoy more now....... of course i treasure and love every minute in JYSS with my dear 5N1...... I left teaching for something I really like so no regrets for me though i do miss the times in JYSS on n off.....
Too lazy to alwaz change my display and I actually seldom log in to friendster nowadays unless I receive a new message or testi.....
Anywa, I am leaving for Australia for work for a month....
I am thinking of asking u guyz out for a lunch or dinner after I get back from Australia.... SO help me spread the news around....

Btw, which school are you in now???

Til then, Cheers.....


ME: i must be so lucky. just send and receive back on the same day! hehes. you're an actor now is it?? is there any other ways to contact you other then this stupid FRIENDSTER?
i'll spread the news as soon as possible. hehes. provided you must promise that you'll be asking us out. not empty promise.

hahas! can't wait to see you so that i can take a lot of photos with you again! hahas!


MR. FOO: Oh, so u r still awake....good...... but i actually i m turning in now, i m catching a flight tmr to Aussie to catch kangaroo.... hahhhaaa.....
I am not an actor, juz happen tat my job now require me to work with some actor and know a few of them........
U can reach me at my msn *****@hotmail.com but i wun be able to log in for a month bcoz i m not in town....

Good nite Regina....
Till i m back..... Cheers,


oh man! i won't be stupid to give out his e-mail. so, jeraldine, ching hoon and raynu, too bad. i can't wait to see MR. FOO. i wanna take photo with him!!!!

hey yo! i'm back in action again after a short lil break. really din have the time and feeling to blog. hehes. and now, my fingure is injured and KG kept asking me to update. how nice! LOLs. well, a quick update of what had happened these few days.


6th oct
GANDPA'S BIRTHDAY! the whole gang went to east coast long beach. wasn't that great for me as the haze irritated me so badly. i can't see clearly. it's either my lens is dirty or it's the problem of the haze. he younger generation wished my gandpa and his reply to "ah gong, sheng ri kuai le" was.... hmm.... if i'm not wrong, it's "gong xi fa cai!" cool man! whereas his repond to mine english "happy birthday" was a sweet smile. gees. i find that i'm grandpa's kinda cute at time, though he used to abuse me when i was younger. well, forget about it. that's the past and i love him alot now! =) order pepper crab and chillie crab and more. i just din have the mood to eat. got turned off straight when i was served right in front of me. no choice, has been like that recently. walked around east coast to and fro, the whole gang had fun though it's hazy that day.

8th oct
VIVO CITY!!! well, these nothing much there yet. BUT there's GUESS! FOREVER 21! TOPSHOP AND MY MY ARMANI EXCHANGE! i was so excited to see ARMANI EXCHANGE there. LOLs. which means, i might have the chance to work at ARMANI EXCHANGE after my diploma. HAHAHA! just can't wait! alright. ENOUGH. i felt it a hamster when i was in there, BIG, GRAINTIC! it's just sad the mdis gang didn't wanna go and take a look. sad for them. the view is cool man. but the food court isn't open yet therefore, lazy fella out there, you just gotta walk over to harbour front centre to eat. the whole place was crowded but my dad manage to find a place. no choice, kan choing spider you see. i made my way over to the noodle stall and the chasier was taking my order..... i said i want fishball noodle but he mumble some chinese language or maybe he wasn't mumbling. i just couldn't understand a single shit. panic, i turn around and look for my saviour. THERE! my mum! i shouted across to her and she came over, i told he "mummy, what is he saying, i don't understand." so, the man told my mother and i realised that he was saying that there's no more noodles. cool sia.

i realised that my chinese is going to be way below average soon. i can't really speak chinese. i mean, if i have spoken english for the day and someone out of a sudden begin a conversation with me in mandrian, god! i don't even know how to communicate with that person. i'm lucky because every morning, my first language will be mandrian. thanks to nifer.

9 oct
i sing, i sang and i sung and i bought the bag that i love at first sight. initally, it was 29.90. and after using my mouth..... $24! hehes. ask me along to bugis if you wanna have great discount. what the fuck! LOLs.

10 oct
i'm attracting MAD man! what the hell.
i did something bad. i just walk off my class with the gang during lesson. but it wasn't my fault. he's lesson was bored to death! argh! i hate him yet, i'm kinda guilty. fuck! but if a can replay it once more, i would still do the same thing. =D maybe he wasn't to blame? i don't know. cos i slept at 530am the day before hence, he's his lesson was boring and i was sleep. cool?

TODAY
sigh. my throat is sick. but all thank to strepsils. it maintained. gees. went to see jayden after school. so cute cute CUTE. took some photo of him but not with him. cos he doesn't know where to look. argh! there's a thing i'm happy about.... he din cry when he saw me!!! the girls did a lot of stuffs at nifer's place. making ourselves like a mad lady.


that's all i guess!!! i'm looking forward to have my sushi tml. yeah yeah yeah!!! hopefully i really get it tml. =)


JEN: wei hong got caught by police for smoking with his fucking friends!!! how nice! i don't really know much. it happened yesterday. ask your mum for more infor and please pass it to me! LOLs. cos i don't wanna call ah ma and ask. she'll get worry and stuffs, so, you know la. i don't want to stress her and stuffs. so, update me. thanks!

i'm sleep and tired. yet, i can't get myself to sleep. sigh. i slept for only 5 hours today. what the hell. it's saturday and i woke up so early.



went to check on a thing that someone told me to last week. sigh. what to say. what to comment. saw the sweet moment of them. seen the effort he made. the beautiful memories. oh man! just don't understand why i'm a lil affected by it. argh! perhaps, it's because of......



anyway, din really have much activities these days. BORING! only that my group when to TCC to slack around. alright, the bill came and it was kinda expensive. and blah blah blah.....



nothing much to blog about. i hope i was just thinking too much.

ALRIGHT! my mum has agreed to allow me go JB with my group. on condition, there must be many people going. hopefully many will be going. GEEs! i can't wait for that day to come! i wanna shop shop and do alot of SHOPPING! i wanna buy bags, shoes, bags, shoes, tee, tops, sexy lingerie(wth), smuggle in DVDs, eat, shop, eat, shop, take photos, jackets, chewing gums, bubbles gums, heels, bikini, eat, bag, dress, jackets, tops, bottoms, skirts, pants, shorts, heels, short shosts, DVDs, watches, slippers, bags and eat and shop and take photos and blubbles gums! see, i'm so excited. can you feel me eagerness too? maybe i would like to cut my hair too or maybe do facial. cos cong told me that the jean yip there is CHEAP! yeah yeah! i'm so so excited just by thinking about it. just like the first time i get to ride on norman's bike. excited till my whole body shivering. GOSH! i guess i wouldn't be able to sleep the day before. HAHAs! yeah yeah!!! SHOPPING! hopefully we are going city square. i love that place alot.

i understand what your behaviors and words are trying to express.
however, i don't understand what your behaviors and words are trying to express.


whatever, went playing pool during the 2hours break. anyway, on the way there, there's this drain that i covered with many extrem rusty, we(girls) were afraid that we might fall into the drain somehow, so, we held each other and took a big step forward. okay. it's not cool, it's cold. by the way, there's this boy, i kinda pity him cos he's a lil metally ill i guess. he keep looking at me and tried to move closes to me whenever it's mine turn. thanks to all my guy friends there. they protected me you see, HAHAS! i scared the boy suddenly touch my butt butt you see. gees. =) he said esmond was my brother. thank god man! i manage to hit this ball that was kinda difficult to get into the whole. d saw and he was shocked! hehes. anyway, i had fun playing today. but a lil uneasy. that's it!

finally got the pictures of the sentosa trip. i can't stop laughing when i saw niffer pictures!! she just so cute. so SO SO cute! i'll upload them when i'm very very free someday alright. well, d was clever to put almost all the songs that i like in my thumbdrive! cool man!

i'm so tired tired tired!!! i'm so sleepy sleepy sleepy!! monday i slept at 4 and my poor friend suffer with me. yesterday, at 1. and today, i'll try my best to sleep early. I WANNA SLEEP! just let me fall asleep early!

i found that there many peculiar people around me who don't really understand human languages. some doesn't make any sense. the most incredible was some speak and spell in some uncharacteristic manner. just surprised that they can really form new english words that are hardly or rather NEVER be found in the dictionary. gosh! what has the word come to? well, i'm suprised that at times, human can't understand human language. in singapore, we speak english, chinese, malay and direct. these are the 4 main concern. it's just rather amusing when one speak in any of this 4, the other party still doesn't get what the person is talking about when the WHOLE world understand! so, who's the one with problem now? when they don't get it, they sppout nonsense. hey! come on man, putting words in other's mouth.

i'm a very impatience lady. hence, when one doesn't understand what i meant, i'll get pissed off. and there goes my attitude problem. i found out that i'm having serious attitude problems these days. no pms-ing. emotional. i'm trying to cut down but everything just IRRITATE me! argh! fuck man!

i'm still feeling disgusted after what jamie told me this afternoon. it's the most SHOCKING secret of my whole life. *vomit!* yuck yuck YUCKS! i dispise you!

met liffy for a movie-JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. great movie. but they story is kinda predicted. you must be thinking why is it still a good movie then? simply, there jesse metcalfe, arielle kebbel, ashanti, sophia bush and brittany snow! alright alright, mostly it's becos of jesse. =) liffy make me really happy today. brings back the feeling of those secondary school days when we laugh it no one business. cool. been longing this feeling and it'd finally back today. liffy said i laugh like drunk. this is the feeling! woo~ just so fun! laugters just surronded us when i'm out with him. everything seems to be funny even at the slightest sight. how i wish adi, firdaus and raynu was there too. i'm sure i wouldn't wanna go home!

hey! think back peeps, do you miss your secondary school life? or do you miss your secondary school life with your friends? don't you think that it's stupid to miss your secondary school life ? you miss your teaching naggings? miss you DM calling you names out for detention? miss your principal peaching? miss your OM accusing you? miss getting caught for not wearing school's sock? miss having your cellphone confiscated? you don't right. you only miss the life with your friends! friends friends FRIENDS!!! oh yeah! if you do so, we are on the same boat then. let's be best friend. what the hell. anyway, i'm just a little loose in my screw today. LA LA LA~ come on! sing along!

norman asked if i want to have sushi as dinner today or tml. sigh! can't make it today as i'm wearing skirts, i know i can't sit his bike so i choose tml. sadly, he will be having soccer tml. when will be the next time man? i'm waiting till my neck touches the celling! LOLs. can't wait to meet ah girl jie jie for k session. SIGH! i miss her. it's like 2 days since i last saw her? what the fuck. =)

can i cry it out loud? can i?

i'm feeling sick but i'm not sick! what the hell. something is wrong with my head, stomach and my mind. what the hell. whatever it is, i just don't feel right now.

i miss ktv sessions. cos i hardly sang the other day becos of that bitch! i miss singing with desmond. cos i hardly get to see him. then, i also miss sentosa. cos i wanna get tan. i miss elmo. cos he say whoever bullies me, they will get it from elmo. i miss jen. cos grandpa's birthday is this friday and no one will accompany crap and bitch around. i miss norman. cos i wanna get all my treats. i miss ting. cos i can't see her on weekdays. i miss jordan. cos he promised to meet me but he lied.


hmmm... that's all i guess!

yesterday's party wasn't that bad at all. it was bad as in ah girl jie jie and i din really get to sing becos of a whore? she is just so so damn selfish. keep moving up her songs then what is the rest gonna sing? FUCK her! she's really overboard. ARGH! alright.... enough of her. cos i pissed her off. la la la. she thought that her voice is BEST and wanted to sing almost every songs. how sweet can she be?


desmond came to fetch me around 10. the way he drove; totally reckless! but we manage to get to meet ah girl jie jie on time. went lao ba sa to eat and went to party world. we were 1 hour late. which means the whore got about 1 hour more to sing then the 3 of us! at party world, they kept asking me to drink cos i'm the only who doesn't have to drive home. martel mixed with green tea and coke. i prefer the green tea one. they keep forcing me to drink with qing shui. cos they said he would only drink with me. wth. use me to make him drink. then i drink and drink till a lil headache. BUT i'm not drunk. LOLs. they extended another hour as requested by ah kun kor kor. and then! the whore still wanna sing! that when i pissed her off and ah girl girl and i kept laughing. lalala. yeah. i'm evil.


the happy thing about it was that i really enjoyed myself. and of cos, i manage to communicate with ah kun kor kor after so many years of my life. gees.



anyway, happy birthday!

when watching rob-b-hood with d, jamie and lynn. well, you guys should really go and catch it. it's funny, touching and cute. LOLs. as in the baby is cute and GU TIAN LE is handsome. how i wish i can marry him. wth. GO AND WATCH IT!!! IT'S REALLY A GOOD MOVIE. 4 stars!!



left after the movie, headed to bugis AGAIN. bought a belt and a pair of earings ONLY. sigh. there's not much clothings there! guess, i should do more of online shopping. there pros and cons about doing online shopping. it's troublesome but there clothings are like more unique cos you can hardly fine another person wearing the same us u. ah girl jie jie brought loads of stuffs yet she said she bought lil. around 10 plus norman came to look for us cos he was somewhere nearby. he cut his hair and ah girl jie jie insisted that his hairstyle look like her dog. LOLS. what the fuck. he was kinda sad after that yeah. next ah kun kor kor came to sent jie jie and me home. SIGH! norman doesn't wanna sent me home! thought i could have another fun ride. but never mind. there will always be next time.



still considering if i should go to ktv later. cos it's ah kun kor kor's bday yet i don't really know him well. for the whole of my 18 years of life. i'm still considering. but desmond will be coming to fetch me later. sigh!!!! should i or should i not?

mum told me a big secret today. moody. i was moody the whole day. now, i was something that affect me and WORST.

just look at that fucking mad man friendster's profile.
Who I Want to Meet:
The person who fcuked me upside down. Some cruel choices.... Norman Tan ?
Whoo I certainly loved you bastard.

i just don't understand!!!! i really fucking don't understand!!! why why why? i'm really breaking down. fuck him. does he really have to torture me in this way?

why must my mother break the news to me only today?

SENTOSA!!!! it was fun Fun FUN though there was only KG, d, jamie, niffer and me. the sun wasn't happy with my appearance therefore, NO sun. that was what d told me la. niffer had a fun time playing and looking for seaweeds. looks so funny when she drag the huge bundle of seaweeds out the sea. she's like dragging a big back out from the sea. cute man! then, we got bored and either d or KG started off by throwing sand at each other. i think it's KG. so, everyone get along the fun. d thought that wet sand might be more exciting and everyone tagged along. sand flies here and there making me breathing in sea water. how nice. FINALLY, clouds manage to more away from the sun and there was SUN! LOLs. tanning time! i forgot wad d did therefore i put some sand in his belly button saying there it can scrub off dirt from his button. then, i forgot what happened again, d and i started throwing sand at each other. all cover with sand and we had a hard time washing away the sand. jamie was trying hard to get herself tanned. cos she said she's kinda yellow.

after hours of enjoyment, i felt funny and rushed to the toilet. OH MY GOD! i'm so sorry guys. becos of me, we can't have more fun time there. SORRY! =) planned to go changi village to eat however, stomach growling, sentosa's kou fu would be a much suitable place.



some update of the mad man msges. sit back and relax. cos the funny part is coming....

"i won't hesitate to not tell your mum the way you have with norman when with me and not help you anymore if i hear that you change into a different person who doesn't know love."
"worse still, if you were to be with norman, i will make sure you and him won't be happy. i will tell people that you break me becos you like others"
"when i'm good to you, you take advantage of me and don't appreate. how on earth will a girl go out movie alone if only friend? talk longer on phone then with me?"
"you think i'm stupid? being toyed by you after giving you everything? i won't let you have the way you wan it to be after all these."
"you're turning my love into hatred now. you did wrong with your fucking distance with that idiot and you don't dare to admit. who is childish? you, not me. you don't dare to admit."
"ruin yourselves. go be a bitch and playgirl out there. i don't fucking love you anymore. you toyed my feelings and do don't know what shit with norman."
"oh ya. prepare a few hundreds with you to return me. i just realised how stupid was i to spend on you. we will meet soon."
"do you think you have all the rights to tell me all these when you are the one who changed? sorry but i don't really entertain people who son't know what's love."
"especially those eho get close with guys when they have a bf."


all the above was sent by the mad man to me around 6+ in the MORNING! so kind and considerate right?

at night.....

"eversince the day you left me, i felt your change. i've nothint to lose anymore, no more ters drop, no more breathe to wait. the most is those memories that kills me."
"i doubt you hold those memories anymore. but i don't care any longer. though i can't bear you, but this msg is to tell you i won't long for you anymore."
"wish you a happy life with whoever hand you hold. know your limit and don't give in too much. make sure you find someone who can stand you talking to guys behind his back."
"for the next few decades, i know you won't be spending with me, so, happy birthday wishes in advance. hundreds of goodnights and take cares. love, hawy.


alright viewers, i won't leave me comment about this. it's up to you to think how stupid and contradicting it is. opps, i just made some comments.

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

You Are Dublin Mudslide Ice Cream

You won't remember any of this in the morning

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

if norman get to see this, i'll get it!

Your Personality Profile

You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart.Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people.You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile. You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker.You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side.Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

You Are 61% Vain

You're a little vain, but you also work hard for your good looks.Just remember, everyone knows you are a total hottie. You don't have to remind them.

How Vain Are You?

You Are 34% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you!You're all about overreacting and just plain acting.You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance. And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times...Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little.(But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

he sent me this yesterday:
"so, you got a fucking bf. how nice."
"i won't let you treat me like this and be with other guys. i'll make you suffer."


what is that for man?! it's already a month and i'm still being pestered for this shit? HEY! it's a fucking month man! PLEASE. i don't know where the hell he got the VERY RELIABLE information that i'm having a boyfriend. must be some idiots out there. damnit. i hate it when people accuse me for nothing. why doesn't he understand???!!! can someone please tell me what's wrong with this mad man? what the hell is he thinking. can't he get let me off? it's harrassment! and i totally resent him. few days ago, i thought of msging him as a concern. god bless. i didn't make the wise choice of mine. i'm really very happy with the life i'm having now! so, can you please just leave me alone and just shoo aside. please, i wanna live my own happy, optimistic, carefree life. i don't want the life where by i saw my auntie at orchard, yet, i can't go up to her and say "HI." i don't want the life when i can't chat with my friends for long when i'm out. i don't want the life when i'm not given in. i don't want the life that is melancholy. i don't wanna get depressed again! i don't want the life when i can't even have the rights to go out with my friends!!! I DON'T WANT! get it! get a life man, you IDIOT! be a gentleman and not a coward! screw you!

Artist: Vitamin C

Song: Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love

But it came too soon

And there was me and you

And we got real blue

Stay at home talking on the telephone

We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared

Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

As we go on

We remember

All the times we

Had together

And as our lives change

Come whatever

We will still be

Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs

And we make the big money

When we look back now

Will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Jimmy be the stockbroker man?

Can Krystal find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels

We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

alright. i had a bad day yesterday. almost died in an accident. blame me for listening to song while crossing the road. next, bird pee on my hand. how kind. then, i forgot to bring my calculator, therefore, went back home again. finally, the accounting paper was BAD. SO BAD. that's it!

just look at our expression and you'll know how good it TASTE! hahas. davidson said something which is kinda 'touching.' "we are a year classmates but a lifetime friends" SWEET isn't it? lols. after dinner, the royce, d, yan ping and jen came to my place. we played cards and i lost. sigh. winner: YANG PING + ROY. LOSER: i think it's DAVIDSON. lols. just so fun. i realised that davidson is kinda sweet and caring. just so fun hanging out the group. love you guys!





TO MY FRIENDS, I HEREBY BECLARE THAT I'M VERY FREE FOR A WEEK! BOOK ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE BEFORE I'M TAKEN. gees.

when everyone is studying....



















they are eating!









when guys are out of LOVE.

when out to study accounting with KG, D, JL, YP and JEN at shaw house. well, some photos will be upload later. studied for like 2 hours and SHOPPING, i was the only shopping actually. so, they wanted to watch movie and walk but back to shaw house. ended up, no moive. so, we were spending sometime playing some stupid game, ended up, POOLS. taught JEN how to play and she isn't that bad for a beginner!

AH GUAN said i'm sexy! LOLS.

norman came to look for me. unbelievable.

the mountain butter!

New york New york! city link!

yankee giant burger!!















yummy chicken WINGs...

i don't think so.....

funny no. 1 aka RU HUA

my WHOLE group. including yan ping and roy who are not in this pic.

got to know that SOMEONE was just trying to spoil my relationship with ADE. how kind can that person be? faking all sorts of nonsenses and stories that made me curse my besties? fuck you! but i can be very sure that YOU will be very disappointed. ADE AND I GOT BACK TOGETHER AND EVEN BETTER! try harder next time alright. trying faking stories again? telling everyone how good you are that ADE defended you? dream on u idiot! what battle? get the fucking fact right now! no one is on a battle with you. in fact, you are thinking just so far. people bad-mouthed about you, you go to their blog and spout nonsense like "you took away my everything. you took away my confident. you drain it away from me." hey guys! if i took away her confident, why is she still wearing funny clothings? contradicting isn't it? for the sentence that i took away everything, it's totally stupid for real! GET A FUCKING LIFE MAN!

in the fucking first place, ADE AND I din say you can't bad-mouth about us. you have all the rights to do such stuff. however you chose not to, fool. but you are just kinda stupid to complain and ONLY scold us bitch? anyway, the law didn't say we can't bad-mouth about someone. one thing, you are very smart to bring your BELOVED boyfriend into this HU-HA that cause him to be a fool in everyone's eyes. the way he msged, god! it must be a joke of the day! you are just so brilliant to allow him to cheer up everyone up!

happy now? everyone is hating you. isn't it just so cool. another thing, improve your english please. read the dictionary just in case you make a big HU-HA again for things that are stated SO fucking clear. check what's 'cynic' before you make yourself and others a fool.

i wanna share this with you guys!

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care


I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you


I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song


Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you


I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind


Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

started muggling. hopefully i score this time. but i'm afraid it's kind difficult now. just pray hard that i can memorize all the 7 chapters by this sunday or maybe saturday. kinda feel like going shopping yet, i know it's isn't the right time now. all i have to do i wait till next friday. just wish to be happy all day without and further thoughts. going to study later. at least a topic memorise.

every night, he still send me msgs that really irritate me with his untrue facts. he's been focusing on D and N. i don't know where the fuck is the problem now. whatever it is, i hope this just won't affect my studies.

i was kinda shock when N msged me this "....... don't put words in my mouth....say sorry." pretty scared. cos he din end the msg with HAHA or LOL. kinda like mood swing all of a sudden. it's my fault too. cos i din read the msg properly. so, i replied in an apologetic or rather pitty manner. then, he said "haha...why said until so sad...................u'r cute gal wat come on cute girl cheer up!" peace! another man called me cute girl! woooo! lame. whatever. so, people out there, if you wanna cheer me up, CALL ME CUTE GIRL okay? haha! cos it sounded like i'm young!

this is what i telling myself.
alright now, regina, all you have to do is to study hard. get everything memorise and you can have your buffet and ice cream treat.

guess this will motivate me to study. however, i'm afraid that this will just be another empty promise. NONO. N din give me any empty promises. i was just refering to the past'S'. there an 'S' because i don't know why those fucking guys out there just wanna give me empty promise to make me get elated for nothing!!! fuck shit! perhaps, my retribution? i don't know. i just hate those nincompoop out there!

ANYONE KNOW ANY NICE CAFE THAT HAS REALLY DELICIOUS ICE-CREAM? ben & jelly or some other cafe? let me know k.

mixed feelings now. been really bad these days. felt so lonely yet i wasn't alone. everyone is there for me but the feeling is different. when i'm out, i can play till i get mad. while i'm home, it's so different. so much things to think about, so much to worry and so many thought.

talked to ah girl jie jie this morning. talked about desmond. i just don't want them to break up. THAT'S IT!

he appeared down my blk. i was shocked and scared when i saw him. legs were shivering. but i manage to "run" away. he explained his talk with N. the stuffs he had was like so few yet what N told me was like so long? or perhaps, it's becos N spent time to explain? i don't know. but there are certain things that he did not tell me yet N told me. it's not the time to guess who is lying and so on. i trust both. however, N more. cos i'm very sure he won't do any harm to me. as for HIM, i guess, he's hiding something. fuck! he left some photos and a notebook. i would rather he didn't give me all those stuffs. i'm not going to soften my heart. however, it's like another burden to me which i can't share with anyone. i don't know how to explain.

been having BAD these days. but N always lighten me up and bring me to sleep soundly with laughters and smiles. that really helps me alot. it helps me to stop thinking of stuffs that i don't wish to think about. yet, N is asleep i guess. lonely night today. no laughters, no smiles. only a tring face with troubles whirling around my mind. sigh.

did you guys watched LIFE STORY? touching isn't it? the bravery, the love, the strong, cool aren't they? especially today's. kinda touching. one thing: why must the japanese have to do such stuffs?



you can find it in your heart but not soul. yes, it's in your head but not mind. if you look hard, it's right in the middle of the sea. ANYONE OUT THERE KNOW THE ANSWER TO THIS MAKE-ME-CAN'T-STUDY QUESTION?!!!

birthday parties are always the best. 'cos i brings everyone together. really love this feeling a lot. had a lot of fun at the gathering. talked a lil tiny mini bit to ah girl jie jie. i know it's stupid for a 18-year-old girl to call someone 'ah girl jie jie' but i'm so used to it that i can't change. i can't open my mouth by calling her 'ADELINE'. i think it's stupid too. desmond was kinda sad that the party. really quietly this time. din chat much with my mum and my aunties. all he does was play x-box and sat beside her quietly. played with him awhile and chatted with him. he sounded sad. it's not my imagination. i really can feel it. he asked me the reason why i broke off him the ghost and i told him. then, he said "you so cute, why he scold you?" LOLs. i'm cute! desmond is really a good man. but i don't know why she wanna break-up. it's like slipping away sucha good, sweet man! where on earth can you find sucha nice man?! I DON'T WANT THEM TO BREAK-UP!!! ? hopefully, they can be together always then, i can go out with desmond. LOL. sigh. i just don't want them to break up. I HATE IT! pls, let them get marry if possible.

marry? yes, christina said she's getting married end of this year. i don't know if i should be happy or not. her relationship doesn't last long and now she's planning to get married? kinda patronizing isn't it? i'm happy that she had planned to settle down and i'm going to have a niece or nephew and i wanna be the bride's maid. =) but i feel that i should think that far. if not, i'll ended up being happy for nothing. however, i think she can find a better guy, in terms of looks. hopefully, she doesn't play this man.

was having the usual fun in school today. took a cab to school and the auntie kept going to small road that caused me to ALMOST vomit. had headache the whole lesson. my lesson started at 1 but i reach at 2.05. it then ended that 3.15. i was eating throughout the whole lesson. i did study a lil. highlighted some notes and royce was there singing some stupid song, so, i complained to the lecturer that royce was too noisy(i was playing) then, the lecturer advised me to use my slipper to thrown him. the moment i stepped into class, royce asked me to sit beside him. it's funny. LC was there and he still ask me to go out with him and so on. his relationship with LC is kinda weird. forget about it. all i did in class was acting crazy. i really love this class alot. anyway, all i did was talking, eating, toileting and bullying. and of cos, laughing at the indian man butt. lols. my group was like laughing at his hairy butt. it's like we can see his whole butt. he din wear underwear! gosh! the guys in my group are my rubbish bins. whenever i can't finish my food, i force them to eat. hehe! evil har. i guess we'll have a new member in our group. i think her name is angeline? then there will be 11 of us. excluding that pervert, 10.


if i get to fall again, i swear i will bring someone along!

he called norman!!! i really can't believed it!! i think i should give him d, KG, royce and other classmates numbers too. but i guess d and KG will do what norman had done. it's like he is really going overboard. i can't imagine that he will do such stuffs. wanna patch? get lost! wanna be friends? i don't think so. REALLY GONE TOO FAR. norman has to work and you kept calling him?

i upset that i got norman involved. cos he really has nothing to do with this. i really don't wish to end my friendship with norman becos of HIM. i'm really sick and tired of all the shit he had done! really, stop it. FACE IT!



ting: i never always go out with him. only once. we'll try to meet up next week kks? i'm missing you! really. please believe me!! =D



i'm learning to stop calling people stupid.

thanks to him. my mum starts picking on me and questioning me stuffs about norman. i don't what the ghost had told my sister and what my sister told my mum. THERE IS FUCKING NOTHING BETWEEN US, SO, STOP YOUR FUCKING NONSENSE!! understand?!! why must it always be norman and not some other guys? stop it pls! no more any nonsense from you all about norman!

wasn't happy the whole day. was kinda down. cos something something. and more things that made me feel so. was really tired and slept during the break. i was waiting and waiting. and the whole group came back to me! initially, i wanted to go home after school, was really tried and sleepy but KG and D sort of "sa jiao" to us, so we go. when to new yoke new yoke to have food to munch. order a huge buger and 3 side orders. we ate and ate, and i wanna puke. haven been eating the whole day. for this whole week, i have been eating like a meal and it's just only a few mouth? thanks to him for stressing me and now! my weight has gone all the way down from 48 to 46! a lil more to my ideal weight, 45!! but KG and D kept saying that i'm very fat and KG SAID THAT I ACT CUTE. who cares! we disturb the waiter. FUN FUN FUN!

i guess that whole group can see the irritated and tired from my face. yeah, the WHOLE GROUP! so, halfway through the meal, D said let's help regina. so they came out with alot of ideas to help me, i really helps, but i don't think i'm going to do that cos i'm scared. so, they suggested that why not the whole group go and look for him. well, really thanks alot guys; everyone. KG was like rehearsing what he should do when they saw and ghost and stuffs. they really suggested loads of funny stuffs. really funny. never regret going to new yoke new yoke with them!! bling bling!


i'm waiting for my sentosa! i know the group agreed to go after the exam cos they can see the desperate on my face! i love going out with them! love you guy lots! big fat kiss to you guys!!!

i don't know where to start and how to start. i was having a good mood in the morning. so much fun talking with jennifer in the MRT. then i thought about what he asked me ytd:

"you got out with norman got any physical contact? you all got kiss?"

i was kinda pissed off to her that. it's like whatever i did or where i go is totally no of your business. after much complain to norman, i felt much better. THEN, the phone started ringing already. this time i wasn't annoyed, angry or irritated. i was scared. so scared. i felt my whole body shivering and whenever the phone started to vibrate, i jump up. i was shivering with fear. friends' advise do help, however, i was still afraid. i asked people to accompany me home, in case the GHOST was under my block waiting for me, they agreed but i don't think i should bother my friends.

i took 83 home. was complaining the whole day. still afraid while i was alone walking home. i when to the 2nd story to talk the lift. i thought i was kinda clever. however, when i reached home, a voice from my back was calling me, i turned, and slammed the gate straight. ran into my room and shut the door. again, shivering with fear. thanks to him, my did scolded me. he asked me to clear this mess as soon as possible. he was kinda pissed. i shouted back at my dad saying that i have tried all my ways to solve this thing but that fella still doesn't knows. i complained on and on. asking for helps and advise. norman told me to go down and talk it out. i gave him a straight NO WAY! i don't know how to get rid of this thing. someone??? save me!!!


i think norman had enough of my whinnings, so, i try not to get him affected anymore. i'll try to solve this thing as soon as possible by myself though i don't know how. but i'm sure my friends will be there for me.

pls stop your nonsense. i'm getting to hate you!

had really another fun day out though the weather was kinda warm. norman was late, as usual. nevertheless, it was just so fun. i was kinda down after what had happened in the movie, i wasn't even paying much attention to the movie. was so affected by that bloody msg. he just won't left me off. oh fuck! forget about it. why get affected by him when i had sucha fun day out!

initially, we planned to go punggol jetty again cos i really like the road towards the jetty. cold and eerie like i said. but he's kinda tired so, some other day then.

really had to thank him for accompanying these days. really made me feel happy and no so depress. thanks so much!!!!!

i can't wait to go out tml!! hopefully it won't rain. ytd's motor riding was just so fun. my legs were like jelly till i fall on the ground. thank god! but it's still i love it. trying to cope with the windy wind now. it makes my legs shiver like hell. just so cool! hopefully, norman allows me to use his helmat. cos the other one was like so loose till it really wanna fly away. i'm praying very hard now that it won't rain tml. the feeling is really fun and really helps to relax so much. ytd i was kinda upset and angry but the ride really made me so happy. went small road back to hougang cos i told him i don't wanna go home early. we went hougang cos i forced him to eat. still, after eating, i din wanna go home yet, so we went punggol jetty. the road to there was so errie and cold. FUN!

RIDE, RIDING!!! i love riding. my first ever riding. thanks norman for ending my day with sucha nice moment. really. it's really so cool. when around with his bike. COOL COOL COOL!!! FUN FUN FUN!! I LOVE IT ALOT and I WANT MORE OF THEM! please....